#EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021

Nature Time is Self Care Time

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Today’s meditation was skipped again today. I need to figure out a way to get my ass back into the habit again instead of just thinking about it in the evenings as a “damn, I didn’t do it again”.

Gothic Tarot of Vampires and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Queen of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, hearth, manifestations, and the physical world. The energy of this card is down to earth, and that of a nurturer.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, what I see here is a call for me to get out into nature, to take in that healing balm that being among the moss and trees and rich damp earth provides me with.

Today is, unfortunately, not a day I’m going to be able to fulfill this need.  I can’t go out into nature, but the seed is planted and I will be going in the next couple of days.  I know that I need it.

DECK USED:  GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do the the Thinning Veil Tarot Spread

Cruel Thing TarotWhat spirits have come to visit and walk with me while the veil is thin?

The Empress – Those spirits that have come to visit and walk with you this year while the veil is thin are those spirit guides and ancestors that only want what is best for you. No hidden agendas, just nurturing and strength.

How are these spirits assisting in keeping me safe?

Two of Pentacles – They are helping you in finding balance in your life. When there is no balance, things start to careen out of control and feel too heavy. You become overwhelmed and struggle unnecessarily. Their guidance helps you keep things in balance at times when you need that extra assistance.

What should I offer to these spirits that are watching over me?

Knight of Wands – More eagerness to connect, and more focus on following through on the advice that they give. Too many times they have to beat you over the head with their advice, repeating it over and over again.

What cycle from the past do my Ancestors hope that I will break?

Six of Cups – Allowing the echoes of your past to dictate your present is a cycle that your Ancestors hope you will break. You aren’t the first in your lineage to struggle with this issue. Due to the fact that you have no offspring, and that neither you or your sister can produce any, this is not something that’s going to carry on into the next generation, but it is something they want you to overcome.

What do I know deep within my bones.

Ten of Swords – Everything is temporary. All things come to an end. Nothing last forever, and sometimes that end is painful, but can also filled with a bittersweet pleasure of relief.

What do the Spirits and Ancestors need for me to learn?

Five of Coins – Your spirits and ancestors need for you to learn how to overcome the scarcity issues that influence and control so much of your life. This fear rules over too much.

A message for me from the Spirits and Ancestors.

Queen of Cups – Do what you need to do to make sure that you’re taking the time to be kind to yourself and stay grounded. Do the things you need to do to nurture yourself, even when things feel otherwise out of control. These actions help you to stay in control of what is before you, creating a sense of stability within the surrounding chaos.

Side Note: Over the past week I’ve been struggling really hard, dealing with a huge amount of upset in my mental health.  I understand that a portion of this is because of the approach of the holiday rush, but after having a similar experience last year, I wonder if a part of this is also because over the past two years I have been working on opening myself up to my mediumship abilities, and that the thinning of the veil when it approaches its thinnest point is causing an enhanced amount of restlessness and disruption as a result.  I’m writing this side note on November 2nd, and I’m noting that as the veil now begins to thicken once more, I’m starting to feel better.  The timing is the same as last year.

DECK USED: CRUEL THING TAROT

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 30th and 31st

Shadowmyth Preservation Story Cards and Gothic Tarot of VampiresWhat’s too dark in my life?
Queen of Wands atop The Star, Nuclear Fallout

If you push too hard with your ambition, it’s snuffs out the light, creeping into degrade your hope, and close off your connection to the world around you.

What is the waning crescent moon’s wisdom for me today?
Nine of Coins atop The Sun, Pour It Out

In order for there to be room for the good stuff, you have to let go of the bad stuff. Just as when you stir good intentions into your tea, you first have to stare out negativity to make a room, or when your body releases waste and uses that process to expel toxins from the body so that you can then fill it up with more healthy fuel again. Make room for more good in your life.

DECK USED: SHADOWMYTHS PRESERVATION STORY DECK AND GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES

Daily Self Kindness

I’m trying my best not to beat myself up after having an unexpected nap earlier when what I really need is some Gideon time.

The Magic Within

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Today’s meditation was skipped again.  I keep telling myself that I’m going to get back on track… and yet? I still am skipping this.  Tomorrow is another day, yes?  Another try at doing better.  I do feel better today, though.

Tarot V and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally a representation of hope, spiritual guidance, renewal, and the inter-connectivity of ourselves to the world around us and spiritual plane.

Today’s message reminds me of the saying “To the world you may be just one person, but one person, you may be the world.” Sometimes you are the Star in another persons life. You are their hope, their connection, their guiding light.

And you may not even realize it. It could be a coworker you’ve never spoken to, an employer, a friend, the barista at the coffee shop. To these people, you just being there lights up their lives, inspires them, or makes things better in some way that may seem small but makes a huge difference.

Don’t forget the magic you hold within you. Don’t forget how cherished you are by the world around you. You make a difference, whether you realize it or not.

DECK USED:  TAROT V AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for October 30th: The last harvest is upon us. What needs to be discarded from my life?

Le Fantastique Tarot Hallucine du Dr ZarielReading Summary: Traditional (Le Pape) comforts and expectations (Ten of Diamonds) abandoned for what you really desire to push for and conquer (King of Clubs).

Take Away: This isn’t so much about giving up on the desire for stability and comfort, so much as setting thoughts of it on the back burner so that you can fully focus on the moment and what needs to be done now.

By allowing that focus to come to the forefront, you can focus deeper and accomplish more because the distraction isn’t there to pull your attention away from where it needs to be.

DECK USED: LE FANTASTIQUE TAROT HALLUCINE DU DR ZARIEL

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 30th and 31st

PVRGATORIVM and Tarot VWhat messages do my Ancestors have for me?
Eight of Swords, Knight of Clubs, Prayer

Open your eyes when charging forward instead of taking things on faith. Yes, you are more than capable of “winging it” blindly and there is a time and place for that.  Now is not that time and place, though.

How can I express my gratitude for the remainder of the year?
Three of Coins, The Moon, Bound

Remember that when you work together, there is less uncertainty, and less struggle. Their fate is also bound to your fate, so it is only right that they should bear part of the load.

The message here is that it’s important to be grateful for those that are there to help you and support you in your endeavors. Make sure you are expressing that gratitude to these people.

DECK USED: PVRGATORIVM AND TAROT V

Daily Self Kindness

I got Gideon time tonight.  Not enough, but it felt really good.

People Need People

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Today’s meditation was skipped, although I did take a couple of “pause and breathe” breaks throughout the day today.

Tarot del Toro and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Queen of Goblets (Cups), which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This often translates into themes that have to do with compassion and emotional support.

This sentiment is echoed in the How to Be a Wildflower card for today, which speaks of the shelter that we find in each other through their presence and support in our lives.

In turn, we also provide this support to others. Even introverts need people. They not need as much social contact as an extrovert, but they still need people. People to love, and people to love them in turn.  People to support, and people to support them in turn.

Sometimes I dream of going up into the forest and never returning.  A cabin by a river, a tree with a rope swing.  Solitude.   And yet I know that as introverted as I am?  Even I need people.

DECK USED:  TAROT DEL TORO AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 29th thru 31st

Tarot de Marseille par Pole KaAncestors hear, come far, come all, I now call you forth, how do you answer my call?

L’Étoile – With eagerness and wisdom, the ancestors come forward to be heard. They wish to instill hope, to connect and communicate through that connection, to support and to guide you forward on your path from one day to the next.

Cards on the table, ancestors respond, show me your guidance from somewhere beyond…

Le Fou atop Le Pape – Be positive. Don’t lose hope. Begin piecing together your inner spirit. You don’t have to be so rigid in your expectations of yourself.  Loosen up and let yourself have a bit more fun.

Thank you for your guidance, through highs and through lows, before you depart, tell me, what should I know?

Deux de Denier – You need to focus on balance. Everything else will fall into place.

DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE PAR POLE KA

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Tarot del ToroWhat will I surrender today?
Six of Cups and Eight of Wands

It’s time to begin releasing the guilt.  You were raised to be a workhorse and you know that “training” from an early age is why you feel guilty now.  That guilt is preventing you from getting the rest you need.

Release the guilt.  Do it now.  It’s much easier to find balance without that static playing loudly in your head and heart.

What wisdom does bat have for me today?
Nine of Wands and The Magician

You’re going to end up going into the customs office today.  Stay friendly, but distant.  You have everything you need to get through the checkpoint as needed, so just relax and do the process.  It takes time, but it doesn’t have to be stressful.

DECK USED: TAROT DEL TORO

Daily Self Kindness

I stopped to eat at Denny’s instead of trying to hold out until I made it home.

Adaptation and Balance

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Today’s meditation was skipped yet again.  I did have intentions, but they didn’t pan out.  Too many orders to get done and not enough time in the day.

Черное Таро and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Justice card, which is traditionally a representation of balance, cause and effect, consequences, and can often indicates a theme of law or justice system involvement.

When I think of balance, I think of Maat’s scales.  The weighing of a heart on one side, and the feather on the other, and the symbolism of finding balance… perhaps only in death.

The reason I feel this way about it is because in life, the world is ever-changing. That means the “scales” that each of us carry with us that weigh and balance the different priorities in our lives and the things we have done, or conscience, and well… everything really.  These scales must be in constant motion, constantly adjusting as the world around us changes, and as we grow and change.

Only in death do the scales still entirely. Only then to we have the possibility of perfect balance.  The cards here today speak to me of that.  Of the fact that although we strive for balance in our lives, that goal is always going to be just out of reach.  Sometimes closer, sometimes further away, but never perfect. Because here in life?  We are meant to grow and change, we are meant to learn and expand.  And with every moment of growth, every shift in priorities, every change in our lives, our minds, our emotions… that balance must shift.  Embracing the changes helps us in making those adjustments go more smoothly.

DECK USED:  ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Orphic TarotWhat healing lesson is waiting for me to realize and accept it?

Nine of Swords (Melas Oneiros) – Your perceptions when you are in a mental health crisis are warped. Reality is not as bleak as it appears to be during these times. Find a better way to tell when you’re in real trouble than just guessing blindly in the dark. 

How can I work on accepting this lesson?

Four of Cups (Echo) atop Death Rx (Hades) – Instead of always looking forward and charging ahead, take time to sit with where you are and more fully explore it.

Your Strength – The Moon (Pan Selene) – You are good at moving forward with surety, even when things are feeling uncertain. As mentioned above though, you need to remember that sometimes moving forward is not the answer.

Your Weakness – Judgment (Dionysus) – You are too hard on yourself and set your expectations far too high.

Advice – Five of Cups (Mourning Orpheus) – Stop retreating. Stop hiding. All it is doing is making things worse. Don’t allow your emotions to control your actions… or more specifically, your inaction and stagnancy. It’s taking up too much control of what’s going on in your life.

DECK USED: ORPHIC TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 28th and 29th

Черное ТароHow will the dark half of the year help me grow?
Ten of Pentacles and Wheel of Fortune

It will be a reminder that there are good and bad times, and nothing last forever. It will help you to see that even when things feel like they’re going bad, your stability will not be threatened by the whims of these minor up and downs in life… no matter how major they may feel in the moment.

How will this growth help me love and appreciate myself?
Queen of Swords and The Chariot

It will remind you of your strengths and adaptability, allowing you to see that you can continue to move forward with purpose regardless of how you’re feeling by reconnecting with that logical side of your nature that is a part of your history and heritage.

DECK USED: ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО

Daily Self Kindness

Let’s see… I took a nap that I probably shouldn’t have taken.  I also had my smoothie, which was really good today for some reason (as if it’s not made the same way every day or something), as well as my vitamins, tea, collagen peptides, and muffin.

Hopes and Dreams

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Today’s meditation was skipped again today.  Maybe I need to tattoo on the back of my hand “don’t let your emotions cause you to bail on your responsibilities to yourself” or something.

Skele-Tarot and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally a representation of hope, spiritual guidance, renewal, and the inter-connectivity of ourselves to the world around us and spiritual plane.

The dreams that we have when we’re asleep have an important purpose. Even when we don’t remember them or even remember that we dreamed at all… we all dream.

Daydreams also have a purpose. They are the spark of hope in the world, providing us with ideas and allowing us to imagine the things we’d like to see or experience in the future, or remember those things we’ve already experienced in the past.  Through daydreams we have a direct line to hopes and dreams, memories and past joys, and the guiding light of our own desires.

The message in today’s cards is that daydreams are important. They provide hope, giving us something to guide us forward and lift us up, even during the most difficult of times. Don’t discard them as unrealistic or a waste of time.  They have value.

DECK USED:  SKELE-TAROT AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 27th and 28th

Garden Of Lucid Daydreams Oracle and Trionfi Della LunaThey took their brooms to seek the night, what knowledge can witches of the old provide?
The Bathers atop The Weed, Five of Swords and Death

Do not neglect the cleansing that needs to be done, for it will stave off conflict in the future. Take care in what you share of these methods, for that knowledge can be used to circumvent the cleansing that is done and the protections that are erected afterward.

And as the veil keeps growing thin, how am I to prepare for Samhain?
Consultation atop Desire, Ten of Wands atop Page of Swords

Get in extra time and let your communication and time together beat back a bit of the overwhelm that you’re already feeling. It won’t obliterate it entirely, but it will help.

DECK USED: GARDEN OF LUCID DAYDREAMS ORACLE AND TRIONFI DELLA LUNA

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for October 27th: Can anyone on the other side make contact when the veil is thin?

Skele-TarotReading Summary:  From the newly passed (Ace of Pentacles) to those that have been crossed over for quite some time (Ten of Pentacles), any who need to reach across the veil to obtain the peace and satisfaction they need can do so (Nine of Pentacles).

Take Away: It makes sense to me that this was answered in all Pentacles, for it is a question about spirits reaching through the veil into the physical world.  The answer here indicates that it is through pursuit of “satiation” and completion that those that reach through the veil at this time of year do so.  Perhaps this is not the only reason, but the answer seems to make it clear that the “door is open” who all that need to use it before they will be able to move on.

DECK USED: SKELE-TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I ate healthy food today including spicy tomato pasta with fresh herbs, my morning smoothy of probiotic with spinach and berries, as well as my tea with collagen peptides. It’s not all that I ate today of course, but I made the effort to stick to mostly healthy choices today instead of the cereal and cookies I’ve been leaning heavily on over the past week.

Don’t Clip Your Wings

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Today’s meditation was skipped because the day started very early and was go-go-go all day long.

Le Tarot de L'étoile Cachée and How to Be a Wildflower DeckToday’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, and conflict in the area of ones ambitions, intellect, education, or communications. This often translates into themes that have to do with arguments and intellectual debate, competition (especially at work or involving one’s ambitions), and the mentality of winning no matter the cost.

We all have a competitive side.  It’s a part of human nature.  For some, it can be triggered by just about anything, and for others it takes someone encroaching on what they feel is their territory.

Today’s card is a reminder that it’s okay to be a bit aggro now and then. It’s okay to stand up for yourself. It’s okay to want to win.  It’s okay (within reason) to allow our competitive, contrary, or outright stubborn side to take the lead now and then.  Embrace this side of your nature. Suppressing it just clips your wings.

DECK USED:  LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 26th and 27th

Wisdom of the Shadows Oracle and Gothic Horror TarotWhat area of my life could do with a bolt of lightening?

Balance and The Lovers – You need to make sure that you are making choices that help keep yourself and your life in balance. Don’t just fall headlong into the rush and forget to breathe. Stop trying to push yourself when you’re not quite ready yet, and don’t have to be quite yet.

What wisdom does the crow have for me today?

Connection and King of Pentacles – Make sure you are staying in close connection with what is going on in your finances right now. Keep that shit under your thumb. Extra monitoring and a bit more tight-fisted control is needed.

DECK USED: WISDOM OF THE SHADOW ORACLE AND GOTHIC HORROR TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 26th and 27th

Oracle of Nightmares and Le Tarot de L'étoile CachéeWhat can I look forward to for the dark half of the year?
Entrapment atop Inertia, La Papesse atop Le Jugement

There is potential that you are going to go through a period of stagnancy within the dark half of the year. You will need to use your intuition and inner compass to guide you through this time. Don’t discount what they have to say and the guidance they provide. Self sabotage cannot be allowed to be an option.

What are my challenges for the dark half of the year?
Secrets, Two of Wands atop Four of Coins

Lack of communication and willful omission have the potential to create a situation where you are left torn between previously made plans and hunkering down in place.

(I’m going to have to remember to draw more cards on this later on.)

DECK USED: ORACLE OF NIGHTMARES AND LE TAROT DE L’ÉTOILE CACHÉE

Daily Self Kindness

I went to the dentist.  I really wanted to just cancel and stay home, but I didn’t.