E D Jasbeck's Non-Binary Tarot

Just Do What You Can

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Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long, and was the fourth installment of the Foundations III series on the Balance app. This meditation was almost identical to the last in that it was a body scan (Yoga Nidra) practice with a guide moving you through the different parts of the body. In fact, I didn’t really detect any difference between yesterday’s and today’s.

Tarot of the Master and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the As di Denari (Ace of Pentacles), which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s finances, resources, home, health, and manifestations.  This often translates into themes that have to do with new opportunities and potential for new growth in those areas.

I’m sure I’m not alone in having so many pots that I really want to put in the fire that sometimes even just putting -one- of them in the fire feels like too much.

With October starting to creep up and the holiday rush close behind it, there’s so much to do to get ready, and yet… all I feel is tired. Exhausted, really.  I don’t want to do any of it, and some days like today?  I don’t feel like I have the energy for any of it either.

Today’s cards are a reminder that no matter how many things you have piled up to get started on?  It’s okay to take a breath and just do what you can… and not be down on yourself about not doing more.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE MASTER AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

BekahMurphysMagic’s #IntuitiveHealingTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for September 24th and 25th

Archeo Personal Archetype Cards and E D Jasbeck Non-Binary TarotWhere, or in what way, does my intuition need healing?
Hiraeth and The Star

When I was young, and my father was cruel to the point that I needed to retreat and curl up in a ball somewhere and cry, I always felt the ache of the hiraeth.

That little boy said to himself again and again “I want to go home”, “I want to go home”… even when I was at home in my room or in the woods outside our house. Until today, I never realized that there was a word for this unbearable ache of longing for that “home” that doesn’t exist in reality, but that you long for anyway.

Closing myself off and pulling myself inward again and again in my youth ended up shutting down my ability to hope, and it made me the pessimist that I am today. That is where healing is needed.

What wisdom do I need to gain in order to heal the remnants of this wound?
Wolf and King of Wands

More trust in yourself and your inner knowing, less attention paid to the extraneous noise and nonsense that tries to distract you from your passions and purpose. Trust yourself more, trust your judgement and moral compass. Doubts and second guessing is a waste of time and perpetuates the damage done all those years ago.

Where do I need to gain clarity in order to heal the remnants of this wound?
Warrior and Ten of Wands

It is through our struggles and determination that we grow. This understanding needs to be applied to these past wounds. This is no different than a car accident or home invasion, both of which you have experienced. You either crumble or grow stronger.

DECK USED: THE ARCHEO PERSONAL ARCHETYPE CARDS AND E D JASBECK’S NON-BINARY TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt for the Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for September 23rd and 24th

Apesos New Tarot and Tarot of the MasterHow can I get closer to my dream life?

Wood + Stone atop Light, Caval di Bastone – Get your ass out in nature as much as possible. This is where you really shine. There was a time when I used to provide guided hikes in the national rainforests, and a time in my life when when I wanted to be a forest ranger.

I pursued a different path for my career, and I stopped doing the guided hikes over a decade ago. But just because I no longer pursue income in these areas doesn’t mean I need the time in the forests any less.  In fact, perhaps I need it even more.

What would it be like to only worry for 10 minutes a day?

History atop Light, II di Spade – Your history has proven to you again and again that this is not possible. Your mind does not work this way. You have a logical mind that requires a full array of information before you can make decisions and choose a course of action.  Ten minutes a day is not enough time to gather up all the information needed.

DECK USED: APESOS NEW TAROT AND TAROT OF THE MASTER

Daily Self Kindness

I put a small handful of spinach in my smoothie this morning.  I couldn’t even taste it was in there so I think this could be a good way to get a little extra veggies in now and then.

You’re Worth Fighting For

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Today’s meditation was skipped because I had my days messed up.  I thought I had a shrink appointment today and I waited around for her to call only to realize it was tomorrow.  I would have structured my day completely different if I’d realized.

E D Jasbeck's Non-Binary Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of standing up for one’s convictions and principles, protecting your values, and doing feel is right even against opposition to the contrary.

Sometimes being a fighter isn’t about our goals or a physical struggle. Sometimes it isn’t even about conflict at all, other than our own inner conflict. Because there are times when being a fighter is about standing strong with your own idea of what’s right and wrong, holding your principles, values, and mores sacred for your life instead of allowing them to be corrupted, warped, or torn apart by others.

When we come up against people that try to warp our values, it can sometimes create a huge struggle. Not giving in or compromising your values and principles can sometimes feel like a never ending battle, but these values are what guide who you are… and you are worth fighting for.

DECK USED:  E D JASBECK’S NON-BINARY TAROT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt for the Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for September 13th thru 15th

Universal Folklore Oracle and Illuminated Playing CardsWhen do I trust myself?
Expansion, Seven of Clubs atop Eight of Clubs

You trust myself the most when you are in a time of growth, and your focus and passions are set upon exploring that growth and finding how it fits in with your own personal set of values and mores.  This allows you to expand your perspectives and awareness, even when what you’re learning about doesn’t fit in with your own personal path.

What can I do about the fear of being wrong?
Duality, Ace of Hearts atop Two of Hearts

Being wrong isn’t really a fear that you have, as you are self-aware enough to be able to let go of incorrect perceptions and absorb new ones easily. This allows you to see other people and their perceptions far more easily and say “I was wrong” without any real fear.

What is my favorite mantra?
Uncover, Eight of Hearts atop Four of Clubs Rx

When something isn’t working, it’s time to move on and try something else, and you will be guided to tread the path that’s right for you if you openly listen to your intuition.

DECK USED: UNIVERSAL FOLKLORE ORACLE AND ILLUMINATED PLAYING CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: My struggle to look at the holiday rush in a healthier way.

Forest Fae Cards and E D Jasbeck's Non-Binary TarotThe Problem – The Green Man and Eight of Pentacles – You are looking at it from the angle of the holiday rush being all work and no play. There is no aspect of joy or adventure because you are too focused on the grueling work involved.

The Lesson to Learn – Keep Going and Five of Pentacles – Persistence can overcome perception with time. This lack-of-joy perspective creates a sense of scarcity, but if you keep trying to add joy and enjoyment into the experience, eventually you’ll be able to transform this perspective into something you’ll be more happy with.

Advice to Help You Through – Spiny Sister and Ace of Pentacles – Look at everything you do and everything you make with fresh eyes and an appreciative gaze. Every one of your creations are gorgeous, and you need to work on not losing sight of that fact.

DECK USED: FOREST FAE CARDS AND E D JASBECK’S NON-BINARY TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I made sure that I got back home and online with enough time to have some time with Gid today.  Even after the interruption of the graffiti on the outside of the building, I still feel like we got more time tonight than we have for most of the nights in this last time off.  It was nice and relaxing and… it felt really good.