#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020

It’s Okay to Not Know the Answer

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Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long, as I got interrupted by the fire alarm going off.  Not ours, but the building one.   Everything is fine, but that loud as fuck siren definitely yanks you right out of your relaxed zen state.  It was not pleasant, although… the meditation up to that point was.

Japaridze Tarot - The HermitToday’s draw is the Hermit card, which is traditionally read as an indication of retreat into the self in order to work on personal growth and understanding, self reflection, and a need for a time of independence and introspection.

No one element stands out to me in this card today, nor does it particularly align with my understanding and interpretation of the hermit.  What I see her is abstract chaos.  Random and without rhyme or reason.  The card doesn’t speak to me at all, in fact… which is the message.   I struggled all day trying to find the elements of this card that would mean something, but it is in the confusion and the nothingness where the answer lies.

The message in today’s card is that not everything is always going to make sense, and that’s perfectly okay.  It’s okay to be confused and chaotic.  It’s okay to say “I don’t understand”.   And it’s okay to accept that something is ‘beyond your scope’ if it truly is something you are unable to grasp.

So often we feel as if we have to have all the answers and can never be wrong.  The message here is in the freedom of accepting that we are all fallible… and it’s okay to not know everything.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I better deal with crisis?

Tarot Sirene

Reading Summary:  Be kind and generous with others (Six of Pentacles), make sure to look over all of your options and make good decisions (Lovers) even when things are feeling out of control (Tower) and you will find yourself coming out the other side with things well in hand (The Star) and return to a sense of stability quickly (Four of Wands).

Take Away:  When crisis hits, I can often have the tendency to turn inward and block others out.  The Six of Pentacles is a reminder that others depend upon me and retreat into myself is not the best choice.  Instead, I need to keep a clear head so that I can observe the situation and grasp all options open to me in order to guide myself and those that depend on me back to stable ground quickly.

DECK USED:  TAROT SIRENE MARSEILLE

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread #1

Dream Raven TarotHow is the rise of summer energy manifesting in my life?
Ace of Wands – I’m being given the opportunity this summer to look at how I handle my passions, how I balance my responsibilities and my entrepreneurial drive, and how to distribute my attention to find more joy and creative pleasure in my life.  The energies this summer are there to lend themselves to finding inspired solutions that I can carry forward into the future.

How can I harness these summer energies to my purposes?
Wheel of Fortune – By focusing on staying centered and instead of allowing myself to spin out of control off on different tangents (as I recently did for about two weeks). It can be difficult to stay centered and focused when you have so much swirling around you looking for a place to land like a spiral of birds flying overhead. Stop looking up at the spiraling birds and focus on organizing my plate instead.

Where would I be best served in directing these energies over the summer?
Judgement and Ace of Cups – In finding ways to silence my inner critic in order to allow myself to return to that “dappled sunlight” exploration of the emotional growth I’ve been experiencing over the spring.

DECK USED:  DREAM RAVEN TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: What am I invited to meditate on/invest in today?

Fanuna's Tarot

Reading Summary:  Your committed relationship (The Lovers) needs some attention (Nine of Cups) so set aside your drive (Page of Wands) and your need to coax your finances into a more comfortable position (Page of Stones).

Take Away:  Honestly?  That breakdown above is after the fact, because the message I got from these cards when they were laid out before me was “talk to Gideon about the chaos”.   So I did.   In retrospect, I can’t find how I got that message, but it was very clear to me this morning when I first pulled them exactly what they were saying.

DECK USED:  FANUNA’S TAROT

 

One Good Thing Begets Another

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Today’s meditation was (probably) about ten minutes long.  It started out with the harp strings as normal and my piriformis stretches, but somewhere between the last position of my stretches and the end of the meditation, I seem to have dozed off and missed the last bell that signaled the end of my practice for the day.   I woke up a bit later with the harp chords silenced and my body still holding the last pose, so I couldn’t have been asleep too long, right?

Herbal Tarot - Saw Palmetto - King of CupsToday’s draw is King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.  This often displays itself in themes dealing with emotional stability and authority, a diplomatic and yet compassionate quality directed towards others.

What stood out most strongest to me in the imagery of today’s card was the saw palmetto… and all the water.   Saw Palmetto is not really a plant that I have a lot of experience with, and so I needed to do a bit of research on this one.

Serenoa repens (aka saw palmetto) is a form of fan palm that grows in subtropical regions and is very common throughout Florida (thus why I have very little experience with it). It is a “bolstering” herb used to create strength and support, which when combined with the theme of all that water is about bolstering one’s emotional well-being and creativity.  This is because water is a representation of emotions, intuition, and creative flow.

The message in today’s card is that I need to spend more time “flexing the muscles” of my emotions and my creativity.  They go hand-in-hand whether I want them to or not, and by exploring the first, the other has the chance to become stronger as well… if I let it.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my current relationship with food?

Phantasmagoric Theater Tarot

Reading Summary:  Tossing out the traditional card meanings entirely on this one, because they don’t connect at all with what I see in the imagery here.

So many plans bot not a lot of doing going on (first card), instead I’m still cloistered with my loved ones (second card) and looking pretty damned happy about that broken cup that is representing my bad habits picked up during lock-down (third card).  There’s hope on the horizon, though.  You’ll get there… you just have to find the missing piece that will inspire you to hope to it (forth card).

Take Away:  This is about finding the spark… the enthusiasm and motivation to get my ass in gear concerning exercise and taking better care of my body (both in exercise as well as what I’m putting into it).  Thus, my relationship with food at the moment is that I know I should be doing better, but am pretty damned content with not behaving myself.  The Star card here and the missing puzzle piece at the bottom are telling me that it’s okay… I will find that spark of motivation when the time is right.

DECK USED:  PHANTASMAGORIC THEATER TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What inner injury from my childhood needs healing?

The Crystal TarotReading Summary: Mother in the center… Scarcity to the left… New vision to the right.

Queen of Wands – In this reading, this card is self explanatory in that I have often referred to my mother as the Queen of Wands. Depending on how you look at her and how she is feeling in the moment, she epitomizes the card and its interpretations no matter whether it is taken upright or reversed.

Five of Pentacles – The use of the stone here (Hemimorphite) shifts the meaning of this card away from the traditional meaning of hardship and into one of victimhood.  The card here indicates that there was a time when I felt that my mother revealing her true self to me created a sense of feeling victimized.

Ace of Swords – Although I had always been aware that my mother was ‘somewhat’ self-serving and selfish, it wasn’t until a few years ago after my father’s death that I realized just how deeply ingrained and pervasive this quality was in her life.

Take Away:  Although this wound was not from my childhood, it created a painful rift for my inner child, and damaged the trust I had in how I had perceived people and the world during my younger years.  This discordance is something I still struggle with, even as I learn to see and accept my mother’s truth while finding ways to still  incorporate her into my life.

DECK USED:  THE CRYSTAL TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: Draw a reminder card of something to be grateful for.

Sawyer's Path TarotReading Summary: Even when I try to overload myself too much (Ten of Wands)… some thing always steps in to make sure that I balance back out (Six of Pentacles).

Take Away:  I struggle with my personal expectations of what I should be able to do vs what I really am capable of.  I put too much on my plate again and again.  And yet, most of the time?  Just when I’m about to crash and burn, something happens to force me to drop my plate and rearrange it or set it aside and come back to it later.  Whether that be some sort of emergency, some unreasonable demand I can’t get out of brought about by my mother, a pandemic of global proportions…. there is always something that pops up and saves me from myself.  

DECK USED:  SAWYER’S PATH TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I improve my time spent?

Simply Deep Tarot

Reading Summary: Take control and direct my time spent towards my passions (King of Wands) instead of lollygagging (Five of Coins) and then bemoaning that there’s just not enough time to go around (Three of Swords).

Side note?  Just sayin’, but the King of Wands reminds me of those old 1980’s He-Man cartoons.

Take Away:  I think that we all do this sometimes, but there are times when I can just like waste away two or three hours pretty much doing a bunch of nothing.  I mean I’m reading info, looking up images, maybe browsing through social media or whatever… and suddenly?  Three hours are just gone. Poof! Just like that.

This reading is telling me that during these times, I would be better served to direct my time and energy toward those things that inspire me, rather than just fucking around doing a bunch of nothing then whining about where the time went after the fact.

DECK USED:  SIMPLY DEEP TAROT

 

You Are Not Alone

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Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was another of the harp strings meditations.  It was relaxing and comfortable, and time flowed quickly as if it had no meaning at all.  The shift in time during those ten minutes is really remarkable, and I have been tempted to bump the meditation up to twelve or fifteen.

Japaridze Tarot - Five of Tides - Five of CupsToday’s draw is the Five of Tides (Five of Cups) which is traditionally a representation of stress, struggles, tests, and trials in the areas of one’s relationships, emotions, or intuition.  This often communicates itself through themes involving grief (depicted very eloquently in this card’s image), as well as themes to do with one’s failures and regrets or pessimistic views.

Two elements stand out strongest to me in the imagery of this card today.  The first is the baby bump the woman is sporting. This speaks to me of temporary grief.  The emotions represented here are deep, as communicated by the deep cobalt color of the woman’s dress, but life will move on past this moment and moments of joy still exist in the future.

The second element is about the emblems on the three caskets closest to the bottom of the card.  To me, the moon represents pagan/esoteric religions, while the Star of David is a representation of Judaic religions, and the cross a representation of Christian religions.  The three of these speak to me of diversity.  They indicate that the emotions and experiences depicted in this card are universal.  They are something everyone experiences in their life at one point or another… and when in these experiences, you are not alone.

The message in today’s card is about weathering emotional storms with grace by looking forward beyond the moment for hope, and remembering that you are not alone.  Some of my readings this month have warned of some emotional turmoil over the next month, this reminder is one of hope and comfort.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Tarot of the Animal LordsReading Summary: There is a clear depiction of movement in these cards based on the colors.  On the left there is a darkness that as you progress to the right becomes brighter and more vibrant, speaking of moving away from the left and heading to the right.

Use your inner strength (Strength) to take control and move away from (The Chariot) inner turmoil (Three of Swords). Take comfort in your loved ones and those that you love and trust (Two of Cups).

Take Away:  The cards here indicate that my self care this month is going to require that I take steps to turn away from those things and situations that cause me inner turmoil.   This “turning away” from is going to require strength to accomplish, as well as a strong hand and careful control to keep myself on track on this other path.

This is about that “all work and no play” issue that I constantly have going on and the slip up into that mentality that I slid into over the past two weeks.  It’s time to get that back under control and my commitment to leaving room on my plate for the good things in life back on track.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: How am I asked to honor myself during this full moon?

Tarot of a Moon Garden

Reading Summary: Enjoy what you have (Nine of Cups) and take a rest (Four of Swords)  It’s okay to disconnect for a bit as long as you don’t linger there too long (The Star Rx).

Take Away:  This advice isn’t so much about self care as it is about honoring myself, and the ways I am being asked (by the universe) to honor myself at this time. By taking some time to focus on my gratitude for all that I have and all that I’ve earned, combined with a bit of time disconnecting from my responsibilities while I rest and recover, I honor not just myself but all that I have accomplished up to this point.

I need to remember that life isn’t always about pushing forward constantly, but about enjoying what you have in the present.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF A MOON GARDEN

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my favorite memory?

Everyday Witch Tarot

Soon after I emancipated my from my parents, my mother took me out for a ride in her little red Corvette one day. She told me that if I ever needed anything that I should call her, and when I told her that father wouldn’t like that, her response was “what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him”.

At the time it made me feel very supported and loved and cared for.  Even though I would never have taken her up on the offer, just the fact that she offered made me feel as if I could take on the world.

I know now that that’s not how it was meant, and that she was just looking for an “in” so she could get her hooks into me and use me later. But, that doesn’t change the warm and supported feeling that lives within that memory even now.

DECK USED:  EVERYDAY WITCH TAROT

 

Constant Healing and Growth

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Today’s meditation hasn’t taken place yet, because when I laid down to do it, I ended up accidentally falling asleep rather than meditating.  SO…. I’ll be trying again tonight before bed.  As it is, I did get a decent nap in, but I also earned myself a kink in my neck and shoulder.

Herbal Tarot - Sage - The High Priest - HierophantToday’s draw is the High Priest (aka The Hierophant) which is traditionally read as a representation of tradition and institution, a guiding energy or figure in relation to religious knowledge and spiritual beliefs, and in some cases can also represent conformity to social norms.

There are a few aspects of this card that stand out to me today.  There is the man’s white turban, which (I had to look this up) is an indication of a saintly person leading an exemplary life. 

There is also the two pillars, which are the same two pillars as in the High Priestess card and represent the gateway to the spiritual realm. That he stands before these pillars instead of between them or behind them speaks to me of his energy being based in reality and the physical even as he guides those along their spiritual paths.

The third aspect is the sage plant. Salvia officinalis is essentially a healing antiseptic that is used not just for the body but also one’s spiritual health and the energies that surround them.   It is a cleansing herb that can be used to wash away negative energies just as it can be used to help heal bruises on the skin and promote healing. Whether sage is used internally or externally, it’s presence here in the card speaks of the Hierophant’s ability and responsibility to guide himself and others upon a path of healing and growth.

The message in today’s card is about following one’s inner moral compass.  Sometimes this isn’t easy.  Decisions get made and when you think about things you realize you were wrong and have to back-step, maybe even apologize, or eat crow.   It’s important that in these moments we learn from our mistakes and take on their responsibility with grace.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I attract more abundance into my life?

Tarot of Passing Showers

Reading Summary: Don’t forget that you still have a lot to learn (Page of Pentacles) and a part of learning is the mistakes you make along the way (Three of Swords). Keep hope alive (The Star), and you’ll be able to move through moments of defeat quickly and come out the other side still in control (Six of Swords beneath The Chariot).

Take Away:  It’s so easy to get too confident in something you feel you’re doing well at then end up knocked on your ass as you realize you aren’t the be-all end-all of it all. It’s easy, as well, to lose hope when you’re sitting on your ass in the mud absorbing that blow.

The cards here indicate that to attract more abundance into my life, it’s important to not lose hope in those moments, but to learn from them and pick yourself up out of the mud, evaluate what needs to change, then try again.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF PASSING SHOWERS

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What can I do to help my inner child feel less neglected?

The Brady Tarot 2nd EditionReading Summary:  Make the conscious choice (Lovers) to create a solid base (Father of Roots).  Your inner child needs a careful balance between firm guidance (Eight of Roots) and a gentle touch (Temperance).

Take Away:  The cards here are indicating that I’m not giving my inner child the structure and stability that it needs.  This isn’t about money, but about finding a place of inner grounding that allows for a solid foundation on the inside, so that my inner child has the solid footing it needs to express itself with more confidence and not fear the repercussions of backlash that a lack of temperance from my inner critic would contribute to the situation.

Thus, the answer here in the cards is to take my inner critic in hand and make the conscious and willful demand that it treat both myself and my inner child with a level and moderate voice.

DECK USED:  BRADY TAROT 2ND EDITION

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: If you could leave one worry behind, what would it be?

Grimalkin Tarot

Reading Summary: Always needing to be the adult (Grimalkin) whenever things that involve my enthusiasm arise (Ace of Wands) or decisions need to be made concerning the paths my enthusiasm might take (Five of Wands).

Take Away:  You know, I had a whole laundry list of possible answers that might have come up from the cards when asking this question, some of them selfish and some of them not… but this one wasn’t on it.  Not that it isn’t true, just that it wasn’t on the list.

The cards here speak of my need to always be responsible and in control, no matter what I’m doing or what interests or passions are driving me or have struck my interest.  In other words… It’d be nice to be a little more carefree.  It’s not really in my nature, mind you… but it would still be nice.

DECK USED:  GRIMALKIN TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my biggest win?

Happy Tarot

Reading Summary: Learning to release some of my burden (Ten of Wands) by sharing it with others (imagery on the Two of Cups) so that I can ride that wheel with less centripetal force trying to make me stumble (Wheel of Fortune Rx).

Take Away:  So we are speaking here of the wheel not as a vertical wheel, but as a horizontal one, where I can stand upon its center and spin, or step off center and be pulled by centripetal force into stumbling.   By handing out some of my work and responsibilities to others, it makes it easier to stay in the center of the wheel, and easier to handle the responsibilities and obligations I carry instead of becoming overwhelmed by them.

My biggest win is in the realization of this…. and the actual absorption of this rather than simply acknowledging it and saying it’s right.  Instead I’ve taken this to heart and am truly making the effort to change how I do things, which includes allowing others to step in and help me… and asking them for help sometimes even when they don’t step in voluntarily without prompting.

DECK USED:  HAPPY TAROT

 

Reality vs Fiction

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Today’s meditation was… skipped.  I honestly had every intention of doing it, but I got distracted on my phone and playing a game and…yeah so it totally didn’t happen.   I will try to fit it in at the end of the day, though.  I’d rather spend some time with you than try it right now.

Japaridze Tarot - Nine of WindsToday’s draw is the Nine of Winds (Nine of Wands) which traditionally is a representation of stress, anxiety, depression, mental anguish, and insomnia.

What significantly stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the position of the hands.   The woman appears resting (if not necessarily restful) but the position of her hands belies any sort of rest at all for me. If you’ve ever tried to take up this position, you’ll know that it’s just… not particularly restful at all. Not with hunched shoulders and one hand over the other like that.   It’s a position of concealment and, with the head turned to the side, a position that portrays to me a feeling of shame.

It reminds me of the story of Adam and Eve, and how when the apple was eaten and they were tossed out of the garden, they experienced modesty for the first time and were ashamed of their nudity.   That’s what I see here today in this image.

The message in today’s card is about shame, and if you really have something to be ashamed of… or if it’s just your inner narrative or other’s judgements that are creating that sense of shame within you.   This connects to the reading I did a few days ago and the mention of my father’s expectations and voice in my head… still there years after he’s passed, and still driving me in very negative ways some cases.

This card is an encouragement to examine the things I feel shame over… and let go of those that have no basis in reality.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: What areas of my life could benefit from change?

Stone Marseille Tarot

Reading Summary: Stop trying to balance in so much responsibility (Reyne de Coupe) and pushing forward so hard (Le Chariot).  You don’t have to be in control all the time of everything under your purvey (First two Cards together).  Take time, instead, to wallow in your connection with others near and dear (Two of Cups).

Take Away:  Over the past couple of weeks I’ve started falling into old habits.  Instead of allowing myself to continue to grow, I’ve set my emotions into a place of stability and used that stability to grab hold of the reigns of my responsibilities and seize control.  The problem with this is that control has pushed away the growth I’ve been working toward.

The cards here indicate that the change I could benefit from is easing up on those reigns and allowing myself more time with those I love.

DECK USED:  STONE MARSEILLE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Philosophical Question: Does life require a purpose and a goal?

Tarot of MetamorphosisReading Summary: Although we are equipped (The Magician), we may not always see where we’re going (Fool). Development of the soul (Queen of Chalices).

Take Away:  When life is given to us, it is given to us with the tools to move forward along our life’s path.  That path is there before us whether we choose to consciously seek out purpose, or wander upon it aimlessly.  We are unable to remain in place, unable to hold back time from moving forward, and it is time that carries us on that path. 

When I see the Queen of Chalices card, I see the development of pigs to humans.  I see a development of what makes us humans. That is the sentient emotions of a developed human being.

So no…. I don’t think there is a goal.  I do not think that there is an end prize to be obtained as we move along life’s path.   But I do believe that this path has a purpose.  That purpose is the development of the soul that, over time, creates a more enlightened spirit within us.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF METAMORPHOSIS

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: I welcome the energy available to me, and shift my consciousness to the present. Draw a card. Let its meaning guide/inspire you today.

Dream Raven TarotReading Summary:  Decompression time.

Take Away:  Tomorrow is an orders day.   You’re feeling overwhelmed and overburdened.

Take today and spend some quality time with him so that you can tackle orders day with a little less weight on your shoulders tomorrow.

You know you need the break.  Take it.

DECK USED:  DREAM RAVEN TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my biggest challenge?

Tarot for Dandelions

Reading Summary: Delays (The World Rx) in my emotional growth (Ace of Cups) because I wandered off the center of the wheel (Wheel of Fortune) and went for a spin on the dark side (Three of Swords).

Take Away:  I understand now that the stalker card of the Ace of Cups I’ve been experiencing recently was a warning that I had tumbled off my path of emotional growth and was starting to tumble back into old habits.

Right now, that is my biggest challenge, and it’s what’s referred to here in this reading.   As I lost my center and began to stumble, I began to feel the unpleasant effects of that lack of centering.  My biggest challenge is keeping that center that will allow me to continue in my emotional growth, even while balancing my responsibilities.

DECK USED:  TAROT FOR DANDELIONS

What We Have

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Although I meditated today, it wasn’t my normal type of meditation.  Instead I did my meditation while sitting in traffic with a combination of slow breathing exercises and focus on physical sensations such as the touch of the air moving over my skin.   It was a long drive, and I’m a bit out of practice in the commute now that I’m only taking it once every three weeks instead of twice a week.   The breathing exercises and focus on using those physical sensations as a calming influence helped immensely in keeping my stress in line as I dealt with traffic.

Herbal Tarot - Uva Ursi - Two of CupsToday’s draw is the Two of Cups, which traditionally is interpreted as a card depicting harmonious union and cooperation between two parties.

Uva Ursi is an herb of purification and cleansing, and when combined with what stood out most strongly to me in this card’s imagery today (that would be the caduceus above the cups) what I see here is a message concerning combining strengths to heal.

This card’s appearance today is a representation of our relationship and a reminder of what our union creates.

We are each strong and independent in our own right, and when brought together our skills compliment and reinforce each other, our knowledge and our emotions bolster each other, and the relationship becomes one of support and healing on both sides, each benefiting from the other’s strengths.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I better channel anger into a force of positive change?

The Golden Girls Tarot

Reading Summary: Use that anger combined with the tools at my disposal (The Magician) to inspire (The Star) my passions (Page of Wands and Four of Wands).

Take Away:  The Page of Wands and Four of Wands don’t just indicate my passions in this reading, but rather those passions that create within me a sense of progress and pleasure.  Some of my passions are directionless.  Others are more addiction based.  Those are not the type of passions referenced here.

Here in the cards is a reference to the safe and secure passions that create within me a sense of accomplishment and progress while still bringing me a feeling of joy and stability.   When I need to channel my anger, it is in this direction that I should channel it, transforming it into a flare of that creative spark within me to spur forward my pursuits.

DECK USED:  THE GOLDEN GIRLS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: How does my inner child feel right now?

Nicoletta Ceccoli Tarot Reading Summary: Alice is uncertainty in all three positions.
Position 1) shyness + uncertainty and a need for comfort from others,
Position 2) curious + uncertainty and a need for comforting from the self, and
Position 3) irritation + uncertainty spurred by a vicious inner narrative.

Take Away:  The current state of my inner child is one of shyness, curiosity, and a hint of irritation hidden within the wings.  All of these are overshadowed by a sense of uncertainty and a need for comfort.  When the irritation blended with that uncertainty shows its terrible face, my inner critic slips in and begins to draw blood.

So the key here is that my inner child feels vulnerable.  The flavor of vulnerability might change depending on what has captured its attention in the moment, but the sense of vulnerability and uncertainty is always present.

DECK USED:  NICOLETTA CECCOLI TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: How can I use this energy to my personal best advantage?

Dame Darcy's Mermaid Tarot

Reading Summary: Don’t forget to take in others input (Three of Pentacles) while sorting out and gathering up (Ace of Wands)what passions you’re carrying forward with you (King of Wands).

Take Away:  The previous reading on this topic indicated that discernment and destruction are the energies this month holds for me.  The cards today indicate that as I’m tearing things down to start certain pursuits and passions anew, make sure that this isn’t a solitary task.   Take in input from others, accept their help and their ideas. Allow them to help you begin anew, and allow them to be there to build you up along your journey.

DECK USED:  DAME DARCY’S MERMAID TAROT