One Brick at a Time

IMG_3365Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and focused upon allowing yourself to step back and see a bigger picture.  I’ve kind of lost what the whole message of this meditation was about, but what really stuck with me concerning it is how sometimes, when I need some especially calming meditation, I lie down in the bottom of the tub with the shower running and watch the drops of water slowly drip down the sidewall of the tub.

Sometimes, I need that. That closed off and bearing down on the minuscule.  Sometimes when the world becomes overwhelming, that time can help me find center in the middle of the overload.

But it’s important not to stay there.  You have to be able to bring yourself back open tot he world again.  If not?  It’s not healthy.

The Tower - Circle of Life TarotToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally a representation of sudden changes that cause chaos and upheaval.

Sometimes the stuff that falls apart needs to do so.  And sometimes?  What needs to fall apart has to do so at our own hands. The Tower is a representation of chaos and destruction, but there’s nothing here in this imagery that speaks to me of it necessarily being a surprise.

There’s only so much space in the world.  Sometimes when we outgrow our egg, we have to crack it and break free of the shell in order to find something better.  Sometimes?  No one can do this work but you, yourself.

These Tower moments are by choice, but that makes them no less powerful.  In the rubble of the mess laid bare, you can then build something better in its place.  Now is the time of destruction and that’s okay.  Just keep in mind when the dust settles that returning to the old way of life is like a chick trying to crawl back inside it’s busted egg.   It isn’t going to work.   It’s time to build something new in its place.


#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
: How can I continue to align myself with lunar and seasonal energies moving forward?

Arcana Iris Sacra Tarot

Reading Summary: Even in times when things are good (Nine of Cups) and it feels like it’s a good time to rest (Nine of Wands) and take stock (Nine of Discs), always stay open to learning new things (The Hierophant).

Take Away:  These cards are about dedication. It’s always easy to reach for your faith when times are hard.  In difficult times it’s natural to reach for one’s faith for stability and hope. But in good times, we often forget as we become distracted by other things.  We slack off on leaving offerings, and do not place our faith and its customs as a priority.  The cards are indicating that to continue aligning myself with the seasonal and lunar energies moving forward, it is important to remember to continue upon my  path and in the elements of my faith in good times and bad.


#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
: How do other’s perceive me?

Tarot of the Silicone Dawn

Reading Summary: Enabler… Okay so that’s an intuitive hit but let me work it out.

It has to do with using my long history of experience (Six of Cups) to spark the inspiration of others to go after what makes them happy (Devil and Ace of Cups), even if that sometimes means that they use their resources towards that end rather than towards more practical means (Five of Swords and Seven of Wands).

Take Away: Slightly embarrassing moment?  I was scared when I pulled for this question that the cards would tell me that people perceived me as a know-it-all. 

What’s indicated in the cards is that I encourage people to go after what makes them happy rather than always opting for the practical and responsible option. I can definitely cop to this, especially in the tarot community. My enthusiasm for cartomancy and vast array of decks in my collection probably make this pretty inevitable.

As I have become more and more comfortable socializing in different tarot circles, rather than keeping to myself as I have in my past, I’ve found that I really enjoy sharing my collection as well as my enthusiasm with those that enjoy these things as well. I don’t really see anything wrong with that.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
: What have I learned about myself through this month’s tarot challenge?

78Tarot Elemental Tarot of the Natural

Reading Summary:  Too much time alone (The Hermit) leads to  a struggle concerning resistance to change (Death Rx) and indecision (Hanged Man Rx).  I handle these things better when they are shared with others (Two of Water).

Take Away:  Essentially?  I need the emotional support of others to help me though times of change and issues that create indecision and uncertainty.  When left on my own to deal with those times of change, I end up digging in my heels rather than allowing that change to flow over me and through my life.



Tomorrow Is Another Day

Today’s meditation was again, nonexistent.  And I am very aware that I’m not doing myself any favors by skipping it.   In fact, I can feel the deterioration happening.  I need to get back into doing it and will do a short body scan meditation before bed tonight then start fresh tomorrow morning.

Eight of Cups - Hush TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of moving on emotionally (often from disappointment) or using escapism to remove yourself from unpleasant situations.

What I see here is about my failures toward self care over the past week or so and my need to get back on track again. It’s time to let go of my self-bashing and release the disappointments in myself.  It’s time to step up and take care of myself and move away from the emotional self-abuse that has been very subtly sneaking in on me behind the concealment of inner walls.

Tomorrow is another day, and another chance to do better than today.


#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
: How can I harness my own enthusiasm to align with Aries’ fiery energy?

Law of Attraction Tarot

Interpretation: I may need a little help (Two of Cups) in reigning in my inner thoughts and struggles, wrestling them under control and sorting them into an actionable order (Queen of Swords).  The chaos and mess of all the disappointments and nasty surprises that have happened over the past week, the feeling of shit that is so very important to me falling apart, and the mental chaos of anxiety and stress going on (Three of Swords) because of all this?  It needs to be brought to heel with a gentle, strong hand.  It needs to be sorted and organized and I need to find that control (Back to the Queen of Swords). 


#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
: How can I improve upon where I am spiritually in the week ahead?

Arcana Iris Sacra

Reading Summary: Be kind and nurturing (Queen of Chalices), concise and organized (Queen of Swords).  Own that you know the way forward, you can take these experiences and learn from them (The Hierophant).

Take Away:  The world is only as uncertain as you allow it to be. The cacophony of chaos that was mentioned in yesterday’s reading, and the feeling that the world is thrown into chaos and uncertainty… these are things I can get under control.  To do that, I need to stay on and disciplined in my self care, and require myself to do the re-organizational work necessary to create a new schedule and a new structure for myself.  The Hierophant reminds me that I have much to learn from this situation.  Don’t shut down and close off and miss these lessons, instead pay attention and use what you learn to move forward with the strength that knowledge provides.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
: How can I enhance my intuition through my dreams?

Goblin Tarot RWS Edition

Reading Summary: Don’t disregard your dreams as unimportant (High Priestess) because they are not all fun and games (The Sun).  Stop setting your dreams aside as unimportant (Eight of Cups).

Take Away:  I actually wasn’t sure where this reading would go, because… as the cards so very clearly called me out on, I usually disregard my dreams as unimportant and without relevance.  The cards here indicate that the reason that my dreams do not enhance my intuition is because I choose to treat them in that way, and to change that attitude would create an opening for my dreams to step forward and enhance my intuitive process.



Practicing Patience

IMG_3202Today’s meditation was just over ten minutes long… and I did it twice.   It started out with a full body scan, which is one of my favorite ways to meditate, and then settled on focusing on the breath for the majority of the time.

The message of the guided meditation, though, was one of self care.  It was about being kind to yourself and not allowing that inner critic free reign to tear yourself down.  That can be extremely tempting and easy to fall into during times of stress like the stress that we are all under around the world at the moment.  The meditation encouraged making sure you are keeping a focus on being kind to yourself, and not tearing into yourself for those things that are out of your control.

Eight of Cups - Circle of Life TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of retreat and “stepping away” emotionally from a person or situation.

Once again, though, this deck speaks to me through its imagery rather than through any traditional interpretation, because what really stands out to me in this card is the nearly fully submerged person in the water, and the held up finger. In the book it speaks of that hand being an indication of the choice to either emerge from the water or not.   But what it speaks to me today is about waiting and patience.

It’s about the pause.  Right now in my area everyone and everything is in a sort of pause.  The message in today’s card is a reminder to wait.  Just wait. Gather what you need to survive (as referenced by the dishes  along the shore of the pond) and just wait.


#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
: How can I release self-doubt in my abilities?

Whispering Spirits Tarot

Reading Summary: Accept that those abilities are not a fluke (Five of Swords) and leave room for compassionate strength (King of Cups) as I look for ways to move forward both now… and later (Two of Wands).

Take Away:  With everything at a forced standstill right now, there’s a lot of room for self-doubts to creep in and muddle up the mind and emotions.  To keep that from happening it’s important that I keep in mind that the skills and abilities that I have are not a fluke.  They aren’t something that are going to disappear, but are hard earned and honed over time.  Being kind to myself and appreciating my strengths as strengths is important to keeping my self doubts under control,  as is making plans so that I don’t fall into habits of morose pessimism and other negative thinking that can begin to fester when I am left rudderless.


#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
: What do I need to take more pride in?

Enchanted Tarot Mini Version

Reading Summary: My ability to provide guidance and direction (Three of Wands) out of the shadows and into the light (Eight of Swords) for myself and others  through my skills and abilities (Three of Pentacles).

Take Away:  This seems to be the theme of my personal readings today.  That is, that I have the skills and abilities to lead by example, and to provide both myself and others with the sense of hope and direction needed to keep the fog of depression and directionless discouragement from taking hold.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
: How does my intuition speak to me?

Arcana Iris Sacra Tarot

Reading Summary:  Loudly (Dragon in the Seven of Chalices) and often (Knight of Wands), and in very mysterious ways that are difficult to grasp (Moon).

Oddly, this one took me a minute.  I think it is the mix between the intuitive hits and the traditional meanings in the cards here that gave me pause.   It’s almost like… a different dialect of the language I am used to reading.  New… different, and yet familiar enough to work it out.

Take Away: I was actually expecting something that described the “how” as in how I experience my intuition’s voice.  Instead, the message here is that the “how” is less about methods and more about an overall interpretation of “how”.

That is to say that how my intuition speaks to me is with a constant stream of input that is quite loud and always there, always pushing and driving and directing the way forward.  Those mysterious ways indicated by the Moon card speaking of the fact that that sometimes my “intuition” may be more than just intuition.  I’ve recently been considering that my spirit guides have been using the language/experience of my intuition in order to communicate with me as well.


The Pathless Wood

Today’s meditation was just under twelve minutes long and focused upon boredom.  Honestly, though?  I don’t think I paid enough attention to the message in the meditation to get much out of it.   It was just so nice to sink into the meditation itself that I may have… forgotten to listen to what the person guiding the meditation was actually saying.

The Moon - Circle of Life TarotToday’s draw is The Moon card, which is traditionally interpreted as a representation of illusion, uncertainty, and confusion.

What really stands out to me in the imagery of today’s card is the posture of the woman in the card, her head tilted up.. the world under one arm, land squid under her other hand.  The message that I see in this imagery today is that it’s OK to be uncertain sometimes. Uncertainty is a part of life… Especially with someone like me who does a lot of things on their own and plows ahead with an entrepreneurial spark.

Because I have so many things on the go or that I’m doing on my own, and because a lot of what I’m doing is very different than that of other’s paths, of course my footing is going to be uncertain sometimes and I’m going to feel like I’m walking through shadows instead of in the light.

It’s similar to when hiking, you can take the well beaten path and have sure footing… or  you can take your own way into the woods and deal with the possibility of getting lost or being tripped up by uneven ground.  I prefer to tread the latter.


#TarotForGrowthMarch Challenge Prompt
: How is the waning lunar energy manifesting in my life?

Arcana Iris Sacra Tarot

Reading Summary:  I am at a turning point (Ace of Cups) where I need to do some introspection (Four of Swords) on how to move forward and what to leave behind. I can choose to either move towards my goals and dreams (Ten of Disks), or allow myself to be overwhelmed by anxieties and worries (Nine of Swords).

Take Away:  The cards indicate that the choice is mine, and that I need to do a bit of soul searching in order to make sure I take the path that allows me to move forward. As lunar energy wanes, this is the time to sink into that introspection for a bit and examine where I am currently, where I want to go, and how I want to go about getting there.


#DiscordTarotholicsMar2020 Challenge Prompt
: Draw or write something free-form inspired by the cards?

Sea and Sky Tarot There was once an ethereal goddess that lived in a forest with her loyal companion (The High Priestess).  Her sister, the Goddess of Night, had come to visit but was quite the loner and often went out alone (The Hermit).

One day a poacher came into the woods. He used a disguise to try and conceal himself from the attention of the entities that protected the forest (Wheel of Fortune) and began catching and killing the creatures that the goddess held so dear. Unfortunately for him, the beautiful goddess of the forest had many allies that kept watch over the forests (Strength) and she was alerted immediately to the poacher’s presence.

The goddess was upset by the news of  the intruder’s actions (Judgement).  How dare he come and hunt upon her lands.  The theft of each friend he caught or killed was a wound upon her heart.  She tried to be patient… she tried to be kind (Temperance), and yet the longer she waited, the more she bled.

The Goddess of Night, seeing her sister’s decline and loving her so much, decided that she would deal with this issue herself.  She approached the poacher and began to seduce him with her mystery and wiles.

Each day she came to him and charmed him further, pulling him deeper and deeper into her web (The Hanged One) until he believed her to be all that is right in the world (The Empress).

As he fell deeper and deeper under her spell (Justice), he could no longer tell what was reality and what wasn’t (The Moon).  With each day that passed she lead him deeper into the forest until he became forever lost within the depths of the darkness among the trees (The Devil).


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
: When do I underestimate my intuitive abilities?

Celtic Dragon Tarot

Reading Summary:  When my anxiety is out of control (Nine of Swords) and I’m trying to block everything out (Death atop The Sun) by hiding in my work (Eight of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Okay, so that is a common habit of mine.  Blocking out unpleasant things like discomfort and anxiety through sinking into my work.  Unfortunately, when I do that?  I block out the good as well.   And I don’t feel that, during those times, my intuition is as effective as it is when I’m in a more balanced place.   The cards indicate that this may not be the case.