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Seeking Emotional Stability

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Today’s meditation was done in a quiet room at Ms B’s and… I almost fell asleep. (Oops!)

The meditation today was fourteen minutes and thirty seven seconds, and focused addiction to thought.

That is, how we try to always give each thought that wanders through our head “it’s due” rather than sometimes just letting them go. This is especially relevant and noticeable during meditation, as it is during this time when the thoughts that intrude can be like the temptation of a curious path in the forest that leads away from the one you are already on.

People (myself included) follow their thoughts without even realizing it, addicted to the random paths, to fixing or resolving, to… thinking. Today’s meditation brings this tendency to light as a reminder that during one’s meditation practice (and other times when overwhelmed) setting aside thoughts, rather than following them, is healthy and beneficial.

The first card in today’s draw was the Six of Hearts. Hearts is a suit seated in emotions, family, relationships, and creativity. The six in this suit represents seeking answers and truths.

The second card in today’s draw is the Four of Hearts. This card…. is you. It is an indication of stability and shelter. Comfort. Home.

The cards are telling me that this lost and seeking feeling in my gut this morning is all about you. It’s time to come home. To my shelter. To my anchor. To you.

The cards are directing me to you.

Forgiveness

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Today’s meditation was 14 minutes and 35 seconds and focused on compassion.

The meditation was about not just creating compassion and a sense of non-judgment and one’s practice during meditation, but also in one’s life as a whole.

This is something that I personally struggle with as I constantly feel that I am monitoring myself, and judging myself in order to improve upon myself and my actions from day today, our tower, and minute to minute.

When it comes to myself, I’m a harsh taskmaster. Today’s meditation is a reminder that I need to be a little bit kinder and more compassionate to myself.

When reading from a playing card deck, it is a different kind of conversation than when using a tarot deck.

The way I was taught, the least amount of cards needed for a reading with a playing card deck is two (as opposed to one, when using a tarot deck).

The first card indicates the subject while the second card is for guidance.

The first card in today’s draw is the Queen of Diamonds. Diamonds indicate the area of money, resources, power, education, or success. The Queen of this suit represents an energy, personality, or person related to those topics.

The second card in today’s draw is the Queen of Hearts. Hearts deal with the areas of emotions, family, relationships. The Queen in this suit represents a mothering, empathetic, and healing energy.

I believe that this reading is a direct reflection on yesterday’s, where I wasn’t being quite so kind to myself concerning my finances, and my current financial situation.

The cards are telling me that as harsh as I was about my spending, I also need to be kind to myself and forgiving.

I haven’t broken the bank. I’m not destitute. I’m not going to be losing my home, or even miss mortgage payment or fall behind on my bills. So it’s time to be forgiving and cut myself a little slack for my recent past behavior in this area.