Today’s meditation was skipped.

Today’s draw is the Five of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, and hardships in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home life, or manifestation abilities.

Today, I get to have a peek at just how much money I need to build the shelves in my living room.  I’ve been looking at a variety of different options, but regardless of the options, the price range looks like it’s going to be somewhere between $550 – $700 which… is painful.

Funny thing? I often fall back on Amazon for less expensive options, but they were pretty damned expensive in this case.   Tomorrow, I’ll take some measurements in order to get a better idea of the exact length of wall I’m working with and then I’ll be able to narrow things down further.

The thing is?  All this pricing has made me feel pretty damn poor yeah?  I know it’s not the case, but so many times scarcity is in the mind and not reality… and this is one of those times.  I need to remember it’s not as bad as it feels in the moment.

DECK USED:  YIN-YANG CAT TAROT

GroundedInMagic’s #Lovers2022TarotChallenge Challenge Prompt
Questions for January 17th and 18th

What (from me) do others misunderstand as anger or self-righteousness when it is actually love?

Three of Cups – Your abstinence from drinking and drugs.

This one came full circle by the end of the day with a question posted on Discord asking about doing tarot readings while under the influence.

The thing is (and this is entirely my opinion), when you are reading for other people, those people are often extremely open to suggestion during their reading. I feel that when you hold that responsibility in your hands, you should be responsible with it.  That means being clear headed and mindful of the influence that you have over this other person, and careful to ensure you don’t damage them or their trust during those moments. Partaking of drugs and alcohol makes one… less responsible.  Not more.

That said?  If someone wants to partake and read for themselves?  I don’t see anything wrong with that as you’re not risking hurting anyone but yourself.  Not that self harm is okay, but its an entirely different level than carelessly hurting others that put their trust and well-being in your care when having a reading done.

Anyway… yep.  I see how this opinion can come off as self-righteous (or even as anger) to someone who doesn’t share my same viewpoints.

Nine of Pentacles – Using your own trials and successes as a way to try and encourage others. Although sometimes it can be inspiring? Other times it just comes off as “why the fuck are you being a whiner?”

This is, of course, not how it’s meant. But, that’s the whole point of this prompt. It’s about the things we say and do to express love (and in this case that love is in the form of encouragement) that can come off as something more negative.

What do I do that I believe is showing love to others, but is actually doing more harm and the good?

King of Wands – Providing opportunities for others, instead of letting them suss them out for themselves. You feel that you are helping, but it often boils down to the difference between teaching a man to fish or giving them the fish. Better to teach so that the man will never go hungry, than to hand it over and they learn nothing other than to depend on you.

Queen of Swords – Staying silent (usually to keep from hurting their feelings) instead of speaking up giving your opinion. Sometimes, even when you don’t mean to be, your words cut through the clutter and chaos, and can come off as sharp or harsh.  And sometimes?  That’s what they need in order to cut through all the bullshit and see things clearly.

DECK USED: YIN-YANG CAT TAROT

I ate my yogurt?  OH!   I also downloaded a task manager to see if it might help me in keeping up on the day-to-day self-care type of stuff.  I don’t have it set up yet, but I figured I would give it a try.