Coming Home
A warm welcome
as arms open
and the words
“C’mere”
welcome me home
into the sweet sanctuary
of your embrace
and the knots within
begin to untangle
and relax
as I breathe you in
and gentle kisses
soothe
the chaos
hidden in my soul
How strong is my network of support?
Path and Fox – Your network of support is structured not on brute strength, but on cunning and cleverness. They are there to step in when you need them, and let you walk your own path when you don’t. This works for you (and them) as you are not in need of babysitting or constant supervision, just clever people to help out when needed.
When do I need the support of those relationships most?
Woman and Clover – When you need help finding the carefree attitude that (to be fair) doesn’t come that easily to you to begin with. It’s something you need in your life, but are most often unable to provide for yourself. Others are able to step in and give you this, though, when you let them.
How can I maintain and sustain these connections?
Lily and Ship – Hang out with them. Enjoy their company. Let them pull you away from your responsibilities for a time and just chill. Have fun with them, and let them use their ability to lift you up to ease some of the weight of responsibility you often feel overwhelmed by.
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Magician, which is traditionally a representation of capability, potential, resourcefulness, action, and manifestation.
The heart in the imagery of this card feels like it softens the original context of the magician, turning cold ambition into heartfelt drive and incorporating into the card a desire to do good for oneself and others.
The message in today’s card is to make sure that you are acting with your heart as you go about your day today. The brain isn’t enough. Logic and intuition are formidable tools, but they aren’t enough. Make sure you are also consulting your heart.
#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th
What weighs you down?
Peony atop Hydrangea – The feeling that I am undeserving of abundance or self care in my life. This is an issue that I have struggled with throughout my life, although very much at the forefront over the past few years as I try to break old habits and be kinder to myself.
What lifts you up?
Fir and Nasturtium – Security and stability. When I feel I have a stable foundation, whether financially or intellectually, I then feel free to stretch and breathe. It gives me the confidence to know that as I explore my emotions and stretch into them, I have solid footing beneath my feet so that I won’t easily take a painful tumble.
The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th
I see progress here…
Three of Cups – Finding joy in spending time with others. I am… very much the Hermit in many ways, and I struggle to be social more often than not. It takes me a long time to feel comfortable “loosening up” around others, and even then I’m more likely to prefer my own company the majority of the time.
And yet, I have been improving on this over the past few years by finding ways to appreciate others in my life more and tapping into gratitude for their presence in my life and what their presence contributes to my life and my experiences.
Because?
Nine of Swords – I’m not worrying as much about things that don’t matter or don’t exist. Like many people, I am often guilty of a lot of a lot of Unhealthy Thinking Styles, and this is especially true when it comes to public perceptions directed my way. I am learning to use these Unhealthy Thinking Styles less, and trust more.
I have the strength to…
The Hermit – Know when alone time is healthy or unhealthy, and make the choice to use my alone time in more healthy ways.
Now l?
Nine of Pentacles – With this knowledge and ability, I have the opportunity to make healthier choices for myself that will assist me in my climb out of the pit instead of lingering in the shadows just past the pit’s ledge and never quite making it all the way free of the MDE’s grip.
I took a walk outside today while the others did casino stuff. It was just too loud and busy, and was really bugging me. So instead, I went outside and walked around, taking pics of the flowers in the flowerbed, enjoying their waterfall feature, etc.
My Summer Sun
It is with you
I find my peace
as your lips
brush my skin
and your arms coil
tight I am finally able
to take a breath
and let the knots
release
for you ease my soul
like the breeze
eases soft and warm
through the leaves
of summer trees
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world.
Today is the day that I meet up with Ms B and the message here is clear. It’s the same as the Emperor that Gideon’s deck threw at him where I was concerned yesterday. I provide a sense of security and stability for all three of the women that I’m traveling with right now.
Today is an easy day. Travel, and then getting settled. Nothing is open on Easter Sunday, and so it gives time to just get comfortable without the pressure of things to do. It allows them to settle, and allows time for calm and peace after. During this time, they look to me to help pave the way and make things go easier, help them settle and feel secure and stable so that we can start off on the right foot tomorrow.
For today? The King of Pentacles is me. I take care of the billing, the electronics, and the small inconveniences that help them to settle and be comfortable during this time.
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for The Devil – Day 17
What attachments can potentially hold me back from growing?
Ribbons – Having an addictive personality means that you can very easily get tangled up in anything that provides pleasure. Like the monkey that hits the button that stimulates the pleasure center in their brain again and again without restraint, you can easily fall into repetitive behaviors when you find something that gives you the “just right” level of dopamine to keep you coming back again and again for more.
How can I constructively move past blockages or stagnation?
Sex Magick – Lean into authenticity and lack of guile. Both with others, and with yourself. What do you really want? This card encourages you to please yourself, and in doing so those that matter will also be pleased.
The Tower – Day 18
What can use a do-over or a new beginning?
Goddess – Self care and treating yourself as sacred is something that you were working on, and then the holiday rush and subsequent new year depression stepped in and pulled you off track. Now that you’re climbing out of depression’s pit, a do-over or restart would be an excellent idea.
What needs to be torn down and parted with in support of my best self?
Oracle – How you view and interact with your spirit guides needs a bit of a rebuild. You are overcomplicating things. There is a better and easier way.
#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #3
You – Two of Swords – You are currently struggling to be decisive in your own life. There is a tug of war going on between your desire to chill and relax, and your desire to get things done that need to be done.
Your Goal – Page of Wands – Reconnecting with your passions, inspiration, and motivation. From the burnout of the holiday rush, you slide hed first into depression. You haven’t had a chance to reconnect with that inner spark in quite some time.
What’s Holding You Back
The Hermit Rx – Unhealthy alone time is holding you back. Time that is siphoned away in pursuits that are neither restful nor productive. This is an avoidance behavior that you will need to overcome to move forward.
Advice To Overcome What’s Holding You Back
Three of Pentacles – Lean into help from others in this area. As previous readings you have done indicate, others have the ability to lift you up and help kindle your spark of joy within. Welcome them in and let them help you instead of thinking you have to do everything on your own. The climb out of depression’s pit does not have to be a solitary endeavor.
I asked Ms B to do a bit of a skin check on my back for me. I’m not usually comfortable removing my shirt when others can see due to the good deal of scarring that I wear on my body, but I let her do a check of my back for me since I haven’t been able to get an appointment with a dermatologist to check me over in the past two years.
Defense Mechanism
Hidden thorns
concealed by leaves
slowly become
exposed
over time
as vulnerable stems
are bared
to the world
and I’m left
wondering
how it happened
that sharp tips
now protrude
to scratch
the flesh of others
