Breath Taking
Take a moment
to slide down
to ass on damp log
and let air
flow in
and out
as you catch
your breath
and stare up
through draping
bits of green
to watch
the golden glow
of day’s end
begin to fade
Pity Parties Are Not Productive
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victimized mentality.
The imagery in today’s car is about drama… so much drama. It’s about the idea that when you are too wrapped up in the drama, it can blind you to the truth of the situation and the world around you as a whole.
Don’t allow feelings of upheaval, self pity, and negativity hold you back from seeing the path forward. Take a moment to breathe and untangle yourself from the drama and upheaval it causes within you, so that you can look at things more clearly.
DECK USED: KITTYCORN TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 15th: Do Spread #2
Question: How can I foster more motivation to get things done in my life?
Reading Summary: There is a lot of color in the base card for today’s reading. The other cards in the reading are then bringing certain colors to the forefront in the base card. Usually it’s the base card that determines where connections in color lie and the satellite cards then work off of that base card. Here we see it is the other way around.
The Three of Wands in the Six of Wands connect on their own due to their similar color scheme, the arc of stars in each card’s background, and the fact that out of all the characters present in this reading they are the only two not looking directly at the viewer. This then connects with Sailor Moon herself and the skirt of the Sailor Mars character on the right. The combination of S Moon and S Mars, joined with these two cards, speaks of finding a balance between one’s inner compass and what social expectations.
The Magician is blue dominant, and connects with the Sailor Mercury on the left in Sailor Moon’s entourage. The two characters even have a similar smile. Sailor Mercury’s personality is quite timid, quiet, and peace loving. Connected to the Magician card, we see here a need to keep one’s ego in check.
Furthermore, the character in the Six of Wands it’s looking directly up into the Sailor Moon card and all of the characters collected there, drawing attention to the fact that comrade can be a powerful motivator. The Three of Wands, meanwhile, is looking away and towards the past as if to say you can’t depend on others for everything when following your own path.
Take Away: The answer in these cards is that in order to foster the motivation needed in your life right now, you need to not depend on yourself alone. Yes, some of it needs to come from within and with the knowledge that you are capable and strong, and able to reach for and accomplish the things you need to do. But there is also another part that needs the input of your social circle, the help of others in lifting you up and sparking that motivational fire within. It’s a balance of both that is needed here.
DECK USED: VINTAGE CARTOONS POSTCARD SET AND JAPANESE ANIME TAROT
The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 16th and 17th
What loss do you fear the most?
The Sun and Eight of Pentacles – I fear the depression coming in and stealing away everything that I’ve worked so hard for in life. It’s so easy when you’re in the pit and there is no light and it looks like there is no future for anything except the darkness you feel eating away at you inside to give in and let go. Should I give in and let go I would lose everything.
This isn’t about suicide, although I’ve had far more than enough of that urge in my past. It’s about giving up and just allowing the depression to swallow me whole, which in turn would cause my life to implode.
What is a better way to confront and/or deal with fear of loss?
Six of Swords and King of Cups – It doesn’t have to be a solitary value and you need to move away from a mindset that tries to convince you you have to do it on your own. Lean into those who support you emotionally and will be there to help you stay as balanced and stable as possible during these times.
DECK USED: KITTYCORN TAROT
I am playing catch up at the moment, so I don’t exactly remember what my self care was for today. It was my second day in my time off, though.
Lunar Eclipse In Scorpio Lenormand Reading
What are you being asked to release with this eclipse?
Whip and Sun – The concept of self flagellation is somehow good for you. Being cruel to yourself does not make you stronger, nor will it help you in becoming a better or happier person. Although this concept was ground into you in your youth, it’s time to let it go.
What are you invited to change or transform?
Scythe and Garden – Your balcony. You have all the plants needed to transform your balcony into the summer garden paradise that you grow out there each year, you just need to take the time to actually put in the work to get it done.
How can you confront your deepest emotions?
Woman and Coffin – Don’t wallow in the depression when it comes to wrap you up. Keep pushing back against it. Keep working to overcome it and get past it. It’s only through acknowledging it and seeking ways to get through it and beyond it that you can stop it from lingering on too long.
What will be revealed to you during this time?
Heart and Mountain – Keep your eyes open for those that are not invested in you other than in what you can do for them. The obstacle that they present in your life will hold you back if you let them.
DECK USED: PURE COLORS OF LENORMAND DECK
Gideon’s Challenge
A Gift of Sunshine
A gift of vibrancy
and bright cheer
sits on the table
very near
and every day
upon my waking
they say hello
and ease the aching
of darkness’ reach
and chronic pain
when sunny flowers
say hello again
thank you, my friend
for the beautiful and uplifting gift
even if you never see this
my appreciation knows no bounds
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – La Tempérance and Stars – Take your time this week when it comes to spending and stay on track with your plans. You know there are some large expenses soon to come, so be a bit more careful than usual with what you spend your money on this week.
Air – Le Jugement and Snake – You’ve spent a long time in the pit with that negative inner narrative whispering in your ear and no light to be seen. Make sure you are reaching for the light this week, and leaning into optimism and positivity, as it will help you heal from the damage done during the depression.
Water – L’impératrice and Chain – You’ll need a bit more connection to earth this week in order to find security and balance in your emotions, so make sure that you’re getting out in nature and spending enough time with bare feet to bare earth and your hands in the soil.
Fire – Nine of Swords and Keys – Things that often feel like a catastrophe are actually the key to opportunity. Make sure you are not catastrophizing things this week. Look for what the things getting your anxiety worked up about actually have to offer you.
Waning – Broom and Crossroads – It’s time to sweep away the old and choose a better path. There are more opportunities out there for you if you’re willing to wash away the stagnancy and reach for them. This week is not so much about the washing or the reaching, but about being aware of what’s possible and prepared mentally for that change in perspective.
Waxing – Book and Sun – Lean hard into a positive mindset an optimism. Seek out those that can help you in adopting this mindset and making it yours.
Take Away – Today’s week is all about practicing financial moderation and leaning into optimism in the face of adversity, as well as how leaning into that optimism can assist in improving my life in swath of different ways.
DECKS USED: LE TAROT AUX RAMURES ÉTRANGES, MYSTICAL MUSINGS ORACLE, THE WOODEN WILDERA LENORMAND
Self Inflicted Wounds
Today’s meditation was skipped.
Today’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victim mentality.
The figure in the imagery of this card looks as if she is injured and bleeding. There are thorns upon her bindings, and red taints the skin, hair, and even the thorns themselves.
The message in today’s cards is that when you choose willful ignorance, victim mentality, and other negative inner narratives, the damage goes beyond the moment and stretches into the future. Wounds are created and need time and attention to be healed. The longer you ignore the problem, the longer it will take to tend and heal these wounds.
Tend your wounds instead of ignoring them. Self care requires acknowledging what needs tending, and making the effort to resolve the problem instead of sitting in the misery.
DECK USED: LE TAROT AUX RAMURES ÉTRANGES
The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for May 14th: How am I different in romantic relationships?
Reading Summary: I need someone who I can learn from on an emotional level (Page of Cups), and who is okay with having differences of opinion as long as we’re willing to hash it out (Five of Wands). Someone that understands that alone time is important to my well-being (The Hermit).
Take Away: These cards are about sharing and trust. In a romantic relationship, I am far more trusting than I am with other relationships in my life. I need that trust between myself and my romantic partner. Trust that they will guide me without selfish reasons when I need guidance, trust that they will hash out differences with me when they arise. Trust that they will understand my needs and strive to help me in fulfilling them even when those needs might go against their wants.
Gideon fills all of these needs for me and is, in fact, my first and only romantic relationship. I’d have a lot of flings and did a lot of sleeping around before him, but I’ve not had another romantic relationship other than him… ever.
DECK USED: MAGIC FLOWER MOVEMENT TAROT
The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th
What card symbolizes the Spring Cleaning that I need to focus on?
Le Diable and Admire – You need to get going on the sorting and culling of your collection. This means that you need to go through things that need going through, donate what needs donated and get things organized in order to get the shelves up and get things going in that direction. You’ve put it off long enough.
How can I utilize this Spring Cleaning to my advantage?
L’amoureaux and Pursue – It will help you in getting on the right track to making positive and healthy choices for yourself in other areas of your life. Once you get the ball rolling, it will then begin to pick up momentum to continue forward on its own.
How can I support this cleaning process for my Greater Good?
As de Pentacles atop Reine de Pentacles, Depth – Dive in! Connect with your inner strengths that allow you to find your balance, and treat this as a new passion project as well as an opportunity to support yourself and make positive change. New and old will combine into something better.
DECK USED: COASTAL CURIOSITIES ORACLE AND LE TAROT AUX RAMURES ÉTRANGES
I had a lazy day today. Other than pulling cards, I haven’t really done much of anything productive with my day. I slept in. Enjoyed a nap. And just pretty much tooled around throughout the day.
