Walk In the Woods
Tenderhearted
tender soul
and tender footed
in the snow
a handful of tears
drip down my face
and knots unfurl
and an
oh so slow pace
but the fresh
crisp air
smooth and clean
eases almost
everything
Valentine’s Day Tarot Reading
How can I accept myself as I am today?
Nine of Coins – Take some time to look at and admire all that you have accomplished and recognize how well off you actually are. Give yourself credit for all that you’ve done.
What can I do to show myself love today?
Four of Cups – Meditate. Let go of your dissatisfaction and disillusionment. Accept that you have done what you can for today, and that it’s out of your hands now until tomorrow. Brooding on the issue is not going to help you, and is forcing you into an unhealthy state.
How can I best express my love today?
Hanged Man Rx, Seven of Wands atop Chariot Rx – Restrain yourself from going gung-ho into “fight mode”. You know you’re in the right, but getting up in arms is not going to resolve things any sooner. You will draw in more bees with honey than vinegar.
Something someone else does to show me love.
Page of Wands – They give you new and exciting things to focus on to take your mind off of the things that you can’t deal with right now. Gideon, in particular, has been working to distract you through your shared passions and new adventures you create together in your play.
Something that will bring more love into my life.
Three of Swords – Acknowledge your pain, sense of betrayal, and disillusionment, and then let it go instead of holding onto it so that it continues to bleed you. Don’t coil yourself around that pain, or it will continue to cut you over and over again.
DECK USED: LUNA’S LIGHT ANGEL TAROT
Do What You Can
Today’s meditation was skipped, although I settled in for some piriformis exercises and have been doing some deep breathing off and on throughout the day to work on keeping my anxiety under control.
Today’s draw is the Six of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of success, especially the sort of success that garners public recognition, people pleasing, high praise from others, and public accolades.
Although the figure in this card’s imagery is successful and holds their laurel wreath high, their head is bowed at an angle that suggests that their success is hard won and the weight of that battle weighs upon them.
The message here in this card is a reminder that you are not entirely helpless, even when it feels like it. Make those happy that you can. You’re limping, but not dead yet.
This is about the issues with Etsy, and a reminder that although I cannot reply to customer inquiries at the moment, renew sold out items, process returns or refunds, etc. I can continue to fill orders. It’s a reminder to do what I can until I can once more do everything needed.
DECK USED: LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #2
Topic: Current security issues with Etsy.
Reading Summary: You feel completely undermined (King of Pentacles Rx) at the moment and more than a little betrayed (Imagery in the Ten of Swords). It echoes back to how you felt with the PayPal debacle (Four of Cups atop Three of Swords). Take this as a time to chill (Four of Swords) until balance can be restored (Six of Pentacles).
There is a reminder in the color correlation between the Cups in the Six of Cups and the Coins in the Six of Coins, combined with the direction that the figure in the cups faces as if looking to the pentacles figure’s juggling. It is a reminder that just because you were treated so poorly in the past issue with PayPal does not mean you will receive the same treatment this time around.
The green in the Four of Swords bleeds into the bottom right corner of the Three of Swords, a reminder that times of struggle and disappointment are a time to take a step back. To rest, meditate, and recuperate from the shock and pain of the struggle, trial, or test you have been confronted with. This green then flows upward into the Ten of Swords, indicating that to not heed that need for rest can make things far worse in the end.
The orange glow that is shared between the Four of Swords and the King of Pentacles Rx then offers promise that taking the rest needed can help restore a sense of balance and groundedness, even when dealing with said trials, tests, and struggles.
Take Away: The cards have been saying this a lot over the past few days. Rest. Recover. Recharge. It’s hard for me to let go of control and ease myself away from an issue. I’m so geared towards picking at things until I fix them that not getting anywhere with the picking causes a lot of anxiety. I need to take a breath and step back, letting things sort themselves out in their own time. It’s much harder this time around than it sounds.
DECK USED: LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT
Lots of good crying in play with Gideon today. Heartrending stuff. But… I actually feel like I needed the cry, and feel a bit better after having done so.
Gideon’s Challenge
They Say…
Knocking on wood
brings extra luck
and wards off
bad fortune
and so it’s surely
the readheads
who have
the most luck
of all
with their constant
knocking
among the trees
in their sweet
and rapid tempo
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Eight of Wands and Regret – Go Now or you’ll regret it. This reading was done just before J dragged you out to a walk in nature, and these cards are an encouragement to get that nature time. You need it. You need more of it, so make sure that Saturday isn’t the only day you go out and spend some time among the trees.
Air – Ace of Cups and Patience – Be kind and patient with yourself and these emotions that have risen up. Remember that what you’re feeling is temporary, and will pass. It’s not the end of the world, even if it might feel like it right now, and in the end the good feelings will come back… you just need to have a little patience.
Water – Five of Coins and Mystery – Make sure you’re not allowing the unknown to feel like it’s the end of the world. You’ve been doing a lot of that lately. Your issues with uncertainty and instability are creating an overreaction and dooms day thinking.
Fire – Two of Hearts and Effort – Allow your loved ones to connect with you and help lift you up. Let yourself lean on them. It’s okay to need help when it gets too much for you alone, and right now? It’s too much. It doesn’t matter that it’s not physical work that’s overburdening you… they can still help.
Waning – Child and Mountain – There’s a lot of new things going on in your life right now that are blocked in one way or another. IKEA not having the shelves you need in stock, and Etsy’s security issues causing business problems while you’re trying to get things back on an even keel, being at the top of the list. These cards indicate that those obstacles are going to start easing up during this week, allowing for movement once more to resume.
Waxing – Ship and Anchor – The energy and feelings of finding “safe harbor” are coming. You need to focus on the things that will help further these feelings instead of allowing yourself ton continue to dwell on the “unanchored” uncertainty of feeling adrift.
Take Away – Subdrop and an approaching MDE… this situational depression overlapping these other issues is more of a struggle than I’m used to, even in the deepest of MDEs. I find myself struggling to function at all, when all I want to do is hide away, sleep, and cry.
Today’s reading is a road map to finding myself a better “place” to “stand” emotionally.
DECKS USED: LUNA’S LIGHT ANGEL TAROT, LOVE STORY ORACLE CARDS, CUTE LITTLE LENORMAND
No Hiding Allowed
Today’s meditation was skipped
Today’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a projective beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with going after one’s passions with a “all systems go” mentality, and diving headlong into those things that kindle one’s “inner spark”.
Situational depression is not an MDE. They are not the same. But they feel the same in the moment. And today? Today I spent a good deal of time with a “fort” of pillows around my head while burrowed under a blanket. J came over and forced my ass out of bed, dragged me out of the house and made me step in among the trees.
And it helped. I can’t say the depression still isn’t there, but it -did- help. Today’s card is about making sure I’m connecting with those things that light up my inner spark. Not just connecting with them, but getting my ass moving and DO them.
DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th thru 12th
What is one of your most positive qualities?
Ten of Swords – My ability to move on from painful experiences, understand and learn from them, and continue on from them without allowing them to keep me bound. As horrible as these experiences are, once they are over I am able to use them as a lesson rather than wallow in their aftermath.
How can you help this positive quality flourish in your life?
Queen of Swords and Knight of Wands – Don’t allow those hard times and troubles to convince you it’s the end of the world. Remember that if it’s something you truly believe in, there will always be another way to move forward and go after what you want.
And one of your least positive qualities?
Nine of Cups – Excitement and experimentation go hand in hand, but the joy is fleeting before I’m on to the next and the next. This means that I end up with a lot of skills and experiences, but very few of them “stick” over time if they do not provide enough challenge to keep me from becoming too content.
How can you utilize this least positive quality to your benefit?
The Hermit and Queen of Wands – Examine why you reasons and motives for picking up new projects and passions, and for setting them down. This knowledge is useful, but takes self reflection.
DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT
I went for a walk in the wetlands today.
Twisting the Leaf 