The Promise
Tucked beneath
green leaves
lies cool waters
waiting
patient and quiet
waiting for me
to slip in and sink
and let myself be
surrounded
as I’m pulled deep
into an embrace
soft and gentle
that promises
peace
Month: August 2021
Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Five of Wands and Cardamom – Obviously, I am still quite worked up over the whole PayPal thing that happened last week. The cards here indicate that I need to work on seeing beyond the feelings of being picked on and the injustice that I feel happened here, and move on to finding a clear path forward. Clarity is needed, and you cannot have clarity when you are still wallowing in shit or trying to stand your ground against impossible odds.
Air – Page of Pentacles and Yarrow – Again, we are on the topic of what happened with PayPal and how my emotions were affected by this event. The thing is though, the Page of Pentacles here indicates that working forward towards a better solution will serve me far better and the Yarrow promises that in doing this I will heal those wounds along the way. Focus forward… not back.
Water – The Magician and Basil – Through your emotional growth in journey, you have learned the tools you need to move past this issue and restore yourself back to balance once more. You need to lean on these tools that you have learned, instead of allowing yourself to fall into old, unhealthy habits. With depression knocking on my door, this vote of encouragement is about more than just my upset with PayPal, but also the onset of depression trying to creep up and drag me in.
Fire – Page of Cups and Lime – Be sure to introduce a mindset of creative play into your work and business, and it will help refresh your perspective and help you see your work in a new light so that it doesn’t once again begin to feel like a chore.
Waning – A Blessing of Airmid atop A Blessing of Dreams – Earthly concerns outweighing your dreams. Now isn’t a time to get weighed down. Daydreams and lollygagging are absolutely not just allowed, but essential.
Waxing – A Blessing of the Wild Within – Although your ankle is not yet fully healed, make some time to take an easy path through wooded areas that will let your true inner nature flourish. Spend some time lying in the moss and gazing up at a canopy of leaves overhead. Visit with those of the green and forest that come to greet you, drawn by that inner root that connects you with them.
Take Away – A large part of the message in this reading is that I need to let go of what happened with PayPal and work on easing the anxieties, worries, and depression that was triggered by the emotional upheaval I experienced. To do this I need to make sure that I am looking forward instead of wallowing, and making sure that I get out in nature so that I can have some time of grounding and healing among the earth and the green and those that rustle among the leaves.
DECKS USED: ANIMISM TAROT, THE ESSENTIAL OILS HEALING DECK, FAERY BLESSINGS CARDS
Depression Lies
Today’s meditation was skipped. Although I had intended to do it, things just got away from me and it didn’t end up getting done.
Today’s draw is the King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition. This often translates into authority figures that have an understanding and supportive nature that inspire you to stand strong, that give advice on emotional topics such as relationships when needed, and have a grounded, supportive air about them as well as a compassionate nature.
In my case personally, the King of Cups can often represent my partner Gideon. He has always been a very “King of Cups” type of person, very personable with others, a dominant personality that is both supportive and filled with strength.
Yesterday, I switched over from the How to Be a Wildflower Deck to the Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cards due to an awareness that I am struggling with the onset of depression. The Thera-Pets cards are geared specifically towards depression and anxiety, and will hopefully help keep me from sliding down that slippery slope into a full blown depressive episode.
As the Thera-Pets card says, depression lies. The advice between the two cards today is to make sure that you are checking in with those that you deeply trust for reality checks during times of low mood and dips into depression. Reach out to those that are supportive and offer strength for you emotionally. You need this support right now to help in keeping you from believing depression’s lies, and sinking deeper as a result.
DECK USED: WILD SPIRIT TAROT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAugustTarot #SOLTarot Prompt
Questions for August 21st
What am I asked to nurture in support of what I love?
Ivory and Ten of Wands
A huge part of the trick of not overwhelming yourself is making sure that you look at things prior to doing them, and prepare yourself so that you can act with a measured gait and poise rather than saying “I can do it”, and knowing from the start that you will have to scramble just to get it done.
What am I asked to work on in support of what I love?
Magenta and Queen of Wands
Diversify when it comes to your business. You’re still getting the warning not to put everything in one basket when it comes to your passionate pursuits. Clearly PayPal was not what this message has been warning you about since it’s still coming through even after shit hit the fan with them.
DECK USED: COLOUR GODDESS CASTING CARDS AND MYSTIC FAERIE TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self care this Full Moon?
Reading Summary: Use reflection on your past (Six of Cups and Judgement), and your newfound understanding of the separation between past and present (Queen of Cups and Six of Cups), to help you heal from past wounds (Six of Cups). Lean on others to allow you this time to process and heal, and for their support along the way (Three of Cups).
Take Away: For a very long time, the past dictated my actions and how I treated myself. As I have begun to understand this relationship with my past, I’ve begun being able to confront those unhealthy habits and destructive treatment of myself and deal with them in a more objective way. These cards are an encouragement to keep up this new perspective and not let it slip away.
DECK USED: WILD SPIRIT TAROT
Again, I took a nap today. I also spend some time outside on the balcony working on transitioning to end-of-summer.
Morning Bonus Read – Starting Something
The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
“This week, let’s do a reading about starting something.”
1. What is something you will need to start soon?
Queen of Clubs – Supporting my dreams and the dreams of others through my past experience and my personal inner drive.
2. What needs to be done before you can begin?
Queen of Spades – Pull yourself up “by your boot straps” and lean into your learned logic. Strategize how to deal with what’s to come and prepare the others.
3. What is the first step you need to take when it is time to start work on this?
Nine of Hearts atop Seven of Hearts – Connect with what you truly want so that you will not become overwhelmed.
4. What should you remember when working on this?
Ace of Clubs and Nine of Spades – It’s only temporary, but you have to go through the gauntlet to get the prize.
Take Away – The holiday rush is not here yet, but it will come whether I’m ready for it or not. Although the time to act is not yet upon me, the time to begin mentally preparing and getting my plans in place is beginning. The better prepared I am, the less horrible the experience will be for myself and others when it’s upon us.
DECK USED: MEOW STAR PLAYING CARDS
Deal With Today, Then Let It Go
Today’s meditation was skipped because it was a drive across the country day and I woke up late.
Today’s draw is the Queen of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s thoughts, intellect, logic, communication, or instinct. This often translates into themes that have to do with strong and supportive individuals that give spectacularly good advice based upon their own experiences and creative thought processes. They are willing to support your dreams, especially if those dreams involve broadening your horizons and education.
Z went home today after living with us for well over a year and a half. I drove her up north and took her over the border. Helped her get settled in at her place, then came back across for mail, et al. The border crossing was a bit harrowing, but she doesn’t have to quarantine, and thus can now care for herself now that she’s home.
It was a rough day. Lots of traffic and shitty drivers, lots of people with attitudes in stores and stops along the way (although, other than a crapload of paperwork, the border people were very nice today). The message in these cards is to own the day and be creative and clever in getting through it… and then at the end of the day? Let it go and look forward to something better out of tomorrow.
DECK USED: BROKE B TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
CoffeexTarot’s Who’s Your Spirit Guides? Prompt
Questions for August 20th and 21st
What are your limitations?
A New Sprout and Two of Swords
“My limitations come into the picture during the times when you’re in your power, have direction, and know what you’re heading towards with purpose. I’m not here for you when things are new and easy, that’s for someone else to deal with.”
How do I open myself to your guidance?
Stories of My Mother and King of Coins
Slow down and pay attention. (Said an a crotchety old grandpa voice. Southern accent.)
DECK USED: SPIRAL ORACLE AND BROKE B TAROT
I took a nap when I got home from my drive today, even though I didn’t really feel like I had the time for it.
Take Your Time
Today’s meditation was skipped (I think). I’m not entirely sure if I did it today or not, but I’m going to take it for granted that I probably skipped it since that’s the pattern.
Today’s draw is the Judgement card, which is traditionally a representation of looking back on one’s life to reflect on what one has done with it. This time of reflection is about the span of one’s life instead of any one particular incident.
Here in the imagery of this particular card, we see a man who is not reflecting on his past willingly, but is being forced to confront his past, the history he has created for himself, and what this has perpetuated over time.
The combination of this card with the “Smile, Breathe, and Go Slowly” quote on the affirmation card for today is a reminder that life is not a race, and when you rush you miss out on opportunities you would otherwise see coming. Opportunities to have a positive impact on the world, to enjoy life more, and to look back at the end of your life with more satisfaction instead of regrets.
DECK USED: ETRUSCAN TAROT AND LESS ANXIETY AFFIRMATION CARDS
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAugustTarot #SOLTarot Prompt
Questions for August 19th and 20th
How is my current space serving me in terms of where I want to be?
My current space is providing a more aggressive energy (Shark) for me to work with, to the point of setting aside grace for results (Giraffe).
(The Eight of Wands is an accelerant in this reading, feeding into that aggressive energy.)
This is about the upcoming holiday rush that is just around the corner and how what I do now influences how I will approach that season.
Essentially, I’m not getting prep work done and it’s going to cause a need for speed and aggression in order to keep up.
What can I do, shift, or alter to be in the best space for my goals?
Begin shifting your focus (Eclipse) off of the stuff that makes you feel good (The Devil), and onto what will be needed to make the holiday season go more smoothly (Lake).
This isn’t meant to be a fast switch, but it’s time to start the process of looking at what needs to be prepared. Sort of a prep for the upcoming prep period.
DECK USED: BUZZFEED ORACLE CARDS AND RICHIE RICH TAROT
#DiscordTarotholicsAug2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for August 19th and 20th
Use Care – Pure Delight and Knight of Pentacles – Take care not to count your chickens before their hatched. There are too many ruts in the road to know how things will turn out yet.
Be Carefree – Pure Voice and The Fool – Be open and carefree in expressing yourself and going after these things you wish to enjoy. Instead of looking forward, focus on enjoying the present whenever the opportunity to do so is offered.
What joy in my life needs more recognition?
Bravery and Knave of Chalices
You need to recognize how very open and courageous you are being in exploring and learning about your emotions. Walking a new path with them can be scary, but you need to look beyond the fear and acknowledge the boons this journey and growth are offering.
DECK USED: JOURNEY TO THE HEART ORACLE AND ETRUSCAN TAROT
I have no idea what my self kindness was for today since I’m playing catch-up and I forgot to write it down.
Twisting the Leaf 