Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal Cards

Emotional Balance

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Today’s meditation was skipped.  Yes… I know that last weekend’s Self Care Saturday specifically encouraged me to pick things up in this area, but there was just so much annoying shit going on and I couldn’t settle and do it.  I might do a short one before bed, though.

Otto Schmidt Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Queen of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, creativity, intuition, and relationships. Among other things, this often translates into themes that have to do with compassion and emotional support.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card is equally the swan, and that the look on the queens face looks very… clever.

These aspects remind me of the literary roleplay that Gideon and I used to do based on the Anita Blake series where we played were-swans and had a cove.  There was a particular player in the realm that wanted to come in as the queen of the swans, but we were concerned because she had a tendency to become overly emotional and allow it to screw with her roleplay as well as bleed over into screwing with other’s play and emotions.

The message here is that sometimes even those in charge have moments where their emotions are in control.  At times, this can be good and create a calm and comfortable, almost serene environment.  But only if there are checks and balances in place to make sure when emotions run  high things don’t get out of control.

When my own emotions run high?  I struggle a lot.  Today’s card, combined with the Thera-Pets card for the day, is a reminder that having an emotional moment (or hour… or day… or week) is not the end of the world.  At these times, find what anchors you (that foot the queen in the card still has on the ground) and use it to find your balance once more.

DECK USED:  OTTO SCHMIDT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Marching Into Darkness Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: When do I make others feel guilty, manipulated, or pressured into doing what I want them to?

Harmony Tarot

Guilty: When I am feeling discontentment in a relationship and the need is arising to re-establish or re-evaluate boundaries.  This card indicates that during these moments, I may feel tempted to use guilt to snap the other person to attention and  get things moving and the restructuring started. (Four of Summer)

Manipulated:  Times when I feel the temptation to use manipulation on others or make them feel as if I am are when I am trying to motivate people out of their moments of stagnancy and into a place of inspired movement, often by speaking to them and using what is important to them to drag them out of that stall and into action. (Dusk atop Knight of Spring)

Pressured:  When I am feeling pressure and the strain of upheaval, there are times when I can unintentionally spread that pressure and strain to others either through the projection of my energy, or through how I interact with them or the things I say. (Two of Winter)

DECK USED:  HARMONY TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is my greatest weakness?

Otto Schmidt TarotReading Summary:  The Tower and the Two of Wands are connected through color scheme and through the contrast of the Empress between them.  This speaks to me of bypassing the energy and themes of the Empress in times of chaos and trouble (The Tower).  Instead of focusing on self care and nurturing energy (The Empress), I focus on finding a way to move past the chaos as soon as possible (Two of Wands) even if it is at my own detriment to do so.

Take Away:  Distancing myself from chaos is a habit that has worked for me in many ways.  The problem comes when you have to run over hot coals just to add that distance and get away from that chaos.  Then, is it better to linger in the chaos and destruction?  Or is it better to run over the hot coals?

The cards here indicate that there are times when it’s better to linger in the chaos, allow the destruction to happen around you, and focus instead upon your own self care and nurturing yourself and those around you rather than seeking out the fastest escape plan.

DECK USED:  OTTO SCHMIDT TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I specifically and consciously chose to not reach out to someone in need of mental health support because I knew that I was personally not in a place in my own mental health where it would be healthy for me to do so.  Putting myself first in this manner is extremely difficult for me.

It Will Pass

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IMG_9804Today’s meditation was a bit different than normal because I felt like a change.  Instead of doing the next installment of the mantra meditation from the Oak app, I did an eighteen minute meditation using the water drops music that I enjoy and just allowing myself to drift.

While doing the meditation, I used the writing on the graphic to the right to give myself a bit of focus, allowing each drop of water to be a punctuation point on the saying and draw the words a bit deeper and deeper.

Not So Mystical Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of dissatisfaction, pessimism, and the tendency to only see failure and discouragement instead of looking at the positive side of things.

What I see in the image here goes along those lines, in that what I see here is frustration caused by seeing only the struggle and trials of a situation instead of what within that situation is still salvageable.

I’ve had a long few days trying to get myself together after confronting my anxiety over the border thing and playing catch up.  The whole stress and distraction sort of took over my life for a couple of days and now I feel like I’ve fallen behind on so much. Not just blog posts, but eating healthy and taking my vitamins, a large variety of things sort of “fell off the rails” for a few days.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message in today’s card is that even when things feel like they’re falling apart, there’s still some good in the situation somewhere.  Take a breath and remember that this moment isn’t the end of the world, it’s just a moment of frustration and struggle.  It will pass, and you’ll still be standing at the end of it all.

DECK USED:  NOT SO MYSTICAL TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

LionHart’s Whispering Woods Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: What does The Universe want me to create for myself right now?

Cat-Rot Tarot 2020 Edition

 Reading Summary: Stop forcing yourself to work so damned hard (Eight of Pentacles) and create balance (Justice) by creating more happy memories with L and Z (Six of Cups).

Take Away:  Introducing balance through being kind to myself is so hard for me, but that is essentially what is being requested of me here. I need to spend more time with Z and L.  Time that isn’t saturated in work and the business, but is about just enjoying each other’s company.  The cards here indicating that by neglecting these opportunities by focusing too much on work, I am missing out on something healing and balancing.

DECK USED:  CAT-ROT TAROT 2020 EDITION

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread #1

Not So Mystical TarotWhat do I need to let go of to ease my mind?

Seven of Pentacles – Stop worrying so much about how long things are going to take and just allow them to develop at their own pace.  Impatience is not going to work at making things move any faster.

What do I need to let go of to lighten my heart?

Six of Wands – Remember not to concern yourself too much about other’s expectations.  It’s not their judgements that matter, it’s your own.  If you focus on making yourself happy, they’ll be happy, because you’re your harshest judge and will exceed other’s expectations just to meet those you hold for yourself anyway.

What do I need to let go of to free my creative spark?

The Empress – Ground more and be kinder to yourself. Stop putting off the self care needs that you should be focusing on and doing.  Ignoring your needs and self care will hold you back from a full recovery as you climb, slowing you down and causing you to spend less time without the enthusiasm that feeds your creative spark.

DECK USED:  NOT SO MYSTICAL TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I spent nearly the whole day playing with Gideon today and it was… so fucking amazing.

A Glimmer of Imagination

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Today’s meditation was skipped because I fell asleep and took a nap instead.  Not that I meant to, but that’s what ended up happening.

Tarot Art Nouveau and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ace of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s intellect, logic, thought, and communication. This can often present in themes that have to do with new ideas, new was of communicating with others, new educational pursuits, etc.

In the imagery here, a man falls from the sky as the night looks on and watches him fall.  Wind swirls wildly about and perhaps it will pick the man that falls up and toss him around like a kite, giving him a chance to fly instead of plummet to the earth.

Sometimes new ideas need a bit of imagination mixed in to make them just right, and that’s the message I get from the imagery in this card today. Combined with the Thera-Pets card, this is a reminder that although I may not be feeling particularly imaginative or inventive at the moment, just a little glimmer of imagination showing through now and then is enough.  It’s still progress out of the pit… and even the smallest progress will keep me from becoming stagnant in my recovery.

DECK USED:  TAROT ART NOUVEAU AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Marching Into Darkness Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: Thinking back to times when I had a good thing but self-sabotaged, what kept me from embracing & enjoying these times?

Tarot of the Sevenfold Mystery

Reading Summary: Thinking that I can handle (Hermes – The Magician) much more than I can, and ending up juggling (Two of Pentacles) too much, then having to cut back when things get out of hand (Eight of Wands).

Take Away:  This is about my tendency to overfill my plate with responsibilities, when I am feeling good and in control.  Then something happens that leaves me having to cut back on things, drop the ball on others, etc. This tendency creates a cycle of self sabotage where I end up with a crapload of things unfinished and piling up in the background, or abandoned entirely.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE SEVENFOLD MYSTERY

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What makes me unique?

Tarot Art NouveauReading Summary: Taking my mothers influence (Three of Swords) and the qualities that I share with her (Queen of Swords Rx), and turning into into something positive (Nine of Pentacles).

Take Away: I would say that this is not the only thing that makes me unique, but rather is one of a variety of different things.   The thing is though, that this specific example does outline a quality of independence that I have always possessed.

I do things my way and make them work for me, and turn them into something positive that I can look back on and be grateful for.  I do this again and again, using my disappointment in my mother to take the qualities I share with her and turn them into something better.

DECK USED:  TAROT ART NOUVEAU

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How am I blocking my intuition?

Tarot of the Sevenfold Mystery

Reading Summary: You spend too much time worrying about becoming your mother, and not enough time spent grounding.

Take Away:  This is funny because the cards also mentioned this exact topic above in the previous reading. It’s about spending too much time focusing on uncertainty and instability, though.  It’s about making sure that I focus on making sure my own life is stable and secure instead of worrying about what has been left behind. That energy could be placed elsewhere to better use.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE SEVENFOLD MYSTERY

Daily Self Kindness

I napped.  Okay so I nap a few times a week but this was a really good nap. And earlier than normal, so I also got to spend extra time with Gideon as well.

An Essential Presence

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IMG_9703Today’s meditation was just over nineteen minutes long and was the next installment of the Meditation Mantra course being offered on the Oak app. The meditation began today with a bit of visualization first to help in times when getting into meditation can be a bit of a struggle.  I didn’t really enjoy the visualization part all that much, but I did find the rest of the meditation very relaxing and it continues to appear that the longer meditations I’ve been doing over the past week are something  respond better to.

Gregory Scott Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Pentacles, which is about moving beyond being content and satisfied in the area of one’s finances, manifestations, and physical world and moving on to sharing that good fortune with those closest to you so that it becomes something all can relish in and enjoy.

The family portrait aspect of this card is very original and interesting to me, and in the center you see the strength of the man who shares his wealth with his family.  This… is me. The safety and security I have made in my home life, financial life, and comfort I’ve built is shared with my sister and with Z.  Under my roof, they are also secure and cared for, comfortable and feel safe.  It is my role in this home to be the one that creates this… that earns this… and sustains it.

That theme ties in strongly with the Thera-Pets card for today, as it too speaks of how my presence matters, and the message here today is to remember not to take for granted that I matter to others.  I matter to them emotionally, and also on the physical plane.

DECK USED:  GREGORY SCOTT TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Marching Into Darkness Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: What unhealthy habits am I holding onto that hinder my growth and progress towards my goals?

Whimsical Tarot

Reading Summary:  The unhealthy habits in question aren’t thoughtlessly done, but rather they are done through making bad choices.  Bad… and conscious choices (The Lovers Rx).   This bad and conscious choice lies within my denial (Four of Cups) and my refusal to allow others to help (Three of Pentacles Rx).

Take Away:  This is about my depression and how my initial reaction is to pretend to the world like everything is fine when it’s really not, and refusal to allow others in to help me in my responsibilities.  Although I am working on this, I did briefly fall into that habit again with this last MDE.  I realized it, and eventually fought against it and forced myself to do things in a more healthy (and open) way.  It might be that this unhealthy habit is something that only repeated practice can truly break me of, but you’ll have to forgive me if I’d rather put off the next MDE for as long as I possibly can.

DECK USED:  WHIMSICAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I improve upon where I am mentally over the week ahead?

Gregory Scott TarotReading Summary:  Focus on the good and what makes you happy (Ten of Cups) instead of on your depression (Three of Swords).  Let go of your worries and anxiety (Nine of Swords).

Take Away: Worries and anxiety have been the theme of the past few days as I prepared for this whole border crossing thing.  The thing is that I used to do this all the time yeah? But I haven’t crossed in a year now, and with Covid there’s so many restrictions and extra paperwork and policies and… god it’s just hugely stressful.

The cards here also indicate that it’s now time to let go of the darkness of my depression. allow it to fade into the background as the light becomes brighter the higher out of the pit  I manage to climb. It has been my focus for a long time, self monitoring my progress and making sure I’m still moving and not stagnant.  The cards here indicate that is no longer necessary and to focus more fully on the light now instead of what I’m leaving behind.

DECK USED:  GREGORY SCOTT TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I wanted to skip my meditation today and get on the road, but I made myself do it because I knew it would help my anxiety about crossing the border.

Encouragement With a Touch of Sarcasm

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Today’s meditation was another in the series of courses on the Oak app for mantra meditation.  This one was just over eighteen minutes long and incorporated a bit more time in silence than in listening to the guide talk and instruct.  I found it very relaxing, although I have to admit I kind of miss my little water drops music.  I might try to incorporate that music with this type of meditation once I’m done with the course.

Denizens of Earth TarotToday’s draw is the Ace of Pentacles (One of Earth) which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings and new opportunities in the area of one’s finances, resources, home life, health, manifestations, or the physical world.

Sinapis Alpa (white mustard seeds) is often used in spellcraft for the protection of home and family against danger and the decrease of affection, as well as in healing the effects of discord in the home or between family members.

I really didn’t want to work to day.  Like…. really. Really didn’t feel it at all. But, I had to, because I have to ship out tomorrow and if I have nothing to ship out, then I have slew of unhappy people to answer to, yeah?  So… yeah.   And throughout the entire day my interest in working just got worse and worse.

The answer in these cards today is a little bit honest assessment, a little bit sarcasm, and a little bit sincere encouragement.   First of all, as if not wanting to work today is really any sort of hardship at all.  Right?  It’s just a mood.  There’s the sarcasm.

Second is the encouragement to get it done,  do what needs done because there are others that depend on you.  Without you doing your work? There’s no money.  And no money means no food, no heat, no roof.  So of course, practically thinking, whether you want to work or not, it’s not the end of the world that it has to be done.

The third is the encouragement about my nervousness in crossing the border to see my accountant tomorrow.  There’s a lot of stress and anxiety going on there and I just hope to fuck that I got all my paperwork done right and don’t have to deal with any customs officials having a bad fucking day.

DECK USED:  DENIZENS OF EARTH TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Where am I at mentally at this time?

Denizens of Earth TarotSix of Air (Swords) – Chamaenerion angustifolium (Fireweed) has significant anti-inflammatory properties that are useful in a variety of field uses from easing gastrointestinal discomforts to first aid treatment on scrapes and bruises and even certain types of arthritis.  Here we see that it is combined with the Six of Swords, indicating that the aspect of my current mental state that this card is referencing has to do with the “inflammation” of stress that has been bothering me the last couple of days as I prepare for this upcoming border crossing.

Guardian of Water (Knight of Cups) atop Four of Water (Cups) – The powerful precision and strong will of the Great White combine with the desire driven direction of the Knight of Cups over shadows the healing and cleansing energy of Salvia officinalis (common sage) shown here with the Four of Water indicating healing comes through meditation and calm rather than excitability.  These cards contrast in their themes and indicate the war within me at this time between my need to meditate, ground, and cleans myself of the anxiety mentioned above… and the determination to move forward in the direction I want to go… feel that I need to go.

Temperance – Although the two energies mentioned above are contrasting to each other, they are also able to work together to my benefit.  Driven energy and healing calm can intertwine like the working of mind and heart as one, and create something even greater than either can on their own.  Take a moment, think and breathe, and allow this intermingling to happen.  In doing so, I will find a far calmer and more beneficial mindset moving forward.

DECK USED:  DENIZENS OF EARTH TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took some time at the farm this morning to lie down in the field and just relax after my shift was over.  Of course, I made sure that I was in a field that was not being worked for that day (safety is important).  I made sure I wore extra layers so that I could linger for some time and ended up spending about a half an hour before I was too cold to stay any longer.

Even the Strongest Pace Themselves

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Today’s meditation was skipped as the girls just would NOT let me have some time alone to get it done. I may try to do a ten minute shortie before bed though.

Lazy Crow Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, home life, health, manifestations, and the physical world.  This often translates into themes about taking charge of one’s finances, responsibilities that come with wealth, and stepping in as the head of the household.

What really stands out to me in the imagery of this card today is the grapes and the skulls.  It’s not surprising that the card would contain thriving grapes winding their way through the imagery as this card is a strong indication of growth, maturity, and abundance.  The skulls were a bit more of a surprise though, and together they give the impression of hardass ruthlessness to me. The whole “my way or the highway, or heads will roll” sort of thing.

When combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message that I find in these cards is that sometimes you have to straighten your spine and take control even when, perhaps, it isn’t what you’d prefer to do.  In those times, it’s still okay to do your best, but not over tax and overwhelm yourself to the breaking point.  Even leaders need to breath and even the strongest authorities can’t wring blood from a stone.

Do what you can, and it will be enough.  The only authority you have to impress is yourself.  So lower your expectations to a realistic level and interject a bit more understanding into that push for more.

DECK USED:  LAZY CROW TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Marching Into Darkness Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: How do I allow the negative thoughts or words of others to affect me? How might I change my reactions to that?

Paulina Tarot

How do I allow the negative thoughts of others to affect me?
Eight of Pentacles

The Eight of Pentacles here is a reminder that you have been working with this particular issue with your therapist ever since your face was scarred.  You are not psychic and cannot read minds, thus the issue here is “mind reading” of the psychotherapy variety.  When you were first scarred, you did a great deal of this, interjecting your feelings about how you felt concerning your appearance into what you believed others thought of you when they saw your face.  After many years of working with your therapist on this issue, it is no longer a huge issue.  You know how to deal with it when it rises up, and have become an “old hand” in this area at making sure that you do not assume what others are thinking about you, often by asking outright when needed.

How do I allow the negative words of others to affect me?
Five of Cups atop The Emperor

This, unlike perceived thoughts, is something more solid and can affect you in a negative way when you let it. The key words there (as indicated by the Emperor) are “when you let it”.  Sometimes people’s negative words don’t affect you at all, at other times they do. This is about how strong and in control of yourself that you feel in the moment, but has nothing to do with them at all.  When you are feeling vulnerable, people’s negative words can affect you intensely and cause hurt feelings, melancholy, and dissatisfaction. When you are feeling strong, on the other hand, they don’t affect you at all other than in an analytical “examination of if there’s truly an issue” sort of way.

How can I adjust my reactions to something more healthy?
Death atop Two of Pentacles

The horses here in these two cards combined with the mutual direction they face indicate movement forward into the future.   The death card is a reminder that all things change with time, whereas the Two of Pentacles beneath it indicate that you have the ability to control certain aspects of your life throughout the process of those slow shifting changes and direct your energy how you wish.  The message here is to “keep on keeping on” and allow the feelings stirred up from negative words to slide off into the past as you continue forward into the future.  Leave them behind and keep going, as it is not their judgements you need to worry about.

DECK USED:  PAULINA TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsMar2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: Is patience and inherent virtue, or is it learned behavior?

Lazy Crow TarotReading Summary: Patience is used in order to get what we want (Knight of Cups), seize control of our lives (The Chariot), or wait out the impetuousness of others (Five of Wands).

Take Away: Patience is not something we are born with but something we learn.  It is a method of behavior that is learned in order to mold the world around us into something more in line with what we want out of life. Some learn through experience that being brash and loud and impatient gives them what they desire.

Others learn that patience has the rewards they want without the need for conflict and chaos.  This is something learned through experience and observation of others.  Thus, patience is not something we are born with, but is learned behavior.

DECK USED:  LAZY CROW TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I dusted off the coffee table, which is much more of an endeavor than you might think because my coffee table is about the size of a small dining room table and it’s filled with decks and jewelry making supplies as well as an adhesive workstation, etc.  So there’s a lot of organizing and shuffling stuff around involved in the process.   The dust there has been bugging me for a while tho, and no one else will touch it because they fear relocating something I need and then won’t be able to find when I need it.