tarot self care

Reassess and Reapproach

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Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was relaxing despite the fact that it was an order day and I had a lot of crap to get done. I think that I just needed a break and the meditation gave me some time away from thinking about everything I had to get done so that I could relax and breathe. Usually, having a lot to do creates an opposite effect, so this was a nice change.

Herbal Tarot - The Tower - GarlicToday’s draw is the Tower card, which is traditionally interpreted as having to do with sudden change and the chaos that ensues when sudden change takes place. Unlike the Death card, where the change is gradual and organic, in the Tower card the change comes on suddenly and without warning, often with destructive force.

What stands out the strongest to me this card today is the red sky and the flames. It speaks to me of the type of chaos that is hard to recover from.  The type of chaos and destruction that feels like the end of the world.

Combined with the Garlic in this card, which is a representation of ostracization and time spent away from others to reconsider… and restructure.

It’s in the combination of these themes that I find the message in today’s card.  Sometimes when I am trying to restructure and rebuild (as I am now) it can feel like nothing is going right and everything is fucked up.  In these times, it can be a good idea to step away… take a breath… and reassess.   Consider the situation, and consider coming at it from a different angle.   The message here is about that different angle and is an encouragement to reassess.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: Where am I being invited to recognize the beauty in myself, my life, and the world?

Tattoo Tarot Ink & Intuition

Beauty in Myself – The Hermit signifies that it’s time to respect that you need alone time now that you’re able to get it again and how healthy that alone time is for you. This message came through on the Tarotholics spread that I did as well, and there is a reminder here that I need to make sure I’m getting the alone time I need as a part of taking care of myself and my well being.

Beauty in My Life – The Eight of Wands indicates that it’s important to recognize that my purpose will go on and continue, even if I’m not pushing things forward every step of the way. This perpetual motion is natural and creates space for other pursuits and interests.  There is beauty in this.  In the ability to “coast” between pushes and allow other interests and passions room to flourish in those times in between.

Beauty in the World – The mystery of the High Priestess speaks of the fact that in order to see beauty in the world you need to see with your intuition, and not your logic. The beauty is there but it’s not in your face… it’s beneath the surface and requires reading between the lines.

DECK USED:  TATTOO TAROT INK & INTUITION

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: As an adult, where am I neglecting myself at this time?

Trippin' Waite TarotReading Summary: Meditation (Eight of Cups). And moving forward (Three of Wands) with the nurturing and self-care (Queen of Pentacles).

Take Away:  Right.  So… I’ve been slacking on the self care a bit lately.   Not just the meditation, although the cards call me out on that specifically here.   But also on some of the self care things that I normally do like the weekly soaks in the bath for example and the extra stretching that comes along with the meditation that I’ve not been keeping up on. I’ve also been slacking a bit on my daily devotional. All in all, these are things I need to pick back up on and do rather than think about and then “meh” out of again and again.

DECK USED:  TRIPPIN’ WAITE TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: Where would I benefit from taking more time?

Golden Girls Tarot

Reading Summary: It’s time to slow down on your ambition and drive (Knight of Wands), and spend some more time focusing on being nurturing to yourself (The Empress) and enjoying what you have (Nine of Pentacles). Have some faith that you have everything in hand (The Chariot) and can afford the break (Nine of Pentacles on top).

Take Away: This wasn’t really a surprising result for this reading as this has been pretty much the theme of my personal readings for the past week or so.  The constant reminders are actually a good thing, as they help to keep me on track.   As is the reassurance that now is the time of year when I can afford a break and that everything is well in hand.

DECK USED:  GOLDEN GIRLS TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I better connect with my family?

The Crystal Tarot

Reading Summary: Be supportive (Ten of Pentacles) and make the choice (Two of Swords) to see the good and wallow in it (Nine of Cups). Don’t let harsh words or irritation steal away that pleasure (Seven of Swords).

Take Away:  The choice to enjoy and wallow is signified by the Two of Swords in this reading because that choice is extremely difficult for me.  Even when the choice is made, actually following through is still very much a struggle for me when it comes to letting to and just enjoying.  (Wallow, btw, comes from the over-spill of liquid from all the cups.)

The cards here indicate that I need to appreciate the good and practice gratitude, be supportive with my family, and not allow their negativity and negative (sometimes painful) qualities to pollute the good I find.

DECK USED:  THE CRYSTAL TAROT

A Slice of The Pie… Not the Whole Pie

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Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was very peaceful and quiet. Uneventful. I even managed to get through both meditation and yoga without an interruption (which is unheard of). I think the fact that I wanted to avoid working helped in my favor to be honest.   But, I did eventually get my ass in gear and get done what I needed to do so… all’s well.

Herbal Tarot - Two of Wands - BasilToday’s draw is the Two of Wands, which is traditionally interpreted as themes to do with planning and making decisions concerning one’s drive, ambitions, passions, and interests.  This can include the discovery of a direction that interests you and the planning stages that go into heading in that direction.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the world that the figure holds in his hand, and the small leaves sprouting from the two wands. These small leaves on the wands connect this card to the Ace of Wands, blending the spark of new life and discovery with the movement of progress and growth. The world in the hand of the figure on the card is a representation  of unlimited potential, but also that you have to pick a slice of the pie… not the whole thing. Because no one can have the world all for themselves, but anyone can have a sliver of it all their own.

That is where the message lies in today’s card.  In potential. When you start out on a new path, sometimes there is an eagerness to leap ahead, and other times there is fear and caution. This card says neither is the path is the one to success.  The path to success requires planning.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I bring more laughter into my life?

Sawyer's Path Tarot

Reading Summary: Slow down (Knight of Pentacles), involve others (Three of Cups), and count your blessings (Five of Cups).

Take Away: This reading has to do with stopping to smell the roses, and is another iteration of telling me that it’s time to take some time for myself. To lighten my load and slow down, and enjoy the things and people that are around me rather than spending every waking moment constantly pushing for performance and progress.

When you are in that mindset, it’s hard to see all of the things in life that you have to be grateful for. You’re too busy to savor them, but instead give them no more than a passing glance as you go about your way. To instill more joy and laughter into your life, you have to be willing to go at a slower pace and focus on those people and things that bring you joy… you have to be going slow enough that you can take the time to savor these people and things.

DECK USED:  SAWYER’S PATH TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread #3
How can I ease myself into the slow down that the cards keep telling me I need to do, and that I know needs to take place?

Linestrider TarotReading Summary: The change needs to be gradual (Death), and will require self-love (Queen of Pentacles Rx) and the conscious choice (The Lovers) to ignore the chaos (The Wheel).

There is a connection between the Queen of Pentacles and the Wheel of fortune within the tattoo on the Queen’s shoulder and its matching of color and design to the Wheel’s imagery. This speaks of the need to approach the wheel and its constant transitions in a calm and nurturing manner. Accept this chaos as a part of life, rather than letting it run your life.

There is also a connection between the Death card and the grouping of the Lovers with the Wheel of Fortune. The colors of splatter in the death card connects it to the combination of these two cards, speaking of patience… time.  Death is about organic change and organic change is gradual and not sudden. This means that the choice to take this path and make the choice to ignore the chaos, I have to accept it won’t be a quick fix or an immediate change. There will be slip ups and struggles and mistakes made along the way, and only through time will I get where I want to go… not by pushing for it to happen faster.

Take Away:  Check my impatience at the door, no matter how tempting it is to try and push forward or plow ahead. Kindness to yourself and developing new habits means repetition, time, and mindfulness toward the direction you wish to go. You make the choice, and then you make it again… and again.  You make it so many times that it becomes a habit to make that choice, and then it becomes mindless and you do it out of rote rather than conscious thought.  It is a long road… not a sprint.

DECK USED:  LINESTRIDER TAROT

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: Use today’s draw as a reminder of where you are in life.

Japaridze Tarot

Reading Summary: All this intellectualizing (King of Winds) and weighing out the pros and cons (Justice)… doesn’t change that you’re still at the beginning of your emotional journey (Ace of Tides).

Side Note: I really like the Justice card in this deck. The imagery really speaks to me of the balance and justice, and how one’s perception of justice can turn one way or the other depending on which side of the line you’re on.

Take Away: I am at the beginning. The growth spurt that I felt beginning last fall is still at its infancy. Picking it apart and weighing it out helps me to understand what I’m going through, but it doesn’t change where I am along that path… I am at the beginning of a very long journey. What it does is give me more to work with as I fumble my way in the dark.

DECK USED:  JAPARIDZE TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is the current health of my relationship with Gideon?

Bleu Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Supportive (Ten of Balls), filled with emotional pleasures (Ace of Fishes), as well as protective and persevering (Seven of Plants).

Take Away:  Looks pretty good to me. We are at a place where we are able to enjoy and share in each other and feel stable and secure in doing so. Everything continues to feel both brand new and yet familiar and comfortable at the same time. And… I feel safe.  Protected and cared for.

DECK USED:  BLEU CAT TAROT

 

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Self Care Saturday Tarot Spread

Earth – Page of Pentacles, Tower Rx, Home Is Where You Are – You don’t need a catastrophic mentality to keep things on an even keel. Make an effort this week to not see everything as “on the precipice of disaster”, but instead acknowledge that you have everything well in hand.  Untie some of your knots… because right now in this present moment there’s no fires to put out and no need to panic.

Air – Ten of Wands and Here We Are – The overwhelm has been building for quite some time as more and more “children of the corn” keep popping their heads up out of the field to grab your attention. None of these “children” really need your attention though, so stop letting them distract you.

Water – Five of Swords and Get On Your Feet – The fight is not yet over and now’s not the time to rest. In the position of Water, this message is about my emotional growth and not about my work or my ambitions.   The message here is that while I’m easing up on these other topics and endeavors, the work with my emotional growth will be ongoing.

Fire – Hierophant and Follow The Wind – In the New Moon spread shown in my previous post, you also had the Hierophant. There it spoke of the need to tackle head-on where you are feeling overwhelmed in your “roles”… and here with the “follow the wind” card there is a message of needing to let go.

I think I’m going to skip this month’s lesson, which I should be teaching on Wednesday of this week.   But honestly?  I’m just not feeling it and the cards in both of these spreads are saying to “let go” at this time rather than struggling when I’m not feeling it.

Waning – Generosity – It’s time to take that generosity with your time and attention, and turn it inward to yourself.  You give more of yourself than you realize, and you’re tapping yourself out.  Take the time you need to rest, recover, and regenerate.

Waxing – Introspection – As you move away from offering so much of yourself and your time to others, don’t fill that time and energy up with other external distractions.  Instead, take time to focus on yourself.

Take Away – Tell your inner critic to shut the fuck up, step away from the responsibilities that you can afford to ease up on, and take some time for yourself this week. Don’t allow bullshit worries created by your inner critic to distract you back into those things you’ve committed to easing up on… it’s a trick, and will just lead to overwhelm and burn out.

DECKS USED:  TAROT FOR DANDELIONS, SALMON ADVICE ORACLE VOL 3, CREATIVITY ORACLE

Inspiration and Warmth

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Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and I was a little distracted because I think I’ve devised a plan to make more room for my decks.  I know, I know.  Not what I should be thinking of during meditation, but it kept popping into my head.  SO…  I suppose you could look at it as that I got a lot of mental push ups done during those ten minutes as I kept bringing myself back to center.

Herbal TarotToday’s draw is the King of Wands, which is traditionally interpreted as a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, ambitions, interests, and drive.    This often translates into themes that deal with inspirational leadership, authority mixed with an entrepreneurial spark, and vision one is on a path of leading others towards.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card is the cinnamon plant combined with the very strong look of determination on the face of the figure on the card and the fact that he is facing (to my way of reading right and left) the past.

Magically speaking, cinnamon is used to create a spark of inspiration and warmth, and what I see in the direction that the King faces here is that sometimes you have to look to the past in order to find the strength you need to move forward… and lead others forward with you… into the future.

The message here is about learning from the past instead of discounting it or trying to forget it.  The wise leader does not ignore lessons learned or potential lessons in their past, instead they take these experiences and move forward with them, letting them help and guide his steps and… in turn… the steps of those that follow them.

Although I do not really consider myself a leader, I do consider myself a guide and I enjoy helping others find their own personal path and discover what works for them and fits for them.  This means I don’t seek to create conformity, but rather to inspire… and I use my past experiences in many different ways to help in this goal.   Today’s card is an encouragement, and a reminder, to continue along this path with warmth and inspiration.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#TarotForGrowthJune Challenge Prompt
Question: What toxic beliefs would I benefit from releasing?

Happy Tarot

Reading Summary: You need to take some time and reflect (Hanged Man) on the fact that you don’t have to be perfect all the time (Six of Wands).  Better to own your mistakes and transform them into strength (Queen of Cups).

Take Away:  The belief I need to release is that deeply ingrained need to do better and be better all the time.   The problem is that in that drive is the inner critic that makes sure that any time I fall short from these impossible standards, I pay the price for it.   The cards suggest to take a more understanding and caring approach, and ease up on that demand for perfection from myself.

DECK USED:  HAPPY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Tarot SireneReading Summary: It’s time to start moving in a direction (Three of Wands) that fosters your passions (Queen of Wands). This means that you might have to make some difficult choices (Two of Swords, and deal with a bit of sacrifice concerning your need for stability (Five of Coins).

Take Away:  A lot of the readings over the past few days have touched on this need to let go and allow myself some room to breathe and time to have some fun.  Here there is encouragement that now is the time.  The energy of the new moon gives a chance to start again, and I need to utilize that energy to move away from the slave driver mentality concerning my business and into an energy of more fun and enjoyment while things with the business are slow.

DECK USED:  TAROT SIRENE

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: Instead of starting something new, what is something current I could focus on this new moon cycle?

Nicoletta Ceccoli Tarot

Reading Summary (left to right):  It’s time to put an end (first card) to the slave driver mentality you saddle yourself with (second card), because overwhelm (third card) puts you on shaky ground (fourth card) and is not your friend (last card).

Take Away: These cards are pretty much a reiteration of what has been coming up over and again throughout the past few days. The cards have given me this answer in different imagery and different phrasing again and again.  I’m doing my best to listen, and to direct my energy away from obsessing over my business and onto other things… it’s just a struggle to achieve and feels like two steps forward for every one step back.

DECK USED:  NICOLETTA CECCOLI TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What am I grateful for?

Tarot of the Animal Lords

Reading Summary: That the cycle of life (imagery in The Wheel) may take me through many changes and a lot of chaos (The Tower), but it also provides me with a new perspective for each experience I have (The Hanged Man).

Take Away:  Sometimes I forget just how grateful I am for this quality in myself to take the negative aspects of what has happened in my life and turn them into a perspective that allows for positive growth.  Occasionally, though, I run into someone that seems determined to wallow in the feelings of negativity and victimization that horrible events can create, and I realize anew just how glad I am that I am not able to linger in that place. I think that my life is far better for it.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ANIMAL LORDS

 

Stability For All

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As I mentioned in the post for the 18th, I’m in the process of catching up, although I do remember what happened with today’s meditation.   It was skipped.  I wanted to get on the road to head north for my mail as early as possible, so instead of lying down and risking falling asleep in the middle of my meditation, I skipped it.  I then played with you when I got home until I was dead tired and dropped right to sleep at bed time. So… no meditation today.

Herbal TarotToday’s draw is the Ten of Pentacles, which is a representation of fulfillment and completion in the areas of finance, resources, manifestation, health, and the physical world.

What stood out to me the strongest in the imagery of today’s card was the root (fruit) of the Wild Yam plant on the card.  Dioscorea villosa is a spiritual representation of releasing fears and using one’s talents and skills to better better not just your own position but to help others as well.   What I see here, though, is more than that.  The fruit of this plant holds strength in the soil.  It is the foundation itself that is strong, and where its strength lies.

The message that I see in today’s card has to do with building your own foundation, and using it not just to provide stability and comfort for yourself… but for others as well.  It is a message about cherishing those that are closest to you, and supporting them the best that you are able using the strengths that are at your disposal.

I have worked hard to manifest this stability in my life for a long time, but I have not taken the opportunity until recently to really appreciate the fact that I also provide this stability for others.   Today’s card is a reminder that I’m doing a lot more than I realize.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: What can I do to help my inner adolescent feel heard and understood?

Tarot MoodReading Summary:  More fun (The Sun) combined with the assurance of slow and steady stability (Knight of Pentacles).  Don’t let uncertainty (The Moon) turn you harsh and your inner critic vicious (Queen of Swords Rx).

Take Away: As I’ve mentioned before, I don’t really have much of a connection with my inner adolescent, but I see the sense in the approach that the cards lay out here for me.  Who doesn’t want a little more fun, and who (when feeling vulnerable) doesn’t feel the need for a slow but steady hand?

DECK USED:  TAROT MOOD

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: What should I take to heart right now?

Tarot of Metamorphosis

Reading Summary:  Being bossy and commandeering (Chariot) is not going to get me to a place of stability and security (King of Pentacles).  Resist reacting to instability (The Wheel) and follow your intuitive voice instead (High Priestess).

Side note:  I get a good chuckle out of the Chariot card in this deck every time I see it.  The blond is like “Pull my hair again and I’ll eat your face off!!” while the brunette is like “OOhhh, I wish he’d pull my hair like that”.

Take Away:  I need to let up on myself for a bit.   I need to let myself coast for a bit and ease back on the grip on those reigns.   It’s a good time to do it, being that I’m sliding into my slow season with the business. The Wheel card in this reading refers that the ups and downs of my business and how I sometimes freak out when things slip into a lull, but the cards indicate that a lull is just what is needed at this time.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF METAMORPHOSIS

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my hardest lesson?

Tarot of a Moon Garden

Reading Summary: Self-love (Ace of Cups Rx), and not deceiving myself into thinking things are bad (Three of Swords) when they’re not (Nine of Cups).

Take Away: I often use my fear of instability and inadequacy as a drive to push myself forward and prod myself into doing more and working harder, especially in times when I really need to take a break but don’t want to let go enough to allow it.  The cards here indicate that my hardest lesson is loving myself enough to recognize I don’t need to use these methods, and I can ease up and be kinder to myself.  I am aware of the lesson I am being asked to learn… it’s just the act of actually learning it, taking i to heart, and putting it into action that I’m struggling with.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF A MOON GARDEN

 

Strength and Resilience

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I’m playing a bit of catch up for the blog posts at the moment.  Being that I’m writing this a couple days behind schedule, I can’t quite remember what my meditation was like on the 18th, but I know that I did meditate.  It’s tomorrow when I skipped it.  So… just a little note to heads up that it did happen, I just don’t remember much about it at this point.

Herbal TarotToday’s draw is the Page of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s passions, ambitions, interests, and ideas.  The wands suit also sometimes is interpreted as the journey of one’s spirit.

Today this card reminded me of that line in the “Sam I Am” song, that goes “Second verse, same as the first…”  I guess that this could be said about any of the Pages, as that is a part of that receptive omega energy that there is a learning from what has come before and beginning to put together how to carry that knowledge forward into a new cycle of experiences.

In the imagery of this card, what stood out to me the strongest today was the Shepherd’s Purse plant… especially the leaves at the base of the plant. Capsella bursa-pastoris is a very common weed in this area and it is also edible.  When the leaves are young, they are very good in salads.  As they age, their leaves become more peppery in flavor and there are many good recipes (especially in Southeast Asian cuisine) that use the plant as an integral part of their recipes. It is believed on a spiritual and magical level to foster fortitude and inner strength.

The message in today’s card is about repeating cycles.  Sometimes when we learn lessons or strike out on a journey, we end up right back where we were before… just with more knowledge under our belt the second time around.   It’s important, in these times, to remember that you wouldn’t be there if you weren’t strong enough to have made it there. And that means you’re strong enough to take that knowledge you’ve learned and apply it to your forward movement so that you can do things differently (and better) the second time around.

Sometimes, I forget this. At those times it can feel really tiring and trying to find yourself back at the beginning again (or what feels like the beginning).  Today’s card is a reminder that this is not the same beginning as the first time.  This time, you’re more prepared.

DECK USED:  HERBAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2020 Challenge Prompt
Question: How can I help my inner adolescent in letting go of their unresolved angst?

Tarot of Passing ShowersReading Summary:  It’s important to keep a calm level head (Queen of Swords) and remember all the good that you have in  your life (Nine of Pentacles) and have accomplished (Eight of Pentacles) rather than flying off the handle impulsively (Knight of Swords).

Take Away:  The cards appear to be indicating that if I want to help my inner adolescent in letting go of unresolved angst, it is through comforting that inner adolescent and assuring them of our resilience that will do the trick, rather than allowing that angst to break free.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF PASSING SHOWERS

#TheJuneTarot Challenge by Lionhart
Question: Draw one card to reveal a lesson that this retrograde phase wants to teach you.

Tattoo Tarot Ink & IntuitionReading Summary: Choose the path that offers you assistance, or crash and burn alone on your own.

Take Away: The lesson that mercury retrograde wants to try and teach me this time around is that sometimes you have to look up and look around when things start going down hill.  There’s help… but you have to actually notice that its there and reach out for it.  Otherwise, that downhill  momentum will continue and you’ll continue on… miserable and on your own.

DECK USED:  TATTOO TAROT INK & INTUITION

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my best achievement for this year?

Brady Tarot

Reading Summary: Finding a level of positivity (Four of Wands) and truth (Seven of Swords Rx) even when the chips are down (Eight of Swords) manifests a magic all its own (Ace of Roots).

Take Away:  The cards here speak about my efforts to try and continue to see positivity in difficult situations, and allowing that positivity to carry forward into my life and the world rather than withering and dying when things feel like they are going the wrong direction.  Optimism really isn’t my strong suit, but it is  something I’ve been trying really hard to foster in myself over the past few months as I recover from the struggle and fear I went through in the winter months.

DECK USED:  BRADY TAROT