tarot reading for self

Look Up

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Today’s meditation was skipped in deference for sleep today.

Spooky Cats Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Four of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of apathy and disinterest, dejection and reflection, as well as times of quiet meditation. The key here is in the hand that offers the fourth cup, and the fact that the figure either does not see the offer, or is rejecting it in an apathetic response.

When struggling, sometimes it can be hard to see beyond the misery of the moment.  I’ve dealt with this a lot in life when dealing with my major depressive episodes and times of recovery after injury.  It just… you feel stuck. Stuck, and alone, and miserable.  It can be hard to realize that the misery is only temporary… hard to believe in those times that there is an end in sight and things will get better.

It can be equally hard to see that there are people out there that want to help… are trying to help.

The reminder in today’s cards is to make sure that you look up and see what’s being offered during these times, welcome the help that people are offering instead of closing yourself off and assuming you are all alone. It’s not easy, but it helps those times be a little less painful, and eases the amount of misery experienced while waiting for things to feel better.

DECK USED:  SPOOKY CATS TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 18th thru 20th

Flowers From the Dead Oracle and Sugar Skull TarotWhat area of my life is full of tumbleweed?
Hawk and Death

Your ability to see changes in your life clearly is currently compromised. This is natural, and normal, but it makes going through these changes more difficult as there is an element of blindness involved, and this uncertainty can create hesitation.

What do I need to resurrect?
Chicken, The Lovers atop Wheel of Fortune Rx

Ensure you are approaching troubled times with bravery and the mindset of making healthy choices. You can’t always just trust everything is going to come out okay.  You have to actively make choices that will turn things the way you want them to go. This focus on making healthy choices will carry you through, instead of enabling you to self-sabotage and sink.

What needs to grow in my life?
Fox and Queen of Wands

It’s important to continue focusing on finding harmony between your indomitable drive and your self care. You can balance both and give up neither, but finding that balance is going to take time. More time, that is.

DECK USED: FLOWERS FROM THE DEAD AND SUGAR SKULL TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 18th, and 20th thru 22nd

Spooky Cats TarotWhat fears do I have?

Page of Brooms atop Seven of Cups – You fear that you’ll miss out on what could be a fucking spectacular opportunity due to hesitation. There is a lot of holding back lately, and a lot of letting opportunities go in the hopes that they will come back to you later. This has caused the fear of “losing out” to rise and grow recently.

What actions am I afraid to take?

The Empress – You worry that all this focus on self care is going to make you soft and weak. Stamina has always been a corner stone of your ambition and drive, and you’re afraid to be too nice to yourself or too kind to yourself and, in the process, end up “losing your edge”.

Why do these actions scare me?

King of Pumpkins – The idea of losing your edge through self-kindness and self-nurturing scares you because you are so hyper focused on stability and security. In losing your edge, there is a risk of losing that stability and security that you’ve gained.

How can this help me and my Alter Ego merge?

Queen of Cups atop Four of Cups – By allowing me to see that we are there to help each other. That driven alter ego that these readings over the month so far have been about, and that side of myself that wants to treat myself better and be healthier… they are two sides of the same coin. They are both me, and they can help each other and support each other (instead of conflicting with each other) if given the chance.

DECK USED: SPOOKY CATS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Bless the angel of midday naps.  The fire safety people were here at the building to do their inspections today, and the gas people were also here to do their job checking the lines and getting pilot lights lit in fireplaces. That shit started even before I made it home from the farm and the constant alarms going off and people in and out was exhausting.  So, after it was over I took the most wonderful nap ever.

Lenormand Reading – Illuminate

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Malefique Lenormand

How to find the flame of hope in trouble times?

Coffin and Child – Look at these problems as an impetus for change and the opportunity to start fresh.

How to ignite the flame of hope?

Letter and Cross – Use crappy news to spark your oppositional nature and get you worked up. The stirring up of energy feeds into your hope, as it awakens your determination.

How to keep the light of hope burning within?

Book and Heart – When you need a little extra help fanning the flames of hope, reach out to Gideon for this. He knows you better than anyone.. often better than you know yourself, and has the ability to lift you up.

How to amplify my light and shine for others?

Tree and Anchor – Amplify your light by making sure that you are taking care of yourself.  You can’t help others if you are wearing yourself down and not caring for yourself properly.

DECK USED: MALEFIQUE LENORMAND

Full Moon in Aries – October 2021

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Today is the full moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us. Today’s spread is about rocking your authenticity, and brought to you by Sharron Basanti of Seeds of Shakti.

Da Brigh's Dark Tarot - Full Moon in Aries

1. What half truths about myself do I need to acknowledge and release in order to rock my authenticity?

The Hierophant atop Six of Swords – Sometimes you feel the urge to run away rather than deal with things in an adult manner. This is actually natural for everyone, and not something that you need to be ashamed of or beat yourself up about.

2. How can I tap into my true potential to accomplish my core desires?

Queen of Wands – Give yourself the praise and encouragement that you crave, so that you are not looking for it elsewhere.

3. In what aspect of my life do I need to step up to the plate as a leader?

Seven of Wands – You aren’t giving enough praise to those around you. By providing them with praise you are encouraging them, telling them that are appreciated, letting them know that what they contribute is appreciated, as well as putting it out there that they are doing well. This then encourages them to take pride in themselves and their work.

4. When would I benefit from taking risks and being impulsive?

The Tower – When the time to tear things down and rebuild has arrived, impulsivity and risk taking is okay.  It can even be beneficial in these times, to be impulsive instead of strategizing out every single minute detail.

5. Message from the Ancestors.

Five of Swords – Focus on getting ready, for the battle is almost upon you. (aka. the holiday rush)

DECK USED: DA BRIGH’S BLACK TAROT

The Moral Compass

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Today’s meditation was skipped, as today was orders day and there was just too much to get done.

Таро Темных Откровений and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Judgement card, which is traditionally a representation of looking back on one’s history and reflecting upon if they are happy with all that they have done and become in life, as well as getting in touch with one’s true calling, and themes to do with forgiveness and absolution.

The combination of today’s Thera-Pets card combined with the Judgement card is about looking at your life, your progress… and your setbacks, and accepting that we can’t go full speed ahead at every turn and every moment.

It’s okay to struggle sometimes.  It’s okay to go slow sometimes.

As long as you are continuing on the path to becoming the person that you -want- to be, and making decisions that you will look back on at the end of your life with pride in the person you were and have become instead of with regret or disgust?  Then you’re still doing absolutely spectacular.

DECK USED:  ТАРО ТЕМНЫХ ОТКРОВЕНИЙ AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 18th and 19th

Arcana Mortis TarotEnergy I’m Emitting – Samhain and Ace of Wands – The energy that you are emitting at this time is a go get’em focus on the holiday rush to come with a deadline in mind landing squarely on Samhain. This energy is about drive and focus, and moving forward toward your goals.

What that Energy is Attracting – Circle of Salt, Three of Swords Rx atop The Magician – Confidence and competence to keep depression at bay as long as needed to get through the busy months ahead. The “flex” of energy attracts more of the same, and as long as you ride this energy you will continue to be protected from depression issues during the months ahead.

What To Do About It – Demonic Presence and The Lovers – You need to make sure that you are making healthy choices, and not just falling into the temptation of bad habits and unhealthy options.

What do I need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Remember that your feelings of tiredness and the desire for isolation are emotion based (Four of Cups) and temporary (Phases). They are not based in reality, but they can have real-time consequences in how they pull you away from your work (Eight of Pentacles) and away from getting the things done that you need to do.

DECK USED: THIS DECK IS HAUNTED ORACLE AND THE ARCANA MORTIS TAROT

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Question for October 17th: What message do my animal spirit guides have for me today?

Таро Темных ОткровенийReading Summary:  Okay, so I have an issue with the illustration in the King of Cups today. He looks like some pansy ass fop of a guy about to get his toes pinched off by a couple of lobsters. I just had to get that out.

The theme here has to do with the Eight of Pentacles at the center. These cards indicate emotional indulgences (King of Cups) and the addictions that are spurred by emotions (The Devil) are both distractions to the work that you need to get done at this time (Eight of Pentacles).

Take Away: This is very true, but it’s also not necessarily a bad thing. At least, not as long as I don’t over indulge.  That is where things start to go awry and issues being to arise.

DECK USED: ТАРО ТЕМНЫХ ОТКРОВЕНИЙ

Daily Self Kindness

I can’t think of anything I did that was a kindness to myself other than making sure I had L’s help in packaging before bed so that it cut the time it took down by half.

Expectations and Progress

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Today’s meditation was another of the unguided variety with breathing exercises, and lasted just under ten minutes.

Gothmancy Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Knight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of an projective beta energy in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world. The Knight of Pentacles is a “go get’em” energy, but one that moves at a slower pace and marches to the beat of its own drum.

The Thera-Pets card for today says “you are doing enough” and boy it sure doesn’t feel like it. It feels like I’m slacking off and not getting any prep done at all. I know that’s not true, but I also know I don’t feel like I’m getting the things done that I want to before the holiday rush starts. There’s been a lot of obstacles in my path this week that I’ve been forcing me to take things slower than I would like.

Today’s cards are a reminder that any progress is still progress, even if it comes slower than you’re used to.

DECK USED:  GOTHMANCY TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 17th and 18th

Madhouse TarotThe wheel it spins, around, again, what have I started (Judgement), how will it end (Justice atop Knight of Swords)?

Looking at life through the lens of who you want to become and what you want to accomplish in this lifetime, and what you’re going to feel about what you see when you look back on at the end of your time, is a journey that you have chosen and continue to focus on.

The cards here indicate that it is only through following this path from one day to the next that you will reach the end of your journey, both happy with where you have come to be as well as what you’ve done along the way. No amount of strategy or manipulation will settle the scales into balance… only staying focused on the goal, and doing the work one day at a time will do that.

And as the serpent bites its tail, what will recur (Six of Swords), what must I prevail (Nine of Cups)?

Again and again throughout life, you are going to need to make decisions to leave behind things that are no longer working for you or are unhealthy for you, and move on to something better and healthier.

These choices to leave behind those things that are harming you or are unhealthy for you will be constantly changing. With each stage of life, you will need to make these decisions again and again in order to stay on top of what is going to work for you and makes you happy.

The goal in this is not just about health, but also about happiness. For it is only through having a positive outlook and being happy in the present that you will find true contentment.

DECK USED: MADHOUSE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #1
Question: How can I help myself stay positive during this period of preparation before the holiday rush?

Gothmancy TarotReading Summary: There is a color connection in the skin color between the Five of Wands and the Ace of Swords. This indicates that the communication between others might be a bit of a struggle right now, and is a part of what’s bringing you down.

The color connection in the reds and background between the King of Swords and the Ace of Swords then speaks to strategy being applied to new ideas and communication with others. By having a strategy in these areas, you can help pave the road to smoother communication.

Take Away: Speak up and be clear about what you want to happen during this time and what you want to accomplish. In doing so you are able to communicate with others what they can do to help you.

This communication well then bring people over to your side, instead of there being a constant feeling of conflict going on between what you want to accomplish and what they’re doing to try and help you.

DECK USED: GOTHMANCY TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took the day off from the farm today. I just… needed some peace and quiet and a bit more sleep. Since everything is caught up and well staffed at the moment, it was a good time to take the day.

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Mio Im's Tarot, Season of the Witch Samhain Oracle, This Deck Is Haunted Oracle

Earth – Eight of Cups and Elements – It’s time to focus upon moving away from what isn’t working for you and seek a more harmonious path. Your health needs attention right now. Don’t ignore the discord and discomfort, but instead use it to tell you what patterns and habits need to be discarded for something better and healthier that will put things back in balance.

Air – Three of Hearts and Centaur – Look closely at what is making you happy… and what isn’t. This week, make sure that you are focusing on those things that make you happy. Not the things that should… but what actually does. In doing so you will be able to give your inner narrative something more genuinely positive to focus on. Keep in mind that satisfaction is not necessary the same as happiness.

Water – Page of Swords and Ritual – What habits in your life need re-examined with a critical eye? These cards tie into the Air section of this reading in that you need to look at what you are doing, look deep and examine if these habits are truly making you happy, or just a form of self medicating to bury unresolved past issues.

Fire – Queen of Wands and Grief – Don’t allow confused and conflicting emotions to pull you away from what needs encouraged to flourish this week. You have a lot of prep work to get done. Allowing feelings of failure or being hyper focused on what isn’t going well at the moment is only going to hold you back and slow you down.

Waning – Boogie Man atop Planchette – Don’t let worries about the influences of your father plague you this week. He came through the thinning veil last year and really upset your balance. You are more prepared this year, and in a better place.

Waxing – Ectoplasm atop Living Doll – Work on remembering and acknowledging all of the ways that difficulties and the pain from your past has transformed into positives in your life and in yourself.

Take Away – The advice in these cards is about focusing on what is truly important.  That includes self care, but also in finding those things that truly make me happy.  Set worries and inner conflict aside, let go of the “shoulds” and look for the truth beneath those thoughts and desires.  Where does the truth truly lie?

DECKS USED: MIO IM’S TAROT, SEASONS OF THE WITCH SAMHAIN ORACLE, THIS DECK IS HAUNTED ORACLE