Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Hardy Tarot, Forces Flora + Fauna Oracle, Wisdom of Tula Oracle

EarthTen of Cups, Seven of Wands, The Rat – You will have the chance this week to gain some emotional fulfillment over your financial situation and home life this week. Make sure you stay focused on what is important, which includes making sure you are protecting those things you value most.

AirAce of Disks and The Whale – Be kind to yourself and show yourself a bit of compassion concerning the way you see yourself managing things right now.  New opportunities will come and you need to make sure you’re not just jumping at them because they’re there. Passing up these opportunities for self care reasons is not a failure, don’t allow your inner voice to say otherwise.

WaterPrince of Swords and The Moth – Do not impulsively plow forward, but instead move with purpose. You are not in danger, and you are not going to lose anything that you don’t intentionally discard. Stay calm, let your intuition guide you, and move forward with determination.

FireSix of Wands and The Thistle – Don’t allow the compliments and admiration of others to turn your head.  They can bolster your mood, but they should not be what drives you forward.  Instead, rely upon your strength and resilience to carry you forward and keep you going.

WaningForgiveness – Forgiving ourselves is always our biggest hurdle, and you might find things rising up this week that you are not forgiving yourself for.  Some of these things will require shadow work to sort out and work through, and now is not the time to be starting that type of work.

WaxingObserver – Write it down to deal with later. This is a carry over from the Waning card of Forgiveness. The Observer card indicates that these issues are things that need to be noted and acknowledged. The shadow work that needs dealt with needs to be written it down revisit once the holiday rush has come to an end.  Put it down on paper, type it out, somehow… in some way… write it down so that you can let go of it for the time being.

Take Away – Be picky in the opportunities that you decide to pursue this week so that you don’t overwhelm yourself.  Allow the negative issues you’re feeling to come, acknowledge them and write them down, then release them.  This is not about burying, but rather allowing yourself time to process subconsciously while you deal with what needs done in the present.  It’s going to be a bit of a rough week emotionally, but you knew that already.

DECKS USED: HARDY TAROT, FORCES FLORA + FAUNA ORACLE, WISDOM OF TULA ORACLE

Don’t Be a Sad Sack

I took a break from… well, pretty much everything for a couple of days. So I have nothing to say here other than I’m getting back on track now (Sunday September 27th).   I -did- meditate yesterday… but honestly?  I can’t remember a thing about it other than the fact that I did it.

Botan Tarot - Five of CupsToday’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of disappointments, regrets, and all around an attitude of apathy and/or pessimism. 

Honestly?  Talk about calling my ass out right?  Because I’ve been a cranky ass sad sack motherf’k’r for the past few days.   I know it’s the drop and I get that, but jesus I’m just a mess and it’s definitely showing.

The message in today’s card is about looking beyond the crap that’s dragging you down. It’s about gratitude and appreciation for that beautiful stack of four unbroken cups behind the one broken one that has snagged your attention.

An echo from my earlier bonus reading this morning… today’s message is about not allowing yourself to sink into negative emotions and thoughts.  Feel them, and then move beyond them to appreciate what you have that is good and positive and makes you happy.

DECK USED:  BOTAN TAROT

#Zentember #LovelyHealing Challenge Prompt
Question
: How to better connect with my intuition?

Tarot of Reincarnation

Reading Summary:  Decisive action to make things better (Eight of Hearts), trust in the tools at your disposal (Magician), and release of the certainties that are not serving me (Tower).

Take Away:  This is about the balance I seek between my emotional balance and my work balance for the busy season ahead.  The cards here are telling me to let go of the feelings and certainty I have about that I have to choose one or the other.  I have all of the tools at my disposal to allow myself to adapt and move forward into a better future. 

The reading here is about trust.  Trust that I’m on the right path.  Trust in my intuition and its messages.  It’s about not allowing my fears and uncertainties to cloud my intuition’s voice. 

DECK USED:  TAROT OF REINCARNATION

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is something new I should try?

Archeon TarotReading Summary: Stop being such a sad sack (Five of Cups).  Take control of your inner narrative (King of Swords) and turn that shit around into positive progress (Knight of Pentacles).

Take Away:  There is a reason that this is “something new” to try.  It’s because that negative depression and pessimistic voice in my head is familiar and… that familiarity is comfortable even if it is not good for me.  Familiarity and comfort, in this instance, is the opposite of good for me and thus, the “something new” to try is both good for me and uncomfortable… but needs to be done.

That something new?  Is taking control of my inner narrative rather than allowing myself to sink into it.  The Knight of Pentacles says that in this being something unfamiliar, it might take a little time and practice to get it right… but it’s still good progress, no matter how uncomfortable or how long it takes.

DECK USED:  ARCHEON TAROT

Lionharts #AstroTarotChallenge
Question
: How have those who I surround myself with by choice contributed to my personal journey and values?

Art Nouveau Tarot c. 1989

Reading Summary: They have taught me to be more careful in what I say and how I say it (Three of Swords atop King of Swords Rx) when in the middle of speaking on those things I believe in (Seven of Staves), which creates a far more stable and strong foundation with which to approach from (King of Staves).

Take Away:  One of the most valuable lessons I have learned from those that I choose to surround myself with is how to communicate better with others. Communication, for me, often feels like a field full of landmines that I need to cross to get to the other side. Each word a footstep with the potential to blow up in my face.

As I’ve gotten older, those around me have helped me in learning how to present and discuss things in ways that are less confrontational or aggressive, which helps a lot in my communication with others in all aspects of my life.

DECK USED:  ART NOUVEAU TAROT c. 1989

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I stop taking criticism personally?

Samiramay Tarot

Reading Summary: Take control of your reactions through willpower (The Chariot). Don’t be so quick to jump to a pessimistic interpretation (Five of Cups) that ends up hurting my feelings (Three of Swords).

Take Away:  This is about slowing down and making sure that I’m looking at things from a more impersonal “out of my own shoes” view.  I need to remember that criticism also has an opportunity within it for improvement in most cases.  So instead of allowing criticism to strike at my heart with words, I need to look instead at what benefits and positive messages I can take from the criticism being given.

DECK USED:  SAMIRAMAY TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Harvest and Balance

The prompt for this reading came from one of my Discord servers and is as follows:
This week, talk to your divination tools about harvest and balance.

Bicycle Magic Playing Cards

Where in my life am I reaping a harvest from the work I’ve put in?
Queen of Diamonds

I am feeling very secure in my “home and hearth” situation at the moment, and I have the ultimate Queen of Diamonds currently living under my roof. (Which is something I couldn’t have financially managed without all the hard work I’ve put in over the years to get me to this point.)  This has made a lot of changes in my life, some of them uncomfortable.  At the same time? I’ve also managed to experience one of those things I’ve always wanted… someone around to cook for me regularly. As I eat so much food each day to maintain my weight, cooking gets to be such a drag after a while.  Having Z here?  Has been amazing in a lot of ways, but if I’m honest?  Especially in this one.

What should I do at this point to preserve this harvest for the winter ahead?
Three of Spades

Do not allow my depression and low moods to linger and drag me down. This is something I have been feeling creep up over the past few weeks, and really struggling with over the past week or so.  The Three of Spades says that when I need to cry, or rant, or throw a bit of a pity party?  Go for it… but don’t linger there. Allow the release to happen and then move past it.

Where in my life do I see balance coming into focus?
Eight of Hearts

Emotionally speaking, there is a need to push for the balance you need rather than allowing it to just float in on its own. Be proactive and work toward what you want here. Balance can happen, but you’re going to have to use willpower and determination to get there.

Where in my life should that balance begin to tip toward and prepare for rest and recovery this winter?
Ten of Diamonds

Like all winters, the holiday rush creates an influx of finances.  With the way this question is posed, the advice of the Ten of Diamonds is to make sure that I don’t get so wrapped up in that feeling of things being flush that I forget to plan for the future.

Where in my life should that balance begin to tip toward and prepare for diving into the holiday rush this winter?
Jack of Diamonds

An echo of the advice given in the above question.  I added this question on to the end of the original questions, as the winter is not a time of rest and recovery for me, but is actually my busiest and most stressful time of the year.   What the Jack of Diamonds says is to hold back and examine my impulses and decisions where my finances and influx of income is concerned rather than just jumping forward irresponsibly or impulsively.

DECK USED:  BICYCLE MAGIC PLAYING CARDS

Protect Your Happiness

I took a break from… well, pretty much everything for a couple of days.  So I have nothing to say here other than I’m getting back on track now (Sunday September 27th).

Hush Tarot - Four of WandsToday’s draw is the Four of Wands, which is traditionally about homecoming, harmonious family connections, and joyous celebration of one’s blessings.

The bouquet in the imagery of this card reminds me of wedding decorations. Struck through this bouquet are the spears, which both support the flowers and protect these flowers from harm.

The thing is? You can’t have harmony and home without also having protection and stability (present in the four).  These things are very important to fostering a healthy and happy harmony in both home and family.  And that is the message in today’s card. Love requires protection, happiness requires safety, relationships require support.

DECK USED:  HUSH TAROT

#Zentember #LovelyHealing Challenge Prompt
Question
: How to overcome my fears?

WilderWoven Tarot

Reading Summary: Take a beginners mind (The Fool) and an emperor’s heart (The Emperor), and allow this combination to carry you through with passion and joy for the discoveries and adventures ahead (Page of Wands).

Take Away:  Be responsible but joyful. Be curious but steadfast. Be optimistic but realistic. It is possible to balance all of these things.  It’s possible to take them forward with you into the world and allow them to kindle passion and inspiration within you, without falling over the deep end of addiction and losing focus on the world as a whole in the process. Finding balance can be a struggle, but it can be done.

DECK USED:  WILDERWOVEN TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: As fall draws to a close next month, what needs to be let go of when moving forward?

Sasuraibito TarotReading Summary: Open your eyes (Eight of Swords) and allow change to happen (Death) surrounding your work (Eight of Pentacles).

Take Away: It’s going to be okay. Don’t continue to keep your eyes closed and ignore what’s going on around you or what’s coming. The changes that you’ve been gradually working on are ready to move forward into the busy season with you if you let them. So don’t cover your face and hide behind the work to come.  Stay open and allow yourself to see beyond what you would normally bury your nose in while ignoring the rest of the world.

DECK USED:  SASURAIBITO TAROT

Respecting Life’s Fragility

I took a break from… well, pretty much everything for a couple of days.  So I have nothing to say here other than I’m getting back on track now (Sunday September 27th).

Botan Tarot - Page of SwordsToday’s draw is the Page of Swords, which traditionally is a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s thoughts, intellect, education, communication, and instinct.  This often translates into someone on a journey of learning in some way that has to do with education or communication.

You know how when you’re young, you have this sense of invincibility?  It’s like… when you’re young, life just hasn’t beat you down enough yet to make you realize just how vulnerable (and valuable) life is.  It’s something we learn over time and as your life tries to slip through your fingers and fly away, you come to appreciate it a bit more… and a bit more. 

This is lack of awareness of the value of one’s life is what I see in this card’s imagery today.  It’s in the tilt of the woman’s head and the expression on her face, as well as in the ready grip on a still sheathed sword. It is in the impression of feathers that are not really present in the imagery and yet my eyes insist are there.

Today’s card’s message is about the fleeting nature of life, and how important it is to value what we have.  It’s about impulsivity, and the a warning about what we can lose through naivety and lack of awareness of just how delicate and fragile the thread of one’s life truly is.

DECK USED:  BOTAN TAROT

Don’t Skip It

IMG_6641Today’s meditation was just under eleven minutes long, and was a guided meditation with interval timer.   The guided part of the meditation focused upon the challenges and benefits of doing nothing.  Some people feel like this is the easiest thing in the world, yes?  But I am definitely not one of those people.

It is a huge struggle for me to take days off, and even during that time?  I still work, just not at the regular stuff.  Instead I try to focus primarily on making sure stuff stays in stock online and that I answer customers in a timely manner.  This means it takes the pressure off and allows me time away from that pressure to recover from burnout… but that I’m not truly “doing nothing”.

The thing is tho?  I am doing better at it.  I’m getting better at actually taking those low-pressure breaks, and making sure that I’m kinder to myself concerning the need for rest and down time.  It’s a work in progress, but I’m working at it.

Hush Tarot - Four of SwordsToday’s draw is the Four of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of the need for restorative rest and recuperation.  This can also come in the form of meditation, sleep, recovery from burnout, and many other themes along that thread.

I love the imagery in this card.  I think it’s absolutely beautiful.  That said, no one aspect of this card stood out to me today.  Instead?  This card ended up pulled just after the decision to skip my meditation had been made this morning.  It is a direct response to that decision.

The message in today’s card is that even though I am back to work today, I still need those moments of restorative rest… and that is especially relevant in reference to my meditation practice.  And thus, perhaps it is no surprise, but I re-evaluated my decision and ended up doing my meditation after all.

DECK USED:  HUSH TAROT

#Zentember #LovelyHealing Challenge Prompt
Question
: How to show up more?

Haindl Tarot

Reading Summary:  Be less reactionary (King of Cups Rx) and more slow to react (Son of Stones). You are still in the learning stages of your emotional growth (Daughter of Cups).  Allow fostering that growth become a passion that burns brightly in your heart (Ace of Wands).

Take Away:  I didn’t really understand this question, but I went ahead and decided to pull for it anyway.  The advice given here is good, regardless of my lack of understanding of the question as a whole.  With so many new emotions and new levels of emotion going on with me these days, there are times when I feel myself having knee-jerk emotional reactions to things.  Giving a little forethought and taking time in reacting rather than just jumping in is a good idea, and the advice about accepting these changes and pursuing them from day to day?  Also good advice.

DECK USED:  HAINDL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2020 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: What is humanity’s biggest mistake?

English Magic TarotReading Summary: Too much time focusing on what you want (Page of Swords) and ignoring (Hanged Man Rx) to the passage of time and what the past can teach us (Seven of Cups).

Take Away: Hubris. Lack of humility is humanity’s greatest mistake. When we choose to only focus on our own desires and turn a blind eye to the past and what we can learn from it, everyone loses.  And yet, humanity does this again and again, choosing to focus only upon their own selfish desires to the point that they forget to look to those lessons already learned… and thus are destined to repeat them over and over again.

DECK USED:  ENGLISH MAGIC TAROT

Lionharts #AstroTarotChallenge
Question
: What is something about me that others really value, admire, or appreciate about me?

Sasuraibito Tarot

Reading Summary: Even with how much I have gone through in my life (Three of Swords), I continue to display gratitude and appreciation for all that I have (Nine of Pentacles) and possess the strength and clear-mindedness to lead by example (King of Swords).

Take Away: In order to survive and thrive in the wake of the things I have been through in life, I need to see these experiences as lessons.  I see them as learning experiences that have helped me to grow and become a better person in some way. They have taught me skills I wouldn’t otherwise have, honed my abilities both mentally and physically, and given me experiences that allow me to relate to others in very specific and important ways.

I am sure that there are those that find my approach to survival from the crap that has happened in my life to be obnoxious or annoying.  The cards here indicate that there are just as many that also find my approach to these experiences to be admirable and inspirational. 

DECK USED:  SASURAIBITO TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How can I get closer to my dream life?

Tyldwick Tarot

Reading Summary: When you are generous with your financial wealth and resources (Six of Coins) instead of squandering it on yourself (The Devil)… you are will rewarded with the return of a wealth that has a value far greater than that of money (The Empress).

Take Away:  I think I need to do a reading and ask my cards about what my ‘dream life’ might entail. Because… what the cards say here as the reward for leaning into altruism over selfish pursuits?  Sounds pretty damned nice.  But it isn’t at all what I would have said was of an appeal to me a few years ago… nor does it reflect what I drive myself to the bone to work toward.

So the question here is… over the past year as I have worked on my emotional growth and work / life balance, what has this done to influence what my ideal ‘dream life’ might look like?  Because The Empress is so much more appealing these days than she has been in my past.

DECK USED:  TYLDWICK TAROT