Tarot de Marseille Anima Antiqua

There’s More Waiting

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Today’s meditation was skipped.  No excuses, I just didn’t end up doing it.  I was entirely and utterly unmotivated to the point of actual avoidance. 

Bonestone & Earthflesh Tarot - The SunToday’s draw is the Sun card, which is traditionally a representation of joy, success, fun, and play. 

I love the representation of the May Pole on the sun card, as the May Pole is a celebration of the sun’s reign in the sky and the first stirring of energy that rises up within the first breath of summer.

The card and it’s imagery is a message to remember how much I’m missing while I’m wrapped up in the darkness of my depression, and how much is waiting for me to enjoy and celebrate once I manage to pull myself out and back to even ground.

Although I can’t just “pull myself up by my bootstraps” and force the depression away, remembering that there’s fun and play and joy out there to return to helps in keeping the depression in perspective.

DECK USED:  BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Ask the cards to tell you about something funny that will make you smile.

Tarot de Marseille Anima AntiquaOkay so, a few years ago my friend J and I were hanging out and the guy said the most rediculous thing.  In the middle of talking, I sneezed.   I have horrible allergies, and I have a habit of holding in my sneeze a bit when they happen because otherwise I often end up with a sore throat or snot everywhere.  Neither of those experiences are worth letting the sneezes loose, so I suppress them just a bit.

When J saw this, he turned to me with fully earnest expression and told me that I shouldn’t hold in my sneezes. That it’s important to let them out so the pressure doesn’t build up in your head during the sneeze and result in your eyeballs popping out.  And that that’s why when people sneeze they close their eyes, but it’s not enough and you have to let your sneezes out too.

It was so hilarious that I laughed for a good five minutes, and for months later every time I thought about it I’d start cracking up again.  Thinking of it now still makes me chortle a bit. The look on his face was just so earnest and guileless.  He really believed it and was so worried for me… and all I could do was laugh.

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Daily Self Kindness

Today I managed to actually do a bit of play with Gideon even though I had to do orders.  It was really nice and something I haven’t been able to do in a really long time (work on an orders day).  It wasn’t a long play, but I really enjoyed it a lot.

Do What Makes You Feel Good

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Today’s meditation hasn’t happened yet.  I got up early this morning to get on the road, because I had a special hike I wanted to do.  It takes two hours to hike to the lake and nearly 45 minutes to drive to the trail head.  So if I don’t start out early at this time of the year, I won’t make it back to my car before dark. And at this time of year? It’s definitely too damned cold to be hiking after dark, even if I’m familiar with the route.   So… I will do today’s meditation before bed tonight.

Bonestone & Earthflesh Tarot - The StarToday’s draw is the Star card, which is traditionally a representation of hope, optimism, positivity, successful beginnings, and spirituality.

What stands out to me the strongest in the imagery of this card is the eagle that emerges from the figure’s chest, and burst of light from the solar plexus.

What I see in this card is an encouragement to do what makes you feel good.  Do what is going to light up your inner spark and give you wings.

For me, this is seeking out fresh air and wet earth, trees clinging with moss and lichen, and bodies of water chilled by mountain temps.

I went hiking.  And it was fucking glorious.

DECK USED:  BONESTONE & EARTHFLESH TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: Are all emotions irrational?

Hieronymus Bosch TarotReading Summary:  The center vessel cards here are an indication of the two sides of one’s emotions.  One is irrational and always ready to follow one’s desires irregardless of the risk involved, and on the other wside we have the slow pace and reason of emotions brought about through consideration and depth.  Shallow… and deep.

The cards on the outer edges indicate what is needed to find balance in these emotions, and are linked to the cards through color connection. The birds align with depth, speaking of the nature of those emotions to drag you down if you are not careful with their unique seduction.   The Kings of the East on the other hand represent stability and forethought, which is something the impulsive and shallow emotions lack.

Take Away: No.  Not all emotions are irrational.  Sometimes they are… and sometimes those irrational emotions can be harmful without stability to help temper them.  Sometimes our emotions are brought about through thought and depth, but here too we run the risk of them being dangerous if we are allowed to sink too deeply. 

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Purefield.Healing’s Taking My Power Back Challenge Prompt
Question: What triggers me to give my power away?

Tarot de Marseille Anima Antiqua

Nine of Coins atop Eight of Cups – When I am in need of a break so that I can have some time to appreciate what I have.  If I’m not given that rest, it can create frustration and that frustration can then cause my power and control to begin to fray and slip through my fingers.

La Papesse atop Two of Coins – When I need time away from juggling to get in touch with my inner voices and intuition.  As above, this speaks of needing a break and not getting it.  In this case it’s not so much about being overburdened as it is about needing to step off the hamster wheel for a bit and take a cleansing breath.

Le Chariot Rx – When the world is moving too fast and I feel like I’ve lost control. Another form of overwhelm where I just can’t seem to catch those threads of fraying control and there is so much going on that I let them go rather than holding on.

Take Away:  What triggers me to let go of my power is being overwhelmed or worn down to the point that I need a break.

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