Today’s meditation was skipped (again).

Today’s draw is the Chariot card, which is traditionally a representation of decisive action, control, direction, willpower, and determination that breeds success.

Yesterday I did a reading about how the apartment search is going and the news there was pretty dismal. It has been a bit of a frustrating trip, and the cards lit a fire under my ass and determination in my soul to turn things around.

This morning, I got up early and when the property management places opened, I started organizing the girls to make calls while I did searches on the internet.  I made them call every single lead or possibility, no matter how unlikely. I pushed them to be pushy and determined with me, driving them forward to speak to a good 28 different property management companies, while at the same time I looked up each company on the internet so that they would have something to talk to these companies about when they answered. Once that was exhausted, I then started them on calling on owner ran listings and speaking to owners about different properties and leaving messages with others.

And… I think we might have found a place. We went out and looked at it and met the owner, and we are just waiting for him to email the background check (he said tomorrow, so we’ll call tomorrow evening if he hasn’t done it).

Today’s card is a reminder that with will and determination, you can change your fate and shift your trajectory into a different path. Sometimes, it  just takes having a clear direction and the determination to drive forward and really work at it.

DECK USED:  THE CURIOUS TRAVELS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for The Moon – Day 20

Where should I listen to my feelings or better honor them?

Seaglass and Daydreaming – Pay attention to your body and mind’s need for rest. Don’t let past judgements from others influence your behavior when it comes to taking the rest and recovery you need. It isn’t the end of the world if you take a nap now and then, nor going to bring down the “whole house of cards” if you take a break now and then.

Where are my feelings actually not helpful right now?

Peony and Moonflight – That rest and ambition can’t mix, as if it’s an either/or situation instead of something that can be balanced to have both. This is bred out of the fears briefly mentioned above, and the insistence of others in my life while I was growing up that things could only be accomplished and done well if you put your all into the endeavor with single focus and determination (and sometimes not even then).

DECK USED: ORACLE OF LIGHT & DREAMS AND THE CURIOUS TRAVELS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: What existed before our universe was created?

Reading Summary: There was an element of give and take that lead in time to perfect balance (Six of Pentacles), which then in turn bred boredom and dissatisfaction (Five of Cups). From this boredom grew a need to explore and experiment (The Travelers), which led to the creation of our universe.

Take Away: These cards indicate that before our universe was a give and take of energy seeking balance, and eventually finding it.
Then sentience. Perhaps it didn’t start out as that, but it eventually came to be sentience in one form or another.
Balance and sentience do not mix well, as there is boredom there, and thus chaos and creation stepped in to upset the balance and create the universe… and us.

DECK USED: THE CURIOUS TRAVELS TAROT

Again, even with all that was going on today, I managed a nap.  A much needed nap.

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Today’s draw is the Page of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s thoughts, intellect, education, ambitions, or communication.

Lots to do today when it comes to movement and pursuit, and yet we’re all new at this and fumbling around a bit in the dark. Just as the bunny in the card holds their sword like a novice, so too did we try to put energy into our ambitions with the skill of a novice new at the effort.

Sometimes we have to deal with a sharp learning curve.  If the bunny drops the sword, they might get hurt so they must learn quickly how to hold the sword and what to do with it.  So too are we learning at a rapid pace, trying out new ideas in the effort to find what we need.

No luck today on the apartment hunt, although we did go look at houses that have sold in the area lately in order to get an idea of the market place and what she can expect when she’s ready to lay out the money for a place. Tomorrow, I’ve decided that instead of trying to call property management places (that apparently don’t answer their phones or return messages) we’re going to go visit a couple of offices in person and see if we can get somewhere that way.

DECK USED:  LUNALAPIN TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Question for The Star – Day 19

What hopes or dreams am I gently invited to embrace?

Comfrey and The Loom – Peace and a sense of stability year round, instead of only through the calmer half of the year. So many years in a row, the holiday rush starts in the 2nd week of November then stretches until a couple days before Christmas, and I barely get a breather to catch my breath before the chemical shift of adrenaline and anxiety begins sliding me into a MDE that takes up the first 3 or 4 months of the year.

Finding more peace and a greater sense of stability would allow me to weather the holiday rush more easily and transition out of it more smoothly, possibly lessening the intensity of the MDE or bypassing it entirely as a result.

In what area am I guided to believe in myself?

Bindweed and The Bear – Trust yourself to let loose without it being damaging to others. Remember that sometimes people need to hear hard truths, and laying those truths out in the open can untangle knots within yourself that rea created when you try to hold back.

DECK USED: LUNALAPIN TAROT, FLOWER POWER ANCIENT HEALING REMEDY CARDS, WILDWOOD TAROT (TRIMMED NAKED)

The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 19th

I know I am capable of…

Knight of Wands atop Knight of Swords – …confidently taking swift and motivated action toward my aspirations and goals. Regardless of the fact that I often feel like I’m weighed down by lack of direction, I am capable of moving forward and doing what needs done.

Because?

Two of Pentacles and The World – I am aware of the balance needed between these desires and the path I walk in becoming the man I want to be. Only when those desires are aligned with this greater path will I be able to act with confidence and motivated alacrity.

DECK USED: LUNALAPIN TAROT

I managed to get a nap today.  After a crapload of driving throughout the morning and day, we settled in early at the hotel tonight and I was able to catch a nap, which was amazing. I slept really good, which is surprising considering the beds here are crap.

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Today’s draw is the Magician, which is traditionally a representation of capability, potential, resourcefulness, action, and manifestation.

The heart in the imagery of this card feels like it softens the original context of the magician, turning cold ambition into heartfelt drive and incorporating into the card a desire to do good for oneself and others.

The message in today’s card is to make sure that you are acting with your heart as you go about your day today. The brain isn’t enough. Logic and intuition are formidable tools, but they aren’t enough.  Make sure you are also consulting your heart.

DECK USED:  MARA LUNNE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th

What weighs you down?

Peony atop Hydrangea – The feeling that I am undeserving of abundance or self care in my life. This is an issue that I have struggled with throughout my life, although very much at the forefront over the past few years as I try to break old habits and be kinder to myself.

What lifts you up?

Fir and Nasturtium – Security and stability. When I feel I have a stable foundation, whether financially or intellectually, I then feel free to stretch and breathe. It gives me the confidence to know that as I explore my emotions and stretch into them, I have solid footing beneath my feet so that I won’t easily take a painful tumble.

DECK USED: FLEUROT

The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th

I see progress here…

Three of Cups – Finding joy in spending time with others. I am… very much the Hermit in many ways, and I struggle to be social more often than not. It takes me a long time to feel comfortable “loosening up” around others, and even then I’m more likely to prefer my own company the majority of the time.

And yet, I have been improving on this over the past few years by finding ways to appreciate others in my life more and tapping into gratitude for their presence in my life and what their presence contributes to my life and my experiences.

Because?

Nine of Swords – I’m not worrying as much about things that don’t matter or don’t exist. Like many people, I am often guilty of a lot of a lot of Unhealthy Thinking Styles, and this is especially true when it comes to public perceptions directed my way.  I am learning to use these Unhealthy Thinking Styles less, and trust more.

I have the strength to…

The Hermit – Know when alone time is healthy or unhealthy, and make the choice to use my alone time in more healthy ways.

Now l?

Nine of Pentacles – With this knowledge and ability, I have the opportunity to make healthier choices for myself that will assist me in my climb out of the pit instead of lingering in the shadows just past the pit’s ledge and never quite making it all the way free of the MDE’s grip.

DECK USED: MARA LUNNE TAROT

I took a walk outside today while the others did casino stuff. It was just too loud and busy, and was really bugging me.  So instead, I went outside and walked around, taking pics of the flowers in the flowerbed, enjoying their waterfall feature, etc.