Onus and Ownership

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Soul Cats TarotToday’s draw is the Judgement card, which is traditionally a representation of looking back on one’s history and reflecting upon if they are happy with all that they have done and become in life, as well as getting in touch with one’s true calling, and themes to do with forgiveness and absolution.

When I saw the imagery for this card today, what I heard was “Don’t be the one that hides in the hole.”

This is about ownership. It can be hard to accept when you’ve done something wrong, fucked up in some way, or are just wrong about something. No matter how natural it is that we all make mistakes, the problem comes in that when we are  unable to accept our role in things, we are unable to learn from those mistakes.  Not only that, but we look less than stellar to others (as well as to ourselves) when shirking responsibility when things go wrong.

Today’s card is a reminder to stand up and be counted. Own your mistakes and learn from them in order to become a better person. Don’t hide your mistakes, fuck ups, and other screwed up shit you’ve done from yourself and the world, but instead let it be seen, and show how you’ve learned from it… and how you are now a better person for the experience you’ve gained.

DECK USED:  SOUL CATS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheMarchTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for March 28th

Dream Interpretation OracleWhat did I learn throughout this month?

Loneliness and Dogs – You have learned throughout this month that you are not alone, even when you feel at your most lonely. There are those trustworthy and loyal to you that will always be there for you to depend on. You just need to speak up sometimes to make sure they know that you’re in need of more of their attentions.

What was my major lesson?

Shouting and Food – Your major lesson is that if you are more open with your feelings and your needs, it can help in sustaining you through the roughest of moments. Bottling things up does nothing but make you sick inside, better to let out how you feel and let people see what you need. Then there is a far better chance of being emotionally (and physically) satiated.

What was my minor lesson?

Moon and Exceptionality – Your major lesson for this month is a reminder to stay true to yourself and seek balance in all things, and that in doing so, you will shine brightly in the world. It can be hard to stay attuned with oneself when struggling with depression and outside chaos doesn’t help.  Reconnecting with yourself can help in guiding you through these moments, though and bring you out the other side with a greater understanding and greater skills than when you started.

DECK USED: DREAM INTERPRETATION ORACLE

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
(Adjusted) Question for March 28th: How can I trust myself to know when to look at the ‘little white book’?

Soul Cats TarotReading Summary: You have been reading for a long time and have the traditional meanings down pat (The Hierophant), and are able to then apply those meanings wisely to most situations (Strength). But, sometimes your connection with that ethereal “other” (The Star) is taking a rest (Four of Swords).

Take Away: I rarely bother with the “little white book” in the first place. Granted, I’ve been reading cards a really long time. So, I had to rephrase this question a bit to apply to me and my practice.

These cards indicate that sometimes traditional meanings just don’t cut it. Usually, this is where intuition and spiritual connections comes into play, but there are times when I lack the energy and resources in that area. At those times, looking at the LWB can give some needed extra perspective and a little boost to a far too quiet intuitive voice.

DECK USED: SOUL CATS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took a few breaks throughout my work day today to make sure that I wasn’t pushing myself too hard.

Don’t Waste Your Time

#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was another of the guided #dailycalm meditations from the Calm app. The meditation was a full body yoga nidra, which moved through the entire body from head to foot, before expanding out to encompass the entire body.

As the quote from today’s meditation (to the right) indicates, this type of meditation makes it easy to let go of one’s thoughts and drift in a place of sensation.  It’s one of my favorite types of guided meditation.

Soul Cards TarotToday’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of tests, trials, conflict, and the harbinger of energy stirring to life after the rest and recuperation found in the Four of Swords.

You’ve got this. Slay it, baby.

The tug of war between the birds and the cat is strewn with blades of conflict.  Neither is winning… but neither is either of them loosing.

The message here is a reminder that sometimes conflict isn’t the best option.  Being contrary can waste a lot of time if you let it.  Look at where you are feeling contrary… and consider how much time you’re wasting trying to play tug of war with things and people that don’t really matter.

DECK USED:  SOUL CATS TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for March 19th: How can I better manage my inner critic?

Animal Totems and the I-ChingReading Summary: Accept that it’s a part of you (Alligator) and work at shifting your inner critic’s narrative (Snake) to something not so aggressive (Slug).

Take Away: My inner critic is very aggressive.  Excessively so, and I know this.  It’s not just about what could be done differently, but an abusive dialogue used to beat down my spirit and bleed my soul.

It’s a form of self destruction that can often be insidious, and other times blatant and violent.  The advice here is that It’s important to focus on shifting that tendency to a softer, less aggressive messaging.  Just don’t take it, but accept instead that it’s a part of you that you can work on and adapt, alter and improve upon.

DECK USED: ANIMAL TOTEMS AND THE I-CHING

#DiscordTarotholicsMar2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions from March 17th and 18th

Soul Cards TarotWhat do I need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Page of Wands, The Wheel atop Six of Swords – Don’t worry so much about the ups and downs, just act to make things better. Letting the fickle moods of fate hold you back from improving your life is a bad idea, and can lead to many things you want (or need) to get done being abandoned instead of accomplished.

What are my strengths when dealing with others?

Four of Cups and Temperance – You come off as chill, easy-going, and temperate in mood and behavior. Not a lot of extremes going on, but neither are you particularly boring. You appear to know where your bread is buttered and enjoy those things to their fullest, even while displaying those places where you struggle with moderation for all to see.

DECK USED: SOUL CATS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap at the gas station because I wasn’t sure I could make it home safely without one.  So, instead of pushing myself, I pulled a blanket out of the back and took a quick nap.