You Come First

Today’s meditation was skipped (again).

Tarot of the Absurd's Ace of Wands and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Ace of Sticks (Wands) combined with the affirmation “You are enough as you are today.”

The illustration in this Ace of Wands speaks of the passion in caring for oneself, of cradling that inner light within you and making sure that you are being cared for and loved.

With the affirmation, it is a reminder that sometimes the spark of one’s passions isn’t projected outward, but inward. Sometimes, there is a need to love yourself most, and let everything else take a back burner as you turn your focus inward.

When you do that? You become your passion, and you kindle that passion within you that can then be fostered and grow into something greater.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ABSURD

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2024 Challenge Prompt
Prompt for April 30th
: Grab a spread of your choice that you’ve been curious about… and give it a go!

Dark Fae Tarot's Beltane Oracle Reading with the Seasons of the Witch Beltane Oracle

The buds which are flowering in my garden.

Boundaries – You are in the process of reestablishing boundaries that have become soft over time, seeking out where the lines now need to be drawn and getting them fitted into place.

Celebrating and embracing the joy of friends & family.

Honey – Take care not to be pulled into troubles you need to be no part of. The sweetness of these relationships in your life can sour quickly to something painful and bitter if you do.

Taking in the fresh dew of Spring mornings.

Chant – It is when you connect most strongly to who you are that others are drawn to you most strongly.

Everything that I am releasing as the days grow longer.

Goddess – Let go of self doubts and connect with that depth of self within you. Your inner self, that part of you that is very uniquely you.  The restraints against it need releasing so that it can shine more brightly.

DECK USED: SEASONS OF THE WITCH BELTANE ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

This post is a catch-up post, and I’m not entirely sure what my self-kindness was for the day.

Beltane Goodness and Birthday Fun

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Avisomnia Tarot - The SunToday’s draw is the Sun card, which is traditionally a representation of success, positivity, optimism, and fun.

Today is my birthday, and although I’m still a little tender and sensitive from the stomach flu I went through, today’s card is a clear encouragement to make sure I have some fun today and don’t just hide away or allow that negative inner narrative I’ve been battling to have free reign.

It is also Beltane, and L and I did a ritual last night that we finished up this morning that included (for me) the intention of working more positivity and optimism into my day to day life.

I see today’s card both as an encouragement to have fun, but also a reminder of the intentions I put forth in our Beltane ritual.

DECK USED:  AVISOMNIA TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 1
: Do the Beltane Spread

Seasons of the Witch Beltane OracleDandelion: How can I use my inner strength to help me in healing old wounds?

Primal – Lean into what’s true for you. It’s through your inner truth and that moral compass that guides you that you will find help and healing for those old wounds that still linger. Keep in mind that sometimes you just have to accept that other people don’t have the same moral compass you do, and stay true to your own.

Bees: Where could I put in more effort to help my community?

Fertilizing – Your time is far more important than things or money. Don’t forget that contributions of the physical variety aren’t necessarily what others need, and you can accomplish just as much or more through spreading little seeds of goodness rather than focusing on larger acts.

Garnet: What do I need in order to foster a greater sense of self-empowerment?

Green Man – To foster a greater sense of self-empowerment, you need more faith in your own innate ability to draw towards you what you need in life. You don’t have to struggle and strive for every little thing, for sometimes what you need is meant to come to you all on its own.

Swallow: Where do I need to more openly display my love and loyalty to others?

Self Worship – Show others that you value yourself as much as they value you. You trust their judgment in so much, so why would you not trust their judgment when it comes to why they choose to be a part of your life? By treating yourself well, you affirm for them that you see the value that they see.

Malachite: How can I better use intention to bolster the abundance in my life moving forward?

Goddess – Again we see an encouragement towards self-kindness. Take time to recognize all that you are and all that you have. Lean into a more positive viewpoint of not just the world around you, but also yourself, so that you can use this perspective to create a better reality for yourself.

Goat: How can I best overcome obstacles before me at this time?

Earth Worship – Work on connecting more deeply with your faith and spirituality. Spend more time in nature, return to your devotional practice, and take the time to reconnect often with the earth.

Primrose: How can I add more of the exuberance of young love into my life?

Oracle – As you connect more deeply with your spirituality and faith, make sure that you are staying open to the spirit guides and ancestors that are seeking to share with you. Eagerly reach for their messages instead of disregarding them, or allowing doubt or discomfort to turn you away.

DECK USED: SEASONS OF THE WITCH BELTANE ORACLE

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 1st and 2nd

Avisomnia TarotWhat does love mean to me?

Five of Cups and Two of Pentacles – Love means support through the times when I can’t see the good. This support is not just to help me in seeing the good instead of only focusing on the bad, but also in providing that support, it helps me to create more balance in my life as a whole during those times when I am feeling down and out.

This kind of emotional support something I need out of those that love me, and is one of the key pieces in how I see love and receive love, as well as how I give it to others.

When do I feel most loved?

King of Swords and Three of Wands – I often feel most loved when others are willing to help me in staying on track with my ambitions, even when that may sometimes be delivered with hard truths. Honesty is truly one of the ways I find loved ones support me most. While others might try to pander or soften the truth, those who truly love me will open up and tell me honest truth without filters or guile, ensuring I have a full and undiluted picture to work with and process.

DECK USED: AVISOMNIA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I went through my KS backings and unbacked ten of them (that would be 1/3rd of the projects I was currently backing).

Providing Stability

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaToday’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world.

Today is the day that I meet up with Ms B and the message here is clear. It’s the same as the Emperor that Gideon’s deck threw at him where I was concerned yesterday. I provide a sense of security and stability for all three of the women that I’m traveling with right now.

Today is an easy day. Travel, and then getting settled. Nothing is open on Easter Sunday, and so it gives time to just get comfortable without the pressure of things to do. It allows them to settle, and allows  time for calm and peace after. During this time, they look to me to help pave the way and make things go easier, help them settle and feel secure and stable so that we can start off on the right foot tomorrow.

For today?  The King of Pentacles is me. I take care of the billing, the electronics, and the small inconveniences that help them to settle and be comfortable during this time.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for The Devil – Day 17

Seasons of the Witch Beltane Oracle and Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaWhat attachments can potentially hold me back from growing?

Ribbons – Having an addictive personality means that you can very easily get tangled up in anything that provides pleasure. Like the monkey that hits the button that stimulates the pleasure center in their brain again and again without restraint, you can easily fall into repetitive behaviors when you find something that gives you the “just right” level of dopamine to keep you coming back again and again for more.

How can I constructively move past blockages or stagnation?

Sex Magick – Lean into authenticity and lack of guile. Both with others, and with yourself. What do you really want? This card encourages you to please yourself, and in doing so those that matter will also be pleased.

The Tower – Day 18

What can use a do-over or a new beginning?

Goddess – Self care and treating yourself as sacred is something that you were working on, and then the holiday rush and subsequent new year depression stepped in and pulled you off track. Now that you’re climbing out of depression’s pit, a do-over or restart would be an excellent idea.

What needs to be torn down and parted with in support of my best self?

Oracle – How you view and interact with your spirit guides needs a bit of a rebuild. You are overcomplicating things. There is a better and easier way.

DECK USED: SEASONS OF THE WITCH BELTANE ORACLE AND TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #3

Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaYouTwo of Swords – You are currently struggling to be decisive in your own life. There is a tug of war going on between your desire to chill and relax, and your desire to get things done that need to be done.

Your GoalPage of Wands – Reconnecting with your passions, inspiration, and motivation. From the burnout of the holiday rush, you slide hed first into depression.  You haven’t had a chance to reconnect with that inner spark in quite some time.

What’s Holding You Back

The Hermit Rx – Unhealthy alone time is holding you back. Time that is siphoned away in pursuits that are neither restful nor productive. This is an avoidance behavior that you will need to overcome to move forward.

Advice To Overcome What’s Holding You Back

Three of Pentacles – Lean into help from others in this area. As previous readings you have done indicate, others have the ability to lift you up and help kindle your spark of joy within. Welcome them in and let them help you instead of thinking you have to do everything on your own. The climb out of depression’s pit does not have to be a solitary endeavor.

DECK USED: TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

Daily Self Kindness

I asked Ms B to do a bit of a skin check on my back for me.  I’m not usually comfortable removing my shirt when others can see due to the good deal of scarring that I wear on my body, but I let her do a check of my back for me since I haven’t been able to get an appointment with a dermatologist to check me over in the past two years.