I Have My Mother’s Eyes

Today’s meditation was skipped.

@GlitterbyInk #AprilAffirmations24 Prompt
Affirmation Prompt for April 5th
: I Have…

Mibramig Magical Tarot - Queen of SwordsQueen of Swords – I have my mother’s eyes.

That is not to say that they are the same shape and color, or that you are cold and calculating, but rather that you have a skill towards discernment.

You know what you want, and you know what is good for you.  You know what works, what path to take, and what to say to help others along their path as well.

Discernment means the ability to judge well, whether that is the people around you, the path you follow, or the activities you participate in along the way. It means that you don’t have to doubt yourself so much, because you know what’s right for you and choose well when needing to.

You may not be as cut throat or self serving, you may not view people as people on the chessboard of life, waiting to be moved by your words and actions.  But, when it comes to knowing your choices and the best choice forward for you?  You are unerringly your mother’s son.

DECK USED:  MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2024 Challenge Prompt
Questions for April 4th and 5th

Mibramig Magical Tarot - Three of Cups, Two of Wands, The Moon, The Hanged ManTell a Lie Day – What lie have you told that it is time to reveal?

Three of Cups atop Two of Wands – There have been times in the past when I have used my social connections for my own personal agenda instead of simply enjoying them as the guileless friendships that they appear to be.

Although society is a whole has a habit of seeing this as a type of reprehensible behavior, I have not personally seen anything wrong with it in the instances where I have used it, but I’ve kept it quiet because I know other people would.

Go for Broke Day – How can you best go about revealing the truth?

The Moon and The Hanged Man – Instead of assuming the worst of people and sinking into the uncertainty of whether or not they will accept what has been done, it would be a good idea to discuss with them the situation and get their perspective, as well as allow them to see yours.

DECK USED: MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Ms B and I helped each other make chocolate chip cookies today, which I’ve already ate half of.

Creation, Evolution, and Balance

Today’s meditation was disrupted by the fact that I had to run Z to the hospital.   I did do a good deal of 2 minute pauses and deep breathing while at the hospital in order to keep myself calm and clear headed.   But I didn’t really get an actual, official meditation as the emergency happened just after I had lain down to try and get the meditation practice in.

Z is fine, and back with us, btw.  She just had to stay overnight to make sure that her allergy reaction didn’t return as the medication used to suppress it wore off.

Ace of Oak - Ace of Pentacles - Stolen Child TarotToday’s draw is the Ace of Oak (Ace of Pentacles) which is a representation of the seeds of new beginnings in the area of one’s resources, finances, health, and the physical plane.

Aside from the Five of Flame, this is one of my absolutely favorite cards in the Stolen Child deck.  The imagery in this card speaks to me of the aspects of nature and energy that I revere in my practice.   That is, that it speaks to me of the energies of creation, evolution, and balance.  It speaks to me of cycles and balance.

The appearance of this card today and the message it brings has very little to do with traditional meanings, and everything to do with my perception of those energies represented within the imagery.   This card is a reminder that my morning devotional where I call upon those energies and the energies of the elements is an important part of my day and finding balance in my life… and calling me out on skipping it.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I honor that lesson? (built off yesterday’s cards)

Mibramig Magical Tarot

Reading Summary:   Accept that I’m doing a good job (Ten of Pentacles) and that this lesson is one that is needed (The Tower) in order to become stronger and more assertive in life and a better provider (King of Wands).

Take Away:  I have definitely felt a shift happening as I’ve lead my family (sister, childhood mentor, mother and her nurse) through the crisis that this pandemic has created.  I feel less and less like a kid fumbling in the dark and working at “playing house”, and more and more the responsible and dependable rock that they need.

DECK USED:  MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What gifts does the new season bring with it?

Considerate Cat TarotReading Summary:  The opportunity for a little more independence (Nine of Pentacles) that I should grab hold of and use to nurture myself and care for my needs (The Empress) rather than ignoring or rejecting for not being enough (Four of Cups).

Take Away:  Alone time is a really scarce commodity these days and that’s something that I’ve really struggled with.  The cards here indicate that I’m going to have an opportunity for a bit more autonomy with this new season, and instead of squandering that opportunity because it doesn’t feel like I’m getting enough… I need to cherish that opportunity and use it to help take care of myself and my needs.  This feels like an encouragement to jump at opportunities to get outside and enjoy time in nature, no matter how small, short, or limited those opportunities may be.

DECK USED:  CONSIDERATE CAT TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question
: What energy am I attracting in my life?

Forager's Daughter Tarot

Reading Summary: Seeing the world (The World) from a new perspective (Hanged Man) that will allow for a closer connection with others (Two of Cups) through self expression and exploring new ways of communication (Page of Swords).

Take Away:  That openness to new perspectives is something that I always welcome, but the blend of that with a connection to others is something that is very new.   I usually have a really difficult time connecting to people and the message here is that at this time it is important to seek out and be open to finding new ways of communicating with others that help foster those connections that I’m usually not very strong at developing.

DECK USED:  FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT

 

The Strength of the Small

IMG_3603Today’s meditation was just under eleven minutes long and was a body scan focused meditation that guided me through a scan of the body from head to toes, before it turned to the area of the heart and expanded outward to include the entire body.

The purpose of the meditation was to sink into the stillness and silence and that peace that you can find within when you find your quiet place within.  Unfortunately, I really struggled with staying on task as well as with finding that quiet space today, which was a bit frustrating.

I do accept, though, that meditation cannot go smoothly all the time.  Some days will be more of a struggle than others.

Strength Card - Stolen Child TarotToday’s draw is the Strength card of the Major Arcana, which generally represents  themes surrounding one’s inner strength and courage, perseverance, and also sometimes the elements of persuasion.

What I see in the imagery of today’s card is a sense of security.  A sense of safety among something much bigger and stronger than themselves.  This does not so much speak to me in the way that the strength card usually does, as I do not see the “weaker” acting upon the stronger/more fierce.   Instead… I see the larger and more fierce protecting the weaker.

This, in itself, is it’s own kind of strength.  It is the kind of strength that comes from having someone strong and fierce on your side.  It’s the kind of strength that comes with being a submissive in a D/s relationship.   Yes, the Dominant is the “big bad wolf” of the dynamic, but it is truly the submissive that holds all the power.   They set the limits.  They hold the safe word.  They have the last say.  This is the power of the “weak” that are really… not weak at all.

And that is the message in today’s card.  It’s okay to be small.  It’s okay to be vulnerable.  It’s okay to be the submissive party.   There is strength in these things… more strength than most even realize.

DECK USED:  STOLEN CHILD TAROT

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: Current state of spirit.

Mibramig Magical Tarot

Reading Summary:  I am at a time of transition (Ten of Swords atop Nine of Cups) and in the process of developing a new type of stability (Ace of Pentacles) that includes my emotions in the mix rather than excluding them (King of Cups). This makes it feel like I’ve upset my apple cart (Nine of Cup under Ten of Swords). Be sure to focus on staying calm and centered (King of Cups) and allowing time for things to develop (Ace of Pentacles).

Take Away:   I’m pretty sure I could write an entire book on the layout and combination of these cards combined  with the imagery.   The short answer is that I’m in a place of transition right now where incorporating my emotions the inner workings of myself and my life has the potential of really freaking me out and its important to stay balanced and not let it become overwhelming.

DECK USED:  MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What does it mean to live a good life?

The Good Tarot

Reading Summary: Not allowing uncertainty to overpower (Moon) having an open mind (Messenger of Air) and a sense of adventure (Eight of Fire).

Take Away:  This deck is so f’ing beautiful.  Just sayin’.  The cards here are indicating that to live a good life I can’t allow times of uncertainty to derail me from those things I enjoy and find important.  I need that exploration of perspectives and the mind… I need new ideas.   I also need to feel that burning spark of enthusiasm that allows me to pounce forward into new projects and explore new passions.  Uncertainty can put a definite damper on these things if I let it… so to live a good life?  Don’t let it.

DECK USED:  THE GOOD TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question
: What am I stressed about today?

Lili White Tarot

Reading Summary:  Work and orders and the “debt” involved in having slacked off over the past week on keeping up with things, resulting in a bit of negative thinking and serious self-judgement.

Take Away:  Ugh.   I fell behind a bit on orders this week and have struggled to catch up, then had an emergency that pulled me away and set me back even further.  It’s just something I’m going to have to work through, but it definitely has me stressed.

DECK USED:  LILI WHITE TAROT

#MidnightTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: What is my relationship with spirit (divinity)? How can I improve it?

IMG_3608Relationship with Spirit:  My connection to spirit is through my affinity the earth and the nurturing energies I experience through my bond with nature (Empress).

How to Improve:  Okay so… passion.  More passion.  POUR ON THE PASSION!   Honestly?  All three of these cards popped out individually from the deck at different times in my shuffle so the fact that they are all court cards of the Fire suit really speaks to the fact I need to really pour on some passion into my relationship with spirit.   Show a little enthusiasm.  Explore with confidence and vision is needed.  Step forward and get invested, just don’t let yourself end up impulsive and carried away (the knight is missing).

DECK USED:  THE GOOD TAROT

Opening Up

IMG_3398Today’s meditation was just under eleven minutes long, and focused upon a breathing activity that was very similar to a body scan.   That is to say that it actually was a body scan, but instead of just consciously checking in with each area of the body, the meditation involved using the breath to breathe in healing energy into each part of the body along the way, and then into the body as a whole once each part had been tended to individually.

I really enjoyed this, and the visualization of air swirling through the body part, one body part at a time, and pushing out discomfort and tension was very relaxing.  This is definitely a meditation that I will be practicing again, and perhaps take some more time at it without a guide along for the ride in the future.

Healing Mantra DeckToday’s draw is something a little different.   It’s from the Healing Mantra Deck, which is a meditation guidance deck.   Today’s card is the “Liberating Love” card, which is about opening your heart to both give and receive.

This card indicates that love is healing, and the guidebook provides a reminder that when opening your heart to receiving and forgiving feels tiresome and exhausting, it means that we do not feel safe enough to remain open, giving guidance on using your will to find the strength to open anyway, for it is in opening up to love where the healing lives… not in closing yourself off.

This is a good reminder to me today, as I’m on the cusp of a subdrop.  These drops make me feel extremely vulnerable, and it is my habit to close up when they come upon me.  But the truth is, it is only in staying open and allowing the love between us to help me through where real healing happens.

DECK USED:  HEALING MANTRA DECK

#TarotForGrowthApril Challenge Prompt
Question
: Root Cause (built off yesterday’s cards)

Fantastical Creatures Tarot

Reading Summary:  I have consciously made some choices lately (Eight of Swords) to focus on the positive (The Star) which is helping me in finding a better path through reflection as well as the rest I need at this time (Four of Swords).

Take Away:   Essentially?  Make good decisions and get good rest, and the whole world has an opportunity to look different… and better.  The state of mind was a positive shift, and these choices to allow myself more rest and a time of reflection combined with making a conscious choice to look for the positive is helping in lifting me up out of the smog for a breath of fresh air.

DECK USED:  FANTASTICAL CREATURES TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is the most valuable thing I can do for others this month?

Mibramig Magical Tarot

Reading Summary:  Lift them up (Six of Wands) by helping them to look at things differently (Page of Swords) and make good choices for themselves (The Lovers).

Take Away:  Sometimes we all need to learn new ways to look at (and think about) the things that are weighing on our minds.  As the Ten of Swords grows into the Page, there is growth in finding new ways to move forward.  The cards indicate that the most valuable thing I can do for others this month is helping them feel better about themselves in their situation by encouraging that growth and helping them in finding the path forward that is right for them.

This is actually one of the ways that I very much enjoy interaction with others (as an introvert, I’m a little picky about social interaction) and it’s wonderful to hear from the cards that this endeavor is helpful and positive for others.

DECK USED: MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question
: What do I know about myself for sure?

Cosmic Tarot

Reading Summary:  I’m willing to walk away (Eight of Cups) from a sure thing (Nine of Cups) in order to go after something better (Queen of Wands).

Take Away:  I demonstrate this on a regular basis, but in one of the most obvious ways that this is true is in how I make my living.   I am three months from completing double science majors.  I could, with the grades I was pulling down and my natural affinity for those subjects, have taken any number of high paying jobs even without my degree.

I chose to go my own way instead.  I chose to enjoy my life, rather than spend it in an office or a laboratory or a classroom teaching others.  This isn’t because I couldn’t have done any of those things, or all of those things.  It’s because the learning burned bright within my passion and drive… but the actual careers? Left me cold. Instead, I chose to go after something that does kindle my spark of joy and passion and creation.  I started my own business and do my own thing.

Yes, my other part time jobs (or some of them anyway) were very much in the wheelhouse of my education and knowledge base… but they bring me joy because there is a lack of pressure, and an abundance of freedom to do my own thing and go my own way and help… on an individual level.  I enjoy that far more than some stuffy office or lab or classroom.

DECK USED:  COSMIC TAROT

#MidnightTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: What opportunities are being presented to me this month?

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Reading Summary:  Overcoming my fear of the unknown (Two of Wands) and moving forward into a new beginning (The World) with self possession intact and a new understanding of my needs moving forward (Queen of Cups).

Take Away:  I feel like a lot of the uncertainty I’ve been feeling in the past few months is an emotional influence.  I’m so not used to my emotions being “out of the box” and able to influence… well, everything. The opportunity being presented to me this month is in starting on a journey that finally begins moving me away from that “holy crap fear” that comes with stepping out of the dark box I’d hid my emotions in and into the disorientation of the light… and moving past that blind moment of disorientation into somehwere more seated, comfortable, and assured.

DECK USED:  MIBRAMIG MAGICAL TAROT