Preserving One’s Boundaries

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Le Tarot des TableauxToday’s draw is the Seven of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of standing up for one’s values and principles against opposition, standing up for what you believe in, conflict, and perseverance.

The imagery in this card is a reminder that even those we love are sometimes going to cross boundaries we have in place concerning what we value and where our principles lie. The smile on the woman’s face is gentle, though, and indicates that even during these times… we still love them.

It’s not possible to agree with everyone we love all the time.  It’s natural to have differences of opinions, and boundaries sometimes get trampled during these times.

Today’s card is a reminder that reminding these loved ones of where your boundaries lie doesn’t have to turn ugly.  Sometimes a gentle reminder is all that is needed to set things back to rights and re-establish those limits.

DECK USED:  LE TAROT DES TABLEAUX

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Question for February 16
: Turn to your ancestors or tune in to your ancestral heritage, then draw three cards.

Amor et Psyche OracleWhat do my ancestors wish to say to me in this moment?

The Warrior of Love – You are strong and resilient. You have support from those who love you. Don’t forget these things as you move forward. No stagnancy allowed.

What sage advice do my ancestors wish to share with me at this time?

Joy and Jubilation – Optimism and a positive outlook makes absolutely everything just a little bit better. Enjoy your life and have fun! You don’t need to be so serious all the time.

How can I continue to strengthening my connection with my ancestors?

The Game of Love – Interact with us more. It doesn’t always need to be a question-and-answer session. Let’s have a bit of fun now and then too.

DECK USED: AMOR ET PSYCHE ORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: Where does your self-worth come from?

Le Tarot des TableauxReading Summary: These cards indicate that your self-worth comes through making the hard choices (Two of Swords) needed to go in the direction of my dreams and passions (Two of Wands), even when it might cost me dearly to get there (Nine of Wands).

Take Away: It is through making these choices and weathering the storm that you learn what is important to you and where your strengths lie. This knowledge builds self-confidence and self-worth, for with each step along the path of self-discovery and self-knowledge, your feed become steadier on your life’s path and your stride more sure on where you want to go and who you want to be.

DECK USED: LE TAROT DES TABLEAUX

Daily Self Kindness

I had a bit of a lazy day today.  I really should have worked on orders so that tomorrow’s workload would be a bit less taxing, but I just… needed some time today to dawdle and relax.

Next Time

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Storybook Illustrations TarotToday’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of disillusionment, pessimism, regret, and struggling to see the boon in a time of tests, trials, struggles, or setback. This card is not so much about those times, but it is about how we react to them emotionally.  In this card, we are asked if we handle such situations with grace and optimism, or fall into negative self talk and pessimistic thinking.

In the imagery of this card, the sea roils and the figure is caught within the turmoil, even while stability and peace lie not far away and within reach.  Instead, she allows the sea to pull her away from that stability and comfort, and she becomes lost in the chaos of its grasp.

This card has come today to say “you could have handled that better”.  And… I know that I could have. It isn’t  here to cast judgement, but rather to remind me to reflect on how I handled things so that I can learn from the experience, look at it objectively, and find a better path for such stressful situations in the future.

DECK USED:  STORYBOOK ILLUSTRATIONS TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 13th thru 15th

Journal: Think of up to three people {or deities} who inspire you. Share them, what do you admire about them?

Z – The woman has the most beautiful of souls.  She’s gentle and wise, intelligent and kind… and yet she doesn’t take any shit from anyone.  She has a way about her where one moment she can feel like a nurturing mother earth, and in the next as if a demon has arrived that will rip out your soul and eat it bloody.  And yet even after you’ve met the demon?  It’s impossible to see her as anything but beautiful and sweet.

Ms B – A foundation of strength.  Although I have always admired her, in the past six months I’ve come to see her in a new light.  Vulnerable… and strong.  Even when she struggles there is a thread of iron will beneath the emotion and confusion. She is truth…. sometimes kind and sometimes brutal, but always honest through and through. Don’t ask what you don’t want an honest answer to with her, for she won’t sugar coat what comes, and what comes will be the truth through and through.

Mr R – Life smart. He probably hasn’t read a book in the past fifty or sixty years, other than repair manuals skimmed for the information needed. But what he lacks in book-smarts, this man more than makes up for in life-smarts. He can see your lies, your falsehoods, and your deceptions. He can see the true you, deep inside. He can see what you need, what you want, and he can see your weaknesses, your triggers, and all your buttons. It’s a great responsibility to see so much, and yet he doesn’t whisper a word of these secrets to anyone, keeping them all to himself like treasures to be guarded… and occasionally used when needed.

Storybook Illustrations TarotWhat advice would your mentors have for you right now?

ZQueen of Wands – Own your passion and your drive. Let it slip back into place now that the crisis is over, and allow your determination to succeed to pull you forward.  You have been doing this a long time and there’s no way that something like this will topple what you’ve built and continue to build.

Ms BEight of Cups – It’s time to diversify.  Just because the issue you’ve been dealing with has been fixed doesn’t change that you need to look into adding a second “basket” to keep your eggs in. Just in case you have to walk away at some point, you’ll then have a direction to head towards already chosen and begun.

Mr RNine of Wands – Examine what you need to do to keep yourself and what’s important to you safe. Stumbling now and then happens, but it’s only through creating the right fail-safes that you can keep yourself from a truly catastrophic tumble.

What guidance can you give me for my journey?

ZThe Star atop Nine of Swords – Look at what needs to be done now as an adventure instead of a nightmare. Creating a website, setting it up, designing it, stocking it, and figuring out all the ins and outs to make it work how you want is not easy and is going to take some time.  It doesn’t have to be a dreaded chore, though.

Ms BTwo of Pentacles –  Think about how she diversifies her money between banks, ensuring that there is always an extra “nest egg” hidden somewhere. She keeps up with both because she splits her attention between them, and the fact she has her eggs in many baskets protects her.  It will be an adjustment, but that’s okay.  It’s for a good cause.

Mr RThe Lovers – Healthy choices aren’t always simple or easy, but you have others to help you. Don’t forget that you don’t have to do this all on your own, and there are resources to help you keep your balance as you put one foot in front of the other.  Don’t rush.

Draw a card asking each mentor: How can I embody your wisdom as I move through life?

ZFour of Pentacles – There is nothing wrong with focusing on home and stability. It’s what you need, those deep roots and the comfort that having a secure foundation gives.  You can have these things and still grow into more than you are today.

Ms BThe Hierophant – Your generous spirit that seeks to guide others on their unique path also draws them to you. Share your wisdom and knowledge with others. You have a unique view and a unique skillset that allows you to teach others, even without even realizing that you are doing sometimes.

Mr RSix of Swords – Don’t go burning bridges until you’re absolutely certain you don’t need them anymore. It’s okay to say “fuck it” and walk away.  Just pause to think first before you act, and  make sure that’s what you really want to do.

DECK USED:  STORYBOOK ILLUSTRATIONS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I was up extra long this morning making sure that my Etsy accounts got set back up and making sure everything is working properly, 2 factor authentication was set up on all accounts, and then I took care of the neglected customer service stuff that being locked out created.  Doing this before I went to bed meant that I was up later than normal, but it also meant that I slept much better because it was done.

Managing Priorities

Today’s meditation was skipped.  It was suggested by the cards but all I really wanted today was time with Gideon.

Eros TarotToday’s draw is the Two of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of balancing different aspects of one’s life, struggling with prioritizing multiple responsibilities or projects, and themes to do with time management. This card can often indicate the ability to adapt to a constantly changing playing ground in one’s life.

The imagery in this card absolutely says to me “both need equal attention”.  Not that I’ve been with a woman in… well, a really long time now. Gideon and I have been together going on 14 years, so at least a bit longer than that.  But, in my experience?  When it comes to pleasure, foreplay, and breasts… both need equal attention.

The card is sexy, but the message?  That is about making sure I’m balancing my needs with my business and my business with time spent with Gideon.  Only through a modicum of balance can I make sure to eek out as much pleasure from the day as possible while still managing to get my responsibilities taken care of.

DECK USED:  EROS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for February 14th
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this upcoming full moon?

Eros TarotReading Summary: Gideon (Two of Cups) has all the tools needed (The Magician) to help you keep from twisting in the wind in your current situation (Five of Swords). Allow him to distract you and use those tools to make you feel happy and loved (Ten of Cups).

Take Away: You need the uplift, and Gideon is the one to give it to you. Let him sweep you up into experiences that bring joy and pleasure into your life.  You need these to help in counteracting the struggles that you’re dealing with right now.

DECK USED: EROS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I agreed that I’ll call the doctor tomorrow about losing time.

Do What You Can

Today’s meditation was skipped, although I settled in for some piriformis exercises and have been doing some deep breathing off and on throughout the day to work on keeping my anxiety under control.

Luna's Dark Angel TarotToday’s draw is the Six of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of success, especially the sort of success that garners public recognition, people pleasing, high praise from others, and public accolades.

Although the figure in this card’s imagery is successful and holds their laurel wreath high, their head is bowed at an angle that suggests that their success is hard won and the weight of that battle weighs upon them.

The message here in this card is a reminder that you are not entirely helpless, even when it feels like it. Make those happy that you can. You’re limping, but not dead yet.

This is about the issues with Etsy, and a reminder that although I cannot reply to customer inquiries at the moment, renew sold out items, process returns or refunds, etc.  I can continue to fill orders.  It’s a reminder to do what I can until I can once more do everything needed.

DECK USED:  LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic
: Do Spread #2
Topic: Current security issues with Etsy.

Luna's Dark Angel TarotReading Summary: You feel completely undermined (King of Pentacles Rx) at the moment and more than a little betrayed (Imagery in the Ten of Swords). It echoes back to how you felt with the PayPal debacle (Four of Cups atop Three of Swords). Take this as a time to chill (Four of Swords) until balance can be restored (Six of Pentacles).

There is a reminder in the color correlation between the Cups in the Six of Cups and the Coins in the Six of Coins, combined with the direction that the figure in the cups faces as if looking to the pentacles figure’s juggling.  It is a reminder that just because you were treated so poorly in the past issue with PayPal does not mean you will receive the same treatment this time around.

The green in the Four of Swords bleeds into the bottom right corner of the Three of Swords, a reminder that times of struggle and disappointment are a time to take a step back. To rest, meditate, and recuperate from the shock and pain of the struggle, trial, or test you have been confronted with. This green then flows upward into the Ten of Swords, indicating that to not heed that need for rest can make things far worse in the end.

The orange glow that is shared between the Four of Swords and the King of Pentacles Rx then offers promise that taking the rest needed can help restore a sense of balance and groundedness, even when dealing with said trials, tests, and struggles.

Take Away: The cards have been saying this a lot over the past few days. Rest.  Recover.  Recharge.  It’s hard for me to let go of control and ease myself away from an issue.  I’m so geared towards picking at things until I fix them that not getting anywhere with the picking causes a lot of anxiety. I need to take a breath and step back, letting things sort themselves out in their own time. It’s much harder this time around than it sounds.

DECK USED: LUNA’S DARK ANGEL TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Lots of good crying in play with Gideon today.  Heartrending stuff.  But… I actually feel like I needed the cry, and feel a bit better after having done so.

No Hiding Allowed

Today’s meditation was skipped

Femme La Florale TarotToday’s draw is the Knight of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a projective beta energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s passions, drive, willpower, and determination. This often translates into themes that have to do with going after one’s passions with a “all systems go” mentality, and diving headlong into those things that kindle one’s “inner spark”.

Situational depression is not an MDE.  They are not the same.  But they feel the same in the moment.  And today?  Today I spent a good deal of time with a “fort” of pillows around my head while burrowed under a blanket. J came over and forced my ass out of bed, dragged me out of the house and made me step in among the trees.

And it helped.  I can’t say the depression still isn’t there, but it -did- help.  Today’s card is about making sure I’m connecting with those things that light up my inner spark. Not just connecting with them, but getting my ass moving and DO them.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 10th thru 12th

Femme La Florale TarotWhat is one of your most positive qualities?

Ten of Swords – My ability to move on from painful experiences, understand and learn from them, and continue on from them without allowing them to keep me bound.  As horrible as these experiences are, once they are over I am able to use them as a lesson rather than wallow in their aftermath.

How can you help this positive quality flourish in your life?

Queen of Swords and Knight of Wands – Don’t allow those hard times and troubles to convince you it’s the end of the world. Remember that if it’s something you truly believe in, there will always be another way to move forward and go after what you want.

And one of your least positive qualities?

Nine of Cups – Excitement and experimentation go hand in hand, but the joy is fleeting before I’m on to the next and the next.   This means that I end up with a lot of skills and experiences, but very few of them “stick” over time if they do not provide enough challenge to keep me from becoming too content.

How can you utilize this least positive quality to your benefit?

The Hermit and Queen of Wands – Examine why you reasons and motives for picking up new projects and passions, and for setting them down.  This knowledge is useful, but takes self reflection.

DECK USED: FEMME LA FLORALE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I went for a walk in the wetlands today.

Eggs and Baskets and Patience, Oh My

Today’s meditation was skipped.

The Victorian Romantic TarotToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of

Like yesterday’s card, today’s card is more about the imagery than it is about what card it is in the tarot. There is encouragement here to wait. Soul in tatters and not fully unscathed, nevertheless right now is a waiting game. There’s no more action you can take no matter how much anxiety or energy you pour into the problem. For the time being it’s not in your hands, so just sit back and wait.

Aside from this there is also a meaning in this card that has to do with my current situation as well. This card is about boundaries, and it’s about protecting what is important to you. It is a reminder that there are things I can do to help make myself a little less dependent on others, a little more independent, and a little more protected concerning ending up helpless at the whims of others.

I need to look into finding someone to build me a commerce website… or building one myself. Then if the rug is pulled out from under me on the platforms on which I run my business, I at least have a recourse already set up and ready to go. that’s going to be expensive, and I don’t really want to do it. But I think it’s time.

DECK USED:  THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheFebruaryTarot Kindred Spirits Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 11th and 12th

The Victorian Romantic TarotThink of something you would like to experience {more of} this year.

King of Pentacles – More stability. More security. It’s not just about success, or achieving one’s goals. It’s about feeling rooted. Grounded. Sure of your footing, no matter the situation or circumstance.

How can I achieve this?

King of Wands – Pour yourself into your passions and drive. Get the shit done that needs to get done, and delegate along the way to make sure you get the best results possible.

How or where am I guided to {re}connect with my {true} passions?

Six of Wands, The Moon and Ten of Swords – Success comes through accepting that uncertainty and failure is a part of life, and a learning experience. Don’t let it drag you down and drown you. Instead, allow it to lift you up into something better.

What {untapped} skills/resources can help me with this?

Three of Wands atop Five of Cups – Remember to keep moving forward, even when feeling disappointed or discouraged. Don’t let it slow you down or hold you back.

DECK USED: THE VICTORIAN ROMANTIC TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I let play with Gideon distract me for a while, which helped ease my anxiety a bit.