Future Ancestor Tarot

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Future Ancestor Tarot, Warwick Oracle, Oracle of the Dragonfae

Earth – Student of Needles and Choice – Make the choice to learn new skills. Make the choice to yield to authority.  For god sake, make the choice to DO YOUR FUCKING TAXES already.  This is always a very “in your head” activity that makes you feel like an idiot and a novice every single year.  But you need to get your ass in gear and get it done.  Now.

Air – The Alchemist and Fear –  You have all the tools and knowledge you need in order to get “the thing” done.  Stop avoiding and sidestepping out of the discomfort of fear and just do it already.

Water – Three of Seeds and Discover – You can help alleviate some of the emotional issues putting this off for so long is creating by bringing in help. You’ll be surprised just how much they can help in making task that you need to get done this week less painful for you. It’s okay to ask for help, even in this.

Fire – Ten of Needles and Nobility – You feel overwhelmed, and that is entirely due to this issue of trying to take on this task all on your own and keeping the stress and work of the process from others.  You think you’re protecting them in the process, but you’re really just hurting yourself and your business.

Waning – The Blue Lady (Nothing is Impossible) – Come down to earth and put away unrealistic expectations. There really are indeed impossible things in life and you need to get in touch with that side of things and look at things realistically right now.  Be practical.

Waxing – The Lady Grian (Open Your Heart) – When you open your heart, you let people in.  You also allow them to know the secret things you try to hide like worries and fears, burden and struggle.  Now is a time to open up.  Let others close to you know what’s going on.   ASK for help instead of shutting them out.

Take Away – This reading is about my taxes and the need to get them done.  I can file an extension, but if I do I’m not really helping myself at all, just prolonging the agony and dread of having to get them done.  The cards here indicate NOW is the time, and I need to do it.  I have to get it done, and I need to get help from the girls to get everything together and finished.

DECKS USED:  FUTURE ANCESTOR TAROT, WARWICK ORACLE, ORACLE OF THE DRAGONFAE

Morning Bonus Read – Sacral Connections

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Future Ancestor Tarot

My sacral center energy right now.

Two of Needles – A bit conflicted.  This isn’t really surprising considering that it’s now Wednesday and you’re currently creeping towards the time when you’ll need to go back to work. It’s funny in a way, because when you started doing these vacations last year, you couldn’t wait to leap back in to work. This time though? You’re feeling a bit of conflict and resistance.

Tension I’m currently holding in this area.

Five of Cups – Too much time spent focusing on what’s not working, and not enough effort spent focusing on what is. There’s lots of positive things to focus on.  You need to start turning your attention in that direction instead of allowing those things that didn’t work to continue to bug you.

How can I release this tension?

Eight of Cups – Move on.  Focus on what you can do different and where you can go from here. You learn from your mistakes and what doesn’t work.  These moments of failure are guideposts for adapting and moving forward.  Don’t look at them as anything else.

Emotions I repress that I need to allow myself to feel.

Listener of Needles – Emotions related to my mother.  This is not something I’m entirely comfortable with delving into. The whole dealing with my mother or my emotions concerning her is a bit of a sensitive subject. The shift in our relationship that happened when my father passed and I realized just what kind of person she is beneath the facade she prefers to present to both her children and the world… It has become awkward.  And these negative emotions that the shift has inspired don’t have anywhere to really go.

The outcome of allowing myself to feel.

Explorer of Needles – Movement instead of stagnancy. New perspectives, and perhaps a new way to look at my mother and our relationship. Essentially it would allow me to move forward emotionally in this area of things instead of stewing in the discomfort of where we currently stand.

How can I become better connected to my emotions?

The Lovers – Continue focusing on making good decisions that foster that connection.  Over the past year you have been working on connecting more to your emotions and finding a better balance. You need to continue to take each choice and change of direction you come upon, and weigh it carefully against what you want to accomplish with your emotional growth before coming to a decision.

DECK USED:  FUTURE ANCESTOR TAROT

Endings Sometimes Hurt

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Today’s meditation was skipped because I couldn’t convince anyone (even the cat) to leave me alone.  Every time I tried to get a few minutes of peace, someone was popping in to ask a question, lick my ears, or complain about something. I finally just gave up and said fuck it.

My Garden Deck and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of painful endings, coming to the end of a painful or uncomfortable journey, and taking a pause to acknowledge that you’ve lost and then pick yourself up and try again.

It’s the latter that I see represented here in this particular imagery, with the person that lies beneath the pinning tips of the sword also represented walking away from that experience.  It is a reminder that bad shit happens, but the strong carry on from it and continue moving forward.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message that I see here in today’s cards is that sometimes endings hurt.  Sometimes?  They really hurt.  But there’s a light at the end of the tunnel of all that pain if you just hold on and keep your focus trained ahead.   Take a breath, learn what you can from the experience, and carry the knowledge forward as you keep going and move beyond the ending and the pain.

DECK USED:  MY GARDEN DECK AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
Question: What lights my soul on fire?

Future Ancestor Tarot

Reading Summary: Creating opportunities (Two of Seeds) for others to grow and manifest what is right for them in their lives (Eight of Cups). In this endeavor there is an element of nurturing energy that I put towards these things as I give gentle nudges to help people to grow and make the choices that are best for them (Listener of Seeds).

Take Away: I was actually surprised to see this come up as the answer to this question.  There are a few different things I thought might come up, but this wasn’t at the top of the list.  Not that I don’t take a great deal of joy in helping others in this manner, as I absolutely do and it’s a part of the reason that I do tarot readings for others.  It brings me a great deal of joy to help people find the path that’s right for them. 

DECK USED:  FUTURE ANCESTOR TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Where in your life do you need to direct more gratitude?

My Garden DeckReading Summary: It’s the ones around you that you hold dear (Two of Cups) that help create the security and stability of your home life (Ten of Coins) and encourage you foster connections with not just them but the world around you as well (The Star).

Take Away:  I need to remember and acknowledge more often that I am not an island unto myself.  The people in my life are my support system, my encouragement, my cheerleaders, and often my inspiration. 

I often take these people for granted.  Perhaps we all do from time to time.  Hopefully not so much that they feel neglected, but I’m sure that they could absolutely benefit from me directing a bit more gratitude their way.

DECK USED:  MY GARDEN DECK

Daily Self Kindness

Honestly, after I passed out at the grocery store, I wasn’t feeling completely up to RP.  I’m glad that I did it anyway though, as it helped me find my center again and get comfortable in my own skin after the glucagon shot.