The Radiance of Wonder

Today’s meditation was just over twelve minutes long, and was another quiet meditations where I just use breathing exercises and the chime for the piriformis stretching.

White Fly Tarot - Page of CupsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.

In the imagery of the Page of Cups in this deck, even as the sun sets and darkness creeps in, the figure looks at the cup that they hold with a sense of wonder that lights up the encroaching darkness.  This speaks of how creativity and wonder can make the world and life seem much brighter and far less scary.

Today’s message is an encouragement to instill creativity and imagination into your day today, because when you look at the world with wonder, nothing seems quite so dark.

DECK USED:  WHITE FLY TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for July 4th thru 6th

Dixit Card Games Odyssey Expansion PackWhat inspires my creativity?

Top Row – Color, imagination, and a touch of guidance from beyond the veil to help balance everything out. A lion’s share of the inspiration for your creativity lies in these avenues, sparking not just your creativity but also your motivation to explore those ideas that rise to the surface.

What are my creative dreams?

Middle Row – That skills learned in secret will earn you admiration and money is one of the most significant creative dreams you have.  For it is in earning this admiration and money that you then find a way to support yourself through those creative endeavors that you enjoy.

What am I passionate about?

Bottom Row Left – Friendship and the connection, guidance, understanding, and open-mindedness that I feel need to be a part of friendship are all things that I am passionate about. People’s differences, and finding people that you can connect with in spite of those differences is important to me

Bottom Row Center – Fairness  and balance.  My moral compass requires fairness. I am aware that life is not fair, and yet I cannot help that I feel a need for it and expect it regardless of how many times I might be disappointed by not finding it.  I crave the balance that fairness creates and reach for it again and again.

Bottom Row Right – Knowledge.  Knowing yourself and knowing others. Gathering useful knowledge and applying it in one’s life. When we continue to learn and explore, we continue to grow.  I feel that this is an important part of life and, at least for me, something needed to be happy with myself and the world around me.

DECK USED: DIXIT GAME CARDS ODYSSEY EXPANSION

#DiscordTarotholicsJul2022 Challenge Prompt
National Bikini Day

White Fly TarotWhat needs more exposure in your life?

Four of Cups – Do your meditation. Do your meditation.  Do your meditation.

The Emperor – Buckle down to get the things done that need doing. You’ll need help, but you have the help you need.  They’re more than happy to step in.  So start getting these things done and delegating as needed.

What needs less?

Ten of Cups – Don’t focus so hard on where you are going. You need to enjoy the present.

Ace of Swords – New ideas need to be set on the back burner for a while. You have enough on your plate and don’t need to add more at the moment. Deal with what already needs worked on for now.

DECK USED: WHITE FLY TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I didn’t really want to because I really wanted more time with Gid today, but I took a nap.  I needed it, I just didn’t really -want- to do it.   And look!  I did meditation two days in a row!

Look On the Bright Side

Today’s meditation was skipped today.

Retro B(arbie) Tarot - Five of CupsToday’s draw is the Five of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of apathy, boredom, a pessimistic mentality, and discontent.

Poor Barbie reading her heartbreak book with tears in her eyes instead of looking at the freedom she has gained in her break-up.  Here we see the epitome of looking a gift horse in the mouth.

Today is orders day and I’m so very not into getting my work done. At the same time?  There were so few orders that I’m chafing at the idea of just how little came in this week.  It’s bad.  Like… real bad.

Today’s card is to look on the bright side.  Stop grousing about the work, and then about the lack of orders.  You’re literally bitching about both sides of the coin here. Turn those complaints around and look at what you still have and what good you can get from the situation.

DECK USED:  RETRO B(ARBIE) TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsJun2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for June 2nd thru 4th

Dixit Game Cards v3 JourneyAbout feelings…

Top Row – Others are always watching. Some will be supportive and others won’t. Some will be looking for how they can exploit your vulnerability and growth, and others will be amazed and encouraged. Don’t allow the awareness that others are watching make you close down and cage your emotions out of fear of those with bad intentions.

About friendship…

Center Row – True friends are there with you not just when there are exciting adventures to go on, but also when there’s work to be done. The magic is in finding those that are there for both.

About loneliness…

Bottom Row – Sometimes when your emotions are out of sorts, and you are feeling alone and lonely, you just need to open your eyes and look around. The solution to these feelings is in reach and the others you seek are right there with you.

DECK USED: DIXIT GAME CARDS V3 JOURNEY

The #STCTarotChallenge Statements of Power Prompt
Questions for June 2nd

Retro B(arbie) TarotThis Month will Reveal…

The Star and Eight of Cups – …how positivity and optimism can help you move on to something better, healthier, and less frustrating. You need to take the time to lean into that positivity and allow it to help you find that better place.

Because…

The Hierophant and Six of Swords – …you need to not just learn a better way and to try it out, but actually instill it into your life as something that is established and permanent. Not temporary or used only when needed.

DECK USED: RETRO B(ARBIE) TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I bought strawberry and white chocolate scones for breakfast today on the way home from the farm.

Chakra Reading from Owl and Bones

So this reading was actually the Owl and Bones prompt for the 15th of this month, but it was a bit too… involved for me to work with at that time.  Because it deals with the chakra centers, it needs a bit more attention for me to do a full reading on, so I saved it so I could do it separately at a later date.   That “later date” would be today.

Chakra Reading with Dixit Cards v4 Origins Expansion Pack

#OwlandBonesJuly Challenge by Owl and Bones Tarot
Topic: 
to balance:   root // sacral // solar plexus // heart // throat // third eye // crown

Root – I am… Surprisingly fierce. To balance this part of myself it is important to remember the effect that “jack in the box” pop of fierceness can have on the unsuspecting. It isn’t something to use indiscriminately, for the surprise is a part of the power that lies within this quality. Choose your battles wisely and allow that fierceness to show itself only when needed.

Sacral – I feel… Precariously balanced.  This card reminds me of Eddy Murphy in the cave on the way to get the cup in the Golden Child movie, balanced so carefully upon the towering stone pillars and at risk for a long, long fall. Due to the emotional growth I’ve been working through over the past few months, my footing is unsteady, although I am taking the right steps. If I want to find better balance in this area, I need to find better footing.

Solar Plexus – I do… Focus on zen and comfort and silence. I find strength in peace and my connection with nature.  The white on the face and blue lips speak of my mutism, and how I can use this part of myself as a strength instead of a weakness. Sometimes silence is comforting and peaceful.  Creating a balance in my core requires time in nature, and time wallowing in the things I find comforting (like Luna’s purrs and squishy Pluto).

Heart – I love… Loving care through symbiosis. The Egyptian Plover is a bird that flies into the mouths of Nile Crocodiles and perches within their open maws, picking the meat and other remnants of food from between the crocodile’s teeth. The crocodile does not eat the plover because the plover is ensuring the health of the crocodile, by removing debris that could cause infection while cleaning the crocodile’s teeth. This type of symbiosis is needed for me to find balance in a loving relationship… and this type of symbiosis is something I have with you.

Throat – I talk… About elevation and inner strength. My communication is filled with my desire to help others to rise above their tragedies and hardships and find the positives both in their situations and within themselves. This is something I desire and love, but I also accept that not everyone is ready to let go and move on.  Sometimes, you just have to ‘hold space’ for them.  Holding space is not my greatest strength, but to find balance in this area of my life, it’s something I need to work on.

Third Eye – I see… Possibilities within impossibility.  To find balance in the area of my intuition and creativity, it’s important to allow myself the freedom to get lost in my imagination and let it carry me away into a land of possibilities far removed from “the box” of conformity.  Anything is possible… I just have to imagine it, and then act.

Crown – I understand… The connection between light and dark. I know and I understand the differences between right and wrong.  My moral compass is strong and sure, and is swirled through with as well as heavily connected to my intuition.  Balance in the area of my deeper knowledge and my intuition relies on this connection and upon the clear and strong readings my moral compass provides me.

DECK USED:  DIXIT CARDS v4 ORIGINS EXPANSION PACK

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Self Care Saturday

Earth – Seven of Swords – What I steal away and betray this week will come to haunt me and I will need support from others to get through the repercussions.  In other words, there will be repercussions for playing the karmic justice card at the club this weekend, and I’m going to need the support of those that love and care about me to make it through and be alright with it all.

AirThree of Cups – I need to speak up and communicate clearly what I need from others.  No hemming and hawing about it, just open up and let them know “this is what I need right now”.  They know that if I’m asking it’s not for anything frivolous, and I won’t be refused.

WaterSeven of Cups – This week is not a week for providing emotional stability and strength to others.  Don’t over extend yourself, because you’re going to need that stability and energy for yourself this week.

FireEight of Swords and Horseman of Pentacles –  I’m still in a “dry spell” creatively and I need to take this time to give my creative spark the break that it needs and to instead focus on the more administrative and organizational matters this week.

WaningThe Primary Problem With Language Is Its Magic – Self fulfilling prophesies are a very real thing.  Be careful about what you think and how you communicate with others.

WaxingMagic Is Either Everything or It Is Nothing and Glitch –  Remember that sometimes people just take things the wrong way, and there’s no controlling that.  If you try to explain and they refuse to listen, they have made the choice to close off rather than allow for things to be fixed.  That is not on you, but their choice.

Take Away – Buckle in.  This week is going to be a bit bumpy, but you have the support you need to make it through.

Your communication skills are going to go through a really crappy phase this week, and there will be a number of misunderstandings and issues because of that.  Just remain calm and centered, and remember that as long as you make an effort to fix things, if it is rejected that’s their choice and not yours.   The repercussions of this weekend will unfold through the week and I’m going to need support to keep myself stable. 

DECKS USED: THE INVERSION TAROT, DIXIT CARDS DAYDREAMS PACK, POSTCARDS FROM THE LIMINAL SPACE ORACLE

#TarotForGrowthSeptember prompt 14 … Patience

For the hell of it, I did the #TarotForGrowthSeptember prompt today from Instagram.

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Question: How can I develop better patience with myself?

Reading Summary: Let out that magical childlike wonder and magical inspiration that sparks fire within the depths of my soul. It’s okay to have fun and play, even while you work hard at that which supports you.

Take Away: I’ve been pushing so hard on focusing on the business and separating myself from the more emotional and fun-loving side of things. For some reason this has been a really strong focus for me recently, and I’ve been highly judgemental with myself for the struggle involved. I’ve lost sight of the FUN that is a part of my business and my craft. It’s time to get back in touch with that aspect.

What this reading is saying is once I am able to get back in touch with the -fun- of my business and craft again, my harsh inner critic over my lack of enthusiasm will ease up.

Decks Used: Dixit Quest Expansion Pack #2

 

#7philosophicalreadings (non) VR to Benebell Wen

Recently, Benebell Wen did a video on YouTube that involved a challenge of doing 7 card readings for 7 classical philosophical questions.  I really liked this idea, and so I decided to give it a go.   Most of these questions I already have definitive opinions concerning, but the purpose of this exercise is to set the intention that the cards will know how you would respond deep down on a soul deep level, and thus communicate this in the readings.

I decided to do single card pulls for each question, but as you will see, I ended up with a few jumpers along the way.

The Seven Philosophical Questions:

1. The Trolley Dilemma: (I have linked the title to an outline of what this is if you are not familiar.)  Do you divert the course of nature and kill one to save five, or let nature take its course and let the five die.

IMG_9364The bell indicates I would try to warn all of them involved.  Although this is not something I could do verbally, I would definitely give my all to get the warning out there.  In the end, though, a difficult choice would have to be made.

This is where the spikes on the inside of the bell come in.  Either way, one or many will die.  I would choose the one, and my insides would be torn apart by this choice, probably forever after, just as those spikes are sure to scratch and score the inside of the bell.

I am that son-of-a-bitch that would kill five for someone I care about, though.  Just sayin’.

2. What difficult truth(s) about the human condition are you ignoring?

IMG_9365Sometimes I forget just how vulnerable people can feel.  Like so many, I go through life distracted by my own thoughts and issues and forget that others are dragging their own anchors behind them.  Some people’s anchors are heavier than others, but everyone thinks their own anchor is the heaviest.

In other words?  Everyone has burdens, and those burdens are entirely subjective.  That subjectivity makes it difficult to acknowledge other’s burdens, and impossible to see them in the same light as the one carrying them does.

3. What does it mean to live a good life?

IMG_9366Defeating your demons and protecting the security of your home, friends, and family (or your village of towers) from those demons hidden in the dark.

This boils down to valuing your personal “village”, and working on your shadows and demons so that they do not  crawl out of the dark and destroy everything you hold dear.  We all have deep dark shadows where monsters lie in wait, emotional demons and the creeping shadows of our darker selves linger there.

Unchecked and unacknowledged, these dark entities within ourselves surface and wreak havoc.  To protect what you hold dear, it is important to deal with these demons rather than trying to bury them into a hole they will then try to climb back out of again and again.

4. Where does your self-worth come from?

IMG_9367This card came with a twofold answer for me.   From within… and from the earth.  This is very fitting.

a) From within… I have never really been able to explain where my conviction of self comes from.  My father tried throughout my entire childhood to break me down and build me up into something different.  And yet it never worked.  No matter how hard he tried, I knew who I was and what I wanted, I knew what felt right and where my values resided.  From within, while not really speaking of “why”, does speak of where quite eloquently.

b) From the earth… I have always had a very strong reaction to the earth.  An instant communion with soil and sand, with trees and the green.  It is the balm of my soul in the way water is the balm of my emotions.  Being in nature among the trees and the soil, especially here in the rainforests where things are dark and moist and filled with green, has always been extremely restorative to me.  It lifts me up and centers me into myself. My self worth greatly ties into this, as it is a part of how I identify with my inner self (and the world at large, for that matter) on a very base level.

5. What had existed before our universe was created?

IMG_9368Okay, so this one totally made me laugh, and I think that was the entire point.

No, I don’t think that the card is saying that before the universe was created, angels resided on high.  But, I believe that before our universe was created there was still something greater at work.  An energy of creation, evolution, and balance that in the end gave birth to what we have today, much in the same way that melody is created by the creation, evolution, and balance of notes blending on the air.

6. Are you ethically obligated to improve yourself?

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OOph… man.  The short answer?  Yes.  Look at those cards tho.  Wow.   They are so self explanatory, at least to me.

What I see here is the unpacking of one’s inner self (as life tends to do whether we want it to or not) develops into the discovery of one’s inner demons, and those demons being set loose out into the world.  And, when they are set loose, the world feels dark, and all those carefully erected pieces of your life that you value so much start to topple.

So yes. We are.  Because without self improvement, you are not just at risk of screwing over your own life, but the lives of everyone and everything around you (alllll those dominoes).

7. What is Divinity?

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Divinity is the unlikely vessel that lifts you up and carries you when you are feeling vulnerable and small.  It is the light in the darkness that we must choose to accept or turn away from, and yet even when you turn away from it, it still glows to light the way.  It is the duality of right and wrong, good and bad, man and beast, feminine and masculine, yin and yang… always together, always in motion, always side by side.

Deck Used:  Dixit Expansion Pack #2 Quest