#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022

Heart First

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Mara Lunne TarotToday’s draw is the Magician, which is traditionally a representation of capability, potential, resourcefulness, action, and manifestation.

The heart in the imagery of this card feels like it softens the original context of the magician, turning cold ambition into heartfelt drive and incorporating into the card a desire to do good for oneself and others.

The message in today’s card is to make sure that you are acting with your heart as you go about your day today. The brain isn’t enough. Logic and intuition are formidable tools, but they aren’t enough.  Make sure you are also consulting your heart.

DECK USED:  MARA LUNNE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th

Fleurot TarotWhat weighs you down?

Peony atop Hydrangea – The feeling that I am undeserving of abundance or self care in my life. This is an issue that I have struggled with throughout my life, although very much at the forefront over the past few years as I try to break old habits and be kinder to myself.

What lifts you up?

Fir and Nasturtium – Security and stability. When I feel I have a stable foundation, whether financially or intellectually, I then feel free to stretch and breathe. It gives me the confidence to know that as I explore my emotions and stretch into them, I have solid footing beneath my feet so that I won’t easily take a painful tumble.

DECK USED: FLEUROT

The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 17th and 18th

Mara Lunne TarotI see progress here…

Three of Cups – Finding joy in spending time with others. I am… very much the Hermit in many ways, and I struggle to be social more often than not. It takes me a long time to feel comfortable “loosening up” around others, and even then I’m more likely to prefer my own company the majority of the time.

And yet, I have been improving on this over the past few years by finding ways to appreciate others in my life more and tapping into gratitude for their presence in my life and what their presence contributes to my life and my experiences.

Because?

Nine of Swords – I’m not worrying as much about things that don’t matter or don’t exist. Like many people, I am often guilty of a lot of a lot of Unhealthy Thinking Styles, and this is especially true when it comes to public perceptions directed my way.  I am learning to use these Unhealthy Thinking Styles less, and trust more.

I have the strength to…

The Hermit – Know when alone time is healthy or unhealthy, and make the choice to use my alone time in more healthy ways.

Now l?

Nine of Pentacles – With this knowledge and ability, I have the opportunity to make healthier choices for myself that will assist me in my climb out of the pit instead of lingering in the shadows just past the pit’s ledge and never quite making it all the way free of the MDE’s grip.

DECK USED: MARA LUNNE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I took a walk outside today while the others did casino stuff. It was just too loud and busy, and was really bugging me.  So instead, I went outside and walked around, taking pics of the flowers in the flowerbed, enjoying their waterfall feature, etc.

Providing Stability

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaToday’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world.

Today is the day that I meet up with Ms B and the message here is clear. It’s the same as the Emperor that Gideon’s deck threw at him where I was concerned yesterday. I provide a sense of security and stability for all three of the women that I’m traveling with right now.

Today is an easy day. Travel, and then getting settled. Nothing is open on Easter Sunday, and so it gives time to just get comfortable without the pressure of things to do. It allows them to settle, and allows  time for calm and peace after. During this time, they look to me to help pave the way and make things go easier, help them settle and feel secure and stable so that we can start off on the right foot tomorrow.

For today?  The King of Pentacles is me. I take care of the billing, the electronics, and the small inconveniences that help them to settle and be comfortable during this time.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for The Devil – Day 17

Seasons of the Witch Beltane Oracle and Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaWhat attachments can potentially hold me back from growing?

Ribbons – Having an addictive personality means that you can very easily get tangled up in anything that provides pleasure. Like the monkey that hits the button that stimulates the pleasure center in their brain again and again without restraint, you can easily fall into repetitive behaviors when you find something that gives you the “just right” level of dopamine to keep you coming back again and again for more.

How can I constructively move past blockages or stagnation?

Sex Magick – Lean into authenticity and lack of guile. Both with others, and with yourself. What do you really want? This card encourages you to please yourself, and in doing so those that matter will also be pleased.

The Tower – Day 18

What can use a do-over or a new beginning?

Goddess – Self care and treating yourself as sacred is something that you were working on, and then the holiday rush and subsequent new year depression stepped in and pulled you off track. Now that you’re climbing out of depression’s pit, a do-over or restart would be an excellent idea.

What needs to be torn down and parted with in support of my best self?

Oracle – How you view and interact with your spirit guides needs a bit of a rebuild. You are overcomplicating things. There is a better and easier way.

DECK USED: SEASONS OF THE WITCH BELTANE ORACLE AND TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Do Spread #3

Tarot of the Starbound PhantasiaYou – Two of Swords – You are currently struggling to be decisive in your own life. There is a tug of war going on between your desire to chill and relax, and your desire to get things done that need to be done.

Your Goal – Page of Wands – Reconnecting with your passions, inspiration, and motivation. From the burnout of the holiday rush, you slide hed first into depression.  You haven’t had a chance to reconnect with that inner spark in quite some time.

What’s Holding You Back

The Hermit Rx – Unhealthy alone time is holding you back. Time that is siphoned away in pursuits that are neither restful nor productive. This is an avoidance behavior that you will need to overcome to move forward.

Advice To Overcome What’s Holding You Back

Three of Pentacles – Lean into help from others in this area. As previous readings you have done indicate, others have the ability to lift you up and help kindle your spark of joy within. Welcome them in and let them help you instead of thinking you have to do everything on your own. The climb out of depression’s pit does not have to be a solitary endeavor.

DECK USED: TAROT OF THE STARBOUND PHANTASIA

Daily Self Kindness

I asked Ms B to do a bit of a skin check on my back for me.  I’m not usually comfortable removing my shirt when others can see due to the good deal of scarring that I wear on my body, but I let her do a check of my back for me since I haven’t been able to get an appointment with a dermatologist to check me over in the past two years.

Don’t Push It

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Lovely Day Tarot - TemperanceToday’s draw is the Temperance card, which is traditionally a representation of moderation, patience, and harmony through balance.

When this card was pulled today, I heard the words rather than needing to find them.  The message in this card is “Just do what you can today. Don’t push it.”

Today is packing day, and I have a good bit to get done to be ready to go tomorrow.  I’m trying to take it easy, but I can feel the tension slowly building the further into the day I go.

I will continue to try and take things easy, it just feels like it’s careening out of control all on its own.

DECK USED:  LOVELY DAY TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Questions for Temperance – Day 16

Nashika's Rabbit Oracle and Lovely Day TarotHow can I apply {more} harmony or balance to my life at the moment?

Tree and Gold – Appreciate the value that lies in rest.

This is not something that I’m particularly good at, but I’ve had a few days this week that felt very nice and restful.  Not this day specifically, mind you.  But yesterday and the day before were quite nice.

How can I best adapt to recent changes in my life?

Present and Clouds – Allow yourself to be in the present and enjoy the world around you. Daydreams don’t always have to be about the future, and neither does your focus always have to be trained in that direction.

DECK USED: NAKISHA’S RABBIT ORACLE AND LOVELY DAY TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for April 16th: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this full moon?

Lovely Day TarotReading Summary: Instead of focusing on your own demons (The Devil), spend time appreciating all that you have in your life (Ten of Pentacles) and letting others know they are treasured (Atonement).

Take Away: This time over the next few days it’s not about you, so turn your focus to those that you are grateful for, and use the time to show them just how much they are appreciated as a valuable part of your life.

Side Note:  I really like the imagery in the Atonement card.  I also very much like that the devil’s tail in the Devil card could belong to either figure. There’s no way to tell for sure.

DECK USED: LOVELY DAY TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I didn’t really feel like cooking today, but I didn’t want the veggies in the fridge to go to waste so I made a healthy dinner for L and myself.

Variety Is the Spice of Life

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Elemental North Tarot - Three of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Three of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of teamwork, collaboration, working together, and themes to do with bringing in help and/or outside expertise in order to get something done.

Although the focus in this card is intended to be on the three bees, today I am drawn to the three different flowers represented here in the imagery. These flowers speak to me of spring, and how much more beautiful spring is when there is a variety of flowers in bloom instead of just one.

The message in today’s card is that you don’t plant a garden with just one flower and expect it to be beautiful, nor should you plant your life with just yourself within it and expect it to be beautiful. Welcome in others, and let them allow you to flourish, grow, and in turn allow your life shine more vibrantly as a result.

DECK USED:  ELEMENTAL NORTH TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Question for Death – Day 15

Spirit of the Animals Oracle and Elemental North TarotWhat missed chance has opened up my Journey for better things to come?

Elk – Once upon a time, I wanted to be a forest ranger. In fact, there was a time in my life before I lost my voice when I did guided hiking tours and plant identification/foraging tours in the rainforests here in the area.

Bee atop Squirrel – Necessity comes before desire, though. What I ended up doing instead was dropping out of uni due to trauma inducing extenuating circumstances, holding down multiple part time jobs at one time, and starting my own business designing and selling jewelry on the side. The side business then, over time, became my main source of income, and I’ve kept up with a couple of the part time jobs that allow me to continue making use of my education.

What am I guided to accept so I can move on?

Black Bear – “You are not alone.” I have been getting this message a lot lately, and acknowledge that I need to hear it and be reminded that there are others that want to help and support me, both in the people in my life as well as in the unseen spirit guides working behind the scenes. It’s very easy for me to forget that I’m not alone and left to do everything on my own.

DECK USED: SPIRIT OF THE ANIMALS ORACLE AND ELEMENTAL NORTH TAROT

The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 15th and 16th

Elemental North TarotI will begin to…

Temperance – Pay more attention to where excess has snuck up into your life while you were distracted with the depression, and work at applying more moderation in those areas.

So I can?

Three of Swords – Avoid the negative effects those points of excess can create in your life, including a festering disappointment in yourself for allowing excess to sneak up on you in the first place.

This year, I will face my fear of…

Chariot – … lack of control over my life and direction. I struggle with taking things slow.  I struggle with not having the same amount of energy, motivation, and drive as I had ten years ago, as well as the inability to use these things in the say way I did at that time in my life. Add into this a decreased amount of physical mobility and flexibility, and it all makes me feel like I am losing control over my life and my direction, and that in doing so I am also losing a piece of my independence.

By?

Judgement – Being more accepting of my flaws and allowing some leeway in my self-judgements. It’s important to give myself a little slack and be more understanding of my limitations, both physically and otherwise.  Acceptance is better than degradation.

DECK USED: ELEMENTAL NORTH TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Alone time with Gideon has helped a lot today with me feeling a bit tender and out of sorts.  Not just time spent together in play, but just that we got to spend some time together at all.

The Haves, and The Have Nots

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#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was just over ten minutes long, and was another of the #DailyCalm sessions from the Calm app.

This particular session was based on a breathing exercise where it is observed what a bit of deep breathing can do for our nervous system and our body as a whole.  It involved breathing naturally for one minute, while counting one’s breaths (ten for me), and then spending a minute doing slow deep breathing, allowing the lungs to fill fully, then exhale slowly (four breaths in a minute for me).  Then, you repeat the first minute again, counting one’s natural breaths (this time I counted eight breaths instead of ten).

The activity demonstrates that by having done deep breathing, the body further relaxes and thus we breathe more easily when doing the natural breaths the second time.

The Forest Enby Tarot - Six of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Six of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of charity, generosity, sharing the wealth, and balancing the scales between the “haves” and the “have nots” in life.

Here in the imagery of this card, note that the receiving bowl is upright and open, seeking to be filled, while on the other end of the card coins encircle the purse filled to the brim with wealth.  This imagery depicts the “haves” and the “have nots” mentioned above, and speaks of the potential of generosity, if not the outright act.

Today’s card is a reminder to be open to generosity, and open to opportunities to be generous.  Know your limits, of course, and respect your own boundaries as long as those boundaries are healthy, but don’t close yourself off out of pride, pettiness, or excessive selfishness when there is so much good out there to give (and receive) in life if you’re open to it.

DECK USED:  THE FOREST ENBY TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Question for The Hanged Man- Day 14

Formosa Tea Oracle and The Forest Enby TarotWhat can use a little break or some time to rethink before I move on?

At Present (Orchid Pouchog Oolong) atop Unique (Mint Ruby Black Tea) – More time spent in the moment is necessary. You have a unique ability to see those things others pass by and ignore, which is shown in your photography and in how you perceive the world. Take some time to sink into these minute details for a bit. The world will wait while you allow yourself this time.

Something I should be aware of or consider while I take my break?

Humor (Oolong Black Tea), Gentle (Milky Oolong Black Tea) atop Persistence (Iron Goddess Roasted Oolong) – Seek out the lightness in the world and within yourself. You are still climbing out of the pit and need to make a conscious effort to steer yourself toward the light and the positive. Seek out those things that make you smile, even (or rather, especially) when you’re not feeling in the mood for it.

DECK USED: FORMOSA TEA ORACLES AND THE FOREST ENBY TAROT

The Self Appreciation #STCTarotChallenge for April Prompt
Questions for April 13th and 14th

The Forest Enby TarotThis month I will commit to…

The World – …getting back on track with my path and my future growth and goals, while opening myself up to the world around me.

Much of my time in the depression involved closing ranks and withdrawing from the world. It’s time to unfurl and let the fresh air and joy back in.

Because?

Four of Pentacles – I need to reestablish a stable footing. During the depression when closed off from the world and all the joy the world has to offer, foundations start to wear and crumble, creating increased instability that can only be resolved by opening back up to let the good in.

I will work at no longer give my energy to…

Six of Pentacles Rx – …pouring my energy, time, and expense into things that provide no reward. During the depression there are habits that I have fallen into (like dawdling after stretching and yoga, spending too much time playing games on my phone, etc) that are not productive or particularly healthy in excess. Pouring my energy and time into these things takes away from places where I could better afford to direct my time and attention.

By?

Two of Pentacles – Focusing on balancing my time and energy better. There’s only so much time in a day, so when I while away some of it doing things that don’t benefit me in any way, that is time lost that cannot be put toward better pursuits.

DECK USED: THE FOREST ENBY TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I napped.  I really didn’t want to because Gid needed me to be here with him, but I was slow blinking and head bobbing and had to.  I feel better, but I also feel bad that I wasn’t there when Bandit passed.

Let Yourself Feel the Feels

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Chubby Bun Tarot - Page of CupsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.

Connecting to your emotions isn’t always easy.  Sometimes, it’s far easier to shut them away and not deal with them, especially the negative ones.

The thing is?  When you do this, you close yourself off to connecting with others.  Sometimes it’s better to acknowledge what’s in the cup and get it out there.

Let others see what you’re feeling, and then sort out the chips as they fall.  This is today’s lesson in learning about my emotions and feelings… and it aligns with the card pulled today, for this card is all about that journey of learning about one’s emotions… and about how other’s emotions work as well.

DECK USED:  CHUBBY BUN TAROT

Mr Lionharts’ #TheAprilTarot Animal Guide Challenge Prompt
Question for Justice – Day 13

Bix TarotIf my karma would be a card, what would be my karma card right now?

King of Wands – You are owning your journey, owning your path, and owning all that motivates and inspires you.  There is no shirking away from these things. You’re willing to own them, and let others see that you’re doing so.

How can I positively work with my current karma?

Use it as a motivation to move past (Knight of Swords) the painful shit that’s happened (Ten of Swords) instead of lingering to wallow in it (Four of Swords Rx). The King of Wands is about passion and progress.  There is no room for past regrets.  Accept them and own your mistakes, then continue moving forward.

DECK USED: BIX TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsApr2022 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for April 13th: Is personal growth required to live a good life?

Carrot Cards and Chubby Bun TarotReading Summary: The path of one’s life (The Path) will take you through many conflicts of principles and values (Five of Wands). It’s what you do with these conflicts that matters, you can use them to draw people together (The Many Rabbits), or split them apart.

Take Away: The answer here is yes. Personal growth is needed to live a good life, although conscious choice towards personal growth may not be, as these cards indicate that it’s more about our connection with others than about our inner selves and mindful movement towards being better people.

Question for April 14th: What kind of person do you truly want to become?

Reading Summary: You want to become the kind of person that helps guide others (The Hierophant) to a sense of safety and security (The Safe Burrow) by pulling the wool from their eyes and help them see the truth of their difficult situations as well as the path forward from it (Eight of Swords).

Take Away: These cards speak of those moments in my life where I seem to say something that unintentionally resonates with others, opening their eyes and allowing them to see themselves and their situation with new clarity.  I like when this happens and I’m able to help people in this way.  It feels good to know that I’m able to do this for people, even when it’s unintentional or at times when I don’t even realize it.  I want to continue to be the kind of person that can do this for others.

DECK USED: CHUBBY BUN TAROT AND CARROT CARDS

Daily Self Kindness

I did a lot of purging of my own feelings, and then helping talk others down from theirs today.  In both cases, I feel that it was good for me, even if it cut into time that Gid and I would normally do other things.