Crawling Is Fine

Today’s meditation was… not exactly skipped today.  I didn’t do a full meditation, but I did spend some time doing a bit of breathing exercises while I worked on my piriformis stretching.

Skele-Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Hierophant card, which is traditionally a representation of the teachers of tradition. This involves organizations like churches and those that work there like priests, ministers, etc as well as wise women and wise men, spiritual guides, grandparents teaching family traditions, deans or principles that teach school traditions, etc.

I often see the Hierophant card as a symbol of one’s ancestors, and especially at this time of year when the veil is thin, this is how the card comes up for me in readings.  Here in these cards, that is exactly what the card is representing, as it is in reference to the work that I have been doing on developing my mediumship abilities and connecting more closely with my spirit guides and ancestors.

I often feel like I’m making absolutely no progress in this area.  I know that’s not true, but the progress is so… subtle. Its hard for me to pick up on it.  Today’s cards are a reminder that not all progress needs to happen in leaps and bounds, and just because that’s the type of progress I am used to making on the things I choose to focus on… doesn’t mean it’s always going to work that way.   That doesn’t discount or devalue the progress we are making, though. Even when that progress is at a crawl instead of a walk or run.

DECK USED:  SKELE-TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Question for October 14th
: How can I best release negativity carried forward from my ancestors to me?

Calaca TarotReading Summary: Everything balances itself out in time (Justice), just be sure that you’re using the inherited abilities you’ve gotten from your ancestors (Queen of Swords) differently than they have used them in the past (Death).

Take Away: Don’t be your mother. Have you ever wondered where she got the values that she has, and the ruthless pursuit of prestige she carries? She got those obsessions from her past.

You inherited her logical mind and her way with words. Instead of using these skills in narcissistic ways and to your own agenda in a game of “Life Chess” that you are hell bent on “winning”, make sure that you are using them to help others.

DECK USED: CALACA TAROT

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 12th thru 16th

Crypto-Terra Myths and Monsters Cards and Skele-TarotWhat ghouls need to leave my life?
Loveland Frogman and Page of Pentacles

Stop letting your physical condition slow you down. This means you need to pick back up your full physio routine, return a regular meditation practice, and go back to cutting out the foods you know piss your body off. You can feel much better than you do now, but you have to commit to putting in the effort.

Where do I feel lucky?
Mamlambo and Page of Wands

Creativity comes easily to you, and is something you greatly enjoy. So much so that your mind is constantly in a creative learning state and becomes bored easily when that part you is not being sated.

What haunts me?
Silver Cat and The Empress

No matter how hard you try to attract that mothering energy to you crave from your mother, you will repeatedly discover that that well is dry.

What do I need to bury?
Grootslang, The Fool atop Page of Cups

Don’t just shed, but bury those imposters seeking to feed off your energy through manipulation of your naivety and still unseasoned emotional intelligence.  You may not be able to detect them immediately, but when you do, you need to use them as a lesson for others.

What do I need to sever from my life?
Mapinguari and Two of Cups

More sharing. Less greedy solitary time. Being alone right now is not healthy. You need all the help you can get to keep you uplifted and on track during this time.

DECK USED: CRYPTO-TERRA MYTHS AND MONSTERS CARDS AND SKELE-TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I spent a good deal of time with Gid even though it was an orders day, and really enjoyed listening to him opening the surprise “just because” gifts that I sent.

Everything Is Temporary

Today’s meditation was (yes, once again) skipped.

Trick or Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Seven of Swords, which is traditionally about strategizing, getting away with something, cunning and/or clever behavior, and… well, thievery and other illicit acts.

I left the  hospital today and went directly to get my phone replaced, aware that Gideon had to be freaking OUT.  I’m sore… I hurt.  But I’m fine.  L has to stay for now, but should be able to come home tomorrow if all goes well.

The person that hit us?  Got away. The police are looking for them, and said they will update me when they have any news.

The hit and run driver?  There right there is our Seven of Swords. The theme of these cards today is reassurance. A reminder that things -will- work out, and that everything is temporary… even this.

DECK USED:  TRICK OR TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 13th and 14th

The Witches World Oracle and Black Cats TarotOmen, sign or prophecy, what will the thirteenth reveal to me?

Charge forward with your plan (Knight of Swords), while staying focused on the goal (Rosemary). By being flexible and shifting your patronage to this new service (Willow), you’re going after more monetary rewards (Knight of Pentacles).

The Knight of Pentacles is a slow-moving energy, and these rewards may not show up all at once, but it’s about damn time you switched over to something that isn’t price gouging the hell out of you each month. Be patient.

Of all things that keep me afraid, what do I fear that is here to aid?

I fear that by standing back and taking things slow (Rabbit), no matter how capable I am or the amount of tools at my disposal (The Magician) will allow me to reach a place of happiness and comfort (Ten of Cups).

Sometimes fear works as a motivator, or at least, I used to use it as one. Now that I’m trying to be kinder to myself and ease up on how demanding of myself that I am, that fear is no longer channeled into pushing harder and sort of hovers there, unresolved and without an outlet.   Perhaps it’s time to find a new outlet for it.

DECK USED: THE WITCHES WORLD ORACLE AND BLACK CATS TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for October 13th
: What awaits us after we pass to the other side of the veil?

Trick or Tarot DeckReading Summary: We will have to decide (Two of Swords) on whether we want to pause in limbo for a while (Nine of Swords), or leap back into the fray right away (Knight of Swords).

Take Away: I’m actually surprised that the answer here coincides with my own beliefs, or at least a part of my beliefs on what happens after death.

I believe that we reincarnate in order to continue on with our soul’s lessons and improve ourselves… or, we pause in limbo for one reason or another, and then if we forget how to move on, we end up as a ghost.

DECK USED: TRICK OR TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I napped, even though I really needed some more time with Gideon.  I was so exhausted and I let myself take a long nap, which helped quite a bit.

Organizing the Chaos

Today’s meditation was… yes, you guessed it, skipped again.

Tarot de Marseille par Pole Ka and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the King of Coins, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the areas of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world. This often translates into themes that have to do with financial acumen, father figures, as well as authority figures and leadership in the above mentioned areas.

L and I were in an accident today. A car rammed our shopping cart as we were coming out of Costco. I wasn’t able to yank L out of the way in time, and she was badly hurt.

The cards here from this morning are all about that accident. All about the fact that in the aftermath, there was a need for knowledge of the physical body and how it works, of first aid and wound care, and of someone solid and stable to take charge and get things under control, organized, and on the right track.

These cards were a reminder that I am that someone, and have the unique skills needed and the inherit calm throughout crisis and chaos necessary to reign things in and make sure everything is dealt with and cared for in a quick, calm, and efficient manner.

Side Note:  Other than a couple of scrapes and bruises, and a dislocation, I am uninjured… but I have to replace my phone.

DECK USED:  TAROT DE MARSEILLE PAR POLE KA AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Question
: Witch’s brew, ritual or spell, what can I craft (draw a card), where can it help (draw a card)?

Flux Arcana TarotCard Layout: Witch’s brew (King of Wands), ritual (King of Pentacles) or Spell (Two of Cups atop Three of Pentacles), what can I craft (King of Swords), where can it help (Ten of Wands)?

Reading Summary: If I take control in the area of my business (King of Wands and King of Pentacles), and in getting others to assist me when I need them to (Two of Cups atop Three of Pentacles), I can avoid burnout (Ten of Wands).

Take Away: The reading here is a reminder that I can’t do everything on my own and I need to make sure I’m asking for help in order to make sure I don’t burn out too quickly. It is not a sign of weakness to delegate responsibilities effectively, but a unique strength bred through authority, experience, and expertise.

DECK USED:  FLUX ARCANA TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 11th and 12th

Tarot de Marseille par Pole KaListenKing of Cups – Those guiding you on your growth in the area of your emotions and emotional intelligence need you to listen closer. Like the cards, you often make them repeat themselves many, many times before you are able to actually hear what they are saying. This “beating a brick wall” approach can be tiring. Open up and listen more closely so that they do not have to work so hard.

ProcessThree of Cups – Others want to spend time with you, and enjoy your company.  This is something you have a hard time seeing and need to make an effort to process as truth.

ReleaseThe Sun – Release your resistance to enjoying life more. It’s okay to have fun.

What negativity in my ancestral history is it time to let go of in the present?
King of Wands, Two of Swords, The Fool

Responsibility doesn’t have to be without enjoyment and enthusiasm, nor does it need to eviscerate the fun out of life. There is no rule that you can be responsible and adventurous, and no reason you have to abandon your adventurous spirit while you go after the goals you  have set out for yourself.

These tendencies towards seriousness and gravity being the only route to responsibility were taught to you by your father, which were taught to him by his, but it’s not the only way forward.

DECK USED: TAROT DE MARSEILLE PAR POLE KA

Daily Self Kindness

Demerol. ❤️ ‘Nuff said.

Do It Anyway

Today’s meditation was skipped again.  I want to get back into it though.  I just need to…. do it.

Necropolis Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Knight of Swords (again), which is traditionally a representation of impulsivity, quick and even aggressive mental acuity, ambition, and specifically when it comes to ambition… the drive to succeed. (Yes, I did just copy that from yesterday.)

Today is an orders day for me and I absolutely do -not- feel capable of managing the crapload of orders I need to get dome.  The thing is? I am… I just am not feeling like it.

And, that’s where the Knight comes in today.  These cards are a reminder that even on the days when you’re just not “feeling it”, it doesn’t mean you can’t do “the thing”, whatever that thing might be.  It means you might have to dig deep and push forward anyway, though.

DECK USED: NECROPOLIS TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

PatriciaWestonWitch’s #wwpwHalloweenLenormand Prompt
Questions for October 10th and 11th

Sleep Tight Game Cards and The Nightmare Before Christmas TarotWhat’s bubbling up from my inner cauldron today?

The need for alone time is making you cranky (The Basement and Battle On the Green). Don’t let it turn you into an asshole (Strength Rx). It might take a little finesse to make sure that you aren’t sniping at people.

What corner of my life is filled with cobwebs?

Uncertainties abound after a visit outside your comfort zone (Hide and The Cackling Visitor).

It’s understandable that you can’t decide whether your extended family’s turning over a new leaf in how they treat you is sincere or not. Not once have they ever put forth the effort to “welcome you into the fold” before (Four of Candles).

DECK USED: SLEEP TIGHT GAME CARDS AND THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS TAROT

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions for October 14th thru 17th

Necropolis TarotWhat do I love about myself?

Ace of Cups (imagery based interpretation) – How far you have come from where you began, and that you have remained true to yourself throughout the journey.

What do I dislike about myself?

Queen of Cups – Your need for mothering. The desire to have that motherly reassurance and support that is (and always has been) lacking in your life.

What do I love about my Alter Ego?

Page of Wands – They get things done and there’s always more to explore. You like their efficiency, and love the opportunity to let your curiosity and creativity run free.

What do I dislike about my Alter Ego?

Seven of Wands – They can get a little too invested in… well, anything and everything, really.

DECK USED: NECROPOLIS TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I bought brownies.   Yum yum!

Perfectly Imperfect

Today’s meditation was yet again… skipped.  So much for accountability through blogging, right?  Right.

Черное Таро and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Chariot card, which is traditionally a representation of control in action, moving forward with determination and willpower, motivation, and the success that is bred through these themes.

The combination of the Thera-Pets card joined with the Chariot speaks of rising above self doubt in order to acheive success.

Sometimes, when we have things to accomplish or goals to go after, we can have a bit of a struggle getting up the motivation to complete them. Especially if we’re stumbling over a bit of self doubt.

I personally struggle with the “not good enough” issue all the time. No matter how much I do, or how hard I work, or how -good- the things I create are? It’s never enough.  It’s a work in progress. I’m… a work in progress.

The cards today are a reminder that I don’t have to be perfect.  No one has to be perfect.  We can be amazing… without ever being anywhere close to perfect. We can be amazing… and we can accomplish our goals and have the successes that we dream of… even while we are perfectly imperfect.

DECK USED: ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #EmbraceYourAlterEgo2021 Challenge for Sacred Grounds Tarot Club
Questions from October 8th and 10th

The Compleat Windrow Ravenswood Deck and Cruel Thing TarotWhat changes is my Alter Ego facing?
Crab Invasion, King of the Sea, Seven of Cups, The Moon

Pressure and potential overwhelm as you struggle to make choices on what to pursue and what to leave behind. Your focus is split and you are torn in multiple directions, which is creating inner conflict and uncertainty.

How does my Alter Ego overcome these challenges?
Three Cogs, Intersecting Flying Fish, The High Priestess, Ace of Coins

When new and unusual ideas come up, try them instead of automatically discounting them as impossible. Listen to your intuition instead of logic, for some impossible things are meant to be, if you’ll just give them a chance.

This is a reminder that you don’t have to put your emotional side away during the holiday rush. It is possible to balance both, but you have to be open to trying it.

DECKS USED: THE COMPLEAT WINDROW RAVENSWOOD DECK AND CRUEL THING TAROT

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for October 1st, 9th, and 12th

Черное ТароA message for my spiritual path.
Wheel of Fortune and Ten of Swords

Make sure that you aren’t treating every setback as some sort of catastrophe. Remember that ups and downs happen, and everything isn’t going to fall apart if you take a little rest here and there. That rest will actually help you deal with these ups and downs more gracefully.

What are my divination challenges?
Death atop The Hanged Man

Sometimes the pause you take to ponder over perspectives allows for shifts in the outcome to slip in and change things right under your nose. Your best readings will always be the ones where the answers leap out at you from the start. Thinking too much mucks up the works.

What is my biggest challenge with my spiritual practice?
Knight of Swords and The Magician

Impatience. Just because you have the tools and knowledge to do something doesn’t mean that thing is going to go quickly, or even be something you can do right away… or, for that matter, finish right away. This is something you struggle with often.

DECK USED: ЧЕРНОЕ ТАРО

Daily Self Kindness

I made sure to eat every three hours today while working on orders.  Since I have to go to my aunt’s tomorrow, I needed to get as much done today as I could, and so I had to use my phone to make sure I was prioritizing eating.

Love Languages

Today’s meditation was skipped again.

Gothic Tarot of Vampires and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of boundaries, stalwart strength, persistence, and the resilience needed to stand strong even in tough times.

In the imagery of today’s card we see a vampire, still young and spry, kissing goodnight his beloved that has aged and withered over time. He has set aside all of the adventures that immortality could hold for him to stay with her all this time and make her life full and happy (as seen through the many pictures on the walls).

This card speaks of knowing what one values most and protecting it steadfastly until the end. He is the sentinel of her life and happiness, even as he grieves her soon passing.

This makes me think of my relationship with Gideon. He is always there and so strong, dominant and supportive. I lean on him and he supports me, helps me, guides me. He allows me a place to feel weak and small that has never been allowed in my day-to-day life until he came into it.

Because I am not a “caretaker” type of person, I often feel like I am burdening him by allowing this and by leaning on him. In his shoes I would definitely feel burdened. Because he is the caretaker type, and very dominant besides, this role for him is natural and not perceived as any sort of burden at all.

Today’s card combined with the Thera-Pets card for today is a reminder that we are not a burden to our loved ones. Everyone shows their love in different ways, and that doesn’t make one way any better or worse than any other, just more suited to “fit” better or worse depending on the people involved.

DECKS USED:  GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsOct2021 Challenge Prompt
Questions for October 8th and 9th

Writing On the Wall Oracle and Tarot del ToroWhat positive theme or event in my ancestral past do I need to acknowledge?
Unification, The Moon atop The Sun Rx

No matter our differences, at times of uncertainty and when the world feels darkest, we come together to support each other. “We”, in this instance, speaking of family and ancestors.

How can I embrace these positive influences carried forward from my ancestors?
Exonerate and Nine of Wands

Forgive those that have hurt you. Good boundaries are important, but so is giving them shelter in the storm. You can do both.

DECKS USED: WRITING ON THE WALL ORACKE AND TAROT DEL TORO

Mr Lionharts’ #TheOctoberTarot #SeasonoftheWitchChallenge Prompt
Questions for October 8th and 9th

Gothic Tarot of Vampires and the Trauma Tarot OracleOne hand skyward (draw a swords card), one to wield fire (draw a wands cards), what emerges (draw a card), what will transpire (draw a card)?

When thoughts of adventure and doing risky shit come up (Two of Swords), if you don’t control those urges (Nine of Wands), things can go awry physically (Fat) and emotionally (Eldritch).

Self destructive urges often go hand in hand with risk-taking behavior, and I’m no exception to this.  These cards are a reminder that when I drive double the speed limit, and otherwise take risks that put myself in danger instead of choosing a safer route, the consequences can be very steep.

One foot in the river (draw a cups card), one foot on the soil (draw a pentacles card), where am I to balance (draw a card) the steady turmoil (draw a card)?

Here we see the message that when we feel the need to indulge in our emotionally inspired pleasures and desires (Ten of Cups) through consumerism (Ace of Coins), all we are doing is ignoring the trauma that causes these urges (Trauma) and allowing it to grow and fester beneath the surface (Desire).

In other words, there is a warning here that self medicating your trauma through consumerism, and using that method as a way to search for happiness will only allow those wounds to fester and grow.  It solves nothing.

DECKS USED: TRAUMA TAROT (ORACLE) AND GOTHIC TAROT OF VAMPIRES

Daily Self Kindness

I remembered to buy spring mix this morning while I was out, so that I have a green to add to my smoothie.  I’ve found that if I add a large pinch of the greens, and then raspberries, you can’t taste the greens at all.  I think it’s working in the same way as when people add lemon to green smoothies to counteract the bitter.  Or maybe it’s just such a small amount of greens that the flavor is drowned out by the other ingredients.