Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.
Ten of Pentacles atop Queen of Swords, Strangely Perfect Timing – As your negative inner narrative begins to let up, you are beginning to see that you are far better off than you thought you were previously. The light of spring is helping you find your way out of the darkness even though your depression is not of the seasonal variety. Don’t look a gift horse in the mouth.
The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.
Temperance and Quiet Desperation – Let go of stagnancy and holding yourself back. Get moving! Be proactive. When you hold yourself back and allow stagnancy to creep in, the discomfort of it all drags you down. Better to keep moving.
What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.
Seven of Wands and Storm + Fury – You will continue to be unwilling to compromise on your moral compass and principles regardless of the forces against you. You are strong, brave, and fighting the good fight.
Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.
The Hermit Rx, An Answer But Not The Solution, Believe Nothing That You Hear And Only Half Of What You See – Stop lingering after yoga and/or meditation time. This unhealthy alone time feels nice at the time in the moment, but it’s not healthy and is holding you back. It’s time being wasted instead of used productively to further your self care or well-being in any way.
The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.
King of Wands and Hell Train – Get in touch with the enthusiastic tyrant that is your creative spark, and let the motivation flow from this place within you. When you get things done, it feels good and you like that sensation of accomplishment you earn from it. Seek out that positive sensation and let it help motivate you.
The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.
The Star Rx and Parasitism – Your depression eats away at your hope and spiritual connection to the world around you as well as your connection to what lies unseen beyond the physical world. It’s time to work at climbing free of that pervasive darkness.
Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.
The Magician and Until The Day Breaks And The Shadows Flee Away – You have defeated the depression again and again, you have everything you need to do it this time as well. Do not doubt your ability to weather the darkness when you know that the light is so near.
A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.
Seven of Cups and The Passing Of Time – Stop dithering while time passes you by. Make lists, do small tasks. Just sitting there spinning your wheels resolves nothing and makes you feel like shit.
Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.
The Devil and Season Of The Witch – This spring and summer will allow you the time to get your decks in order, and to create better energy flow within your space as a result. Don’t waste this time but leap into it.
Message from the Spirit World – Apply your time, passion, and motivation towards getting your decks in order. You will feel better and your home will feel far more energized once this is done.
Message from the Mind’s World – Let go of the need to sink into stillness and use the energies of the spring season to push you forward into energized activity.
Message from the Physical World – The time of sickness and disconnection has come to an end. Don’t ignore your body, but instead focus on helping it to thrive once more.
Take Away – The majority of this reading is focused on my recent MDE and climbing out of depressions pit. It speaks about motivation and how to stir up the energy you need to keep fighting and keep climbing. It also is calling you out on these activities you do that are not helping.
Twisting the Leaf 