Today’s meditation was a try at the musical immersion meditation involving my synesthesia, which started off all well and good… until I fell asleep. I’ll try again tomorrow.
Today’s draw is the Ten of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of overwhelm, overburdening, and other themes to do with either taking on too much or having too much thrust upon you.
What stands out to me the strongest in this imagery is first, the sprouting leaves at the top of each of the wands she carries. And second? Her rather ineffective way of handling the five wands. This second point is something that often sticks out to me in the imagery on the Ten of Wands, because seriously? The more organized you go about doing things, the more things you can manage at one time, and that definitely also applies to carrying a bunch of sticks.
That said (because that’s not the message of today, just my own Type A neurosis poking its head out), the leaves are the real message in today’s card. Each staff is sprouting new growth, and they are very clustered together. Just like when you plant seeds too close to each other, this means as plants grow from these seeds, they are then put in a competitive situation and will strangle each other out, killing each other off for the resources that they need.
So too is how responsibilities and projects go. You can only juggle so much before these things begin competing for the attention and resources needed to continue to thrive.
Make sure you are giving those things you put your focus and drive towards have the attention they need to thrive, and the room they need to grow.
DECK USED: TRADITIONAL MANGA TAROT
LionHart’s As Above So Below Challenge Prompt
Jupiter Question: A reminder of something I can be grateful of/for, or something that could greatly help me right now.
A Reminder of Something I Can Be Grateful For
Warden of Disks, Two of Swords atop Nine of Cups
I can be grateful for the fact that multitasking is possible. It’s okay to continue to go after my practical goals, even as I make choices that foster my emotional growth. It’s okay to be both driven and content at the same time. As opposing as the two things may seem, they are not mutually exclusive and there is no need to choose one or the other.
A Reminder of Something That Could Greatly Help Me Right Now
Five of Staves atop Ten of Cups, The Demiurge
Although it’s okay and possible to have both. Don’t forget that sometimes you may have to fight harder for one or the other. Right now, while you strive for that practical advancement, you also need to make sure you are fighting for the right of your emotions to still thrive. One is a focus… the other is a fight. Both are needed for the path forward and the Demiurge encourages you to make sure even as the balance may dip one way or another that you keep both in mind moving forward so that neither is lost in the weeds.
Take Away: You know what you want and you have the drive to get there, just don’t lose sight of what is important along the way.
DECK USED: THE SABBATH TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicsNov2020 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question: Do you live to eat, or eat to live?
Reading Summary: Here we have emotional contentment (Ten of Cups), emotional connections to the past which in this case are positive (Six of Cups), and emotional celebration with those close to your heart (Three of Cups). The cards are all about emotions and pleasure in the past, the present as well as the future.
Take Away: So, let’s be clear. My addictive personality makes it glaringly obvious that I live to eat. My brain is hard wired to latch on to pleasurable experiences and ride them into the ground. Add on to this the fact that I’m also an emotional eater, and if I didn’t have a metabolism that required me to consume a minimum of 6000 calories a day? I’d be as big as a house.
The cards here play this out beautifully, for it is through pleasure that I find my addictions, and many of those addictions are rooted in a need to self soothe or find an emotional balm of some sort. I understand the psychology of it. And honestly? If food didn’t taste good? I wouldn’t eat.
DECK USED: EMERGING FROM DARKNESS TAROT
Heal & Transform November Challenge Prompt
Question: Where in my life am I holding too tightly?
Reading Summary: My tendency (The Devil) to want to control every little thing (The Magician) is obstructing my path rather than facilitating my journey (Three of Wands Rx).
Take Away: That’s a really big thing to try and loosen my grip on. *Chuckles* Okay so I get it. I get how holding on too tight can be smothering and even crushing. I’m just not sure if I’m capable of loosening that grip, to be honest. That need to be in control is pretty overpowering.
DECK USED: GOLDEN TAROT BY KAT BLACK
#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: What is my role in my family?
Reading Summary: To take uncertainty (The Moon) and turn it into something we can excel at together (Eight of Pentacles), which in others then fosters a feelings (Ace of Cups) of contentment (Nine of Cups) and feelings of safety and security (Nine of Wands).
Take Away: The cards here indicate that I am the glue that helps hold us all together and inspires us to work together. That then creates a feeling of community and comfort for everyone, bonding us together to create a home that feels both safe and satisfying.
Twisting the Leaf 