tarot self care

Transitioning from May to June

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Miracle Tarot and Nature & Soul Yoga Wisdom Cards

Here and Now, I Am – Three of Pentacles, Camel (Fortitude) – I’m in a place at this time where I am coming to grasp just how much stronger I am when others are there to collaborate with me rather than doing it all on my own. This is not just about work but also about my personal life and my spirituality. I’m grateful for having introduced Gideon into my beliefs and practices and for his participation and input.

Leaving Behind – The Star, Fish (Flexibility) – I’ve left behind a touch of my trust and my ability to be open and easy with the unfamiliar. My hope is still there but has been tarnished, my flexibility is still present but not as forgiving.

Focus Forward – The Empress, Mountain (Transcendence) – It’s important to move into the month ahead with it sense of nurturing and a focus upon moving forward in your path and towards your spiritual goals. Don’t lose track of what is really important. Don’t forget to take care of yourself along the way.

Negative Influences – The Moon, Dancer (Connection) – Uncertainty is a growth killer. Don’t let this recent incident keep you from reaching out to and connecting with others. Not everybody is a bad apple how to get you.

Positive Influences – Queen of Wands, Crocodile (Adaptability) – Remember that you were highly adaptable and able to shift your path that will depending on what you want. You weren’t stuck in a rut and you have plenty of space to grow and move and change.

Relevant Shadows – Ace of Cups, Scorpion (Rebirth) – You could’ve allowed yourself to be really hurt by this recent misstep in trust. Instead of lashing out or allowing negative emotions to take over, you restored balance through cleansing and renewal. This is still going to need a bit more work, but you’re on the right path.

Lift From The Past  – Three of Swords, Cat (Intuition) – Again and again your intuition has guided you through times that could be harmful or disappointing or hurtful to you, and yet to follow your intuition you are able to bypass most or all of the pain in those situations. This is a reminder that you need to listen to your intuition and not ignore or set aside what it saying.

Future Event to Prevent or Overcome – The Hanged Man Rx, Star (Inspiration) – Here again we see a warning about a closed-minded influence approaching. Their approach may come under the guise of what seems like a great idea. Make sure you’re paying attention and looking beneath the surface.

Approaching Opportunity – Strength, Lizard (Dreams) – Trust in yourself and your dreams. Even as much strength as you’re aware of having, there is more in the bucket that you’re not aware of yet. You can use that strength to obtain the dreams that you desire if you trust yourself enough to actually reach for them instead of just dreaming about them.

Message from the Spirit World – When your mind is closed and you focus too deeply inward, you miss opportunities and lose the ability to adapt to the changes in the world around you.  In order to follow your dreams, it’s important to stay open and depend on your inner strength to protect you as you develop and grow through your inspiration.  Don’t close yourself off.

Message from the Subconscious – Similar message to what was just written above, but the goal is not following your inspiration but about making sure that you are taking care of yourself along your life’s path. Stay open to optimism and positivity.  Allow it in, and allow it to wash over you.  Allow others to help you in your journey and have faith that if you take care of yourself and stay on the path you’ve chosen, that things will work out.

Message from the Known World – Disappointment and confusion is a part of life and it’s okay to feel lost and off course now and then. At those times, you need to reach out to others and allow them to help guide you back, refresh your enthusiasm for your path and for life, and your intuition will reawaken as you find your balance once more.

DECKS USED:  MIRACLE TAROT AND NATURE & SOUL YOGA WISDOM CARDS

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Blood Moon Tarot, Materia Medica Oracle, Small Spirits Oracle Deck

Earth – Ace of Honey and Marshmallow – It’s time for a refresh. Let go of what isn’t working and start anew. This week, make sure that you’re taking time to look at what in your, health , home, and finances that’s not working and get started on a new plan.

Air – The Hermit atop The High Priestess, Stinging Nettle – Your intuition is being restricted by the fact that you’re not getting enough healthy alone time. It’s time to figure out how to make this happen. You need the self care and that alone time in order to feel balanced and not be a prickly asshole. Stop using your needs as a way to punish yourself. Instead be generous and gentle and give yourself what you need.

Water – Judgement and Chamomile – Be honest with yourself about your expectations when it comes to your emotional growth, and expect that it’s going to take time and you’re going to have to be nicer about it. Lower those expectations to something more reasonable that can be accomplished at a more sedate pace.

Fire – Nine of Dreams and Goldenrod – Continue to stand strong and positive in the face of fears and anxieties that may be trying to eat you alive. This week may hold some worries when it comes to your business or your creative spark, but remember that sometimes fear and anxiety is about perspective and not reality.

Waning – Mosquito – Last week you were made aware of something that was tapping into your energy and creating a negative counter balance in your life. You’ve dealt with this issue and it’s time to move on. You can still stay aware and alert without having to focus all your energy in this area now.

Waxing – Mirror Spider – Vulnerability fosters awareness. Feeling threatened can allow you to be more aware of what’s going on around you. Camouflage can be your friend.

Take Away – The theme of this week appears to be examining how things are (and aren’t) working for me and making healthier choices in these areas.  Starting a new path in these areas of my life will keep me on track.  There’s also a reminder here that it’s okay to be just a little paranoid… but not to let it get out of hand.

DECKS USED:  BLOOD MOON TAROT, MATERIA MEDICA ORACLE, SMALL SPIRITS ORACLE

Morning Bonus Read – Major Events

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Prompt: “Think back to 5 major events in your past. For each event, draw a card to represent what your past self from that time needs your present self to understand. Lay down that card, then go through your deck and select a card to indicate the message you would want to give your past self who was in the midst of that.”

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Father’s Degradation

Summary – I spent the majority of my childhood hearing how (due to my preferences) I wasn’t good enough, how I was a disappointment and a source of shame for my family, and my father encouraging others in my extended family to dole out the same.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Four of Hearts – “It hurts, and I want to disregard what’s being said and leave it behind me, but I feel like it will always be there lingering in the background.”

What I Want To Say To Them – Strength – You are stronger and more sure of yourself, who you are and what you want, because of this.  Yes, the experience will carry forward with you into the future, but it will become a part of the building blocks that create the man you become.  A man that’s strong and agile, confident and compassionate.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – SemiTruck Accident and Recovery

Summary – Early in my 17th year, I was in a car accident where I was in the passenger seat of a car when it was t-boned by a semi-truck.  The impact damaged a large number of joints and bone structure on the right side of my body. I then went through multiple surgeries to repair/replace what was damaged, physiotherapy, and a stint at a pain clinic.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Eight of Spades – “Don’t forget me. Don’t forget how hard I worked to recover. Don’t turn a blind eye and undo all that I worked for.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Hanged Man – You taught me what I needed to move on. Your strength and knowledge gained during this time of pain and recovery helped me see the world differently. This doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten about you, but that this experience is threaded through my life from now on.  It can’t be lost, or forgotten.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Ex’s Attack

Summary – An ex friends-with-benefits that I broke up with due to his developing meth addiction stalked me and eventually broke into my home one evening to attack and sexually assault me.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Ten of Spades – “The most painful ending of all. It still hurts, even if you’ve moved on… my feet still bleed in the snow.”

What I Want To Say To Them – Wheel of Fortune – You made the right choices for your health and happiness at the time. What happened was not predictable and is not your fault. He is in prison now, and you’ve moved on. This too will pass, it’s just going to take more time.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Blood Moon Betrayal

Summary – The word “pissant” is hands down my least favorite word in the English language.  Essentially, Gideon and I had a group of friends who it was anonymously revealed to me really only wanted Gid and were making fun of me behind my back while plotting how to keep Gid and get me out of the picture.  These were people I liked and trusted and the betrayal damaged the optimism I had for human nature as a whole, ripping youthful naivety from me in one vicious eyeopening moment.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Five of Diamonds – “This still hurts. The experience feeds into those ‘less than’ feelings that rise up now and then.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Star – You are still healing and working on building up your faith in others. Just remember not everyone is the same.  There really are good people out there. Promise.

Dead On Paper's Arcana in WhiteEvent – Home Invasion

Summary – The ex friends-with-benefits mentions above convinced a “friend” of his to come pay me a visit. The fight involved ended up with me destroying his kidneys with an ice pick, permanently losing my voice when he tried to cut my throat, and having a near death experience on my kitchen floor.

What the Past Self Needs To Say – Ace of Spades – “I see the world in a new light, one filled with danger and potential for violence.”

What I Want To Say To Them – The Hierophant – I am using this experience as a lesson. It taught me to be safer and more aware of the world around me. I’ve consulted home defense and self defense experts, and I will continue to seek new knowledge and better ways to further the safety of myself and my home.

DECK USED:  DEAD ON PAPER’S ARCANA IN WHITE

Morning Bonus Read – Soul Lessons

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The Gentle Tarot - Soul Lesson Tarot Reading

Card to describe my next soul lesson.

Harvest of Stones – A stronger sense of stability and leadership in the areas of health and home. This isn’t always about others but has to do with how you feel on the inside, including how secure you feel, as well as how you treat your body and take ownership of your health.

How this lesson will manifest itself.

Nine of Thunder – Through stress, worry, and fear.  A tree does not gain strength without the challenges of the wind to test its mettle. It is through misfortune and struggle that we become stronger.  The more the wind blows, the deeper our roots go and the stronger we must become in order to continue to stand tall.

A way that I can absorb this lesson gracefully.

Six of Wands – Look to others for suggestions on the best path forward and allow them to lift you up and ease your mind.  This isn’t so much about seeking their approval, but allowing them to lift you up when you struggle and give you the assistance you need to keep going when your enthusiasm for the journey is flagging.

Why this lesson is in alignment with who I truly am.

Ten of Cups – It will help me to connect more emotionally with those I love, creating a greater sense of well-being.  True happiness goes beyond simply satisfaction, but requires sharing and community.  Fostering this happiness can help in finding a stronger sense of stability.

New opportunities that will arise from this lesson.

Four of Stones – More stability and better grounding. A more miserly outlook.  The opportunities here coincide with the lesson being learned.  It’s important to know when to hold tight to things, and when to let them go. Developing a slightly stronger urge to be a little more tight-fisted wouldn’t necessarily be a bad thing when it comes to the financial aspects of life.

How can I follow my heart?

Flower of Wands – Do what makes you happy and help inspire others to do the same.

DECK USED:  THE GENTLE TAROT

Morning Bonus Read – Pet Reading

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Sparkly Lenormand Reading - Pet Tarot SpreadYour Connection

Mice – It’s all about the food.  Proof that sometimes the cards have nothing to do with their traditional meanings, here they are teasing me with the events of last night and this morning.  Last night, Miss Luna rolled her empty food ball right to my feet and sat beside it staring at me for a half an hour, trying to get me to fill it.  This morning, she was very mouthy about getting it filled and set down for her to eat.  Mice eat… and in the picture this is reinforced by the cheese.

Why you were brought together.

Heart – Heart connection. Need to love.  She needed someone to love her and take care of her, and I needed someone to love and take care of.  We were both in need at that time, and connected through that need.

What your pet really likes.
(The deck refused to give me a card for the word “loves”.)

Clouds – Cuddle time when feeling uncertain. Solidarity in times when things feel unstable and unclear.  When I’m feeling out of sorts, she comes and cuddles with me or sits near me, letting me know she’s there even if she might not want to be petted at the time.   When she feels uncertain or worried, she comes and sits on the other side of me.  Her comfy spot is usually between me and the door, but in these moments she changes to lying on the other side of me and settling her ass up against my hip for reassurance.

What your pet fears.

Key – Leaving the house or you doing so.  Again we see an intuitive response instead of a traditional one.  What Miss Luna fears the most is having to leave the house or me leaving and not coming back.  In fact, when I leave she will often sit on the end of the rug in the entryway and wait for me for hours, or if not, she will come running to greet me whenever I come home.  When I used to go away for days at a time, she would make herself at home in the spot where I sit on the couch and stare at the door for hours on end.

How to help your pet.

Anchor – Encourage feelings of security.  She likes the stability of a schedule and the dependability that it creates in her world.  She likes being able to depend upon me, as well.  In knowing I’m there for her and will take care of her always.

A message from your pet.

Dog – Miss Luna says, “I love you, Daddy. You’re the bees knees and I want to be with you for always.”

DECK USED:  SPARKLY LENORMAND

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Isabel Snail: A Tarot Life, Cosma Visions Oracle, Alcheringa Oneiromancy

Earth – The World and Counsel – There is a lot of possibilities before you right now as you hover on the cusp of transition, but you need to spend some time consulting with experts in order to plot your course from here wisely.

Air – The Tower and Hope – It’s time to put some real focus into tearing down that negative inner voice of yours and replace it with something more hopeful and positive.  You’ve had a bit of a setback in this area lately, and it’s time to root out what’s festering and get it cleared up.

Water – Nine of Pentacles and Abstract – Keep in mind this week that feeling secure and accomplished in your emotional growth is going to require thinking “outside the box” (or garden gate in this case) and changing your perspective. The shifting waters of emotion aren’t as unstable as you feel they are, you’re just not used to standing in the current.

Fire – Two of Cups, Animal Spirit atop Excitement – When you live an unconventional life, you get excited about unconventional things… just as the drowning man isn’t interested in the plump ripe peach, but rather the branch it’s hanging from.  You’re a bit of an odd duck.  You know it.  Make sure you own it this week and don’t make excuses.

Also, your guides are reaching out this week and want you to work with them. Grab hold.

Waning – The Bridge – Inattentive awareness of the world around you. It’s time to “wake up” and make sure that you are seeing things as they really are.

Waxing – The Peacemaker atop The Weaver – Be thoughtful in what you hope to achieve and in what you see around you, and make sure that you are steering things toward balance and fairness as you move forward.

Take Away – An unfiltered awareness of the world around you as well as your own motivations is necessary this week, as is an unbiased perspective and a focus on keeping things balanced.

Have a chat with your accountant about business strategies, get your eyes checked, meet with your financial advisor, take Miss Luna to the vet.. consult your professionals this week to keep things prepared and on course.

Force that inner negative back into submission. It’s dragging you down and you don’t need it. And remember that your guides are there, willing and eager to help. Don’t ignore them.

DECKS USED:  ISABEL SNAIL A TAROT LIFE, COSMA VISIONS ORACLE, ALCHERINGA ONEIROMANCY