Disappointing Others

Today’s meditation was supposed to be ten minutes long but turned into an 80 minute nap when I dozed off in the middle.

Paw of Light Tarot and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Queen of Claws (Swords) combined with the affirmation “Hurt is not the same as hopeless. No amount of sadness or sickness can swallow the light inside of us.”

Do you know that feeling when you disappoint a parent, and it matters even though you don’t want it to? I feel that feeling a lot. These cards are a reminder that just when you disappoint someone, it doesn’t mean you’re less than or not enough. Even if they say that you are.  Even if all that they can see in you is your flaws, mistakes, and those things in you that disappoint them again and again.

Parents are people too, and they have their likes and dislikes, just like everyone else. They have their prejudices, and they’re often wrong just as we all are. Take care not to internalize that as your problem. It’s not… It’s theirs and theirs alone.

DECK USED:  PAW OF LIGHT TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

Lionharts #TheFebruaryTarot Once Upon a Tarot Prompt
Prompt for February 1st
: Do the My Fool’s Journey Tarot Spread

Paw of Light Tarot - Nine of Pentacles, The Wheel of Fortune, Four of Wands, The Hanged Man, Six of CupsWhat overarching theme characterizes my life right now, laying the foundation for my journey?

Nine of Snacks (Pentacles) – You are learning to pause and appreciate your hard work, and to be more grateful for what you have accomplished and earned thus far, rather than always pushing forward for what comes next.

What opportunity is presenting itself this month, shaping the landscape for my journey?

Wheel of Fortune – You are being given the opportunity to learn and observe the ups and downs that are a natural part of life rather than reacting blindly to them. This involves learning how to panic less and ride out the unpredictable swings of life with more grace.

What am I guided to work on or overcome this month, adding depth and empowering growth to my journey?

Four of Catnips (Wands) – You need to work on putting home back under the category of somewhere you are enthusiastic to be, instead of seeing it as just your workplace and a place to toil. It’s time to return your home in your mind to a place to relax, enjoy, and find peace.

What knowledge or guidance, internal or external, can I draw upon during this journey?

The Hanged Man – Remember your objective to always be open to other perspectives in order to learn more about not just the world around you and the people in it, but also about yourself. Take care to ground yourself in this intention as you move forward along your path.

Which aspect of myself should I embrace or be aware of throughout this journey?

Six of Bowls (Cups) Rx – You are not always as decisive as you would like to be, or as you would like to have others think you are. You need to stay aware that during those times, you have a tendency to slide into a state of unhealthy stagnancy rather than making a decision.

DECK USED: PAW OF LIGHT

Daily Self Kindness

I didn’t pull all of my February decks today as planned, but just a few. I can pull the rest on a day when it’s not so busy and there’s more time for such things.

Imbolc 2024

The time between February 1st and 2nd is Imbolc (also known as Candlemas, Imbolg, and Brigid’s Day), which marks the half way point between the Winter Solstice and the Spring Equinox, and signifies the transition from winter into the first stirrings of spring. This holiday is about life renewing, but in the hidden darkness of cold months and dark earth. Deep in the darkness seeds stir and roots begin to feel the warming of the earth as the days grow longer and nights shorter. Life awakens, invisible in its infancy.

imbolc

Like with new moons and full moons, I usually do a spread to check in with myself and give myself some direction for the next couple of months for each solstice, equinox, and other Sabbats. Usually I use an adaptation of my Self Care Saturday spread, but focused on progress and my path. For this year, I’m using the #DiscordTarotholicsFebruary2024 Imbolc Spread instead.

Imbolc Oracle Reading with the Seasons of the Witch Imbolc Oracle

What seeds need planted in my life right now?

Kulning – Homecoming. There is a theme of appreciation for hearth and home rising in your life right now. It is a time to view home once again as that place of refuge, rather than just a place of work and toil. You can get through any obstacle in your path as long as you have that steady foundation of home and family to lean into.

What preparations do I need to begin making to prepare those seeds for growth?

North Star – Work on strengthening your connection with your “true north”. It is through aligning with your own personal values that you set the stage for growth in in the areas mentioned above in the Kulning card.

What in my life is beginning a phase of reawakening and renewal?

Snowflakes – You have an opportunity at this time to reconnect with more appreciation and gratitude for all that is around you and all that you have accomplished. It’s through this mindset of appreciation that you are able to take pride in what you have instead of constantly pushing yourself for more.

How can I best foster that awakening?

Dawn – Slow down and become more of a witness instead of an actor in the situations and activities around you. Pause more to appreciate, rather than constantly focusing on moving forward.

DECKS USED: SEASONS OF THE WITCH IMBOLC ORACLE

It’s Good Enough

#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was ten minutes long, and one of the #DailyCalm sessions from the Calm app.  The subject of the session had to do with getting stuck in the past and how, when we allow ourselves to get stuck in the past, whether that be in good memories or bad ones.

It discussed how when we do this, we then set ourselves up to repeat old patterns… as opposed to experiencing new things should we cast our gaze to the present instead.

Monochromatica Tarot Judgement card and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day Calendar by Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Judgment card combined with the affirmation “You don’t need to do everything right in order to be worthy of your relationships.”

These cards are a reminder that you don’t have to be perfect, and you don’t have to pick on yourself to make yourself be perfect either.  They are about reminding yourself of the person you want to become, rather than picking apart every little thing you are doing in the present.

This is one of those things that I personally struggle a great deal with.  Learning how to say something is “good enough” rather than constantly trying to “one up” my best is something I’ve been working on for a few years now. To tell me that I am “doing my best” or to “do your best” is a death trap, as my best is far -more- than is often necessary.  Giving something my all means that I’m going to work at it and pick at it until it is as close to perfection as humanly possible to achieve… which is not healthy.

Learning to embrace “good enough” is a far better goal.

DECK USED:  MONOCHROMATICA TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsJan2024 Challenge Prompt
Prompt for January 31st : Grab a spread of your choice that you’ve been curious about… and give it a go!

Imbolc Tarot Reading with the Monochromatica Tarot and Dream Ritual Cards

How can you celebrate the returning of the light?

The Magician and Prepare – Things are going to pick back up and get better, and spring is on its way. There’s a lot you can do to prepare now for the results you want to achieve in the future. Little things that you can do that involve applying your skills to, in order to guide things in the direction of the end goal you seek.

What is awakening?

Wheel of Fortune and Nourish – You are beginning to be more consistent with giving encouragement to nourish yourself and care for yourself no matter if things are up or down. Struggles should not supersede self-care, and you have an opportunity in this time of awakening to continue to improve in this area.

DECK USED: MONOCHROMATICA TAROT AND DREAM RITUAL ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

I took my theracane back from Ms B’s house.  I had loaned it to her during her shoulder’s recovery, but she hasn’t used it in a while and I need it back to help with my lats and thoracis muscles.

The Ragged End

Today’s meditation was eleven minutes long, and was the “human being, not human doing” meditation from the FitBit app.

Tarot of the Enchanted Garden Nine of Wands and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day Calendar by Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Nine of Wands combined with the affirmation “Self-care, the crap out of life and you’ll get through okay.”

Sometimes protecting what’s important to you involves self-care instead of self-sacrifice.  You’re used to the latter as being how you show that you care and how you deal with responsibility… but you are important too.  That means self care is just as important.

Don’t work yourself so hard that you have nothing left to to yourself or to others. You can take care of yourself -and- protect those things that are important to you. It doesn’t have to be one or the other.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE ENCHANTED GARDEN AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

@Lionharts #TheJanuaryTarot 2024 January Initiation Prompt
Questions for January 29th thru 31st

Tarot of the Enchanted Garden - The Hierophant, The Lovers, King of Wands, Queen of Swords, Ten of WandsSelect a Major Arcana card that embodies something you are determined to achieve this year.

The Lovers – I want to work on making better choices for myself and what’s right for me (marseille interpretation), as well as focus more on my relationship and put more time and energy into my connection with my partner (rws interpretation).

How can I turn this visualization into a daily affirmation to reinforce my determination?

King of Wands atop The Hierophant – Claim what belongs to you as part of your due for having weathered the tests of time.

In what ways can I intentionally work towards aligning my actions with the symbolism of the chosen Majors card to guide my journey toward my determined goal for the year?

Queen of Swords (with eyes closed) – Monitor your self talk carefully, and make sure you are being encouraging instead of cruel or critical.

How can I synthesize the insights gained from this month’s Tarot Challenge, aligning them with my aspirations, to set a powerful and intentional course for the months ahead?

Ten of Wands Rx – A large portion of this month’s readings have been a remainder not to overwhelm yourself with too much at once, whether that’s piling on too much to do or filling your plate with too many responsibilities to keep track of.

DECK USED: TAROT OF THE ENCHANTED GARDEN

Daily Self Kindness

I didn’t do a single chore today while up north.  Instead I just sorted through mail and relaxed.

Mind Games are an Added Burden

Today’s meditation was eight minutes long and self guided during my yoga practice.  I needed to spend a few extra minutes on my thoracis and obliques, and so I spent that time in meditative breathing exercises (which also adds a different level of stretch to the work).

HP Tarot's Ten of Wands and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day Calendar by Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Ten of Wands combined with the affirmation “Everything is scary, but that doesn’t mean anything is going to go wrong. Anxious feelings aren’t usually indicative of reality.”

Sometimes, my brain plays what I refer to as the “consequences game”. It’s essential theme is that I’m going to be punished for wanting something, liking something, or something good happening in my life.  It’s a pessimistic mindset spurred on by anxiety, and nope… not healthy. Not at all.

The cards today are a reminder that this is not reality. It’s a game that your brain plays that heightens anxiety and creates additional burden on your shoulders. Today’s message is a reminder that when this game is being played, it’s important to ease up on your responsibilities enough to leave room for that burden until you are able to get it back in hand and under control.

DECK USED:  HP TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsJan2024 Challenge Prompt
Questions for January 29th and 30th

Rootweaver's Vintage Lenormand 10th Anniversary Edition - Cross, Scythe, Child, CrossroadsWhat could you use more of in your life?

Crossroads and Child – Make choices that turn you towards play and frivolity. You don’t have to be so serious all the time. Nothing is going to go wrong or fall apart if you choose to have a bit more fun and cut loose a little bit.

What could you use less of in your life?

Scythe and Cross – Less burden. There is too much burden and responsibility on your shoulders, and you keep trying to add on more. Instead, consider how much better and more enjoyable life could be if you cut out some of that burden you carry and lighten your load.

DECK USED: ROOTWEAVER’S VINTAGE LENORMAND 10TH ANNIVERSARY EDITION

Daily Self Kindness

I ate on a schedule today (with timers to assist) to make sure that I wouldn’t forget.

📆 Transitioning from January to February

Month End Check In Tarot Reading with the Tarot of Sacred Feminine

Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

The Moon Rx atop Strength – You are struggling within your uncertainty and the vulnerability it breeds.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

Queen of Coins Rx atop Page of Coins – The instability involved in trying to advance your position needs to be set aside for now. It’s time to pause. If you push to advance it will only cause disruption to your stability.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

Queen of Cups Rx atop Seven of Wands Rx – You seek less violence and intensity in your emotions, including less reactivity to perceived threats.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

Death Rx – Stagnancy. Just because you’re not charging forward doesn’t mean you need to stay still. Don’t let stagnancy sneak in and drag you into the mire.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

The Hermit Rx atop Ten of Coins Rx – It’s okay to need time to yourself, just make sure that it is healthy time that won’t insert a wedge between you and your support system.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

The High Priestess – Remember that you may not always like the results of following your intuition. That doesn’t mean that you turn away from it, but rather that it’s giving you what you need instead of what you want. This isn’t a bad thing.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

Six of Cups atop King of Swords – Use the past to steer things in the direction you want them to go. Using nostalgia as a tool, you can hit your target cleanly.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

The Devil – Deception is afoot. Stay alert and watchful for cracks in the masks of others.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

Four of Swords – Rest and restoration needs to be your focus right now. You have the opportunity to recuperate at this time and need to take it while you have it.

Message from the Spirit World – Instead of forcing yourself to spend time with others, and risking their machinations influencing your stability and mental health, spend some time recuperating and push them to do their own thing.

Message from the Mind’s World – Lean heavily into learning instead of doing when it comes to your uncertainty right now. You’re not in a place to handle the aggression needed to do more than sit back and watch at the moment.

Message from the Physical World – This is an echo of the Nostalgia position further up in the reading.  Overcome the temptation towards stagnancy by digging into your memories for past experiences that were beneficial to you. (Restock good sellers!)

DECKS USED: TAROT OF SACRED FEMININE