Today’s meditation was skipped. I know that I should have meditated considering that I was all kinds of worked up this morning and through most of the day, but I just couldn’t manage to stay still and let it happen.
Today’s draw is the King of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, home, manifestations, and the physical world. This often translates into themes to do with wealth and expertise, as well as authority in the areas mentioned previously. Acumen, a sense of discipline, abundance, and establishing security are all a part of this theme.
One of the things I often see depicted in these cards is a figure at rest. Alert and surrounded in abundance, but also at rest. It is like the old magnate that has finally reached the goals he’s set out for and now watches over these goals and guides others, but is no longer in a place where they need to plow forward in relentless pursuit of their dreams.
The thing is? We don’t have to have reached the end of our journey and obtained our goals to enjoy these moments now and then. Moments of pause and enjoyment for what we have, as we ascertain our good fortune and feel in the moment that “I am the king of my own castle* feeling of accomplishment. In fact, we should be pausing to enjoy these things regularly. Daily.
Don’t put them off ’til the end of your journey. Enjoy those moments now.
DECK USED: TAROT DE ST CROIX BORDERLESS EDITION AND HOW TO BE A WILDFLOWER DECK
Mr Lionharts’ #TheAugustTarot #SOLTarot Prompt
Questions for August 13th thru 15th
What am I guided to spend time on, or reflect on, today?
It sucked. It hurt. You don’t know what you tripped over (Scraped Knee), but you can’t sit there and whine about it all day. Where do you want to go from here? (Two of Wands)
Right, so… I have been banned from PayPal for life. And I have no idea why. None. Late last night I went to make a purchase and received an error message, so I went to see what was wrong and in the account was a notice that my PayPal account had been permanently limited and I could no longer use the account or make any changes upon it. Fifteen years using them on a daily basis for both personal and business means… then BAM… this happened.
I did not sleep. All night. I tried, but I was too worked up and freaked out. I waited until 6am (when their customer service opened up) and reached out to them. I spoke to both a service agent and a supervisor. Neither could tell me any information at all about why this happened or what I might have done to trigger it. Just that it’s irreversible. Permanent. And if I want those answers? The only way to get them is to sue PayPal.
These cards are a reminder that this is not the end of the world, just a small setback. And that instead of focusing on the feelings of helplessness and victimization that this experience created, I need to focus ahead and on moving forward.
If not now, than when? Something I shouldn’t delay.
Take some time to heal (Yarrow), and then focus on rebuilding better and stronger (Three of Pentacles).
The thing is? There’s nothing that I can do about this situation. I don’t have the kind of funds it would take to blow on a law suit against PayPal. It would be stupid, especially since I don’t really depend on the platform anymore like I did a handful of years ago.
The healing qualities of Yarrow indicate that it’s better just to let it go, and work on recovering from the blow, rather than stewing in it. The Three of Pentacles is then an indication that there’s work to be done and to get to it. Change over automatic payments to another source, shut down funding that comes through that venue, and reach out to my clients to let them know that PayPal is no longer a way in which they can pay for my services. Get my ducks in a row.
How can I make the most or best use of {my time} today?
Let go of that toxic shit (Nine of Swords) and build yourself back up (Echinacea).
Another healing herb to again remind me that I need to focus today on what will soothe those aches and restore my equilibrium. These cards are a reminder that what’s done is done and to not let the feelings that last night/this morning’s events stirred up linger and fester. Let them go and step into getting back in balance.
DECK USED: WILDCRAFT! HERBAL ADVENTURE GAME CARDS AND TAROT DE ST CROIX BORDERLESS EDITION
After my all-nighter of stress, and dealing with PayPal… then having a good hard cry based in those feelings of helplessness, confusion, and victimization. I then quickly got to work and made sure all my recurring payments and responsibilities were otherwise covered. This gave me the peace of mind I needed to get some sleep. I also spoke to Gideon briefly, which also helped.
Today’s draw is the Five of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of disagreements, conflict, and a “winning at all costs” mentality.
This Month’s Lesson – The Hanged Man and The Empress – Pause and reflect on self-care, and redefine what it means to you. Self-care isn’t a chore, and shouldn’t be viewed as something to check off on a checklist.
Twisting the Leaf 