You Are Loved

#DailyCalm with the Calm appToday’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was one of the #DailyCalm sessions on the Calm app.  In this session, it spoke about  how sometimes when you meditate, just as thoughts often surface to play havoc with your practice, so too do emotions sometimes rise up to do the same.

It invited the listener to use this opportunity to experience your emotions and then let them slide by, rather than trying to immediately push them away. It likened emotions during this time to a crying baby, and how we would not try to force the baby to stop crying, but rather simply sit with it and hold it until the crying passes.  The discussion then reminds us that emotions do not need a narrative, or story, or reason for being.  They just are… and it’s okay to simply experience them and let them then move on without analyzing them.

Ideal Soulmate Tarot's Temperance card and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Temperance card combined with the affirmation “you’re worth loving.”

Sometimes, feelings of worthlessness, unworthiness, or depression can make you feel like a barren tree standing out in the open, vulnerable and alone.

Remember during these moments that it’s important to be kind to yourself, to go easy on yourself, and cut yourself a bit of slack. You are loved even when you take a break.  You are loved even when you are doing nothing.

You are not alone.  You are loved.

DECKS USED:  IDEAL SOULMATE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

The #mysticstartarot Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 8th thru 10th

Man's Heart OracleWhat are my low vibrational feelings about myself?

Assistance – You often feel that needing help from others makes you weak and vulnerable. This blinds you to the fact that giving is a form of love and you are being given love when others offer to help you, just as you are giving love when you give them the opportunity to do so instead of shutting them out.

How have these feelings sabotaged my relationship with myself?

The Balance atop Suppression – They bind you into unhealthy patterns of imbalance. You end up putting too much on yourself, thus then working yourself too hard, instead of letting others help you so that you can have a healthier balance of work and rest.

How can I best release these toxic feelings?

Volcano – Lean into love.  Remember that those who are trying to help you are showing you their love. Remember, too, that when you ask for help you are showing them your trust and your love in return.

DECK USED: MAN’S HEART ORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2024 Challenge Prompt
Question for February 9th
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Ideal Soulmate Tarot - Justice, Knight of Wands, Queen of WandsReading Summary: Punitive results (Justice Rx) will come from lack of action (Knight of Wands Rx). Your dreams need a little nudge to succeed (Queen of Wands).

Take Away: This new moon announces the arrival of a time when movement is now needed in those things that you want to grow and thrive. Instead of sitting still and doing nothing, which in the end will give you an unsatisfactory but well-deserved end result, get in touch with what you want to achieve and begin to foster it into growth.

DECK USED: IDEAL SOULMATE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

No work today while at Ms B’s.  I didn’t even fix the uneven shelf that I want to fix. Instead I laid around and did pretty much nothing.

Don’t Listen

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Modern Love Tarot's Five of Cups and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Five of Cups combined with the affirmation “You are made of star stuff. You are beautiful.”

Stop spending so much time feeding into your negative inner narrative and it’s opinions on just how much you are lacking.  That negative narrative’s sole purpose is to tear you down and make you miserable. It’s a liar and the words it whispers in your ear are toxic and unhealthy for you.

Don’t listen.

DECKS USED:  MODERN LOVE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

de_tarotjuf’s #DeDonkereGodinTarotChallenge Prompt
Questions for February 2nd, 22nd, 5th, and 13th

Modern Love Tarot - Four of Wands, The Star, Nine of Cups, Six of Pentacles, King of SwordsI may discover this in the depths of my subconscious.

Four of Wands atop Nine of Cups  – You are at your happiest and most content when you were at home.

What is an irrational fear that I carry?

King of Swords – Pissant syndrome. Being perceived as stupid, annoyingly superfluous, and a big joke by others. You have carried this fear since the Mox betrayal happened all those years ago, and it still lingers on.

This way I can embrace fears.

The Star Rx – You don’t have to look at them with hope that they are wrong. Instead, try looking at them with logic and you will see that these fears are baseless.

This way I can see and live through patterns, and change them if necessary.

Six of Pentacles – By taking care to be generous with both yourself, and with others, no matter your situation… or theirs.

DECK USED: MODERN LOVE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Even though it was an orders day, I was able to roleplay with Gideon all day as well.

You Deserve Happiness Too

Today’s meditation was thirty minutes long and self guided during the stretching and physio that I do for myself every day.  I needed to put a little extra focus into the process today, as my back is feeling a bit more unhappy than usual today.  I combined meditation into the practice as a way to use breathing exercises to help breathe through the pain of the stretching process.

Hong Kong Tarot Stick Edition and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Ten of Cups combined with the affirmation “You don’t have to be ‘on’ all the time. You’re good to have around, even when you’re quiet.”

It can often be exhausting if you are constantly pushing yourself to do for others, entertain others, and all around give others what they want without considering your own needs and desires.

These cards are a reminder that you deserve to be happy too, and that people aren’t going to mind as much as you think they will if you put that as a priority in your life.

DECKS USED: HONG KONG TAROT STICK EDITION AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2024 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question for February 7th
: Is the desire to be loved an innate human desire?

Hong Kong Tarot Stick Edition and Alfons Maria Mucha OracleReading Summary: People need connection (Two of Cups and the sun dipping to kiss the woman in card 13), but that connection does not need to be romantic in nature (solitary figure in card 22 combined with Ace of Brushes).

Take Away: These cards indicate that the desire to be loved is not a universal human desire, but rather that the need for connection is.  Some get that connection through romantic love, while others find a connection to others more rewarding when it is platonic and based on mutual interests.

DECK USED: HONG KONG TAROT STICK EDITION AND ALFONS MARIA MUCHA ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

As mentioned above, I took extra time today to do some additional stretches and help limber up my back a bit, as it was feeling especially uncooperative this morning.

Forethought and Planning

Today’s meditation was skipped.

Kei Tarot Love's Justice card and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Justice card combined with the affirmation. “Anxiety lies. You’ve got today handled.”

Just make sure you keep in mind that cause and effect is in play today and behave accordingly.

This doesn’t mean you can’t deal with whatever comes or that you need to change your plans on what you are wanting to get done today. It does mean, though, that some forethought is needed to avoid any untenable situations.

DECKS USED:  KEI TAROT LOVE AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

The #mysticstartarot Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 4th thru 7th

Kei Tarot Love - Star, Six of Wands, Three of Pentacles, Six of Pentacles, Eight of WandsWhat are my overall feelings about myself?

Six of Pentacles atop Eight of Wands, Restrained Moon Charm – You feel that you can short change yourself on self-kindness and there won’t be any repercussions.

Personal Note – I know that this is an untruth, and yet my behavior bears out this belief regardless.

What are my high vibrational feelings about myself?

Three of Pentacles Rx and Starfish Charm – Clinging to others does not serve you well. You are confident that you are capable of doing “it” (whatever that “it” may be) all yourself and are not dependent on others for help or input.

Personal Note – Although my stubborn independence is a good thing and a thing of strength, I often  have a tendency to take this too far and forget to ask for help when it could be beneficial to me to do so.

How will these feelings support me in my relationships?

Star and Acorn Charm – You inspire hope in others and, in doing so, a sense of positivity within yourself. It’s a positive feedback loop between you and those in your life, inspiring growth on both sides.

How can I amplify these positive feelings about myself?

Six of Wands Rx and Dragonfly Charm – To amplify positive feelings about yourself, work on changing direction to please yourself more and others less.

Take Away From This Reading – Stop trying to please everyone else and lean into putting yourself first.

DECK USED: KEI TAROT LOVE

Daily Self Kindness

We put up shelves in Ms B’s garage today, and I made everyone else work while I played director and supervisor today.  Other than drawing little marks on the walls with a pencil? I sat on my ass.

The Value of an Anchor

Today’s meditation was eleven minutes long, and was the “human being, not human doing” meditation from the FitBit app.

The Gentle Tarot's King of Pentacles and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Harvest of Stones (King of Pentacles) combined with the affirmation “Everything changes, nothing is permanent. Don’t throw your life away for a temporary terrible time.”

NOTE: If the topic of suicide bothers you?  Skip reading today’s card of the day post.

Confession time.   I have had suicidal thoughts since puberty. Not only have I had suicidal thoughts since puberty, there are times when those thoughts have become overwhelming suicidal urges. A compulsion that was nearly impossible to ignore (and that once or twice I did not ignore at all).

Prozac was a life saver for me.  After trying a swath of other medications that “sort of” worked in one way or another with my anxiety or depression but never took away those thoughts and urges? Prozac did.  The idealization went away.  The urges and compulsions disappeared. The thoughts, on those very rare instances they come, are far more manageable.

For me?  This is the miracle of treatment.  Talk therapy helps with anxiety and depression, and Prozac keeps me wanting to live.  You know what else helps?  Remembering that everything is temporary. I can’t say I don’t still have depressive episodes… just that they are far less life threatening these days. One of the major ways I get through them is reminding myself that depression lies and that everything is temporary. The depression will not last forever. It might last weeks… it might last months, but it won’t last forever.  It creates a sense of stability in the storm.  A foundation of truth to stand on when depression is whispering lies in my ear.

These cards are a reminder of that truth, and the stability that they offer.  I hope that me writing this helps someone else find that stability and truth as well.

DECKS USED:  THE GENTLE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2024 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 5th and 6th

Solace Oracle and The Gentle Tarot- Knight of Cups and Five of PentaclesShower With a Friend Day – What memorable activity should you and a friend try together?

Root of Cups and Windfall – Let those around you help to guide you back to yourself. The past year has created a disconnect within yourself that it’s time to begin healing. Do something that is purely you, and take a friend along for the ride. In other words… take J or L with you and go for a hike in the woods.

Lame Duck Day – What in your life has reached its end and needs to be “shown the door”?

Five of Stones and Invisible Ink – Let your feelings of aloneness and scarcity go. You no longer need to linger in the holding pattern that the past year has contained you to.

DECKS USED: THE GENTLE TAROT AND SOLACE ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

I took a nap even though it was orders day.  It put me behind on finishing things, but was something I really needed.

Sharing Is Caring

Today’s meditation was eleven minutes long, and was the “human being, not human doing” meditation from the FitBit app.

Honey Knight Tarot's Page of Swords and the Cozy Comfort Cards for Sad and Anxious MomentsToday’s draw is the Page of Swords combined with the affirmation “Sharing is caring.”

Learning things together increases the potential to retain what is learned.  Share what you learn with others and let them elevate the experience, and in return you won’t be the only one to experience growth, as they will as well.

I like the imagery of the affirmation card for today combined with the Page of Swords. I like the idea of releasing knowledge so that it floats up into the air and becomes shared, cherished, and something to feel excited about -with- others instead of by yourself.

DECK USED:  HONEY KNIGHT TAROT AND COZY COMFORT CARDS FOR SAD AND ANXIOUS MOMENTS

Daily Self Kindness

I took time to play with Gideon today and even steal a kiss, even though I had to work on orders as well.