These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – King of Cups, Violet atop Trumpet Vine – You need to be honest with those around you concerning the invading depression that has become more difficult to manage lately. Open up to let them know what’s going on with you. Your home life and love life are both suffering from a lack of communication at the moment. Stop hiding (and hiding from) what’s going on and speak up.
Air – Queen of Cups and Cosmos – Start with Z. She will help you to see things more clearly and be able to communicate them more clearly to others. You struggle a lot with the “I dunno” issue when trying to speak about your emotions and depression when you’re “in the moment” of the experience. She can help you to untangle your thoughts enough to get them out more coherently.
Water – Seven of Pentacles and Lotus – Focus on doing the things that connect you to your faith this week and create balance. Your morning devotional and meditation are important. Take a more spiritual cleansing approach to bathing, etc. This is not spiritual bypassing but rather using your faith to motivate you into better self care when you’re struggling emotionally.
Fire – Knight of Pentacles, Aspen atop Pomegranate – Give some of your control over to those that can take the weight for a bit while you get through this hurdle. It’s not permanent, but they can handle it in the short term while you look at the long play and bigger picture beyond the current moment.
Waning – Wild Card – The chaos will ease if you let it, but it’ll take following the advice laid out in these cards to make it happen. Otherwise you’ll just continue to stagnate in the inner conflict and chaos you’ve been trying so hard to ignore.
Waxing – Thaw – Release your emotions from the frigid ice you’ve held them in and let them flow.
Take Away – The cards are right. I have been struggling and trying so hard to push back against the depression that’s managed to slip in under my skin. I tried so hard to not allow it to gain ground and to push back against it. But It’s here and I can’t deny that. I need to be open about it instead of trying to hide it. I need to share and allow myself to let others in to help me… no matter how fucked up that feels right now.