self development through shadow work

📆 Transitioning from November to December

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Month End Check-In Tarot Reading with the Baroque Tarot

Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

Knight of Wands atop Four of Pentacles – You are focused and charging forward in your endeavors to create a greater sense of financial stability in your life. The holiday rush is in full swing and you are leaning into reaping in the benefits the increased business can do for you.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

Ace of Swords – Thoughtless actions need to be set aside. Now is a time for strategy and planning, rather than just reacting. Make sure with the busy season that you don’t fall into old thought patterns, but work on making sure you are fostering new healthier ones instead.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

Three of Swords Rx – You are currently seeking to stay as far away as possible from your depression and mental health issues. This includes avoiding disappointments where you can.  New strategies being discussed with your psychologist for the new year are a part of this endeavor.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

The Empress Rx – Lack of self-care is a problem at this time of year. You just don’t have the amount of time that you need to put into these endeavors at the moment. You need to make sure that you at least give yourself small bits of nurturing and self-care, though. Don’t allow yourself to starve for these things.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

Page of Pentacles – Remember that the value of money is subjective. The more value you put on it, the more miserly you become. This is a tool that can help in finding financial balance in your life.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

Ten of Wands – All those years of cycling from one burnout to the next has left its mark. You’ve found another path forward that’s not so hard on yourself. Take care that you are not going to end up falling back into the old cycles of your past.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

The High Priestess – Stay connected to that inner wisdom and intuition that you allow to lead you so often … even during the holiday rush, when losing touch with such things is easy to do.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

Six of Swords atop Two of Cups – Someone close to you that share a connection with is considering bailing either on your mutually shared interest or on the friendship as a whole. Pay attention and connect more strongly with them to help head off that reaction.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

The Sun atop Nine of Wands – Do not allow your defenses and defense mechanisms steal away your opportunities for joy and success.

DECKS USED: BAROQUE TAROT

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Self Care Saturday Reading with the Hudes Tarot and The Friar's Delight Lenormand

Earth – Judgement – Make good choices. When it comes to your finances in the week ahead, make sure that you are looking at where you want to go and what you want to do before you make any financial choices or spend any money.

Air – The Fool – Instill a sense of innocence into your thought processes and perspectives this week. Make sure you were looking forward and up, even in the face of disappointment. Just keep going and allow yourself to have some fun.

Water – Seven of Wands – Fight for some time with Gideon this week. You value that time a great deal and you need it to help you stay balanced and on track. In order to get it, though, you’re going to have to do a little bit of fighting and finagling.

Fire – Page of Wands Rx atop Ten of Pentacles – Not being able to have a chance to play and finagle is going to make it hard for you to see things in a positive light where your business is concerned. Make sure that you are combating these feelings with a closer look at all that you have accomplished.

Waning – Lord and Fish – Accept that everything is going to be easy or go the way you want this week.

Waxing – Whip and Rider – You’re going to have to push yourself to get things done this week. Plowed through obstacles and keep moving forward at all costs.

Take Away – Use a sense of his an innocence and a lean into positivity to help you through difficult times in the week ahead. There will be several disappointments and stumbling blocks in your way, and this attitude will help you in moving past them and adapting more quickly. Take care with your spending this week and make sure that your expenses and those things you spend money on are supportive in your goals.

DECKS USED: HUDES TAROT AND THE FRIAR’S DELIGHT LENORMAND

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Wandering Moon Tarot and The Blackbird Lenormand

Earth – Five of Stars (Pentacles) – Pinch your pennies this week and make sure you are keeping an eye on feelings of scarcity.  Don’t panic when they rise up and try to mess with you, but instead become even more attentive to making sure everything is dealt with and all your bases are covered. The extra diligence against those scarcity issues coming into reality will pay off this week.

Air – Knight of Moons (Cups) – Keep your eye on the prize this week when it comes to what you want vs what you need. Make sure you are only being impulsive on practical matters, and not the “easy come, easy go” frivolous ones.

Water – Page of Wands – Adaptation for those things you care about doesn’t have to be difficult. Roll with the punches instead of fighting against them, and you will adapt and thrive, even under the face of any challenges or changes that might come on your way to your goals.

Fire – Queen of Swords – Help your business to continue to thrive through strategy and know how.  There are all challenges you’ve confronted before. Use this knowledge you’ve gained to your advantage as you go through them again this holiday season.

Waning – Heart and Tree – As the week goes on, it’s going to be harder and harder to put your physical and emotional needs first. Although these aspects of life are important, make sure it comes second to things of higher priority this week.

Waxing – Moon and Stork – Not putting those aspects first will set the stage for some unpleasantness emotionally. Keep an eye on your depression and emotional balance this week.  Make sure you don’t fall so far down the rabbit hole of self neglect that you damage your emotional health and well-being.

Take Away – Practical matters come first this week, and they very much need to.  That balance between the self-care aspects of life and your work are definitely not going to be working in tandem this week, and you’re going to have to lean into practical matters and be sure you don’t allow distractions to draw you off course either financially or in relation to your goals and business.

DECKS USED: THE WANDERING MOON TAROT AND THE BLACKBIRD LENORMAND

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Baroque Tarot and the Golden Dream Lenormand

Earth – Knight of Pentacles – Slow moving is still moving.  You might not feel like things are kicking off as quickly as you would like this holiday season, but keep in mind that the rush is a ramping up to hectic and not usually simply an immediate change.  There’s a time of transition involved that you’re currently riding forward one step at a time.

Air – Ten of Pentacles – This reminder has come up a lot lately, and the card is an encouragement to pay attention to what you have and be grateful for it.  You have accomplished so much, so don’t allow yourself to feel that you are a failure when you are thriving instead. It might not always feel like it, but at those times is when you need to step up and really pay attention… even catalog your good fortune if needed, in order to recognize it for what it is.

Water – Knight of Swords – Use your time wisely so that you can make sure you are carving out time for those things that help you feel emotionally balanced. Don’t forsake them for progress when you have a chance to take advantage of a bit of time to enjoy them.

Fire – Queen of Wands – Do what needs done to foster and grow your business. With the rush upon you, you have a lot of opportunity to help your business grow and thrive, not just through the holiday season, but throughout the rest of the year as well.

Waning – Lily and Broom – Slide off your high horse and ease your expectations of others before you end up falling out of the saddle and with a bruised ass for your trouble. People are sometimes going to disappoint, but make sure it’s not because you are expecting too much from them… or yourself, for that matter.

Waxing – Scythe and Hourglass – As time goes on this week you are going to find yourself lending that sharp tongue of your negative inner narrative more and more of an ear.  Make sure you are paying attention to this tendency and fighting back against it with a bit of positivity and optimism.  The rise of these tendencies towards self abuse is natural, but needs to be kept in check.

Take Away – Don’t worry about things being a bit slower than expected at the moment, and don’t tear yourself down while waiting for them to pick up.  Instead, lean into the different things you can do to help further your success, and make sure you are combating your negative tendencies instead of letting them grow as the week goes on.

DECKS USED: BAROQUE TAROT AND GOLDEN DREAMS LENORACLE

❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

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These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Everyday Witch Tarot and the Black Salt Lenormand

Earth – The Lovers – Make sure you are doing what is needed to keep you happy, healthy… and grounded.  Connecting with others right now is extremely important for your well-being.  So is making sure you allow them to keep you grounded.  Not everything has to be done alone, and you will need input from others to make healthy choices for yourself this week.

Air – Queen of Pentacles – Again we see a need for grounding.  Seek out those that help you find that stability you need instead of insisting you can do it all on your own.  Their input can help put your mind at ease and keep you from spiraling into anxiety and other non-grounded mental avenues.

Water – Three of Pentacles – Another reminder that this is not a time to do things on your own.  Incorporate others in seeking out what you need, and in providing it.  You don’t always see what you need half as clearly as others around you do.  Make sure you are consulting them instead of just settling for what you can manage on your own.

Fire – The Devil – Do  not allow yourself to fall into bad habits or the temptations that could harm you this week.  Keep an eye on those things that seem far too good to be true and turn away from them instead of trying to figure out how you can accept them without them causing harm.  You can’t.  Spurn them instead, no matter how tempting they appear.

Waning – Scythe and Snake – Do not lean into your work this week.  This is your opportunity to have a few easy days to breathe before the holiday rush falls into full swing.  Don’t waste them trying to accomplish more… just breathe.

Waxing – Rider and Tower – Pay attention to those that try to step in and integrate themselves into your life at this time. Lean into those that are there with you all the time, and reject the advances or offerings of those that are suddenly trying to step in and be a part of things.

Take Away –  Tried and true friends are the way to go this week.  Don’t waste these last days of rest, and allow those around you that you trust to keep close to help you find a positive spin on things so that your worries and anxieties don’t get a chance to try and eat at you.

DECKS USED: EVERYDAY WITCH TAROT, BLACK SALT LENORMAND

📆 Transitioning from October to November

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Monthly Check-In Tarot Reading with the Tarot of Haunted House and Halloween Oracle

Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.

Strength and The Cardinal – You are building up strength for the approaching holiday season. It will take all that you have within you to get through the weeks ahead and come out shining brightly for all to see.

The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.

The Empress and The Scrying Ball – You’re going to have to leave behind a lot of the spiritual and divinatory practices that you enjoy and that foster within you a sense of well-being in order to make room for the busy weeks to come. You can return to them in the new year.

What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.

Knight of Pentacles and The Hunter – Do not let the rush of the holidays fluster you. Stay calm and collected and keep moving steadily forward.

Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.

Eight of Wands and Lolita Muerte – Rushing and pride are both your enemy in this quest for steadiness and balance through the weeks ahead. Do not let your pride get in the way of taking things at a measured pace.

The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.

Seven of Wands and The Mind’s Eye – Remember that priorities and your values need to be your main focus. Even when it feels like the world is against you, be sure to reconnect with that moral compass of yours and the values you seek to foster in your life.

The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.

Ace of Cups and Predator’s Eyes – You are not unworthy or undeserving of love. Don’t let those fuckers that tried to knock you off, steal what’s yours, and leave you behind make you feel “less than”. This wound is healing, but is still in need of more tending to.

Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.

Four of Wands and The Window – Combat that past experience just mentioned with acknowledgment of all the times people have made you feel comforts and at home. You may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but you have found some that are happy to know you, care about you, and consider you a friend.

A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.

Knight of Cups and Spellwork – Watch out for manipulators trying to press influence over you to force you to their intent and purposes.

Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.

The Hermit and Jack o’Lantern – Remember that you have control over who reaches through the veil to contact you and how much influence they have in your life.

DECKS USED: TAROT OF HAUNTED HOUSE AND THE HALLOWEEN ORACLE (trimmed naked)