Rage Create’s Sweet-Ass Affirmations

Considering the Approach

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My Little Pony Tarot - Nine of Wands

Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Nine of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of boundaries, defensive maneuvers, and protection of what you hold dear.

The Nine of Wands has then been combined with the Resolution card from the Love Affirmations deck, which says, “I seek resolution, turning challenges into stepping stones for our growth.”

I wonder if dealing with the sentinels that terrorize our cities might be approached in a different manner. One that puts them off guard and at ease.

Instead of ducking our heads and quickening the step, what if we nod congenially and give them a smile or a grin. Would it set them off kilter? Would it create a sense of “this guy is okay” instead of spurring the suspicion that they come wearing like a glove?

Sometimes how we approach people makes a difference, after all. Today’s cards made me wonder if this might be the case in more situations than I’ve first realized. This isn’t to say I’m comfortable testing the theory… at least not with them. Maybe with others in my life, though, yeah?

The message in today’s cards is to reflect upon how you approach challenges (and challenging people), and consider if there isn’t a better way to interact that might get you where you want to go with them with less push-back in the process.

DECKS USED: MY LITTLE PONY TAROT AND LOVE AFFIRMATIONS

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 21st

Tarot Reading with the Mystic Cats Tarot and Essential Oil Oracle Cards

What I want to feel proud of

Three of Swords and Siberian Fir – You would like to be proud of how you handle disappointments in healthy ways.

This isn’t to say you always do, but rather that this is something you would -like- to do more of so that you can be proud of yourself for it more often.

How to connect with that sense of pride in this area

Page of Cups and Women’s – If you want to deal with disappointments in healthier ways so that you can be proud of yourself for how you handled it, you need to focus on being kind and compassionate to yourself.

Make it a point to remind yourself that you are still in the process of learning about your emotions and how to deal with them. Allow that compassion to be a part of the process, and be mindful to celebrate the small wins along the way (pink fish gave me the impression of fireworks).

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Acorn for Protection during New Beginnings
Deodar Cedar Ceramic Impression for Clarity and Spiritual Connection
Bird Figurine for Fostering Hope, Positivity, and Renewal
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: MYSTIC CATS TAROT AND ESSENTIAL OIL ORACLE CARDS

@de_tarotjuf’s Love Is All We Need Challenge
#detarotjuffebruaritarotchallenge
Prompt for February 21st : How can I be more patient in my relationships?

Tarot Reading with the My Little Pony Tarot

Reading Summary – Instead of allowing yourself to fall into the pessimistic views that are your habit (Eight of Swords) when chaos and destruction reign (The Tower), work on connecting to the nurturing side of your nature (The Empress).

Take Away – You have a tendency to save the nurturing side of your nature for others, and treat yourself to a lower standard than you do them. This harmful treatment creates disparagement in your relationships when hardships come calling, because you end up allowing that darker side you usually only safe for yourself to bleed out and start inflicting itself on others as well.

Work on turning it around in the other directly and allowing you nurturing nature to bleed out to be bestowed not just on others, but also on yourself. In doing so, it will soften the harshness that tries to come calling during times of struggle and chaos.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Oak Branch with Moss and Lichen for Perseverance
Beech Pod for Realizations that Foster Personal Growth
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Ferruginous Quartz Crescent for Enhancing the Evolution of Self
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: MY LITTLE PONY TAROT
Daily Self Kindness

I pulled the simmer pot back out, because the humidity was getting so low in here and my sinuses were hurting.

Abandon the Boring

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Today’s meditation was a ten minute #DailyCalm session from the @Calm app.

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Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Таро Евы - Eight of Cups, and Grateful AF Cards

Today’s draw is the Eight of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of withdrawal, abandonment, or letting go of things, situations, or people in your life that are just not working out for you emotionally.

The Eight of Cups has then been combined with the Pesto card from the Grateful AF Cards, which says, “Naming a food to sound like it’s a magical trick was an amazing idea. On top of that pesto tastes good on everything. Stick a cucumber in it and PESTO!, It’s yummy AF!!”

Look at the girl in the card, abandoning the security and stability of wealth to go on an adventure with her cat, many ghosts and uncertainties on the horizon, waiting for her among the shadows of the woods.

The thing is? As much as I focus on stability and security? When you focus on it too much, it becomes stagnancy. It becomes old. It becomes boring. It becomes unhealthy. We -need- a bit of adventure and diversity in our lives in order to keep the blood flowing and our energy moving. It can’t all be about safety and security… even for someone like me that’s often hyper-focused on that theme.

The message in today’s cards is an encouragement to abandon the boring. Life is more fun when you think outside the box and add a little amusement and creativity into your world. Allow your imagination to stretch and grow, and allow yourself to experience new things now and then, and see old ones in a new light.

DECKS USED: ТАРО ЕВЫ (by Ukrainian!) AND GRATEFUL AF CARDS

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2026 Challenge
Prompts for February 19th thru 21st

Tarot Reading with the Secret Garden Tarot and Alice In Wonderland Oracle

What your comfort zone feels like.

Ten of Swords; Too Many Tears – You find comfort in endings.

Specifically those endings where you have given all of yourself to the point that rest isn’t just relief, but also its own sort of pain (muscle spasms and discomfort, etc). This tells you that things have turned out how they are meant to be.

Even in failure, you find this understanding reassuring and you find comfort in knowing that you really did do all you could.

When is it safest and healthiest to linger in your comfort zone?

Nine of Cups; The Mock Turtle – When you stay long enough to find the boon, so you can “dress your experience up” into something positive, even when things don’t turn out as you want or expect. Allowing yourself to acknowledge the boon makes it easier to move forward with a positive mindset of acceptance.

When is it healthier to break free of your comfort zone?

Three of Swords; Growing and Growing – When the pain and disappointment hold you back from growth, it’s then healthier to break free and move on without that closure that gives you comfort.

If you can’t find a way to grow from the experience, it’s better to move on than linger in the negative space. You can always revisit and look for the boon later on after you’ve had more time to process.

Other elements included in this reading:
Japanese Cherry Leaf as a Reminder of Life’s Fleeting Moments
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Foraged Silver Maple Key for Bouncing Back to Thrive
Foraged Acorn for Protection during New Beginnings
Moss Agate for Attracting Opportunities for Growth
Gneiss Stone for Patience in Moments of Discomfort
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: SECRET GARDEN TAROT AND ALICE IN WONDERLAND ORACLE

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 20th : One thing that brings me comfort

Tarot Reading with the Таро Евы

Reading Summary – Knowing that you’re not alone (Hermit Rx) in your efforts to balance the burden (Two of Pentacles) of life’s overwhelming struggles and upsets (Ten of Wands).

Take Away – You may struggle to ask for help, but that doesn’t mean that you’re not grateful and comforted by the fact that it’s there for you when you need it.

You may push yourself far beyond your own means to try and deal with it yourself first, but the fact someone is there to have your back when you need it allows you to not freak out when you -have- to ask for help, because you know that help will be there for you and you won’t be refused or turned away.

Other elements included in this reading:
Staghorn Sumac for Connecting with Nature and the Wild Within
Chinese Silver Grass for fostering Grounding and Nurturing Stability
Scotch Pine Cone for Purging Negative Influences
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: ТАРО ЕВЫ (by Ukrainian!)
Daily Self Kindness

I refused to do anything that would challenge my back or hip today. They’ve been a bit sore and I’m trying to avoid them going into a full flare-up.

The Ways That Matter

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Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Ace of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, creativity, and intuition.

The Art of Love Tarot - Ace of Cups, Ace of Hearts

The Ace of Cups has then been combined with an affirmation from the Love Affirmations deck, which says, “I savor the richness of our shared moments, creating lasting memories.”

Loving someone involves spending time together in the ways that matter. This is how you build a relationship with others that stands the test of time and all the trials that time brings with it.

The message in today’s cards is a reminder that it’s important to be mindful about spending time with those you cherish in your life. Shared time and the memories we create are the building blocks to long lasting friendships and relationships.

Disregarding this instead of being mindful of it may cause these people to fade out of our lives, lost to the past instead of a part of your present.

DECK USED: THE ART OF LOVE TAROT AND LOVE AFFIRMATIONS

One Card Tarot Journal Activity by @mariasofia_astro
Chapter 5| Entry 16 – Health and Body
Affirmation : “My imagination is vivid and fun.”
Prompt : If the limits of the human body did not exist, what would you want to be able to do and why? Use the card you draw to open your mind up to imaginative possibilities.

Tarot Activity from The One Card a Day Journal by Maria Sofia Marmanides - Potion Hunters Tarot - Wheel of Fortune card

What feelings came up when I pulled this card?

I was immediately struck with amusement and an impression of play. A flying merry-go-round in the sky.

What elements of the card’s meaning resonate with me and this prompt?

My answer to the question part of this was that I would like to be able to chase my hedonistic tendencies. (Give in to my addictions and enjoy them thoroughly, one after another and back again.)

Seeing the Wheel of Fortune appear in answer to this both encourages the imagination to stretch farther into the land of possibilities… and reminds me that there are always going to be ups and downs in any endeavors, even if there would be no bodily consequences.

What in the artwork spoke to me?

The Wheel in the image, tilted the way it is and clearly spinning, immediately draws to mind the old playground merry-go-round. I loved that thing as a kid and spent hours on it exploring the spinning and its influences depending on where you were positioned on the thing.

Note… the further out from the center you go, the harder it is to hold on and more potential to get thrown off and possibly hurt.

My prompt response and reflections.

Being able to explore my addictive tendencies to my heart’s content would be wild and fun, scary and painful… and it would be very easy to lose my center and become ungrounded, perhaps permanently. My addictive personality traits are far from just physical, after all.

Other elements included in this reading:
Sodalite D20 and D6 Gemstone Dice

DECK USED: POTION HUNTER TAROT

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 19th

Tarot Reading with The Art of Love Tarot and The Law of Attraction Cards

How I know when I need space

Four of Swords and Creative Power – When you are feeling tired and feeling uninspired, it’s time to rest and recuperate.

It’s in these down times in which you give yourself the space to rest that inspiration sparks to life once more.

How to best create the space I need during these times

Five of Pentacles and Sameness – It’s in doing the things that feel like recuperation to you personally that give you the space.

Not everyone recuperates and rests in the same way, and if you try and model your methods after others, it will always feel like you’ve come up short and aren’t getting the recuperation you need, nor bouncing back as strongly as you otherwise could. Seek out those things that are uniquely your own in how you restore yourself and your energy.

Other elements included in this reading:
Staghorn Sumac for Connecting with Nature and the Wild Within
Japanese Cherry Leaf as a Reminder of Life’s Fleeting Moments
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: THE ART OF LOVE TAROT AND THE LANGUAGE OF ATTRACTION CARDS
Daily Self Kindness

This is a catch up post, and I’m not entirely sure what the self kindness was for this day.

The Small Wins

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The @GlitterbyInk #FebYOUary26 Moments & Memories Challenge
Prompt for February 18th : Gratitude
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

The Sacred Circle Tarot - The Sun

Today’s draw is The Sun card, which is traditionally a representation of success, optimism, positivity, fun and frivolity. In my practice, the Sun is also a symbol of masculine vitality, virility, and warmth.

Small wins and successes are still wins, and need recognition and celebration… maybe even more so than the big ones, because they bolster our spirit along the journey instead of forcing us to focus on only the end and the goal sitting there waiting for us.

Drudgery. Honestly? That’s sometimes what trying to achieve goals feels like. Just trudging forward day after day, struggle after struggle, eye always trained on the prize.

Today’s Sun Card and “gratitude” prompt challenge us to consider that maybe that -isn’t- how it has to be. By celebrating our small wins along the way, it doesn’t have to feel like a long slog through mire to get to our reward at the end… because we’re getting little rewards along the way and that bolsters our spirits, making the journey lighter and more enjoyable instead of grueling and miserable.

The message for today is a reminder to celebrate your small wins. In return, you are rewarded with a better experience over all.

DECKS USED: THE SACRED CIRCLE TAROT (aggressively trimmed)

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 18th

Tarot Reading with the Tarot of Sexual Magic and Deck of Many Insults

A pattern I’m starting to notice

Six of Pentacles and Wasn’t Listening – Maybe the reason it’s become a struggle to find those willing to communicate with you is because most people are too concerned with their own crap to take the extra effort needed to do so.

I run across a lot of impatience and irritation when trying to communicate with others, especially strangers like store clerks, customer service, and just random people. My communication difficulties are a hurdle that they see as a burden they just aren’t interested in bearing in order to communicate with another person.

It’s too inconvenient so they react with impatience and/or irritation.

Anything I might need to do concerning this pattern

Four of Cups atop Eight of Swords; Not the Dumbest and Boot Flask – It’s a futile effort to get them to pay attention or be receptive to you. The extra effort is something they’re just not willing to put into the situation, and it’s their loss. So let them walk away and find someone else.

Other elements included in this reading:
Staghorn Sumac for Connecting with Nature and the Wild Within
Tree Agate for Fostering Peace and Patience
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: TAROT OF SEXUAL MAGIC AND DECK OF MANY INSULTS

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2026 Challenge
Philosophical Prompt for February 18th : Is the desire to be loved an innate human desire?

Tarot Reading with The Sacred Circle Tarot

Reading Summary – Sex and procreation is an animal drive (Ace of Pentacles and the erect phallus in the Six of Wands), but connecting emotions to such things is innately human (Three of Cups and Six of Wands).

Take Away – These cards indicate that the desire to be loved is, in fact, innately human.

It’s not about sex or comfort or security. It’s about finding love, which is something that unique to humanity.

That’s not to say that there aren’t those out there that try to equate sex and love, safety and love, security and love, or comfort and love. But, the emotion itself? That is uniquely human, as is our desire for it.

Other elements included in this reading:
Holy Leaf for fostering Strength, Endurance, and Boundaries
Foraged Acorns for Protection during New Beginnings
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: THE SACRED CIRCLE TAROT (aggressively trimmed)
Daily Self Kindness

This is a catch up post, and I’m not entirely sure what the self kindness was for this day.

Run Away, or Stay

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

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The @GlitterbyInk #FebYOUary26 Moments & Memories Challenge
Prompt for February 17th : Forgive
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

The Medieval Scapini Tarot - Six of Swords

Today’s draw is the Six of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of leaving the past in the past, moving on, letting go in order to welcome in something better, and transitions towards something better.

Walking away isn’t always the answer. Sometimes the work has to be done staying right where you’re at.

It can be really easy to get into the habit of running away from one’s problems. And to be fair, sometimes that is the best answer (as recently discussed in the card of the day pull on the 14th).

The problem is that that when it becomes a habit that we repeat again and again, we end up running away from our problems not because it’s the best answer, but because it appears to be the easiest answer or the least scary solution.

The thing is, though, that that isn’t always the best answer. Easy isn’t always our best choice. Take the imagery on this card, for example. The man has clearly fallen off his horse; is the answer to kill the horse? No. It’s to pick your ass up off the ground and try again, or perhaps give the horse some more training so that you don’t end up in the same situation again… you know, if it wasn’t user error in the first place, that is.

The message in today’s Six of Swords combined with the “forgive” prompt is a reminder that we have to stay and fight for the things that we want sometimes. Yes, there are untenable situations where walking away is the only option available. This is especially true in abusive situations or situations that are unhealthy for us. There are just as many situations, though, where staying to forgive and work things out can be the better choice… especially if both sides are willing to put in the effort.

DECKS USED: THE MEDIEVAL SCAPINI TAROT

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 17th

Tarot Reading with the Soprafino Dellarocca and the Love Oracle of Eden

What I’m learning to trust myself about

Four of Cups atop Four of Wands; Openness – When it’s time to reach out and connect with others, and when it’s time to spend time relaxing alone. A lot of this has to do with learning how to understand when it’s safe and comfortable to be open with others, and understanding when it’s better to keep to yourself and take a breath.

It used to be that you spent all of your time closed off, and even those close to you weren’t allowed to really be all that close. Over time you’re learning how to allow yourself to be open more and discern when it’s better to step back for a bit.

How I can better connect with that trust

Seven of Coins and Explore – You learned to trust by doing. The more experience you gain through exploration and experience, the more you are able to trust yourself to identify the healthy path for you in the moment when making these types of decisions.

Other elements included in this reading:
Gneiss Stone for Patience in Moments of Discomfort
Mookaite for Help with Weighing One’s Options
Carved Rhyolite Leaf for Facilitating Calm Transitions
Green Aventurine for Harmony and Balance of the Heart
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: SOPRAFINO DELLAROCCA AND LOVE ORACLE OF EDEN

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2026 Challenge
Prompt for February 17th : Something to look forward to.

Tarot Reading with The Medieval Scapini Tarot

Reading Summary – You may always be an introvert (the man’s arms are crossed in the Three of Coins, and that he’s looking decidedly grumpy), but there’s a lot to be said for the time you spend with others both in work (Three of Coins) and play (Three of Cups); not to mention the inspiration that they provide you through their presence in your life… and the inspiration that you provide them in turn (Queen of Wands).

Take Away – Stop automatically dreading social time with others. By anticipating it won’t be enjoyable, you put a pall over the experience. It tinges your time spent with others.

You could be enjoying this time more by letting go of your resistance and expectations. Even more so if you put an effort into looking forward to these times with others.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Cedar Bundle for Protection from Negative Influences
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: THE MEDIEVAL SCAPINI TAROT
Daily Self Kindness

Two words… Häagen-Dazs 😋

Building Wisdom

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Today’s meditation was a twelve minute long self-directed session that used the quiet tick of the ceiling fan as a focus.

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The @GlitterbyInk #FebYOUary26 Moments & Memories Challenge
Prompt for February 16th : Wisdom
Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

The Little Light Tarot - Temperance

Today’s draw is the Temperance card, which is traditionally a representation of moderation, balance, slowing down, practicing patience, and can at times represent a connection between the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.

There’s truth in the adage that “only fools rush in”. They wrote a whole song about it, in fact (although I’m pretty sure that song is about love in particular). That’s because wisdom takes a modicum of moderation. After all, it takes time to think things through and weigh the different aspects and choices involved in a situation.

When we just rush forward to solve something, we don’t give ourselves time to weigh all the aspects involved and choices that are available to us. We’re just reacting.

The message in today’s Temperance card and the “wisdom” prompt is a reminder that wisdom comes from growth. It’s not fast, and the situations requiring wisdom are not the sort of things that you can instantly resolve or immediately fix. True wisdom takes growth through contemplation, and contemplation takes time.

DECKS USED: THE LITTLE LIGHT TAROT

@ambitiouslyalexa’s February Journal Prompts
Prompt for February 16th

Tarot Reading with the Modern Hue Tarot and FATUM GM Oracle

How I handle disappointment

Sea atop Kill Someone; The Emperor – You handle disappointment with emotional turmoil that has the tendency to turn into something that hurts others and damages relationships.

The bigger the repercussion that come in the aftermath of these moments demonstrates to you the level of emotional reaction you had to the disappointment you were experiencing.

This is often how relationships end for you, and how people end up unceremoniously cut out of your life. You reach the end of your rope, you tell them about themselves, then remove them from your life without further consultation.

There are a lot of stages, steps, and second chances that lead up to this, but this describes the last rattling breath of life in a relationship with someone that manages to disappoint you to the point of letting go.

How I can better handle disappointment

Ally Help atop Construction; Two of Wands – Instead of living purely in the present moment of the disappointment in the emotions it has elicited, consult on the situation with others that you trust to have your best interests at heart, and have them help you to incorporate into your response where you want things to go. Their council can help you in building better responses to disappointment that can then turn into healthier habits in this area over time.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Foraged Acorns for Protection during New Beginnings
Mookaite for Help with Weighing One’s Options
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: MODERN HUE TAROT AND FATUM GM ORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2026 Challenge
Prompt for February 16th : What do you need to focus on for self-care for this month’s new moon?

Tarot Reading with The Little Light Tarot

Reading Summary – Make decisions (Two of Swords) to lead yourself towards (figure in Two of Swords is looking towards the right/future and Ten of Cups) what makes you happy (Ten of Cups), and then go for it. No hesitation (Eight of Wands).

Take Away – Stop hesitating to act when you identify something that has the potential to make you happy. This isn’t about your aspirations toward stability or your dedication to your responsibilities.

It’s about joy, happiness, and enjoying things just because you enjoy them or like them. Stop putting these things off in deference to all those other things you need to do.

Your happiness is important and should belong in the “needs” category, instead of a “want” that can be continually shoved off and ignored for other things.

Other elements included in this reading:
Black Spruce Needles to Boost Self-Confidence and Positive Thinking
Dried Rosebuds for Potential and Beauty Waiting to Unfold
Dried Purple Heather Flowers for Independence and Luck
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE LITTLE LIGHT TAROT

Crossroads Daily Topic Question for February 15, 2026
Topic: Shadow Work

Tarot Reading with the Modern Hue Tarot

What is a lie you tell yourself?

The Chariot and Strength – Telling yourself that powering through obstacles and setbacks with determination and a hard focus on your goals, which causes you ignore your needs in order to get to where you’re going, makes you stronger.

How is it holding you back?

Empress and Seven of Wands – This behavior puts your needs in the back seat (or trunk, for that matter), which causes you to be unable to reach for the self-nurturing you need when you need it.

As a result, neglect becomes a pattern that breaks you down over time, as you’re too busy seeing these needs as another obstacle in your way that has to be battled and overcome.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Red Maple Leaf for Adaptability and Connection
Bird Figurine for Fostering Hope, Positivity, and Renewal
Gneiss Stone for Patience in Moments of Discomfort
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: MODERN HUE TAROT
Daily Self Kindness

I did a little research into Matrix/Element… but might have allowed myself to sort of (at least for now) give up when it became confusing.