Rough…
And alone
Ragged and lost
Rooted and adrift
Jagged
Angry
and yet calm
Standing tall
even as
I quake
on the inside.
Someone spit in my face today. Spit… in… my FACE.
Because I am a courteous enough to wear a mask? No.
Because of my Korean heritage.
“Go back to China and take the virus back with you,” he said.
Fuck you too asshole. I was born here.
Mood
Quiet thunder
rhythmic purrs
thrumming deep
Loud and smooth
No matter how grumpy
angry or sad
those little rumbles
wash over me
soothe the senses
and help me breathe.
Miss Luna’s purr is the most amazing sound in the world to me. It comforts and relaxes me when I’ve had a stressful day or can’t seem to shake a bad mood, washing over me and helping me let go and relax. She is not a particularly clingy cat, but she comes to curl up with me when I need those knots untangled, wedging her little butt up against the side of my my head and kneading at my hair as she rumbles rhythmically in my ear.
Pink
Murmured compliments
loving encouragement
quiet praise
and intimate whispers.
You would think
over time
I would become
immune
and yet every day
you find
something to say
that makes me flush
pink
with pleasure.
Thank you for trying so hard every single day to remind me not just of how much you love me, but of how much you admire me, desire me, and root for me. I don’t always take compliments well… but even when I stumble over them you never stop making sure that I hear how you feel about me. And each time it sinks in just a little more than before.
Independence
Standing strong
isn’t easy
but independence
doesn’t mean
you never lean
upon others
or ask for help.
It means that
even when you do
those things
you continue to walk
your own path.
When we first got together, I was terrified that our relationship would decimate my independence. I did not want to be under the thumb of another, nor controlled by someone… anyone other than myself. I have come to learn, though, that it is still very much possible to be both fiercely independent and in a loving and supportive relationship. I’ve learned this because you were patient enough to not just teach me it can happen… but show me it is possible.
Cozy
Soft and comfy
like a fuzzy blanket
time with you
soothes my soul
comforts my heart
and wraps me
in a sense of
peace
I can find nowhere else
I’m so glad that we’ve gotten some time together the last few days. I hadn’t realized how much I was needing that warm and cozy feeling you provide in these hours spent together, or how much that time creates a soothing balm on my soul and helps me find that place in my heart where everything feels just a bit more right in the world.
Explore
with me
Come see what I see
The magic
the wonder
it’s all there for thee.
Open your eyes
and take a breath
step through the veil
I’ll do the rest.
Twisting the Leaf 