Inadequacies and Accomplishments

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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Cleopatra Tarot - Ten of Cups and Lobilat Rumi Quotes CardsDaily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Ten of Cups (Tepisatosoa/Sun in Gemini), which is traditionally a representation of feelings of completion, connection with others and harmony in those connections, and is often considered as the “happy family” card.

In this deck, the definition in the guidebook says “Need to stand out from the crowd. Risk of arousing dislike. Disputes with people who are intellectually diverse.” Although this is not a traditional definition for the Ten of Cups, it introduces the aspect of the Egyptian decan that is depicted on this card, as well as the zodiac sign assigned to it.

The Ten of Cups has then been combined with the an affirmation from the Lobilat Rumi Quotes deck, which says, “You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the ocean in a drop”

I struggle with feelings of not being enough.  Not being enough, not doing enough. Just… not enough.  This feeling is a motivational shove that keeps my drive pushing for more and better… and in some ways?  That’s not necessarily a bad thing.

It becomes a bad thing, though, when it starts to harm myself or others.

These feelings are a byproduct of how I was raised.  I know this, and yet somehow I still manage to carry them with me into adulthood.  Decades from being a child?  They still drive me even when I try to change and heal.

Today’s cards are a reminder that in order to get past these feelings of inferiority, it’s important to appreciate not just all that you’ve accomplished, but also all those things you do in life that you enjoy. The message is also a reminder that if you don’t have many of those things in life you enjoy?  It’s time to start looking a little deeper at why that is, and start seeking out more of those things.

DECK USED:  CLEOPATRA TAROT AND LOBILAT RUMI QUOTES

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Judgement Spread

Judgement Tarot Reading with The Cocaine Tarot

What calling do you hear?

Knight of Cups – There has been a lot of messages lately that focus on authenticity and going after what is truly of interest to you (as opposed to what you feel that you -should- be doing). The Knight of Cups is a reinforcement of that message, encouraging you to prioritize seeking out what makes you happy, instead of always trying to fill obligations and responsibilities first.

What truth can no longer be ignored?

The Hierophant Rx – You’re becoming stuck in your ways as you age. That stubborn streak is coming out more and more, and making it harder for you to adapt to new methods, technology, and concepts. You’re really not -that- old, but you’re being left behind all the same.

What past are you ready to release?

The Temperance Rx – You have gotten to the point in your life where you have begun to appreciate moving at a slower pace and taking your time. This used to be something you could not tolerate in your life, but has become more important to you over the time, allowing you to release the need to push and shove and rush quite as much.

What awareness arrives?

Three of Swords – You were once naïve, and every little cut from others felt like a travesty of emotion. You are getting to the point now where you understand more what these cuts are about and why they happen. It still hurts, but you’re processing it better now than you did before.

What new self is emerging?

Ten of Coins – You are redefining accomplishments and success, and in the process you are finding that you have far more of both than you thought you did. This creates a greater sense of stability within you, and inhow you perceive your life.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Cedar Bundle for Protection from Negative Influences
Foraged Ponderosa Pine Cones for Resilience and Adaptability
Onyx Stone Fox for Identifying and Connecting to Truth
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Foraged Branch covered in Parmeliaceae for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Japanese Cherry Leaf as a Reminder of Life’s Fleeting Moments
River Rock for Resilience within Life’s Flow
Carnelian Agate for Inner Drive and Focusing On Aspirations

Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: COCAINE TAROT

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The Deep Prompts 29 thru 30

Tarot Reading with the Cleopatra TarotEcho (Resonance) – What pattern is returning, asking to be heard again?

Seven of Cups (Aharph/Saturn in Taurus) – “Struggle against melancholy. A period of tiredness or depression. News that generates apprehension.” – LWB

You are not as far out of depression’s pit as you think you are. Make sure you are making choices that bolster your mood and encourage positivity. Otherwise, you may find yourself drawn back into the darkness for a second round.

Weave (Integration) – How do the threads of this descent come together in me now?

Two of Pentacles (Sothis/Venus in Cancer) – “Capacity to attain benevolence thanks to one’s abilities and niceness. A period of socialization.” – LWB

People pleasing is going to set things more and more off-kilter right now. Instead of trying to make everyone else happy, focus your energies on your own happiness. By doing this you can help restore and preserve a balance within yourself and your life that will help immensely in keeping you out of depression’s pit.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Cedar Bundle for Protection from Negative Influences
Dried Red Maple Leaf for Adaptability and Connection
Foraged Acorns for Protection during New Beginnings

Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: CLEOPATRA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

This is a catch up post, and I’m not entirely sure what the self kindness was for this day.

Skewed Prioritization

Today’s meditation was a ten minute long #DailyCalm session from the @Calm app.

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The Constellation Tarot's Three of Cups and Lobilat Rumi Quotes CardsDaily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Three of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of friendships, revelry, celebration, and collaboration between those that are linked or alike not just in mind but also in heart.

The Three of Cups has then been combined with the an affirmation from the Lobilat Rumi Quotes deck, which says, “Peaceful is the one who is not concerned with having more or less less. Unbound by name and fame, he is free from sorrow from the world and mostly from himself.”

It’s our friendships and the time we spend together that matters most. Pursuits towards popularity, fame, consumerism, and monetary wealth, distract us from those things that are truly important in our lives, like spending time with loved ones and enjoying celebrating life with those around you.

The message in today’s cards is a reminder that societal pressures sometimes have a way of skewing our perspectives and nudging us “off track” in our values when we’re not looking. These cards are an encouragement to pause a moment and check in with our values so that we can make sure we are prioritizing what’s truly important above what isn’t.

DECK USED:  THE CONSTELLATION TAROT AND LOBILAT RUMI QUOTES

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The Tower Spread

The Tower Tarot Reading with the Coronatarot

Where is a storm brewing?

The Sun – This is a message that has been repeated multiple times recently in the cards… too much of a good thing is not a good thing. It’s time to look into those places where you are overindulging and pay attention to the potential for cataclysm that these areas could go through unexpectedly. And for fucksake, don’t forget to put the cover back over your crystal ball!

What can no longer be ignored?

The Magus Rx – You have a tendency to ignore the things that are bothering you until they either go away or come to a head. In this case, it would be better to deal with the fact that you are feeling powerless, and seek ways to improve that situation rather than ignoring it and hoping it will go away.

What foundation is crumbling?

Prince of Cups – It’s time to pay attention to where your trust is feeling a bit wobbly and unsteady. Look at what’s gotten past your defenses and under your skin, and consider if this sneaky bit of erosion is deserved or simply overlooked and needs dealing with.

Where is release necessary?

King of Wands – You need a passion outlet that will allow you to involve others in the process. Something that allows your creative spark freedom to flare, and at the same time allows others to be with you along the way so that you don’t feel so alone in the journey.

What can you rebuild with a clean slate?

Trump – Communication. You work hard to avoid talking politics with others. Especially those close to you that you know have an extreme contrast of opinion to yours. This has managed to preserve those relationships, but for how long when you refuse to communicate with them?

Instead of shutting them out, consider hearing what they have to say. You may be surprised at the shifting tide that’s been going on beneath the surface while you weren’t listening and we checked out.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Cedar Bundle for Protection from Negative Influences
Gneiss Wishing Stone for Patience in Moments of Discomfort
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: CORONATAROT

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Prompt for November 24th
: Advice I need to hear at this time concerning my work life.

Tarot Reading with The Constellation TarotReading Summary: Decisions are needed (Two of Swords). The winds of change are requiring you to make a choice in what things you leave behind and which ones you take with you as you move forward (Seven of Swords). Make sure that you are making choices that are in line with the kinds of success that you truly value (Nine of Pentacles).

Take Away: What are you leaning onto so determinedly, that instead needs to be let go? That is the question being posed by these cards. Where does true satisfaction lie for you, and what is most important to take with you in reaching those goals?

Once you figure this out, you will be better equipped to leave behind the stuff that is not fostering the goals that you wish to achieve, no matter how attached you may have become to the “stuff” in question.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Lavender Bundle for Calming and Comfort
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE CONSTELLATION TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

This is a catch up post, and I’m not entirely sure what the self kindness was for this day.

Maintaining Balance

Today’s meditation was a ten minute long #DailyCalm session from the @Calm app.

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The Brady Tarot 2nd Edition - Two of Pentacles, Two of Roots and Lobilat Rumi Quotes CardsDaily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Two of Pentacles (Roots), which is traditionally a representation of juggling responsibilities, work/life balance, and prioritization.

The Two of Pentacles has then been combined with the an affirmation from the Lobilat Rumi Quotes deck, which says, “ If all you can do is crawl, start crawling.”

Balance in life is important, as it keeps the things we want and need in our lives running smoothly (including ourselves). This means that not all growth can be done with speed.  Sometimes, in order to keep things in balance in one’s life, we have to take growth slowly.  That way, even as we make progress, we don’t set other things off kilter.

The message in today’s cards is a reminder that slow growth is still growth, and when the growth we’re working for takes more time than expected?  That’s okay.  It just means that we’re managing to keep things in balance while we move forward.

DECK USED:  THE BRADY TAROT 2ND EDITION AND LOBILAT RUMI QUOTES

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Philosophical Prompts for November 18th and 25th

Tarot Reading with Coins of the Tarot Cards and The OrákulumCan a person without hope live a full and happy life?

The Lovers and Synchronicity – As long as they have their needs fulfilled and everything is going their way, then there is no need for hope in order to live a full and happy life.

Do we live to eat, or eat to live?

Five of Swords and Gnosis – These cards indicate that humanity lives to eat. We do not eat what we need, but rather we eat what gives us a lift of pleasure. This means that we’re never really happy with the stuff that’s good for us and we should be eating… only the stuff that really doesn’t do us any good at all but instead simply taste good or gives us a chemical boost of pleasure.

Other elements included in this reading:
Black Spruce Needles to Boost Self-Confidence and Positive Thinking
Dried Rosebuds for Potential and Beauty Waiting to Unfold
Dried Purple Heather Flowers for Independence and Luck
Aragonite for Truth and Understanding

Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: COINS OF THE TAROT CARDS AND THE ORÁKULUM

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The Devil Spread

The Devil Tarot Reading with The Brady Tarot 2nd Edition

What is pulling you off your path?

Nine of Horns Rx – A lack of appreciation for the small things in life that make life worth living. You don’t spend enough time enjoying life and seeking out those things that bring you joy.

What is skewing your vision?

The Magician – The idea that you have to have all of the answers, and be able to fix anything that goes wrong. You need to give yourself permission to loaf off and/or step back instead of diving immediately into the “I can do it” mentality that has you volunteering for far too much.

Where have you lost your power?

Ten of Horns – As mentioned in the first question in this reading, you spent so much time looking ahead and working towards the future that you have forgotten to pause and see the value of the present and how good things are right now in this moment.

What lured you into the dark?

King of Arrows Rx – An overactive drive to do more and go farther that has become unhealthy. You are using your drive for success to abuse yourself.

What chains can you choose to break?

Wheel of Fortune – Stop looking at the unpredictability of life as your enemy or some kind of predator out to destroy all that you’ve built. Instead, consider the opportunities that life’s ups and downs create for you.

How can you stay in the light?

The Lovers – Make healthy choices. Although you can enlist those closest to you to help you and making those choices, remember that they have their own agendas at heart. Only you know what’s going to be right for you, so listen to their council, but be sure to touch in with yourself and what you need to be healthy and happy before you make any decisions.

Other elements included in this reading:
Scotch Pine Cone for Purging Negative Influences
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Foraged Acorns for Protection during New Beginnings
Japanese Cherry Leaf as a Reminder of Life’s Fleeting Moments

DECK USED: THE BRADY TAROT 2ND EDITION

Daily Self Kindness

I turned down a shift even though I could have used the extra cash, because I really wanted to be home.

Defense Mechanisms and Isolation

Today’s meditation was a ten minute long #DailyTrip session from the @Calm app.

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Mocha Siamese Tarot - Page of Pentacles; Lobilat Rumi Quotes CardsDaily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Page of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive “omega” energy in the area of one’s finances, resources, health, labors, home life, and manifestations. This often translates into themes that have to do with work apprenticeships and learning a new ability or skill.

The Page of Pentacles has then been combined with the an affirmation from the Lobilat Rumi Quotes deck, which says, “Submit to love without thinking.”

When you have spent the lions share of your foundational years on guard, it can be heard to let go and let people in. I find myself struggling with this again and again.  Most people?  They just give up and go away. That’s not my intention in coming off as “cold” or unapproachable, and yet that’s what happens.  Defense mechanisms and their pitfalls, right?

This means, at least for me, that only those with persistence make it through.  Gideon, for example, was very determined.  Same with J.

These days?  I’m trying to loosen up and not allow my defense mechanisms to call the shots. I’m trying to learn to be more open to love. To allow people in more easily.  It’s not easy, but I’m trying.  I’ve found in doing this, that I’m gifted with a more diverse pool of people in my life, and many of them I enjoy the company of a great deal.  The struggle, is definitely worth it.  Difficult, but worth it.

The message in today’s card and affirmation combo is a reminder that your defense mechanisms are not always right or healthy.  Sometimes, we need to learn to look past the fear and pain that created these defenses, and allow ourselves to explore what life might be like without them.

DECK USED:  MOCHA SIAMESE TAROT AND LOBILAT: RUMI QUOTES DECK

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Memories Prompts for November 20

Tarot Reading with Burton's Wonderland Tarot and The Grief Journey OracleWhat to Cherish – Three of Pentacles and Guide

You are not alone on your journey. Your life is filled with a lot of struggle, and you work hard to create what you have and the stability that you crave. You have others, though, with you… on both sides of the veil.  They participate in your life to support you and also provide guidance when it is needed.

What to Release – The Magician and Child

Your need for control resides in your childhood trauma. Releasing this trauma will give you the ability to manifest those things you want to create in your life without the need to be in control every step of the way or hold onto that control with such a tight grip all the time.

Memories to Make – Strength and Illumination

It’s time to start exploring the strengths that reside within you that don’t require force or aggression to manifest.

Other elements included in this reading:
Staghorn Sumac for Connecting with Nature and the Wild Within
Dried Cedar Bundle for Protection from Negative Influences
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”

Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: BURTON’S WONDERLAND TAROT AND THE GRIEF JOURNEY ORACLE

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The Deep Prompts 21 and 22

Tarot Reading with the Mocha Siamese Tarot and Oracle d'OrUnderworld (Death) – What hidden depths am I being asked to explore?

Page of Cups and Constellations – You are only skimming the surface of your emotions thus far on this journey to understand and explore them. They are as deep and nuanced as the universe itself, with a myriad of different causes, differences, and patterns. Don’t stop. This journey is challenging and excruciatingly slow moving, but worth it.

Night (Mystery) – What can only be revealed in the dark?

Queen of Swords Rx and Ephemerality – Remember that your sharper edges are temporary fluctuations. You are not these moments, they are simply a small part of the whole of who you are. Ephemeral and fleeting.

Flame (Spirit) – What spark refuses to be extinguished?

The Lovers and Expansion – Self betterment is an integral part of your practice. As a core element in your beliefs and values, it will always be a driving force in your life.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Oak Branch with Moss and Lichen for Perseverance
Beech Pods for Realizations that Foster Personal Growth
Ammonite for a Sense of Stability During Times of Change

Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: MOCHA SIAMESE TAROT AND ORACLE D’OR

Daily Self Kindness

Although my stomach is feeling better, I took it easy on myself today.