Fear and Self Sabotage

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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@GlitterbyInk #Novelember24 Challenge
One Word Book Title Prompt for November 8th
: Greenlights

Cordein Tarot's Death card and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day Calendar by KateToday’s draw is the Death card combined with the affirmation “Even though they may not express it to you, people are grateful you’re in the world.”

Self sabotage is a thing that I think most of us deal with from time to time. For some, like myself, it’s chronic.  For others?  It happens now and then when feeling particularly vulnerable, undeserving, or afraid.  In either case? Sometimes we don’t even see that we’re doing it.  In fact, I would imagine that being oblivious to this tendency in the moment when it’s happening is pretty common.

Today’s cards (and prompt) ask us to take a minute and look at where you have been self sabotaging? Where has change been knocking on your door, and instead of answering the call, you have tried to step back and hide?  What are you afraid of?  Why are you avoiding?  Dig deep and really seek out that vulnerable feeling inside that is driving your resistance and see if you can ease it’s tension enough to give yourself the go-ahead to embrace the changes that need to occur.   It doesn’t have to be a trial by fire.  Promise.

DECKS USED:  CORDEIN TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2024 Challenge
Prompt for November 8th
: Think of a problem that needs solving and pull cards in relation to…
Problem : The upcoming building levy and financial strain involved.

Oracle Reading with the Fairies OracleWhere to BeginOberon / King – Don’t ignore it. You know it’s coming and you need to be responsible about it in order to lead your people through the hardship of the moment. Take care not to shoot yourself in the foot.

What Half Way Looks Like Mab / Dream On – You are going to be feeling like you have everything under control, but make sure that it is not an illusion. Don’t bet the bank on the fact that you feel this way.

How to End Things Sprites / Stage of Play – Allow the relief of getting it done to wash over you and lighten the weight on your shoulders. It’s okay to feel accomplished when you’ve managed to accomplish something. Paying off this levy would be one of those things.

Long Term Ramifications The Aziza / Mind Your Own – It will bring a deeper closeness to those things and people that are yours, binding you together through hardships faced side by side. This in turn strengthens the boundaries between your inner circle and those outside of it.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Foraged Pin Oak Leaf for Strength and Endurance
Smoky Quartz for Grounding and Stability
Raku Bear Medallion for Protection and Stalwartness
Mandala Disk for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: FAIRIES ORACLE

@empressofthenightslight #SweetnessWithTheEmpress #SweetnessofLife Challenge
Question for November 8th : What steps can I take today to help myself move forward?

Cordein Tarot - Nine of Cups, The Moon, The Hanged ManReading Summary: Take time to reflect upon (The Hanged Man) those things that help lift you up out of uncertainty (The Moon) into a place of ease, comfort , and satisfaction (Nine of Cups).

Take Away: With the holiday rush right on your doorstep, it’s easy to lose sight of your own needs and making sure that they are being fulfilled.  If you allow yourself to ignore your own needs, though, you will end up having to slow down (or stop entirely) to deal with the consequences later.

Instead, make sure that you are taking time to really look into what you need, and taking measures to ensure you get those needs met.  It makes everything feel just that much better when you do.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Lichen for Perseverance
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: CORDEIN TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

This post is a catch-up post, and I’m not entirely sure what my self kindness was for the day.

The Joy Stealers

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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@GlitterbyInk #Novelember24 Challenge
One Word Book Title Prompt for November 7th
: Kindred

Cattitude Tarot's Seven of Swords and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day Calendar by Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Seven of Swords combined with the affirmation “A person doesn’t have to be bad to be bad for you.”

If they steal your joy, or make you feel alone… that is enough of a reason for them to not be allowed to be a part of your life.

That saying “Life’s too short”?  It’s true.  Not everyone is a perfect match.  Why force yourself to spend your precious time on people who just aren’t a good fit for you.  Even if you want them to, sometimes things just don’t fit.

Life is better when these people are no longer stealing your joy.  Let them go on their way and find others that bring you joy instead.

DECKS USED:  CATTITUDE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

@Lionharts #TheNovemberTarot Queen of Swords Challenge
Prompt for November 7th
: What unseen fire within me is fueling my choices and shaping my path forward?

Oracle Reading with the Diversity DeckReading Summary: You seek out harmony and balance (Harmony) through your efforts to be nurturing to yourself and others (Nurture) while following your intuition and inner moral compass (Insight).

Take Away: You have a passionate need for things to “feel right” while at the same time balancing a need to nurture others (and yourself).

It’s in seeking this balance between these two needs where you find the fire that fuels your drive concerning the choices you make that shape your path forward.  You need and want both in your life, and in seeking out and finding it is where you really feel like you shine brightest.

Other elements included in this reading:
Cedar Smoke Cleansing Bundle for Protection
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: DIVERSITY DECK

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2024 Challenge
Question for November 7th
: Advice you need to hear at this time concerning your personal happiness.

Cattitude Tarot - Ten of Cups, Seven of Cups, Five of Pentacles, Nine of WandsReading Summary: When you spend too much time behind the protection of unhealthy defenses (Nine of Wands Rx), it leads you to a place of scarcity where happiness is difficult to find (Five of Pentacles). Happiness (Ten of Cups) is a choice that you make (Seven of Cups).

Take Away: In order to find true personal happiness, you need to be able to let down your defenses and allow others in.  Where your defense mechanisms rearing up to get in the way is often out of your control, the lowering of them is a conscious act.  A choice that allows others to step in and get closer and provide assistance in finding those moments of happiness and joy.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Conch Shell Knot for Concentration and Clarity
Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: CATTITUDE TAROT

@empressofthenightslight #SweetnessWithTheEmpress #SweetnessofLife Challenge
Question for November 7th : What self-care do I need today?

Oracle Reading using the New York Botanical Gardens' Botanicals Post Card SetSweet Orange Tree – Purification of the mind, body, and spirit combined with a healthy dose of Vitamin C to bolster your immune system.

Cattleya Orchid – Time with Gideon is a must. He helps keep you uplifted, and you do the same for him. He needs that lift this year, and in giving it to him you will give yourself a lift as well.

Pineapple – A symbol of welcome and hospitality, this card encourages doing what needs done to make your home feel welcoming.  Although it is  your work place, it is also your refuge. Make sure you take care of any impediments to that sense of welcome you feel when you walk in the door.  Also… again.  Vitamin C is stressed here.

Take Away: There is a prevailing call high levels of vitamin C in these cards (I swear to you that orange is not a prevailing color in this deck) speaking of a need to continue with your autoimmune boosters for the time being, as well as do the preventative maintenance needed to keep yourself healthy (ie: getting your flu shot and vaccines done).

Other self-care actions to take today include making sure you get some time with Gideon in order to bolster both your moods, and taking some time to clean and organize where it feels things in your home have gotten out of control.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Bay Leaf for Protection From Negativity
Western Hemlock Cones for Balance During Disruptions
Conch Shell Knot for Concentration and Clarity
Carnelian for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: NY BOTANICAL GARDENS’ BOTANICALS POSTCARD SET

Daily Self Kindness

This post is a catch-up post, and I’m not entirely sure what my self kindness was for the day.

Where We Truly Shine

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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@GlitterbyInk #Novelember24 Challenge
One Word Book Title Prompt for November 2nd
: Cosmos

Circe Tarot's King of Wands and It's Going to Be Okay 2024 Day-to-Day CalendarToday’s draw is the King of Wands combined with the affirmation “So what if you’re a bit strange? You’re still nice to have around.”

I have always liked the idea that we are all made up of stardust. Us. The planet.  Everything.  Stardust. The “cosmos” prompt combined with today’s cards made me think of that, and how amazing it is that there is such diversity in the world and, for that matter, in the universe.  Look at all the different, unique, and wonderful things that stardust can do.

The message in today’s cards is that when you lean into your uniqueness, accepting it as not just a part of who you are but an important part of who you are, good things happen.  When you stop trying to conform to the “norm” and standards of others, you give yourself the freedom to discover your own interests and joys, dreams and things with which to be passionate about.  And that, in turn? Draws others to you that are a good fit.  A good fit for your weirdness, and a good fit for your time and energy.

This is how we attract those like minded people that become true friends. This is how we find our “tribe”… our chosen family.  This is how we fill our lives with those that accept us for who we are instead of demanding we conform to other’s standards. Lean into your uniqueness, for it’s there in that weirdness where you’ll truly shine the brightest.

DECKS USED:  CIRCE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

@Lionharts #TheNovemberTarot Queen of Swords Challenge Challenge
Question for November 1st thru 3rd

Oracle Reading with The MycoracleAs I stand in my truth, where can I find the clarity I seek within, or without, this month?

WithinDog Stinkhorn – Your independence, moral, compass, and good reasoning allow you to make decisions on when to stay and deal with a situation, or when to take off for something better.  More than anything else, it is these qualities within you that are a great strength in guiding your way along your path.

WithoutSnowbank False Morel – Watch closely for situations that seem too good to be true. Instead of jumping on them, make sure that you do your due diligence and research things in full before taking action.

What aspect of my inner wisdom is ready to be sharpened or embraced throughout this month?

Burn Morel – It is time to start rebuilding from the chaos and destruction. Focus on moving forward and making the changes needed rather than lingering and stagnancy among the ashes of what fell and activities that failed. Make sure to seek the support of others while doing so.

Where can I wield my sword to sever self-doubt, empowering me to move forward confidently?

Plums & Custard – Stay wary of the betrayer that has been predicted in the cards over the past month. On identifying the issue and individual behind it, make sure to cut quickly and sever them from your life and the lives of those that they could do damage through.

Other elements included in this reading:
Carved Bamboo for Positive Outcomes
Dried Rhododendron Leaf for Fostering Confidence
Rainforest Rhyolite for Facilitating Calm Transitions
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE MYCORACLE

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2024 Challenge
Question for November 2nd

Circe Tarot - Ace of Cups, Five of Pentacles, Five of WandsA Wish for the Future

Ace of Cups – You would like to learn to experience new emotions more freely and let them flow instead of defense mechanisms rearing up to try and tamp them down or push them away.

Next Step in Getting There

Five of Pentacles – When you are feeling a sense of stagnancy and scarcity, instead of keeping on trudging mindlessly towards your goal, seek help in overcoming and/or better understanding these familiar feelings that often have the potential to hold back your development.

The Home of Your Hope

Five of Wands – You like that people have different opinions and perspectives, even when those differences in opinions and perspectives cause conflict. Seeing people with conviction in their beliefs bolsters your spirit and sense of hope.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Lichen for Perseverance
Foraged Grand Fir Tips for Renewal and Emotional Uplift
Carnelian for Courage and Emotional Balance
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: CIRCE TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I am trying to give myself a last bit of time off before the holiday rush moves into full swing.  I’m feeling a good deal of guilt over this, though, so it’s a bit more of a struggle than usual.

A New Day is Coming

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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@GlitterbyInk #Novelember24 Challenge
One Word Book Title Prompt for November 1st
: Hero

Oriental Skull Tarot's The World Card and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is The World card combined with the affirmation “No matter how awful today is, you get to curl into bed at the end of it.”

There are times in life you have no choice but to step in and be the hero in someone else’s world.  Like when a car is on fire and there’s a kid stuck in it in a car seat, or a parent leaves fireworks where a child can find them and light them up in their apartment.

At these times?  It fucking SUCKS to be you.  It just does. The day sucks, the situation sucks, and you just have to do the best you can and hope for the best.

Even on these days, though? There’s a prize waiting for you at the end. A bed… a blessed bed and the ability to curl up into it and shut down for a while with the promise that tomorrow will be a new day and surely better than this one… or at the very least?  Different than this one.

DECKS USED:  ORIENTAL SKULL TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2024 Challenge
Prompt for November 1st:
Do the All Saints Day Spread

All Saints Day Oracle Reading with the Death Doula Tarot

A message that your Ancestors would like to give you at this time.

New Narratives – Change is not always bad and doesn’t have to be feared. Look at how using positivity and optimism has helped in keeping the effects of your negative self talk from getting out of hand. The key in times of change is to look for opportunities to turn those changes taking place into a positive.

A message your Ancestors have been trying to convey that you have not been receptive to in the past.

Wayfinding – You are too stuck in your ways. The times you have fared the best and really shine are when you are open to adaptation and being flexible with your methods while keeping your eye on the prize you seek. Remember, stagnancy is not your friend, no matter how good and safe it may feel.

How to be more open to messages from your Ancestors in the future.

Disruption – Set aside time for them when they can have your undivided attention, and lean into reaching for them in times of chaos. Like those that you surround yourself with in the physical world, your Ancestors also want to help.

How to honor and connect more strongly with your Ancestors going forward.

Beauty In Death – Accept them in the state they come to you in, and appreciate that it is through their love for you that they continue to reach out from beyond the veil.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Northern Red Oak Leaf for Strength and Determination
Dried Red Maple Leaves for Adaptability and Connection
Foraged Japanese Yew Sprig for Resurrection and Rebirth
Foraged Deer Rib for Connection through the Veil
Rose Quartz for Gentle Kindness to Self and Others
Picture Jasper for Sense of Proportion and Grounding
Selenite Dragonfly Disk for Purification During Times of Transition

DECK USED: DEATH DOULA ORACLE

@empressofthenightslight #SweetnessWithTheEmpress #SweetnessofLife Challenge
Question for November 1st : Happy Witch’s New Year! Pull 3 cards for new focus in the coming year.

Oriental Skull Tarot - Six of Cups, Five of Cups, Ace of Cups, King of SwordsSix of Cups – You have been through a lot.  When you turn back to look at the past, make sure what you are taking from these times of reflection are positive messages and influences.  Every bad thing that has happened in your life has a silver lining of one kind or another. It’s important to seek out and prioritize that silver lining, and encourage it to outshine the trauma and scars.

Five of Cups Rx – The more you focus on the negative the more negative things will become, and so will life in general. Your natural inclination needs to be balanced with positivity and optimism, or it will drag you down into the dark of depression. In the year ahead, continue to work on counterbalancing that pessimistic negativity that is a part of your nature.

Ace of Cups atop King of Swords – Stop trying so hard to reason out your emotions. You are a novice at this after spending a lifetime shoving your emotions down and burying them.  When emotions arise, feeling new and unfamiliar, they need time to be absorbed and experienced rather than picked apart and examined under a microscope.

DECK USED: ORIENTAL SKULL TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I started taking an immune booster today because J is sick.  (Remember all those “reestablish your wards” reminders over the past few days.  Yeah, well… maybe that suggestion wasn’t magical in nature after all.)

Keep Fighting

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was one of the #DailyCalm sessions from the Calm app.

Honestly? I can’t remember what the meditation was about.  I listened to the whole thing, followed the breathing exercises, et al. Unfortunately, whatever the message was behind today’s session… it didn’t stick, since I can’t remember a single bit of it.

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Hush Tarot's Five of Swords and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Five of Swords combined with the affirmation “No matter how awful today is, you get to curl into bed at the end of it.”

Some days are just fucked and there’s nothing you can do about it except keep fighting. Keep going. Thrash your way through the weeds and obstacles and do what you can to stay on your feet and come out the other side victorious.

The cards for today are a reminder that there’s an end to that fight.  It might not feel like it in the moment, but don’t give up.  Once you’re victorious, that rest that comes afterward will feel that much more sweet for having made it through.

DECK USED:  HUSH TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2024 Challenge
Prompt for September 30th
: Grab a spread of your choice that you’ve been curious about… and give it a go!
Spread
: So You’re Uncomfortable ~ A spread for sitting in discomfort rather than running from it

Okay, so the first time I did this spread today, I was just off from having been talking to a friend about the death of her father and… welp.  Lets just say that I’ve done this spread twice today, because the first time I did it was too close to the phone call and the reading accidentally ended up being about her and her situation.

Here is the second attempt, which is mine… and far lighter than the first time around.

So You're Uncomfortable Tarot Reading with the Hush Tarot - The Hermit, Six of Pentacles, Knight of Cups

A tension point.

Six of Pentacles – A lack of generosity towards yourself. You are unable to treat yourself as kindly and fairly as you treat others, and spend far too much time beating yourself up mentally and emotionally while pushing yourself to fulfill unreasonable expectations of excellence and perfection.

A truth about your discomfort.

The Hermit – You do this to yourself, and by closing yourself off to others, it only perpetuates the pattern.

Something you can do to stay present.

Knight of Cups – Acknowledge and stay in touch with your needs and wants. Go after them instead of setting them aside. They are just as important as your responsibilities and ambition. Perhaps you need to consider that they aren’t just as important… but more important and should be prioritized as such.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Western White Fir Tip for Staying True to Self
Foraged Red-Stemmed Feather Moss for Attentive Understanding
Carnelian Agate for Warmth and Courage
Cedar Smoke Cleansing Bundle for Protection
Desert Rose for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: HUSH TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I hopped back on the meditation train… two days in a row now!

Repercussions of Discouragement

Today’s meditation was skipped.

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Katarungan (Justice) from the Terra Forma Tarot and It’s Going To Be Okay 2024 Day-to-day Calendar By Kate AllanToday’s draw is the Justice card combined with the affirmation “Just because the path is obscured or difficult does not mean you should give up on the destination.”

Cause and effect are a part of how the universe seeks balance, and this is the same even when it comes to our own actions and motivations.  When we get discouraged, if we let that affect our effort and interest in moving forward on what we find discouraging?  Then we don’t reach those goals. They fade off into the ether as we either trudge along without motivation on the same path but with no spark… or move on to other things.

The message in today’s cards is about that shift that happens when something gets difficult or discouraging.  it’s a reminder that if you really -want- what you’re after or where you’re going, you have to keep trying and keep pushing… even when things get tough.  Don’t let a little extra difficulty set you back or turn you away from what you know in your heart is right for you.  Keep going instead, with enthusiasm and determination.  Show the universe that whatever that thing is? It’s meant to be yours, and the effort you put into going in that direction will be rewarded in the end.

DECK USED:  TERRA FORMA TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

#DiscordTarotholicsSep2024 Challenge
Philosophical Question for September 25th : What are the 3 major weaknesses of humanity?

Terra Forma Tarot - Ang Magsing-Irog (The Lovers), Siyam Tungkod (Nine of Wands, Walo Tungkod (Eight of Swords)Ang Magsing-Irog – The Lovers is often about making choices about what’s best for us. It’s about unions and give and take, about connection and promises.  As a weakness of humanity, it is about being selfish, and being motivated by selfishness and self-centered interests.

Siyam Tungkod – The Nine of Wands is about defensive positions, and ensuring that what matters to you is protected, even when things are tough.  Here again when put into a position of a weakness, there is an element of selfishness there.  It speaks of not standing strong for -should- be important to you out of laziness or disinterest.

Walo Tungkod – The Eight of Wands is about speed and determination toward one’s goals and interests. It speaks of moving faster, and often is in reference to instant gratification. As a weakness of humanity, it speaks of impatience and the unwillingness to take things slow and let them come naturally. The entitled belief that everything should be done/accomplished/obtained now.

These cards indicate that the three greatest weaknesses of humanity are selfishness (The Lovers), apathy (Nine of Wands), and impatience (Eight of Wands).

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Red Maple Leaf for Adaptability and Connection
Foraged Silver Maple Key for Bouncing Back to Thrive
Aragonite for Truth and Understanding
Yellow Aventurine for Confidence
Kambaba Jasper as an Aid for Inward Focus

DECK USED: TERRA FORMA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I made myself a healthy second supper instead of just snacking on unhealthy stuff.