The Way Forward

IMG_2754Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long and focused on taking time to value yourself and your contributions those around you and yourself.

This is something I struggle with on a regular basis.  It’s not that I don’t acknowledge that I contribute.  I love helping people, teaching people, guiding people.  I love providing that little nugget of something that clicks for them and helps them along their path.   I love making beautiful things and sending them out into the world to improve the lives of others.

I contribute to the world around me in many, many different small ways that (I hope) flit out into the world like the butterflies of chaos theory, changing the world one tiny touch of positivity at a time.

BUT…. I have a hard time acknowledging my own worth.  And that reflects sometimes on how much worth and value I see in what I contribute to others and the world.  I’m aware of this, and I’m trying to be kinder to myself as I keep that in mind.

Majestic Earth TarotToday’s draw is a double without a jumper, which is to say that both cards came out together as one.  The cards in today’s draw are the Four of Water (Cups) and the Ace of Clouds (Swords).

What I see in today’s card(s) is a reiteration and reinforcement of yesterday’s read on the Tarotholics prompt.  That is to say, the cards are telling me that it’s time to put my apathy away.  Now is the time to breathe fresh air through my mind and heart, and step forward with purpose.

DECK USED:  MAJESTIC EARTH TAROT

#TarotForGrowthFebruary Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I improve my relationship with creativity?

Baba Studios Alice Tarot

Interpretation: Currently, my relationship with creativity is in the shithole, as was indicated by yesterday’s read for this challenge’s prompt.   The cards here are telling me that if I want to improve my relationship with creativity, I need to find steadier footing with my emotions (Queen of Cups). This is going to require taking in some new perspectives (Hanged Man) and the process of getting there is going to feel a bit like being on a tiltawhirl (Eight of Wands with the Wheel of Fortune).

DECK USED:  BABA STUDIO’S ALICE TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I better handle and/or respond to criticism?

Guided Hand Tarot

Reading Summary:  Look at all those cups.  Clearly I need to be more grounded in my emotions (Queen of Cups) when dealing with criticism and take the input as a jumping off point, both concerning the relationship of the one providing the criticism (Ace of Cups), and also for the learning experience it will give me so that I can move forward and do better (Page of Cups).

Take Away:  Sometimes we get stuck in a rut of our own making.  Criticism can often be the crowbar that pries us free of that rut.  It hurts, but if we can absorb the blow with grace, that criticism can provide new perspective and open you up to a new way of seeing and doing.

DECK USED:  THE GUIDED HAND TAROT

Owl and Bones February Two Card Challenge
Question
: When to be a hermit? / When to be people-y?

Dixit Cards 10th Anniversary Expansion PackWhen to be a hermit? : Sometimes self reflection requires grounding and solitude.  Make sure that you are not doing the latter without the former.

When to be people-y? :  You can’t learn how to better associate and relate with other people unless you’re willing to step out and spend time with them. The first step is not shutting out those closest to you.

DECK USED:  DIXIT CARDS 10TH ANNIVERSARY EXPANSION PACK

Spreading the Wealth

Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long, and was a full body scan that I did to music just after my yoga/physiotherapy. It was a really nice practice, but I think that I’ll stick to the music-free sessions.

It’s too distracting when even the gentle reactions from my synesthesia start to play into the music, and I don’t really have any relaxing music that I don’t react to  physically in some small way.

Six of Pentacles - Tarot of the Hidden RealmToday’s draw is the Six of Pentacles, which is about sharing and harmony as wealth and/or resources are balanced out rather than kept at an uneven scale.  Oddly, I always confuse the imagery on this card with the Seven of Pentacles, and when I read this card using this deck.

What I get out of this card for today’s message is that when you have a good harvest, be sure to spread the wealth around.  That can be financially or through resources, or even through the things you manifest along the way.   It’s about reaping the benefits of your hard work, and sharing those benefits with others.

It makes me think of J and L, and about those things I give without thought, and the people I give them to.   I know that sometimes you think I am too generous, sometimes with those that you feel are undeserving.  But to ME, that generosity is one of the ways that I show that I appreciate others, and sometimes also a way for me to to express that I care.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE HIDDEN REALM

#TarotForGrowthFebruary Challenge Prompt
Question
: What is my relationship with my community?

Tarot of the Lucid Dream

Reading Summary:  Although I often feel like I’m slacking (Four of Swords), what I actually provide is a sense of stability (Four of Coins) and direction (Two of Wands).

Take Away:  I drew these cards with my condo building in mind. I’m on the security board (which is so much nicer than just having a “security person” on the condo board) and we just had a meeting last night.  I don’t have a lot of specific responsibilities on this board, or rather… any.  Instead I step in when I can and when is needed.  It’s nice to know that my presence and contributions are providing something of value, because as usual… I don’t see my own worth or contributions all that clearly at all.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF THE LUCID SLUMBER

#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I obtain more of what I love most in life?

Regretsy Tarot

Reading Summary:  Ten wands – six wands – ace cups

Stop overburdening myself (Ten of WTF) and being so damned defensive (Six of WTF), and open yourself up emotionally to deal with things from a different angle (Ace of Genitalia).

Take Away:  This is about you and I, and about dealing with those moments when you tweak.   It’s about not allowing that sense of overwhelm and feelings of defensiveness get in the way of trying to understand where you’re coming from and seeking the emotional support and understanding needed to work through these things… because what I love most in life is you, and that means all of you.  Even those possessive, protective, and sometimes zealously jealous parts.

DECK USED:  REGRETSY TAROT

Owl and Bones February Two Card Challenge
Question
: Message for the day: Oracle / Tarot

Shakiti Wisdom Oracle and Guided Hand TarotOracle Message for Today: Listen to your intuition.  Sometimes this can be difficult when the drop is in the process of crawling up my ass, but it’s needed.  Especially in those times where my judgement can be compromised by the vulnerability and unsteady footing of the drop.

Tarot Message for Today:  Just hold on and ride it out.  It won’t last forever.

DECK USED:  SHAKITI WISDOM ORACLE AND THE GUIDED HAND TAROT