Today’s meditation was skipped due to an overwhelming urge to get out of bed and find my pain pills.  GOD FUCK I hurt today.  Just sayin’ but damn.  So yeah… I didn’t meditate.  I did extra physio instead in an effort to ease some of the tension in my muscles.

Today’s draw is the King of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a projective alpha energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, imagination, and intuition.

There’s really no one aspect in particular in the imagery of today’s card that stands out to me today except when I look closer.  Then, what stands out is kind blue eyes and a self-assured smirk.

Before meeting Gideon (my very own King of Cups), I had a but of an odd relationships with the court cards in the Cups suit.  Perhaps I still do.   But what I see here in this card is kindness and confidence.  Strength through knowing oneself and knowing others, and being able to see the inner urges and drive that causes people to react as they do. The maturity to understand these things, and react to them in a way that is both strong and yet gentle.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, what I see here is a gentle reminder to be kind and not allow uncertainty to get in the way and drag you down.

DECK USED:  FRIENDS TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

LionHart’s Sacred Self Divination Challenge Prompt
Question: What more can I personally do in support of my best self?

Reading Summary: Keep working on your emotional growth (Ace of Gloves atop Eight of Balls). There isn’t an “end goal” or a battle to be won (Five of Caps) and looking at your growth in this manner will only make a mess of things (Justice).

Take Away:  I often have a habit of looking at things at a challenge with an end goal.  Even things that I shouldn’t…. like my emotional growth and delving into fostering my own emotional intelligence.  I’m still at the very beginning of this journey, and yet there are time when I fall into this mentality and have to check myself, remind myself that this is not a destination… it’s a journey.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF BASEBALL

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: Do Spread #3

You – Ace of Cups – A carry over from the previous reading, here we see myself represented as the newly hatched egg of emotional growth.

Your Goal – Seven of Swords – Sneaky shit.  I’m not going to spell it out here because it’s just a wee bit on the side of illegal, but suffice to say the contemplation of this sneaky shit has been ongoing.

What’s holding you back? – Three of Wands – Lack of a definitive direction.  These goals go against the path I’ve chosen for myself and the moral compass that has directed my life from a young age.

Advice to overcome what’s holding you back – Three of Swords Rx – Don’t do it.  Find another way.  Nothing good can come from moving forward with “the thing”.  Instead, find a better way that is more in line with my path and my moral compass. Turn things around so that the blades slide out instead of sinking in deeper.

DECK USED:  FRIENDS TAROT

I hung curtains today for my peace of mind.  It didn’t bother me much with the construction going on next door, until one of the drivers of the dump trucks waved at L through the window.   I then realized that shit was not quite as private as I thought it was, and with first construction workers and eventually apartments going up just across the alley from our windows, I feel it’s time.   So I hung curtains.  It was an ordeal and a huge pain in the ass (and back), but I’m happy with the results.

Today’s meditation was just under ten minutes long and was another of the guided “Daily Calm” meditations on the Calm app, which was combined with an interval timer for my piriformis stretches.

The focus of today’s meditation was about finding peace within the chaos of life through the mindfulness techniques learned during meditation.  I think that this is a valuable lesson, that you can find inner peace in the middle of chaos.  But I also think that there is also a need for actual external peace through quiet and solitude.  Both are important and necessary for inner balance.

Today’s draw is the High Priestess card, which is traditionally a representation of secret knowledge and esoteric wisdom.  It’s about intuition and the subconscious, and being aware of the secrets both within oneself and the world at large, and using that knowledge in a way that helps others.

In the theme of baseball (which is the theme of this deck) this role is filled by the girlfriend/wife.  She knows the secrets of her husband or boyfriend. She shares her insights, watches and supports, and that secret self and secret life she shares with him is something only she and he share with each other.

This speaks of those things in life that are not for public consumption, and when combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message that I see here is is a reminder that even if you’re not out on the front lines and in front of all the eyes, you’re still important.  Not everyone wants or needs to be in the limelight.  Sometimes?  Being the support in the background is the most important job of all.  So don’t sell yourself short just because you’re not in the spotlight.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF BASEBALL AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The Sacred Grounds Tarot Club Prompt
Question: Where does my sense of play need nurturing?

Reading Summary:  Make sure that you’re not being too harsh of a taskmaster (King of Swords). Pushing yourself to always strive for more and better (Eight of Pentacles) is not showing yourself kindness or nurturing that inner child (Queen of Pentacles Rx).

Take Away: Fostering my inner child is important, and allowing the harsh slave-driver that is always seeking perfection is –not– nurturing to my inner child or my sense of fun and play.  The message here is that if you don’t give your inner child room to slowly creep its way out of the shadows into the light… if you lean too hard into responsibility and innovation… then that inner child will continue to hide away in the dark.

DECK USED:  FRIENDS TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What is the most important lesson you need to learn this spring?

Reading Summary: Sometimes when you stall too long to find direction (The Hanged Man) in the middle of chaos (The Tower), it leads to uncertainty and indecision (The Moon atop Seven of Caps).

Take Away: There is a difference between stepping back to get some perspective, and stalling your way into indecision. One is a productive way of sussing out the best path forward, and the other is harmful and diversionary.

The cards here indicate that the most important lesson I will need to learn this month is about how to tell the difference, and make sure that my searching for perspectives doesn’t end up going on so long that I end up worse off than if I’d acted without pausing at all.

DECK USED:  TAROT OF BASEBALL

I’ve struggled a bit today with being kind to myself about taking time off.  I ended up spending most of the day playing with Gideon again, which was wonderful.  I also put off working on blog posts and catching up because it felt a bit overwhelming.