#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022

Pity Parties Are Not Productive

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Today’s meditation was skipped.

Kittycorn TarotToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victimized mentality.

The imagery in today’s car is about drama… so much drama.  It’s about the idea that when you are too wrapped up in the drama, it can blind you to the truth of the situation and the world around you as a whole.

Don’t allow feelings of upheaval, self pity, and negativity hold you back from seeing the path forward.  Take a moment to breathe and untangle yourself from the drama and upheaval it causes within you, so that you can look at things more clearly.

DECK USED:  KITTYCORN TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic for May 15th: Do Spread #2
Question: How can I foster more motivation to get things done in my life?

Vintage Cartoon Post Card Set and Japanese Anime TarotReading Summary: There is a lot of color in the base card for today’s reading. The other cards in the reading are then bringing certain colors to the forefront in the base card. Usually it’s the base card that determines where connections in color lie and the satellite cards then work off of that base card. Here we see it is the other way around.

The Three of Wands in the Six of Wands connect on their own due to their similar color scheme, the arc of stars in each card’s background, and the fact that out of all the characters present in this reading they are the only two not looking directly at the viewer. This then connects with Sailor Moon herself and the skirt of the Sailor Mars character on the right.  The combination of S Moon and S Mars, joined with these two cards, speaks of finding a balance between one’s inner compass and what social expectations.

The Magician is blue dominant, and connects with the Sailor Mercury on the left in Sailor Moon’s entourage. The two characters even have a similar smile.  Sailor Mercury’s personality is quite timid, quiet, and peace loving. Connected to the Magician card, we see here a need to keep one’s ego in check.

Furthermore, the character in the Six of Wands it’s looking directly up into the Sailor Moon card and all of the characters collected there, drawing attention to the fact that comrade can be a powerful motivator. The Three of Wands, meanwhile, is looking away and towards the past as if to say you can’t depend on others for everything when following your own path.

Take Away: The answer in these cards is that in order to foster the motivation needed in your life right now, you need to not depend on yourself alone.  Yes, some of it needs to come from within and with the knowledge that you are capable and strong, and able to reach for and accomplish the things you need to do.  But there is also another part that needs the input of your social circle, the help of others in lifting you up and sparking that motivational fire within.  It’s a balance of both that is needed here.

DECK USED: VINTAGE CARTOONS POSTCARD SET AND JAPANESE ANIME TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 16th and 17th

Kittycorn TarotWhat loss do you fear the most?

The Sun and Eight of Pentacles – I fear the depression coming in and stealing away everything that I’ve worked so hard for in life. It’s so easy when you’re in the pit and there is no light and it looks like there is no future for anything except the darkness you feel eating away at you inside to give in and let go. Should I give in and let go I would lose everything.

This isn’t about suicide, although I’ve had far more than enough of that urge in my past. It’s about giving up and just allowing the depression to swallow me whole, which in turn would cause my life to implode.

What is a better way to confront and/or deal with fear of loss?

Six of Swords and King of Cups – It doesn’t have to be a solitary value and you need to move away from a mindset that tries to convince you you have to do it on your own. Lean into those who support you emotionally and will be there to help you stay as balanced and stable as possible during these times.

DECK USED: KITTYCORN TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I am playing catch up at the moment, so I don’t exactly remember what my self care was for today.  It was my second day in my time off, though.

Self Inflicted Wounds

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Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, self imposed struggle or restraint, self limiting beliefs, negative inner narratives, self pity, and victim mentality.

The figure in the imagery of this card looks as if she is injured and bleeding. There are thorns upon her bindings, and red taints the skin, hair, and even the thorns themselves.

The message in today’s cards is that when you choose willful ignorance, victim mentality, and other negative inner narratives, the damage goes beyond the moment and stretches into the future.  Wounds are created and need time and attention to be healed.  The longer you ignore the problem, the longer it will take to tend and heal these wounds.

Tend your wounds instead of ignoring them.  Self care requires acknowledging what needs tending, and making the effort to resolve the problem instead of sitting in the misery.

DECK USED:  LE TAROT AUX RAMURES ÉTRANGES

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Question for May 14th: How am I different in romantic relationships?

Magic Flower Movement TarotReading Summary: I need someone who I can learn from on an emotional level (Page of Cups), and who is okay with having differences of opinion as long as we’re willing to hash it out (Five of Wands). Someone that understands that alone time is important to my well-being (The Hermit).

Take Away: These cards are about sharing and trust. In a romantic relationship, I am far more trusting than I am with other relationships in my life. I need that trust between myself and my romantic partner. Trust that they will guide me without selfish reasons when I need guidance, trust that they will hash out differences with me when they arise.  Trust that they will understand my needs and strive to help me in fulfilling them even when those needs might go against their wants.

Gideon fills all of these needs for me and is, in fact, my first and only romantic relationship. I’d have a lot of flings and did a lot of sleeping around before him, but I’ve not had another romantic relationship other than him… ever.

DECK USED: MAGIC FLOWER MOVEMENT TAROT

The #MysticStarChallenge for May Prompt
Questions for May 14th thru 16th

Coastal Curiosities Oracle and Le Tarot Aux Ramures Étranges - Nine of SwordsWhat card symbolizes the Spring Cleaning that I need to focus on?

Le Diable and Admire – You need to get going on the sorting and culling of your collection. This means that you need to go through things that need going through, donate what needs donated and get things organized in order to get the shelves up and get things going in that direction. You’ve put it off long enough.

How can I utilize this Spring Cleaning to my advantage?

L’amoureaux and Pursue – It will help you in getting on the right track to making positive and healthy choices for yourself in other areas of your life. Once you get the ball rolling, it will then begin to pick up momentum to continue forward on its own.

How can I support this cleaning process for my Greater Good?

As de Pentacles atop Reine de Pentacles, Depth – Dive in! Connect with your inner strengths that allow you to find your balance, and treat this as a new passion project as well as an opportunity to support yourself and make positive change. New and old will combine into something better.

DECK USED: COASTAL CURIOSITIES ORACLE AND LE TAROT AUX RAMURES ÉTRANGES

Daily Self Kindness

I had a lazy day today.  Other than pulling cards, I haven’t really done much of anything productive with my day.  I slept in.  Enjoyed a nap.  And just pretty much tooled around throughout the day.

All Kinds of Work

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Animated Movies Tarot - Eight of PentaclesToday’s draw is the Eight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, expertise through practice, honing a skill, quality craftsmanship, handicrafts, and manifestations through skill and hard work.

Research is a part of skill development. To be fair, I would usually consider Bella from Beauty and the Beast to be of the Swords suit, as she was very an intellectual in nature. That said… research is absolutely a part of developing a skill and furthering that skill into an expertise, and that is what we see here in the imagery for this card.

Today’s card is a reminder that not all hard work is hard labor. Sometimes digging into this work is more about learning from others first.

DECK USED:  ANIMATED MOVIES TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Question for May 14th: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this upcoming full moon?

Le Chakra Du Cœur OracleReading Summary: You need to take some time this full moon to look at what inner wounds you are continuing to hold onto (Amour de Soi), and take action to move past them (Libre Arbitre) so that you can embrace a healthier and more growth positive relationship with yourself and the world around you (Relation Différente).

Take Away: Throughout February through April, I dealt with a major depressive episode, and there continue to be lingering effects from this time.  The stain of it is still influencing me even now that I am out of the pit, and these cards suggest that this full moon is the time to begin making the changes needed that will shake off the remaining dregs of depression’s influence and so that I can move forward into something better.

DECK USED: LE CHAKRA DU CŒUR ORACLE W/ EXPANSION PACK

ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Question for May 13th: How have I challenged the status quo?

Animated Movies TarotReading Summary: You follow your own moral compass (Judgement) and choose what is right for you (Two of Swords atop The Lovers) instead of blindly following along to what others say you should think and do (The Fool).

Take Away:  I challenge the status quo by being my own man and the fierce independence that keeps me honed in on what my own intuition, moral compass, and ethics say rather than depending on others, society, or popular opinion decide for me what is right or wrong.  Due to this, societal pressures and peer pressure rarely have any influence other than providing me with a new perspective to consider.

DECK USED: ANIMATED MOVIES TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I skipped going to Costco and Walmart yesterday.  I just felt like it would make the day too long.

Weighing One’s Alone Time

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The Returning of Panthera TarotToday’s draw is the Hermit card, which is traditionally a representation of solitude, self reflection and introspection, alone time, and inner guidance.

Usually, the figure in the hermit card holds a lit lantern that symbolizes enlightenment.  Here, the lantern is abandoned as the figure moves off into the vast landscape beyond.

To me, the shift in this imagery from the traditional poses the question whether one’s alone time is truly healthy, and filled with growth and introspection… or if it is unhealthy alone that is unproductive and leaves one feeling more lost than ever.

That is the message for today’s card.  It’s important to examine that alone time that indulge in and whether it’s healthy and productive… or unhealthy and holding us back.

DECK USED:  THE RETURNING OF PANTHERA TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Topic: Draw or write something free form inspired by the card(s).

The Good TarotWith breathless wonder
I pause upon the trail
And take a brief rest
I look up into the canopy above

In silence and stillness
I hear the whispers of the trees
And then the tittering laughter
Of those hidden and watching

And my feet move to follow
To seek their fun and frivolity
And with one more step
I cross the veil
Into Faerie

DECK USED: THE GOOD TAROT

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 12th, 13th, 15th, and 16th

The Returning of Panthera TarotHow can I heal from pain and disappointment?

Knight of Cups – Instead of focusing on what has caused this pain and disappointment, actively focus on what you want and what will make you happy.

What do I need so I can forgive myself?

The Lovers atop The Emperor – Prioritize healthy choices that are right for you over unhealthy controlling behavior that has you trying to cram yourself into a too small box. Square pegs don’t fit in round holes.

How does a close relationship challenge me?

Ace of Wands and The Hermit – Social obligations are something you struggle with due to your need for so much alone time. This often ends up making it difficult to express your enthusiasm for others and their company, regardless of how much they mean to you.

What are my relationship deal breakers?

Two of Wands Rx – Lack of consideration and forethought. Just as I do for them, I expect those I’m in a relationship with to consider my feelings before taking action.

Knight of Wands Rx – Lack of interest. I need relationships where they are willing to pester me into spending time with them. This balances out my solitary hermit-like inclinations.

The Fool atop Ace of Cups – Too much naïve frivolity. It borders on stupidity (and often insensitivity towards others) when one just chases after their “emotional sweet spot” all the time, and I just don’t have tolerance for that sort of behavior.

DECK USED: THE RETURNING OF PANTHERA TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I added spinach to my tuna today.  I chopped it up in tiny pieces like chives and mixed it into the tuna, and you couldn’t even taste it was there… but gave me a bit of extra veggies for the day.

Precipitous Celebration

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Fairy Land Tarot - Nine of CupsToday’s draw is the Nine of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of contentment, satisfaction, abundance, pleasure, and at times… gluttony.

Usually, when you see the Nine of either the Cups or the Pentacles, it’s about accomplishment or abundance that is being celebrated privately, where then the Ten in the suit indicates carrying that abundance or success forward to share with others.

Here in this card, we see that the little squirrel has jumped the gun!  He’s sharing early.

This brings to mind the question, what are you celebrating early?  Where are you putting the cart before the horse and celebrating your success before the eggs have even been counted?

DECK USED:  FAIRY LAND TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for May 11th and 12th

L'Oracle des Messages de Ton Âme and Fairy Land TarotPhilosophical Question: What is happiness?

Page of Pentacles, s’Instruire, s’Aimer – The sating of curiosity through exploration that helps satisfy the soul’s need for affirmation, validation, and confidence.

Although this exploration can look different for everyone, the core theme is the exploration of new things, venues, and relationships that support our inner spirit.

What is the best way to attain more happiness in your life?

Queen of Cups, Six of Cups, Voguer – Surrender and trust that everything you do and have experienced are in support of your path forward towards the man you wish to become. You don’t have to control every little thing.

DECK USED: L’ORACLE DES MESSAGES DE TON ÂME AND CELESTIAL TAROT

ReadingWickedly’s #MayDailyDraw Prompt
Questions for May 11th and 12th

Fairy Land TarotHow do I see myself in relation to society?

The Moon and Ace of Cups Rx – Uncertain and detached.

This is not all that surprising, even if I usually am able to hide it well. When those that are supposed to love you most (and unconditionally) treat you badly, it makes perfect sense you would be emotionally reserved and uncertain with society as a whole.

How have I contributed to “the group”?

King of Swords and The Tower – You offer wisdom and support during times of chaos and destruction in others lives, inspiring them to rise out of the ashes and rebuild.

DECK USED: FAIRY LAND TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

My great big flat gel icepack is my friend.  That is to say, I spent time lying on it today to help soothe my back, even though I didn’t really want to spend time doing that.

Stay the Course

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Tarocchi del DisordineToday’s draw is the Eight of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of hard work, expertise through practice, honing a skill, quality craftsmanship, handicrafts, and manifestations through skill and hard work.

There’s a certain amount of predictability in the Eight of Pentacles. The depiction of someone working at their craft, repeating the same item again and again, is an image or progress and improvement. But it’s progress toward a specific skill or goal.

Today’s message, I feel, is about that predictability, and the unpredictability (the woman is nekkid) that can derail things if allowed to do so.  This card says “Don’t let today’s unpredictability take away from all of the work you’ve done and advancements you’ve made in your craft.”

DECK USED:  TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2022 Challenge Prompt
Questions for May 9th and 10th

Cosmic Cat Wisdom Cards and Tarocchi del DisordineIn what ways are you unhappy with who you are now?

Comfort atop Tolerance, La Forza – Physical contact is often uncomfortable for me, and I hate that I have to force it, even sometimes with those that I love and care about… and even when it is I that needs the comforting.

I know that part of this is because of my clairesentience, but even with people that are a null to that sense, it’s still more often than not a tug-of-war between forcing it and tolerance of it.

How can you improve upon the person you are now?

Equilibrium, Eight of Wands atop Sei di Denari – Establishing and maintaining balance in life is going to require an active participation in being kind to yourself, and giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and a bit of slack. It isn’t just others you need to be generous with, but also yourself… and this is going to take actual conscious action on your part.

DECK USED: COSMIC CAT WISDOM CARDS AND TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

The #ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge Prompt by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for May 10th and 11th

Tarocchi del DisordineWhat scares me about relationships?

Il Carro Rx and Cavaliere de Denari – A lack of independence that has been surrendered over time in order to build something better.

Yes, I want better in my life and I’m happy to work toward that, but I fear that lack of independence.  Even after all this time with Gideon and finding that comfortable balance with him between submission, strength, and independence… I still fear its loss.

What needs to heal from past relationships?

Sette di Spade and Asso di Bastoni – A lot of the confidence you once used to motivate and inspire yourself was stolen from you due to the trauma of a past relationship. You are still half curled into yourself in cautious defense.

This is about the “ex” that is still in prison (and will hopefully remain there for a good amount of time to come).  The stalking.  The assault.  The “visit” from one of his prison buddies.  These cards indicate that it’s taken a toll on my confidence… a toll that I’m still recovering from years later.

DECK USED: TAROCCHI DEL DISORDINE

Daily Self Kindness

I ate a LOT of food at Olive Garden today.  You know, since I had to go anyway and they were paying.