Today’s meditation was eleven minutes long, and was the “human being, not human doing” meditation from the FitBit app.
Today’s draw is the Harvest of Stones (King of Pentacles) combined with the affirmation “Everything changes, nothing is permanent. Don’t throw your life away for a temporary terrible time.”
NOTE: If the topic of suicide bothers you? Skip reading today’s card of the day post.
Confession time. I have had suicidal thoughts since puberty. Not only have I had suicidal thoughts since puberty, there are times when those thoughts have become overwhelming suicidal urges. A compulsion that was nearly impossible to ignore (and that once or twice I did not ignore at all).
Prozac was a life saver for me. After trying a swath of other medications that “sort of” worked in one way or another with my anxiety or depression but never took away those thoughts and urges? Prozac did. The idealization went away. The urges and compulsions disappeared. The thoughts, on those very rare instances they come, are far more manageable.
For me? This is the miracle of treatment. Talk therapy helps with anxiety and depression, and Prozac keeps me wanting to live. You know what else helps? Remembering that everything is temporary. I can’t say I don’t still have depressive episodes… just that they are far less life threatening these days. One of the major ways I get through them is reminding myself that depression lies and that everything is temporary. The depression will not last forever. It might last weeks… it might last months, but it won’t last forever. It creates a sense of stability in the storm. A foundation of truth to stand on when depression is whispering lies in my ear.
These cards are a reminder of that truth, and the stability that they offer. I hope that me writing this helps someone else find that stability and truth as well.
DECKS USED: THE GENTLE TAROT AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN
#DiscordTarotholicsFeb2024 Challenge Prompt
Questions for February 5th and 6th
Shower With a Friend Day – What memorable activity should you and a friend try together?
Root of Cups and Windfall – Let those around you help to guide you back to yourself. The past year has created a disconnect within yourself that it’s time to begin healing. Do something that is purely you, and take a friend along for the ride. In other words… take J or L with you and go for a hike in the woods.
Lame Duck Day – What in your life has reached its end and needs to be “shown the door”?
Five of Stones and Invisible Ink – Let your feelings of aloneness and scarcity go. You no longer need to linger in the holding pattern that the past year has contained you to.
DECKS USED: THE GENTLE TAROT AND SOLACE ORACLE

I took a nap even though it was orders day. It put me behind on finishing things, but was something I really needed.







