Hope vs Control

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Daily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

The Book of Shadows So Below Deck - The Magician

Today’s draw is The Magician card, which is traditionally a representation of capability, potential, resourcefulness, action, and manifestation. This often translates into themes having to do with being in possession of all of the skills, abilities, and tools necessary to reach one’s goals and accomplish one’s ends. It’s about being capable and skilled, resourceful and gifted with what is needed to get the job done.

The card has then been combined with an affirmation from the deck, which says, “Hopefulness: To feel hope is to acknowledge how little control we so often have.”

For me, having cancer was a lesson in hope. Prior to that experience, I didn’t really consider hope as a part of my emotional vocabulary. In its place was persistence and determination. Even in the face of those things I couldn’t control, it was not hope but persistence, determination, and adaptability that got me through.

Then… cancer. It was something I couldn’t plow through, nor adapt to, nor ignore as I stubbornly continue to do my own thing. It wasn’t something I could solve. In fact, it was a situation where even though I had options, I had very little to no control over the overall result going my way even with choosing the best and most aggressive options available to resolve things.

And there was the hope.

It wasn’t big or flashy. It wasn’t something I reached for or even realized was there for a good portion of the experience. But, it was there all the same, whispering in the background so quietly it was nearly inaudible. Just a barely sensed glimmer in the dark.

Since noticing it and identifying it for what it is? I’ve come to realize that it’s always there, flying under the radar so incognito as to be missed and often remain unseen… and yet, still there all the same.

This experience makes me wonder how many people out there scoff at “hope”, or truly believe they have none… and yet merely haven’t been introduced to that glimmer in a way that allows them to recognize it.

The message in today’s Magician card and emotions prompt asks us to take a little time to get to know that small glimmer of hope within us, and allow yourself to cling to it when there’s nothing else you can do… because no matter how hard we try, some results will never be under our control.

DECK USED:  THE BOOK OF SHADOWS AS BELOW TAROT AND THE BOX OF EMOTIONS

One Card Tarot Journal Activity by @mariasofia_astro
Chapter 6 | Entry 8 – Spiritual Development
Affirmation : “I am open to what the Divine wants me to release or make room for.”
Prompt : It is important to remember that your spiritual path is not a destination but a lifelong commitment. You are constantly growing. According to the card you draw, what changes or steps can you take right now to continue growing on your spiritual path to fulfill your sense of purpose?

Tarot Activity from The One Card a Day Journal by Maria Sofia Marmanides - Common Thread Tarot - The Sun Card

What feelings came up when I pulled this card?

The classic meanings of this card came up for me before anything else when it was pulled. Specifically, success.

My first emotional reaction was then a dose of skepticism as my head said, “I don’t think so”. That is to say that the negative inner narrative shot down my “yes I can!” that the card was communicating and brought me into the realm of pessimism from the start.

Ouch.

What elements of the card’s meaning resonate with me and this prompt?

Success isn’t the only classic interpretation of the Sun card, but with the combination of the illustration? That’s exactly where this particular card takes me. More on this below, as I’ll explain how it resonates there.

Suffice to say the “happiness” interpretation also fits, but not in the way I would normally interpret it due to the illustration. Therefore, it really leans into the success side of things instead.

What in the artwork spoke to me?

Right, so the illustration is where everything comes together here. Look at that woman on her unicorn. Naked and riding under a beating sun, emaciated and holding a ribbon like she’s just won a race.

Just how much self punishment, self harm, and misery went into this achievement? Was it really worth it? Her expression could just as easily be saying “thank fuck it’s over” as it might be basking in the glory of the moment.

My prompt response and reflections.

It’s important as I grow that I continually reassess my priorities and values, and ensure that I’m not sacrificing myself and my well-being for achievements or completion.

This is something I’m guilty of on a somewhat regular basis. This card is reminding me that self kindness is a new priority, and one not to be forgotten or ignored in the efforts to accomplish my goals.

Other elements included in this reading:
Green Aventurine D20 and D6 Gemstone Dice

DECK USED: THE COMMON THREAD TAROT MAJORS ONLY EDITION

#DiscordTarotholicsJul2026 Challenge
Prompt for July 5th
: Do Spread 1

Tarot Reading with The Book of Shadows So Below Deck

What needs to be left behind as I focus on further growth?

Seven of Cups – Indecisive musings. Sooner or later you have to get your priorities in order. Waffling and indecision is natural, but if you sit in it too long it just develops into unhealthy stagnation.

What is in full bloom for me right now?

Five of Cups – Languishing isn’t going to get you anywhere. Subdrop is coming your way and about to unfurl like a fetid corpse flower in your gut. Remember that this experience may be unpleasant, but is also an opportunity to deepen your bond with you partner.

Where do I need to direct my focus for further growth?

Eight of Cups Rx – Doing research and book work is still taking action. Don’t sell yourself short in what you are doing in these areas just because they don’t produce the flashy results of physical activities.

Other elements included in this reading:
Foraged Wood Fern for Exorcising Negative Influences
Foraged Red Oak Leaf for Fostering Unconditional Love
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE BOOK OF SHADOWS AS BELOW TAROT
Daily Self Kindness

I wore a face mask when working on the balcony today to make sure my allergies didn’t deprive me of the ability to breathe.

Begin Again

Today’s meditation was an eleven minute long #DailyTrip session from the @Calm app.

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Common Thread Tarot - Ace of Pentacles and Lobilat Rumi Quotes CardsDaily Mental Health Prompt: Seek a positive message to carry with you throughout the day and offer perspective.

Today’s draw is the Ace of Pentacles, which is traditionally a representation of the seed of new beginnings and new opportunities in the areas of one’s finances, resources, health, labors, manifestations, and the physical world.

The Ace of Pentacles has then been combined with the Fairy Inkcap affirmation card from the Mushroom Affirmations deck, which says, “Learn to notice the stuff around you. Slow down and be mindful.”

I struggle a bit with consistency.  That’s probably  not a surprise to anyone that pays attention to my efforts on my blog or on social media.  Occasionally, things fall off and I then have to play “catch up” (like I’m doing right now).  It’s not always procrastination, either.  Sometimes it’s just that I’m too busy with other things and something has to give.

That said?  I always try again.  I always pick things back up and give consistency another go.  It may not be my strong suit, but it’s one I work at and put effort into trying to improve on.

And then, something happens to pull me off track and I start over once again.

The message in today’s cards is a reminder that you can always begin again.  You can always take a look around, realize what you left behind, and pick it back up for another try.  Life happens.  Distractions happen.  Eventually, we become aware that we’ve been pulled off track.  Don’t despair.  Just pick what was left behind, and revisit what’s been lost.

DECKS USED:  THE COMMON THREAD TAROT AND MUSHROOM AFFIRMATIONS

#DiscordTarotholicsNov2025 Challenge
Prompts for November 27th and 29th

Tarot Reading with the Cowboix Hevvven Tarot and The Black Ritual TarotGratitude : What are three things to be grateful for?

The World – Endings. Sometimes endings feel like a blessing, and sometimes they don’t. In the end, though, it’s only through those endings that you find new ways to move forward, and your world changes to suit you more and more as a result.

Seven of Cups – Options. Although you sometimes feel like you are hemmed in, your options are plentiful. So much so that sometimes you get a little caught up in trying to figure out which direction to go. Those moments of waffling and indecision are better than having no options at all, though.

Six of Cups – Positive memories. You have good memories to look back on if you are willing to seek them out. This requires a conscious effort on your part, but often allows you to see things in a more positive light when you decide to revisit them.

Humble Heart : What my heart needs to hear right now?

Reading Summary: Indulging in your addictions (The Devil) is not going to give you anything more than you already have (Six of Pentacles). Instead, you’re at the cusp of it turning into something unhealthy (The Lovers Rx).

Take Away: Any of your addictions can be indulged in in small ways without it becoming unhealthy for you. The danger is in the fact that sometimes you miss the warning signs that things are headed in an unhealthy direction. You are at that cusp now, and need to take a close look at what you have indulged in of late that you now need to back off on for a while.

DECK USED: COWBOIX HEVVVEN TAROT AND THE BLACK RITUAL TAROT

@LightningWildflower November Tarot Challenge
Earth and Water “The Nines” Prompts for November 25th thru 27th

Tarot Reading with the Common Thread Tarot and Pulp Fantasy OracleNine of Pentacles

How can I take more pride in my accomplishments?

The Moon and Astro Grave – Stop letting uncertainty rain on your parade. Moments of uncertainty have a tendency to cause you to hold back.  They make you feel that you are “not enough” or haven’t done enough, and thus you set aside the appreciation of your accomplishments to prove yourself.  Instead of letting your uncertainty direct you into pushing yourself, use mindfulness to pause a moment and really look at what you’ve done.

What abundance can I celebrate?

Strength and Starlight Oath – You are not hemmed in by time. There are no deadlines, and there is no need to rush. Make a commitment to yourself to slow down and spend more time appreciating the moment, rather than always striving for more and more.

Nine of Cups

What does satisfaction mean to me beyond material success?

Two of Pentacles – It’s not so much about how much you have, but about feeling like you have enough. This is only accomplished through balance and the reassurance of having people close that understand you, and that you trust to be at your side and follow you to the ends of the earth if need be.

Other elements included in this reading:
Japanese Cherry Leaf as a Reminder of Life’s Fleeting Moments
Oregon White Oak Leaf for Strength, Stability, and Longevity
Foraged Parmeliaceae Lichen for a “Breath of Fresh Air”
Septarian Stone for Physical and Mental Healing
Picture Jasper for Sense of Proportion and Grounding

Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECKS USED: THE COMMON THREAD TAROT AND PULP FANTASY ORACLE

Daily Self Kindness

I called today to make an appointment to get my flu vaccine.