Cut And Run? Maybe Not

Today’s meditation was just over twelve minutes long and was one of the Calm app’s guided meditations.  As usual, I combined that with an interval timer for my piriformis stretches, and I included extra forearm flexor stretches as well as my arms have been feeling a bit tight lately.

The focus of today’s meditation was a bit weird today.  I didn’t really understand it.  It was about posing the question “what is this?” into your meditation, but not directed toward any one thing.  More to open up a sense of curiosity and linger in it?

I’m not sure if this is something I’m capable of doing without having a target for that curiosity, and I feel that I didn’t really manage to do the meditation properly, although I did manage to meditate regardless by focusing on my breath and the waterdrop tones that I had playing in the background.

Cent Proverbes Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support Animal CardsToday’s draw is the Six of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of moving on to a better place not due to frustration or irritation (that would be the Eight of Cups), but rather in the seeking of something healthier and better than what you’ve left behind. This makes this card’s theme one of transition and change, and leaving one’s baggage behind to begin anew.

What I see in the imagery of this card today is fear and escape, which fits well with the theme of the Six of Swords.  In the imagery we see a home, perhaps a vineyard or farm, that has been taken over by militia men.  The owner sees what is happening and is fearful, he seeks to slip away and sneak off… escape the chaos before things go from bad to worse.

Combined with the Thera-Pets card for today, the message that I see in these cards is that it’s important to evaluate when it’s time to cut and run, and when to stand your ground and ride it out. Don’t underestimate your strength in these moments, and if something is truly important to you, don’t run from the responsibility or the conflict that might come from standing your ground in those moments.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
Question
: Where do I need to be more nurturing to myself?

My Garden Tarot

Reading Summary:  Lots of earth, lots of grounding (Queen of Coins), lots of nurturing (The Empress)… take your time (Temperance)

Take Away:  I need to step away from trying so hard to balance everything and give myself some forest bathing time.  Temperance, earth, and grounding, when combined together?  100% equals forest bathing.  Not a hike where you push your body and work hard… temperance.  A slow meander, some quiet alone time.  Perhaps some time lying in a bed of moss watching cedar fronds sway and clouds shift above them.  Regardless.  Where I need to be more nurturing is in allowing myself more time to get out in nature, and truly take my time and savor my time there.

DECK USED:  MY GARDEN TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Philosophical Question
: What is Divinity?

Cent Proverbes TarotReading Summary:  Individual (Nine of Pentacles). Guidance (Three of Wands). Wisdom (King of Swords).

Take Away: In these cards, Divinity is something that is unique and different for each person, and yet universally something that provides both guidance and wisdom when needed.

Although each and every person may experience Divinity differently, what we see here is that beneath all of those different opinions and experiences, there is a universal truth in that guidance and wisdom remains when all the differences are rinsed away.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

Late night super hot play session with Gideon.  No more need be said.

Finding The Groove

IMG_0302Today’s meditation was just over twenty minutes long (cuz I might’ve maybe napped in the middle for a few minutes.  I’m petty sure).   It was a self guided meditation based upon the quote posted to the right.  I didn’t make the graphic, but rather I ran across it on IG and used it as a prompt for my meditation.

Sometimes I forget to take that extra bit of time to savor the moment, and sometimes my meditation needs a bit of a focus.  This reminder of something that I often forget to do in my day to day life was the perfect prompt to give me something to focus on.   I don’t think dozing off was a “failure” in this meditation, but rather an indication of just how relaxed I was able to become during the process.

Cent Proverbes Tarot and Thera-Pets Emotional Support CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Cups, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s emotions, relationships, intuition, and creativity. This receptive energy often translates into themes concerning emotional growth, learning creative pursuits, and allowing imagination and curiosity to take the lead.

What stands out to me in the imagery on this particular Page of Cups card today is that the man stands alone.  Content… and alone.

I’ve been having a hard time getting back into the swing of things as I begin to pick up on my work after taking the week off.  With many orders waiting to be created and prepared for shipment, I’ve been trying to space out the work so that I am not overwhelmed the closer shipment day comes.

Today’s Page of Cups and his solitary nature combined with the Thera-Pets card for today indicated that i would “find my groove” in my creative endeavors today, but it might take a bit and be a bit of a struggle.  That it -could- be done though, if I’m tenacious about it.

I found that the secret to tapping into my creativity today and getting the work done that I needed to do was about tactile sensations.  It was about the fun of playing with little charms and admiring their tiny details, feeling the delicate weight of each one between my fingertips, and really sinking into the tactile experience of the creative process.  I did find that creative connection, but I had to look for it… and not allow distractions to detract from my sinking into that groove once I’d found it.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS

The #httSelfImprovementTarotChallenge Prompt
Question
: How can I feel more secure?

Dreaming Cat Tarot

Reading Summary: Take charge (King of Wands) at home (Four of Wands), and use reason and logic (Ace of Wands) to help in sorting out misunderstandings (Five of Wands).

Take Away:  In other words, sit everyone down and let’s talk it out. Conflict happens in close quarters.  Sometimes there’s just no way to avoid it, you know?  It happens between me and the girls, between the girls themselves, and between me and them individually at times.  It’s just a lot sometimes, and we all have strong personalities and strong opinions that usually align… but not always.

During those times when we disagree, it can really upset that sense of security that I foster in the home, and the advice here is that during those times I need to take charge of the situation and facilitate communication instead of just staying out of it and risking whatever the disagreement is having a destabilizing influence.

DECK USED:  DREAMING CAT TAROT

#DiscordTarotolicsApr2021 Challenge Prompt
Question
: What do you need to focus on for self-care for this new moon?

Cent Proverbes TarotReading Summary: If you depend on the good opinion of others for your self-esteem (Sun moving into the Six of Wands), you will continually be disappointed (Three of Swords atop The Sun) and end up even more miserable and stressed (Nine of Swords) out as a result (Justice Rx atop Nine of Swords).

Take Away:  For self care moving forward from the new moon, I needed a reminder to look to myself for my self esteme and self-worth… not to others.  This can be a slippery slope for most people, and I’m no exception.  Sometimes it feels really good to get praise from others, or to be looked upon favorably by others.  It just does.

The key, though, is to not let those good experiences transform into approval seeking behavior.  When that happens, you start to then lose control of your own self esteem and self worth.  You begin depending on others to provide that for you.  And that’s not healthy.

DECK USED:  CENT PROVERBES TAROT

Daily Self Kindness

I made chocolate chip cookies.  But… not the long and entailed recipe of chocolate chip cookies.  I mean that’s the BEST kind, true.  But rather, I made them from frozen dough because I just wanted cookies without the work.