As I’ve mentioned before, these readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and are not meant as a predictive reading.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Seven of Rings and Telescope – I need to focus on taking the long view concerning my business and finances, instead of trying to work out everything right now in this moment. The telescope also indicates that in is area (Pentacles in the position of Earth) it will be important to depend upon the help and expertise of others along the way. This is not a solo journey.
Air – The Moon, Eight of Swords, Knot, The Empty Cup – The message here is about the clouded and confused thinking and self restraint due to fear that we talked about on Saturday. All that foggy thinking and fumbling in the dark of uncertainty and fear left me filled with tension that was growing and growing. The empty cup says that now that this has been worked through and the contents of my cup have been spilled out on to the table, I can start filling it up with something new and better.
Water – The Hanged One and Snake – These cards were pulled before our talk, and the cards in this position speak about my stalling tactics in dealing with what was building inside, as well as the suggestion to shed some of that weight like a snake sheds its skin. Our talk was a very large and significant first step in that, and getting myself back on track emotionally… as in this case it is emotions that slipped me off the tracks in the first place.
Fire – Son of Rings, Diving Helmet, Crater – The cards here are a reassurance that my inner spark of creativity is still there, it’s just currently weighed down and buried beneath all the mess. As I start the healing process that we began with our talk yesterday, it will again return to the surface.
Waning – Shelegiel Angel of Snow – Closing myself off and wallowing in that sludge of inner uncertainty and fear that was roused a few months ago with that letter and took root inside and began to spread beneath the surface.
Waxing – Simikiel Angel of Vengeance – I am going to need to make a decision on whether I want to take the high road or not this week. This has to do with my mother, my upcoming trip to see her, and the threat I’d made concerning her behavior towards me and our relationship.
Take Away – The majority of these cards in today’s pull are a reflection of the feelings of fear and uncertainty I’ve been trying to bury and ignore for the past few months. That letter really messed me up, far more than I’d realized, and very definitely on an emotional level. I don’t want to do things the way I’ve always done them in the past. I don’t want to push things deep and hide from them, and then let them fester until I’m forced to deal with them. I didn’t even realize I was doing it this time or what the issue was that was starting to bubble up. Now that I know, the cards are providing guidance on how to move forward (slow and steady with patience and outside help).
Today’s meditation was just over eleven minutes long and focused on how sometimes we fill our lives up with so much noise that we lose track of our path, and how important it is to slow down and take the time to connect with silence and stillness so that we can delve deep into our selves, our values, and our motivations.
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and focused on the need for having hopes and dreams to drive us forward, and how there is always potential available to us to reach for and obtain our dreams as long as we keep that hope alive.
Twisting the Leaf 