Morning Bonus Read – Intuitive Blocks

Scrying Ink Lenormand - Blocking Intuition Reading

Your current true self.

Heart – I wrote the other day about having one’s heart on their sleeve in a poem that was specifically about Gideon, but the truth is that mine is on my sleeve as well.  I may not flash as bright and bold, but this card tells me that I express my love and dedication to Gideon, as well as my care and love of others, just fine.

What is blocking you?

Garden – Social obligations. When you spend too much time around other people, you naturally begin to close down a bit on your clairsentience, as otherwise you risk sliding into overwhelm and ending up too drained by the experience. In other words, your intuition requires a certain amount of alone time that you’re not getting right now.

Advice to remove blockage.

Stork – Lean into change. You’ve been forcing stagnation in order to avoid letting go. You need to instead let things go and let the changes happen.  They’re even changes you -want- thus, the avoidance is even less helpful.

What is beneath the surface?

Tree – A long standing attachment to the way things have been done, and a connection to a spiritual path that you need to re-connect with.  Start doing the things you know keep you balanced and centered.

Divine guidance.

Man – Suck it up buttercup.  Grow a set and get your ass moving on the changes you need to lean into, and the spiritual habits and self care you need to reconnect with.


Dive In

IMG_8135Today’s meditation was just under fifteen minutes long, and like yesterday it was not a guided meditation, and I did my piriformis stretches separately from the meditation.

The focus of today’s meditation was on the graphic included to the right in this post.  It felt really fitting, as I was struggling with a very unreasonable and disgruntled customer today.  It also sets me up for dealing with what’s coming tomorrow, as we’ll be meeting up with my aunt and cousin tomorrow.

I want to remember the theme for today’s meditation for that event tomorrow, and I want to continue to be kind, even if they are not.  Kind to myself and others… even if they end up unpleasant and possibly pissing me off, as they have so often done in the past.

Anne of Green Gables Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Page of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of a receptive omega energy, personality, or person in the area of one’s enthusiasm, passions, interests, and inner spark.  This often communicates into themes to do with learning a better way to go about obtaining one’s goals and ambitions, discovering new techniques or methods of diving into one’s interests, and reconnecting with one’s drive and passion for something that sparks one’s enthusiasm.

In this card the girl in the field dances in the dark, connecting to the joy of the dance itself and the night sky, both of which spark her inner fire.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, the message that I see in these cards is about making sure that when you find something that really speaks to you and inspires you, that you don’t just push it aside but take a moment to dive in and enjoy.  Maybe it’ll be a passing fancy, or it could develop into a lifelong passion.  Either way, to enrich one’s life such responses need to be explored, not pushed away and ignored.


#PrideintheTarot Challenge
Questions for June 11th thru 14th

Bach Flowers OracleA card for loving myself.

Red Chestnut – Make a conscious effort to step away from worry and anxiety. These things don’t help you or those around you, but are only holding you back and causing you harm. Let go of the “what if’s” and the fear of the unknown and allow serenity to slide into place instead.

A card for protecting myself.

Holly – You don’t need to flex so hard.  Your spirit guides and the energies that guide you are there to help in keeping you safe. You’re doing the things needed to protect yourself, and they are filling in the gaps.

A card for freeing myself.

Hornbeam – You need to get more active.  It’s all well and good to do your work and spend time with Gideon, to make sure you’re getting enough rest, etc.  But it’s through physical exertion that you truly purge your energies, and doing so in nature allows good, refreshing energies to then flow in to replace the negative being purged.  Get out and get moving among nature, even if it’s just a little bit here and there.

A card for rest.

Wild Rose – As mentioned in another reading recently, not all rest is about naps and relaxation.  Sometimes the rest you need comes through activity and exertion.  Echoing back to the “freeing myself” question, you need to get out in nature and allow the healing energy to flow through you as you purge what needs released.


#DiscordTarotolicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
: About pain…
Question: Are there are ways to avoid the most painful moments in life without stunting one’s growth?

Anne of Green Gables TarotReading Summary: Happiness can be found either way (Ten of Cups), but there is no growth (Ace of Swords Rx) without change (Death).

Take Away: The answer here is no.  Although it’s possible to live a happy and contented life without those most painful moments, in order to grow, there must be change… and the most influential changes in our life include pain. 

Therefore, these most painful moments are necessary for our growth, allowing us to learn and expand through the experience and pain involved.


Daily Self Kindness

Choosing to play Enu tonight in roleplay with Gideon turned out to be a really good self kindness tonight, as Enu’s natural cheerfulness helped to lift me up out of the funk I fell into after learning about tomorrow’s family get together.

Gideon’s Challenge


Twilight hours
bring quiet moments
and peaceful sits
at the shore
where reeds and weeds
sway in the breeze
and water laps
against stones
when chill creeps in
with a blaze of pink
slide your arm
around me tight
Hold me close
and soft kisses are sure
to lead me through
the night

Photo © ZenStatePhotography

The Importance of Self Care

IMG_2335Today’s meditation was about fifteen minutes long and was not a guided meditation, nor did it include my piriformis stretching (which I did separately).  Instead it was a quiet meditation with breathing exercise, and an experiment with meditating with a large piece of garnet while focusing on the piece of artwork and writing by Glen Martin Taylor that is displayed to the right.

This piece and connected text really touched me deeply, as it speaks to me of my own personal struggles at the moment with letting go of the habits and methods that aren’t working for me in order to begin something better.  I’m struggling with letting go, even though I know I need to and even want to.

It speaks to me of the fear that I can’t quite articulate.  The fear that once I let go, nothing will fill the void and I will be left floating and untethered.

Headless Tarot and Less Anxiety Affirmation CardsToday’s draw is the Ten of Wands, which is traditionally a representation of overwhelm and potential burnout. The card is an indication of being overworked or carrying too much burden and the need to redistribute responsibility to ease these issues.

I really like the colors in this Ten of Wands.  I’m not always all that excited about vibrant colors, but for some reason this particular color scheme really speaks to me of that approaching moment of burnout and the heavy weight that responsibilities can often impose upon us.

Combined with the affirmation card for today, what we see here is a reminder that there’s only so much we can do.  We can only go so far, take on so much, before we break.  And when we break? We’re no good to anyone, including ourselves.   Better to pace yourself, pick and choose your obligations, and make sure that there is time in your schedule to take care of yourself.  After all, if you don’t take care of yourself, you’ll soon no longer have the ability to take care of anyone else either.


#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Questions for June 12th thru 14th

Whispering Herbs Healing CardsWhat do I need to start?
Marshmallow (Water) and Cascara Sagrada (Metal)

When you stand strong for what you believe in, it doesn’t always have to be an active thing.  Remember that there doesn’t always have to be a fight involved to get your point across.  Sometimes?  Just a look is enough to convey all that needs to be said, and can touch people just as deeply or deeper than any words that you may want to share.

What do I need to stop?
Marshmallow (Metal) and Parsley (Fire)

You have so much inspiration and enthusiasm for so many things that it can at time cause you to stew and spin rather than move forward.  Although standing still to find your bearings is good, there’s another step that you’ve been neglecting.  Make sure you’re picking and choosing your pursuits instead of trying to do everything at once. Too many interests at once can cause things to break down and fall apart.

What do I need to change?
Chaparral (Earth) and Yellow Dock (Wood)

I need to stop clinging to the things that are familiar just because they’re familiar.  If something is no longer serving me or is unhealthy for me, I need to make sure I’m letting it go instead of trying to hold on.  Without letting go of the stuff that doesn’t work, there’s no room for the stuff that will.  By holding back, I’m stirring up feelings of resentment that I’m then trying to ignore.  Stop ignoring the problem and start working on releasing those things and mentalities that I’m feeling such a desperate need to cling to.


#DiscordTarotolicsJun2021 Challenge Prompt
: Do Spread #2
Question: Concerning her happiness and send of security, how is Miss Luna feeling these days?

Headless TarotReading Summary: The Tower and Justice are connected through darkness in color combinations and the way that the bodies tilt into each other. The Nine of Cups and Page of Wands connect through vibrancy and body language. Their opened armed stance for each figure, combined with both being in dance poses with one leg lifted.  Together, the dance poses combined with open arms depicts a sense of safety and freedom.

Take Away: She’s feeling engaged and very happy, satisfied and content (Page of Wands atop Ten of Cups). There’s a bit of stress and uncertainty going on with her right now because of the construction next-door (The Tower), but I’ve been able to mitigate that (Justice) a bit by making sure that the sliding glass door is closed when they are working and minimizing the disruption and noise within the condo as best I can.


Daily Self Kindness

I got some cuddle time with Gideon yesterday before bed and… I didn’t realize how tight I was until I was snuggled up and the knots started to relax.