Transitioning from June to July

As with my new moon and full moon readings that I do for myself each month and used to put into my physical journal, this is a spread that I do at the end of each month to close out the month and I’ve decided to move it over to here as well.

Jeremy Miranda Oracle Cards, Faunae Playing Cards Veiled Edition

Individuality Two of Hearts –  At this moment in time you are feeling a bit of a tug of war going on between the solitary glide of individuality and the need to connect and spend more time with Gideon. This constant push and pull taps into and saps a lot of energy and is taking a lot of your focus currently as you try to navigate through the habits so ingrained within you and the changes you manifest in your life.

Dependence Jack of Hearts – You are currently struggling with becoming more at home with the new level of emotions you are experiencing.  Those bad habits of individuality loom in the background, making the integration of these efforts more of a struggle than you were prepared for.

Creativity Two of Clubs – You seek direction and warmth.  You want to incorporate the warmth of emotion into your life more fully and you seek a direction that will allow you to do that while still finding a work/home balance that can allow room for both.

Limitation Three of Spades – Negative thoughts are creating a sense of opposition and negative influence at this time.  There’s a sense of “this isn’t going to work” whispering in the back of your mind and a worry that things will fall apart if you don’t “do as you’re told” by the inner critic that’s whispering in your ear.

Change Nine of Clubs – You are aware of that inner critic’s voice and are not just blindly following it as you have in the past.  You’ve had time to prepare your defenses against those whispers, and although you cannot completely block them out, you are able to take them with a grain of salt.

Sympathy Three of Diamonds – Disappointments from the past have crashed over efforts to make this transition before. You were taught that its important to hone your skills and use them to progress, and not to lollygag on silly things that add no monetary or physical value.  This is why you turn your hobbies into a business.  This constant drive has the ability to crash over and wash away the progress you have made if you let it.

Luck Queen of Spades – When I was thirteen or perhaps fourteen years old, my mother and I refinished an old cedar chest during the summer.  I’d never done woodworking before, and I can’t say that I was particularly good at it.  In fact, I’m pretty sure she’s since refinished that chest again a second time, because…. I really wasn’t all that good at it.  But even without the skills to do a great job, I really enjoyed the task.  I enjoyed the process and the time spent with my mother away from my father’s constant bullshit.   The relevance here to my current situation is that I need to find those things that give me that sense of pleasure and accomplishment…. free of my inner critic’s constant bullshit.

Power Two of Spades – The emotions are coming… and they’re going to fuck with your head. This issue is entirely preventable if you make the choice to do something about it.  Move those books off the bottom shelf or two, reorganize what you’re doing and how you have things set up so that when the water rolls in, it doesn’t damage the mind on the way through.

Responsibility Jack of Diamonds – Finding a piece of peace will take some patience, but it is attainable.  Remember that if you want this, you have to create space for it.  It won’t just happen, just as the waves of the sea will never stop crashing upon the shore.  At the same time?  This type of change is a process that takes time, so allow yourself some room and don’t get impatient.

Message from Spirit World –  Stay steady and calm.  You’ve come a long way but still have a long way yet to go.  It’s okay to take things slow, as long as you also prepare for a few stumbling blocks to crop up along the way.

Message from Mind’s World –  Melding your old way of doing things into the new way you want to do them is not about abandoning one for another.  It’s about finding a balance that allows for both.

Message from Known World –  Stop allowing your father’s voice such free reign in your head.  So much of that inner critic you deal with comes from him and his values and his ideals.  You already know those were flawed, so turn your attention in a different direction that is more to your own values and ideals rather than trying to continue to live up to his.

DECKS USED: JEREMY MIRANDA ORACLE CARDS, FAUNAE PLAYING CARDS VEILED EDITION

An Iconic Love

Today’s meditation hasn’t happened yet, as I decided to hurry my ass up and get outside and get some fresh air in the woods rather than spending the time in meditation.   So… I will do the meditation before bed tonight.   Thank you so much for deciding to come with me on my walk in the woods today, man.    I love you.

Forager's Daughter Tarot - Two of CupsToday’s draw is the Two of Cups, which is traditionally traditionally interpreted as indication of connections, partnerships, and attractions focused in the areas of emotions and relationships. The key factor in these attractions, partnerships, and connections is the mutual aspect within them.

What stood out to me the strongest today in this card when I saw it this morning was the pouring of water from the two cups above the ducks.   I didn’t understand why I was so drawn to the flow of water from these cups at the time, but I do now.  It is, essentially, the “rain on my parade”.   The water flowing from those cups splashing down upon the ducks below was an indication that things were not going to go as I had planned.

I missed the message in the moment, and only see it now in retrospect.

That aside…  The positive message in this card is not the splashing of water from the cups but rather the mallards themselves.  They are a representation of you and I… and our relationship.   Long standing… and universally understood. No matter where we are, no matter where mallards are, the connection between male and female are seen and understood as a connection between one soul and another.  A connection of love.

DECK USED:  FORAGER’S DAUGHTER TAROT

#TarotForGrowthMay Challenge Prompt
Question
: How can I move forward with more loving kindness toward myself?

Mystical Manga Tarot

Reading Summary: Set down my coins (Two of Pentacles) and take some time to celebrate (Four of Wands) the good stuff (The Lovers).

Take Away: This is a reminder from the cards that I need to keep myself from diving so deeply into work and responsibility that I forget about the good stuff.  I have fallen into bad habits over the past two weeks that are exactly along this line, and I need to return to focusing upon stretching out my obligations and responsibilities and creating space… rather than allowing old habits and ways of doing things to slip in and steal away my “good stuff”.

DECK USED:  MYSTICAL MANGA TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Do Spread #4

Cosmos Tarot and OracleWhat has allowed stress to take root in my life?:  The Dorado card indicates that by focusing too much upon my responsibilities and obligations I have allowed stress to take root. I am putting too much focus and value on work and responsibility.

What is the core stressor in my life I can change?:  Instead of just “intending” to create balance between my responsibilities and my need for more space in my life, I need to actually step forward and do it.  They Cygnus card indicates that intentions are only as good as the strategy you develop to bring those intentions to life… and sometimes you have to battle yourself to get there.

What can I do to ease my current stress and anxiety?:  The Comet card indicates that my stress and anxiety is the “harbinger of change”.  If I want to ease my current stress and anxiety, I need to do more than plan and strategize. It’s time to actually make changes instead of just thinking about them.

DECK USED:  COSMOS TAROT AND ORACLE

#ConnectWithYourDeckChallenge by E Roebuck-Jones
Question: How do I choose relationships that bring out the best in me?

Mystic Faerie Tarot

Reading Summary: Choose those that understand my goals (Ten of Pentacles), that have Gideon’s mark of approval (King of Cups), and accept that I will always bounce back eventually (Knave of Swords).

Take Away:  It’s easier to find healthy and positive relationships when you look for those that, even if they don’t hold the same goals as you, understand where your core values and goals lie and accept them as a part of you.

The second card is Gideon…. and it speaks of your love for me and your need to protect me from those that do not have my best interests at heart.  You gives me the freedom to choose my friends as I wish (as I wouldn’t have it any other way), but as the King of Cups, you often have observations and insights into people that I don’t see or understand at first.   Your input is often crucial in me finding those friends that are healthy and long lasting.  

The third card is about my ability to “bounce back” from hardships and struggles. It’s about finding those that support me in that rather than those that encourage me to wallow or remain in a negative headspace after struggle or misfortune has brought me to my knees.

DECK USED:  MYSTIC FAERIE TAROT

Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)

These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.

The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?

Mystical Manga Tarot, Fae of the Forest Oracle, Jeremy Miranda Oracle

EarthThe Moon, Knight of Cups, Nine of Clubs (Lady of the Tree) – There is going to be a sense of uncertainty this week in the area of the home and finances.  This uncertainty could easily spill over into an emotional outburst or impulsive action based off of an emotional reaction if you don’t take time to ground and find your center in the cacophony of emotions that uncertainty can breed.

AirNine of Wands and Queen of Clubs (Green Woman) – Instead of allowing your emotions to get the upper hand as mentioned above, lean into your skill set.  Lean into those things that bring you passion and joy and use them to help you find some balance.

Water – Nine of Swords and King of Diamonds (The Apple Tree Man) – The Nine of Swords refers back to that emotional turmoil seen in the Earth position of this spread.  It’s going to be a struggle to keep yourself on even keel and again we see the encouragement to find that grounding and centering.  Lean into your connection with nature and seek good council from someone you trust to speak of financial matters with.  This could be your accountant, considering this is the week that you drop off your taxes with him.

FireThe Lovers and Seven of Diamonds (Dryad Maiden) – Take a leap this week.  With so much going on between your emotions and your sense of stability in the home and finances department, you will need a bit of a distraction. The best place to put your focus in finding that distraction is in those things that inspire you.

WaningStability – In this image there is solid ground and steady well organized rows of books.  All of the chaos is outside and you stand in a place of stability and surety.  In this position, this is what you are moving away from this week.  Understandably, this is not exactly going to be comfortable for you.

WaxingIndigestion – Calm on the outside, a burning block of coal in your gut.  This is not so much about indigestion about the sizzle of anxiety that thrums just beneath the surface and can make it hard to breathe… but not so hard that it can’t be covered over by a placid expression and projecting a sense of calm.

Take Away –  The key here isn’t in projecting that calm, but absorbing it.  It’s going to be a stressful week and you’re going to need to stay grounded and centered to make it through.   Repeatedly ground and center… and seek council when you need it.  When things feel like they’re getting to be too much?  It’s time to step aside and delve into something that sparks your interest and passion in order to get a bit of escape from the strain.

DECKS USED: MYSTICAL MANGA TAROT, FAERIES OF THE FOREST ORACLE, JEREMY MIRANDA ORACLE CARDS

 

Procrastination

Today’s meditation was ten minutes long and was my third time using the chimes and harp plucking for meditation rather than a guided meditation with a closing message about this or that.   I am still having some very positive effects from this form of meditation, and I plan on continuing with it until I either become bored with it and want to try something different, or if it begins to be less effective for me and I need to move back to another style.

Maruco Animal Tarot - Eight of SwordsToday’s draw is the Eight of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of willful ignorance, having a victim mentality, negative self talk, and restrictions imposed upon oneself.  This card is not about another’s influences upon you, but rather about your own influences upon yourself.  It is about turning a blind eye… or closing your eyes entirely.

There is nothing specific in the imagery that stands out to me today, which indicates that this card’s message is one with the card’s traditional interpretations.

The message here is very clear, and needs little interpretation.  The words were there in my mind the moment the card was turned over, and the pop of red in the card’s imagery only makes the message that much stronger.

What is that message?  “You can’t ignore it anymore. You’ve already made the appointment… Get your ass together and finish your goddamn taxes.”

DECK USED:  MARUCO ANIMAL TAROT

#DiscordTarotholicsMay2020 Challenge Prompt
Question
: Write something free form inspired by the cards.

Star Spinner TarotThe young woman sat upon the park bench, hours passing as she sits lost in thought about her soldier that has been gone for so long and traveled so very far away.  Her mind is filled with plans as she waits for him to return… anticipation humming along the sharp edge of the blade tucked safely out of sight within her jacket pocket.

DECK USED:  STAR SPINNER TAROT