Here and Now I Exist – Who you are now, in your entirety.
Center Card – You waffle between needing a drink and the research needed to weather these murky moments you are going through in life right now. This waffling is a fight between your self-destructive tendencies and your nature as a survivor.
There is no act you can do at this time that will help except to wait. Don’t pick up the bottle or entertain other destructive inclinations at this time. They won’t help you weather the storm, but will just make things worse.
The Slough – What is to be left in the past as you move forward.
Center Left Card – You might want to look into a new desk chair for the packaging desk in the office. You can try to fix it, but it may be worth it to replace it instead. Now, while things are silent and still is the time to deal with the issue (and catch up on your tax paperwork, too).
What Lies Ahead – An ideal state or ideal self you are seeking at this time.
Center Right Card – You are looking for hope. All the research and impatience you feel is because you are searching for hope. What you aren’t managing to grasp, though, is that this is something you have to wait for. It’s not something you can create for yourself. Not this time, at any rate.
Limitations – Negative influences, opposition, or ill will.
Bottom Center Card – The heat is not helping your tolerance for “doing nothing” at this time. The unknown is encroaching far too close, and you have nothing to distract you from its pull towards the dark. Consider picking up a personal project or two to get you through this time instead of sitting on your hands doing nothing at all.
The Boon – Positive influences, higher guidance, or divine intervention.
Top Center Card – Remember that there is more going on than you can possibly see or know about. Not all the unknown that’s lying beneath the surface is bad. Some of it is working to create a balance that you can’t see, feel, or understand just yet. Just because you can’t see the good work that’s happening behind the scenes, doesn’t mean it’s not there.
The Wound – An unpleasant past experience or event that is ripe for some support and healing.
Bottom Left Card – Make sure when moments of envy rise up in you, that you don’t let it take control. Sometimes when you’re on the outside looking in, that’s the best place you can possibly be. Impressions can be deceiving. You just don’t know what shit they’re going through in there, and it’s probably something you don’t want to be a part of.
Nostalgia – A positive past experience or event to acknowledge, reflect upon, and enjoy.
Bottom Right Card – It might be too hot to go out and hike in the woods, but a little walk through the wetlands might be nice. Make sure you’re getting outside for a bit. The healing nature provides it’s not as strong when you’re not in the forest among the trees, but it will still be there for you in smaller doses in places like the wetlands and parks… which is still better than nothing.
A Warning – Something coming that can be prevented or overcome.
Top Left Card – Make sure you get yourself into the insurance company this month to check on your premiums and balances concerning your insurance, and that they match up with the building insurance for the condo building. Don’t procrastinate. You don’t want to be caught under-insured if something happens, no matter how unlikely that “something” might be.
Empowerment – A future opportunity to work toward.
Top Right Card – Don’t worry, you’re going to get the chance to climb out of the gray into something better. You just might have to go through a dark time first in order to get there. Keep your eye on the prize, and make sure your steps are taking you in the right direction, even when those steps have to be taken at a slower pace than you’re used to.
Message from the Spirit World – Top Row – Fostering extra quiet and calm in your life and practice now will create a strong foundation of balance for when you need to start climbing that ladder.
Message from the Mind’s World – Center Row – Don’t let your negativity and pessimism eat you alive and pull you away from what really matters. That negative narrative in your head has a lot of fertile soil right now while you’re feeling hopeless. Remember that this time of stillness and struggle with hope is only temporary.
Message from the Physical World – Bottom Row – Get your ass outside. You’ll find a quality of grounding there that you’re not going to find while restricted inside doing nothing or looking at others for answers and guidance.
Take Away – Practising patience sucks, but you need to make sure you keep up on the healthy practices that keep you from falling into depression or an anxiety spiral. Do your meditation, get out in nature, keep up on policing your inner self talk for negative influences, and pick up a personal project or two to help distract you from this moment when things look so bleak.
Twisting the Leaf 