Energy so stable
twitches
with disruption
as tattered petals
cling
then fall
and anxiety
shakes loose
all the little pieces
still barely
clinging on
leaving me bare
barren
and raw
exposed
and vulnerable
I want to lie
beneath new fronds
hanging heavy
From low branches
and look up
through the green
to the blue
far above
as I breathe in
scents
of rich earth
and lush green
while birdsong
serenades me to sleep
Grasses wave sweetly
in a breeze so soft
it licks sweat off skin
and sends
strands of hair
dancing
and all I want
all I need
is to slip feet
from within
the confinement
of shoes
and stretch out
in the grass
to watch clouds
floating by
I want to turn
my head away
and pretend
that all is well
but danger
keeps me alert
and wary
no matter
how much
I want to believe
everything
will be okay
in the end
Scattered bits
of this and that
functional
and not
strewn across
table top
and pushed off
to the side
like my emotions
in cacophonous
roar
that I ignore
but its still there
sharp edges
and all
Brand new pennies
can’t shine
quite as bright
as I do
under your gaze
that feeds
my needs
like sunshine
upon the petals
of a flower
and eagerly
I stretch toward you
for more