The Good Fight
I can’t seem to
find my stride
and all I want to do
is hide
to bury myself
where I can’t
be found
and let the world
go on turning ’round
without me there
to witness each day
and struggle and fight
to make
my own way
Author: Twist the Leaf
Dionysian Mysteries Lenormand Reading
The #lucetseptembertarotchallenge Dionysian Mysteries Challenge
Questions for September 25th thru 27th – Death is Life
Transformation – What aspects of yourself or your life have been transformed since starting this challenge?
Garden and Lily – You have become more aware of the value in family and a strong support system of loved ones, and far more tolerant of them gathering around you and offering you their support.
Self-expression – How can you express yourself without limitations?
Stork and Birds – Don’t just immediately assume you’re going to screw up communication with others. To express yourself more freely, you need to work at seeing communication as a boon rather than a hurdle or challenge.
The Teachings – What have you learned from the Dionysian mysteries?
Dog and Fox – During this challenge it’s been brought to your attention that you are your own worst enemy, and need to work more on being a loyal friend to yourself instead of allowing self destructive tendencies to sneak in.
How can you apply these teachings in your daily life?
Sun and Woman – Work on allowing your vulnerable side to shine more brightly and foster it by making more of an effort to lean into positivity and optimism.
DECK USED: LATIMER’S LENORMAND
Gideon’s Challenge
Fucking Up
Not enough time
no organization
can fit more minutes
in a day
and pushing harder
only breaks me down
chipping away
sacrificing
pieces of self
to a greater good
am I even the same man
you once understood?
every day you hurt
just a little more
and the fight
becomes a struggle
to not walk out the door
because what am I doing
but hurting us again
compounding your pain
with mine
over and over again
I’m failing on repeat
never enough
and as tears fall I wonder…
Should I rip the bandaid off?
Should I rip out my heart?
Would he be better off?
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
Finding the Positive for September 22 – 24
September 22
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was focused on the message in today’s cards, which is…
The Lovers – “You’re doing fine; don’t give up.” Just make sure to make good choices at every opportunity that rolls around. Sometimes you get a second chance, but don’t depend on it. Just make the choice that is best for you the first time around and you won’t have to wait for things to roll around again for a do-over.
End of Day Note: In retrospect, part of this card’s message is about being grateful for the opportunity for do-overs when they present themselves and not taking them for granted or ignoring them. I’ve been struggling emotionally the last few days, and been really weepy and out of sorts. I did not listen to this advice, as I tried to avoid and hide from my struggles instead of dealing with them today. At the end of the day, though, I was given the opportunity of a do-over of sorts and was able to sort things out in the end.
DECK USED: ATOMIC AGE TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
September 23
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was focused on the message in today’s cards, which is…
Queen of Wands – “You’re doing well. Keep going.” You may not always see the influence you have upon others, but those that are watching are inspired by your strength, your passion, and how true to yourself you continue to be through even the most difficult of times.
DECK USED: EARTH MAGICK TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
September 24
Today’s meditation was ten minutes long, and was focused on the message in today’s cards, which is…
Queen of Cups – Take comfort in the fact that you are resourceful and a survivor. Allow this knowledge to give you confidence in times of uncertainty, and bolster you when you are feeling vulnerable. You may feel like there are times when you want to close yourself off and retreat from the world, but during those times is when a bit of extra support can help you. Stay engaged, even if only in small ways, so that others can help keep you afloat.
DECK USED: ÄLVDANSEN TAROT AND THERA-PETS EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ANIMAL CARDS
Gideon’s Challenge
The Hole
Why do some
feel the urge
to break things
that don’t
belong to them
as if it’s a game
or a joke
to cost others
time and money
or put others
in danger
with their actions
Why does it have
to be so hard
to have nice things?
Photo © ZenStatePhotography
❤️ Self Care Saturday (On a Sunday)
These Saturday readings are (not usually) bearing in on any one thing or event in my life, as the question used is asking for a more general outlook. This is a self care exercise, and is not meant as a predictive reading… although that, too, happens on occasion.
The question is… What do I need to focus for self-care through the week ahead?
Earth – Three of Pentacles – Ask for help. ASK for HELP! ASK FOR FUCKING HELP!!
Air – Two of Pentacles – You need to work on balancing your needs and your responsibilities this week. Things are out of balance and you are feeling the consequences of that. Take time this week to really reflect on what you need in order to put things back into balance and how to start working in that direction.
Water – Magician atop Knight of Wands – Plan and strategize to get the results you want instead of reacting on impulse alone. Use your tools.
Fire – Nine of Swords – Fears and anxieties are going to try and stand in your way and drag you down this week. Being aware allows you to combat this and not react to it blindly.
Waning – Golden Teacher – Don’t get too wrapped up on your inner thoughts and introspection this week. It will only drag you down.
Waxing – Ghost Mushroom atop Indigo Milk Cap – Be honest with others about how you’re feeling and how you are doing this week. Don’t hide your truth behind a mask of “I’m fine”.
Twisting the Leaf 