Today’s meditation was skipped.

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Today’s draw is The Bark card combined with three affirmation “You’re nice to have around, even when you feel like a potato.”

There is an important divide between the internal and external. What your negative inner self-talk says to yourself is not what everyone else is thinking.  No one else is being hard on you for taking a break or relaxing… it’s just you and your own thoughts doing that.

Others like having you around even when you’re not being productive.  Don’t let your own judgements project themselves on others.  They are not judging you… you are.

DECK USED:  HERBANA WITCH ORACLE AND IT’S GOING TO BE OKAY 2024 DAY-TO-DAY CALENDAR BY KATE ALLAN

@mercurytarot #SensualSeptemberTarot Challenge
Prompts for September 1st thru 3rd

What is my relationship with sexuality?

Justice and Anger – You still hold onto a lot of resentment around the results of your testicular cancer journey. Instead of reveling in the joys of what you still can do, there is continued resentment concerning the effects wrought by the cancer and treatment. Once banked, this anger was recently stirred back to the surface by the need for HRT to correct imbalances brought on by the long term effects of these past treatments.

What have I struggled with in the past?

Empress atop Knight of Pentacles, Sacrifice – Being kind to yourself by going slow and letting things go. You have been conditioned to believe that you have to do it all, perfectly and quickly. Your reactions to the imperfections of the present are rooted in the conditioning that echoes from your past.

What can this challenge unlock for me?

Knight of Swords and Perspective – This challenge is offering you an opportunity explore new ways to look at and embrace your changed body. The opportunity to see a different perspective, and move forward from the old one.

Other elements included in this reading:
Dried Red Maple Leaf for Adaptability and Connection
Dried Bay Leaf for Protection From Negativity
Carnelian for Courage and Emotional Balance
Rose Quartz for Connecting with One’s Needs
Selenite for Purification and drawing in Positive Energy

DECK USED: THE ENTROPY TAROT AND THE LIMINAL FOREST ORACLE

I took some time to relax outside while those with me did their own thing that I wasn’t interested in joining in.