OK, so first I’m going to explain what I want to change or… rather, try. And then I’ll do today’s post at the end.

I wasn’t really connecting very well with the affirmations that I was getting from the app that I was using. So I decided to try using my tarot cards instead.

All cards in a deck have general meanings, but can be interpreted in many different ways. So what I want to do is is use the cards to find the positive meaning to my day. One card, one positive interpretation.

Since each card in a deck can have multiple interpretations, even if I get the same card more than once, the interpretation may be different for each time.

I think if I do this I may connect more to the meditation and the affirmations, and then on the days when I just don’t feel up to it and want to “cheat” and do the short path (or want to save time), I can use the app generated affirmations as fill-ins for those days.

Today’s card is the Four of Cups. Cups is the suit of emotions and creativity, and the four represents a theme of ease, shelter, and stability.

When I look at this card I see the water and her floating within it, and today it puts me at ease like when I drown for you and I’m floating in that space.

I think this card is reminding me today that I need to relax, and not try so hard in my meditation. Just let it come. Just relax into it and stop judging myself so hard for every little stray thought that wanders in during the meditation.

I have been dealing with a bit of anxiety so far in my morning. Because of this, I also feel that the card’s appearance is telling me that during my day today I should take a moment now and then just to relax and take a breath and put myself at ease.

Today’s meditation was 10 minutes and 28 seconds, and seem to go a bit easier than the last couple of days.