Today’s meditation was subverted for a nap. Apparently I needed the sleep more than I realized, as I was going to be doing a guided meditation and as soon as I settled in place… I dozed right off to sleep. I will try to meditate again before bed.
Today’s draw is the Nine of Swords, which is traditionally a representation of anxiety, insomnia, and struggling with one’s inner voice and worries.
I’ve always loved this card in a wide variety of decks. It’s one that I relate to greatly. What stands out the strongest in the imagery of this card today is the astronomical symbols on the blanket covering the woman in the image. Or rather, it’s the style of artwork that allows for some of those symbols to be so crisp and precise, and others to be blurred or indistinct.
I understand that this was an artistic choice, and one that was probably not intended to convey a message. And yet, to me… it does. It speaks of allowing yourself not to worry so much about the little things. It’s about that phrase “don’t sweat the small stuff” because perhaps these details are so small that many wouldn’t even notice them… and perhaps so unimportant that some wouldn’t pay attention. And yet to the artist? These detail are very important and a conscious choice was made not to make them so minutely detailed that they took up the focus of the image as a whole.
There’s always lots and lots of things to worry about in life, but we need to make sure we don’t get so focused on the small stuff that we forget to look at the big picture and allow ourselves to get a good night’s sleep at night. Let go of some of the small stuff and all those micromanaging inclinations… take a breath and relax.
DECK USED: HEAVEN & EARTH TAROT
LionHart’s Elements Tarot Challenge Prompt
Question: What am I asked to do about elements within myself that don’t support my plans?
Reading Summary: Go on your merry way (The Fool) after the things that light your fire (Pupil of Lighters), and don’t allow your responsibility to others (Forecaster of Coins) to overwhelmed you (Ten of Lighters).
Take Away: This isn’t about ignoring those elements within myself that hold me back, but rather allowing my enthusiasm to overpower them and weigh that enthusiasm as having far more weight than the responsibilities that try to drag me down. In other words… beware the burnout that can happen when you let those that depend on you become a burden instead of an asset.
DECK USED: MUNDANE MAGICK TAROT
#DiscordTarotolicJan2021 Challenge Prompt
Question: What do I need to focus on for self-care during this new moon?
Reading Summary: Down moods and depression happens (Three of Swords). Use your strengths to rise above (Strength) and remember it’s only temporary (Wheel of Fortune).
Take Away: The whisper of my negative inner narrative has been flirting at the edges of my subconscious for about a week now. The cards are a warning of the whispers that are trying to slip in and mess with my head. They are a reminder than I am strong and I have tools at my disposal to help curb the coming depression into something more manageable. They are also a reminder that these struggles are not permanent. They are temporary, and they will pass.
Depression often feels like it will never end, that you will never feel better and that this is feeling of depression is your existence for always. Keeping in mind that it is temporary is an important part of making it through these times and to the other side.
Twisting the Leaf 
A reminder to “not sweat the small stuff” is a good one for you, especially as you are always so immersed in every tiny detail. It’s one of the things I love about you, but it gives you more things to pick at and worry over.
And I certainly hope that I never become a burden to you, beautiful boy. Though the message makes very clear sense…it can happens when you get overwhelmed especially that the things you are responsible for can be SO heavy.
You’ve got this though.
And I’m here to help anytime that darkness tries to creep in, man. All you have to do is reach for me
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