Yesterday was the new moon, and like all new moons and full moons, I did a spread aligned to the moon’s current themes as a part of my recognition of the moon’s cycle and influences upon us. Today’s spread is brought to you by Ethony‘s Tarot By the Moon series.
1. What is my sensual side craving?
Queen of Swords – Control without harshness. Guidance without sharp edges. Just pretty much exactly what I’m been getting from Gideon. This is not surprising, because Gideon and I are often in sync as to the “flavor” of intimacy we’re delving into.
2. Where can I be more romantic?
Ten of Swords atop Eight of Cups – Yield instead of running away. Don’t avoid the submission you crave. Enjoy it for as long as you can, because soon the holiday rush will not be allowing for any dropping at all… which means no drowning/subspace will be possible either.
3. What needs rekindling?
Ace of Swords – Our communication. Okay so this is just something I’ve noticed lately, but a big part (not in its entirety of course as there’s also a good deal of mental health stuff and teaching going on here, as well as the fact I’ve turned to using it as a digital tarot journal)…. right. Digression.
Anyway, a big part of the reason for the existence of my blog is to allow Gideon to look into what’s going on with me. What’s up with my thoughts and worries, my concerns and my feelings. To give him the ability to see what’s going on. And the thing is, it does that. But it feels like… I dunno. I feel like there’s just a quick skim and then a quick “I love you” or other brief response to like one tiny thing that catches the eye.
So it kind of makes me wonder…. is he reading the whole thing? Or is he just reading a bit of it? Is he really reading? I guess I kind of feel that way about the Gid’s Challenge posts sometimes too. They are just for him, but sometimes it feels like… there’s barely any response to them at all.
Maybe it’s not our communication that needs rethinking at all, but rather my clarity concerning why I’m writing in this blog in the first place and the expectations placed upon it and upon him.
4. How can I be more tender with myself?
Four of Swords atop Five of Wands – Meditation over conflict is the message in these cards. I need to start meditating more regularly again, as it will help me in taking control over my inner conflict and allow for a calmer and more centered energy in my day to day. This calm and centered energy is going to be extremely important as the holiday rush takes hold and turns my world upside down.
5. Where can I best direct this new moon’s energy?
Seven of Swords atop Five of Cups Rx – Strategy is going to be important in order to avoid personal setbacks as I move into the end of the second half of this month. Be sure that I have my strategies in place for how to deal with the things I need to get done, and don’t deviate from them.
This is an echo of a reading I did a week or so ago that stated “start as you wish to continue on”. Now the cards speak of that “continuing on” by sticking to the plan.